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Fentanyl Killed My Son at a Sleepover | A Mother's Fight for JusticeTiffany Foster's son Zack was 13 when he died from fentanyl poisoning at a friend's sleepover. He wasn't an addict. It was his first time. Eight days after his birthday, he was gone.Tiffany shares Zack's story -- his childhood, the night of August 28th, four years of legal battles, and the advocacy work she does now. If you're a parent, someone in recovery, or anyone who loves a young person, this one is for you.Fentanyl doesn't discriminate. Two milligrams -- the tip of a pencil -- is lethal. Zack had 44.TIMESTAMPS00:00 -- Introduction to the Journey03:36 -- The Impact of Loss and Grief12:29 -- Understanding Zack's Childhood and Development24:32 -- Navigating Adolescence and Early Experimentation36:00 -- The Tragic Night and Its Consequences38:48 -- Navigating Parental Concerns42:05 -- The Night of the Incident44:28 -- The Shocking News51:50 -- Understanding the Overdose54:24 -- The Aftermath and Legal Proceedings01:01:32 -- The Trials and Sentencing01:19:12 -- Judicial System Insights and Parole Eligibility01:22:28 -- Navigating Grief and the Impact of Trials01:26:05 -- The Verdict: A Moment of Relief01:30:21 -- Joining the Fight Against Addiction01:33:08 -- Early Prevention and Education on Substance Use01:41:43 -- Hidden in Plain View: Raising Awareness01:48:11 -- Knowledge is Power: Engaging Parents in Prevention01:50:15 -- Creating Awareness Through Personal Stories01:52:53 -- The Importance of Authenticity in Communication01:56:05 -- Navigating Grief and Addiction02:01:40 -- The Journey of Recovery and Support02:05:51 -- The Role of Community in Healing02:10:37 -- Continuing the Conversation on AddictionABOUT ZACKBorn August 21, 2008. Outgoing, loving, never met a stranger. He loved horror movies, video games, soccer, and Halloween, and had a personality big enough to fill any room. He was eight days past his 13th birthday when he died. His toxicology came back with 44 milligrams of fentanyl -- a lethal dose is 2 to 5 milligrams, an amount that fits on the tip of a pencil.THE LEGAL OUTCOMEThree adults were charged. Andrew Amalong: convicted, 40 years concurrent. Thomas Noonan -- whose biological daughter had died from fentanyl three weeks before Zack -- convicted, 45 years consecutive with a repeat offender enhancement. Jury deliberations: 90 minutes and 30 minutes respectively. Final sentencing: August 2025.WHAT EVERY PARENT NEEDS TO HEARFentanyl is in marijuana, counterfeit pills, and things no one expects. Two milligrams is lethal.Zack was not an addict. This was his first time. One try can be fatal now.Talk to your kids early -- the fear that the conversation invites experimentation is wrong.Know where your kids sleep. Vet the household, not just whether a parent is home.Fentanyl poisoning does not care about grades, zip codes, or family stability.ADDICTION IS REALTiffany is a board member of Addiction Is Real, a St. Louis nonprofit focused on early substance use prevention and education. Their Hidden in Plain View program is a bedroom display with 70+ warning signs and stash items parents wouldn't recognize. They're building permanent mobile trailer displays -- needed by April 2026. Free parent toolkit at addictionisreal.org.SPONSORSLight Source PsychotherapyMcKelvey Insurance Group | 618-623-0080CONNECTpondoffsanonymous.comPondoff's Anonymous | Chris Pandoff, Zoe Mendenall, Jeff Allen | Illinois Recovery Center | Music: McCall -- "Anti-Hero"

“We Is Stronger Than Me” with Ryan Canaday & Karie McMullenPondoff’s Anonymous Ryan Canaday and Karie McMullen from FREE Recovery Community in Denver join us for a raw, thoughtful conversation about addiction, faith, grief, and the power of community. This episode explores what happens when recovery shifts from isolation to connection. We talk about shame, anger at God, burnout in ministry spaces, losing people to addiction, and the kind of spiritual community that makes room for doubt instead of punishing it. At the center of this episode is one simple but powerful idea: “we” is stronger than “me.”About FREE Recovery Community FREE Recovery Community (Denver, CO) https://www.freerecoverycommunity.com A spiritually grounded recovery community focused on connection, belonging, and breaking shame through honest conversation.Time Stamps 00:00 – Introduction to the journey 03:12 – Transformative moments in recovery 08:55 – Faith, community, and what actually helps people heal 12:54 – Doubt, anger at God, and staying spiritually honest 17:47 – Addiction and family systems 22:48 – Desperation, surrender, and what finally shifts 30:32 – “We” is stronger than “me” 35:03 – The illusion of anonymity and the power of shame 59:53 – How FREE Recovery Community started 01:05:56 – Grief, funerals, and the urgency of the work 01:30:31 – Representation and belonging in spiritual spaces 02:00:56 – Baptism and redemptionConnect with Pondoff’s Anonymous https://www.pondoffsanonymous.comSponsors McKelvey Insurance Group https://www.mckelveyins.com LightSource Psychotherapy (Belleville, IL) https://www.findyourlightsource.com

🔥 Pondoff’s Anonymous – Show Notes 🎙️ Episode Title: Grief, Phish, Fentanyl & Truth 🎧 Guest: Theresa SolstenWho this episode is for:- Those addicted to drugs and/or alcohol - Families grieving someone lost to overdose — or what we’re calling it now: poisoning - Anyone carrying shame in silence - Men who’ve never been told they’re allowed to feel - Anyone who’s ever made a mess of their life - Phish fans and the Phish-curious ---Theresa is back. And this one goes deep.Eight years ago, her sister Michelle died from fentanyl poisoning.Not a moral failure. Not a statistic. A poisoning.We talk about why language matters. Why “overdose” carries stigma. Why “poisoning” tells the truth. Most people who die from fentanyl never intended to die. They thought they were buying something else. They were wrong — and it cost them everything.Theresa shares:- Discovering her sister was using - Taking her to her first meeting - Clean time that ended quietly - The secrecy addicts build out of fear - The isolation of grieving someone society still judges “People choose isolation because they’re trying to feel safe.”That line hits.Addiction isn’t just self-destruction. It’s fear. Shame. Survival wiring that stopped working.We also talk about:- Therapy as preventative maintenance - Why support systems matter before crisis hits - Why men need emotional safe spaces - The “doorknob confession” phenomenon - How to challenge the thoughts that keep you stuck And yes — we talk about Phish.Because grief and joy coexist. You can carry loss and still debate your favorite live jam. You can mourn your sister and still show up to the show.Somewhere between cutting hair and holding space for clients unloading their lives, Theresa feels a pull toward something bigger in the recovery space. Behavioral health was her first love. Grief made it personal.Michelle’s story didn’t end when she died. It lives on every time it’s told.If you’ve ever:- Loved an addict - Been the addict - Lost someone and struggled to say it out loud - Sat in your car before work trying to steady yourself This episode is for you.Full transcript here: :contentReference[oaicite:0]{index=0} Sponsored by McKelvey Insurance (https://www.mckelveyins.com/) and LightSource Psychotherapy (https://findyourlightsource.com/).

Pondoff’s Anonymous is on a one week break, but we didn’t want to leave you hanging…So today we’re sharing an episode of our newer show, *Needed to Hear That*.This one is a do not miss.If you’ve ever connected with what we try to do here, honest conversations, recovery, mental health, and the stuff people usually don’t say out loud, this podcast is absolutely for you.Subscribe to *Needed to Hear That* so you don’t miss the next one.

Who this episode is for:Those addicted to drugs and/or alcohol who still think they’re in controlPeople living double lives and calling it “functional”Anyone carrying childhood trauma they’ve never dealt withFamilies trying to love someone who keeps self-destructingAnyone who’s ever made a mess of their life and told themselves it was ambitionThis episode is not clean.It’s not polished.And it sure as hell isn’t motivational fluff.This is a full, unfiltered autopsy of addiction.Chris Pondoff and Zoe Mendenall sit down with Triple X — addict in recovery, speaker, author, and recovery advocate — and let him tell the whole story. Not the safe version. Not the highlight reel. The real one.From growing up poor with emotional abuse and abandonment…to chasing validation, power, money, and belonging…to cocaine, meth, large-scale dealing, paranoia, prison, relapse, and finally rebuilding a life with structure and purpose.This conversation tears apart the myth of the “functional addict” and exposes how addiction often starts as a solution — until it becomes the cage you can’t escape.Triple X walks through it all:When cocaine felt like confidence.When money felt like control.When the pager never stopped buzzing.When the helicopter light hit the apartment.When fun turned into fear.When meth changed everything.When prison became inevitable.When recovery finally demanded structure, discipline, and boundaries.There’s no glamor here.Just ego, trauma, chaos, consequences — and the long road back.You’ll hear about:Childhood emotional abuse and abandonmentTrauma as the root, not the excuseWhy structure is non-negotiable in recoveryCocaine, meth, and the escalation trapThe business side of addiction and how it growsLiving two lives and being exhausted by bothArrest, plea deals, prison, and consequencesRelapse, shame, and getting back upBuilding a new life through discipline and purposeThis episode doesn’t ask for sympathy.It demands honesty.If you’re listening and thinking, “I’m not that bad,”you should probably keep listening.GUEST:Triple X — addict in recovery, speaker, author, and recovery advocateBOOK:Becoming the Change by Triple XSOCIAL MEDIA:TikTok: @be_the_change_recoveryBUSINESS:Muther MushroomWebsite: https://muthermushroom.com/(Launching in the coming weeks)EPISODE TIMELINE:00:00 Introduction and Sponsorships05:54 Personal Stories and Connections12:03 Childhood Trauma and Its Impact22:03 Radical Inclusion in Recovery28:57 The Illusion of Control: Functional Addiction35:40 The Highs and Lows of Cocaine Use43:15 The Business of Addiction: From Small to Large Scale52:47 The Turning Point: From Fun to Fear58:35 The Introduction to Methamphetamine01:04:32 Family Dynamics and Addiction01:22:30 Turning Point: From Struggle to Success01:30:01 The Exhaustion of Dual Lives01:39:59 The Inevitable Fall: Facing Consequences01:50:00 The Arrest: A Life Unraveled02:01:10 Plea Bargaining and Sentencing02:12:23 Post-Prison Life and Business Ventures02:19:23 Relapse and Recovery Journey02:30:04 The Struggle with Addiction02:35:44 The Turning Point: A Wake-Up Call02:42:18 The Power of Positive Reinforcement02:48:32 Building a New Life: Recovery and BusinessNothing about recovery is pretty.But it’s real.And it’s possible.Sponsored by McKelvey Insurance (https://www.mckelveyins.com/) and LightSource Psychotherapy (https://findyourlightsource.com/).

Who this episode is for:Those addicted to drugs and/or alcohol.Anyone rebuilding after wreckage—physical, emotional, legal.People whose guts are wrecked and spirits even worse.Ex-party people trying to become whole humans.Fitness freaks, trauma healers, and closet sugar junkies.Anyone who's ever made a mess of their life and needed to start over—again.Sam Lander has lived a few lifetimes in one. This episode goes hard into her journey—from synchronized swimmer and college partier to LA chaos and courtrooms to spiritual awakening and gut healing. She’s seen it all and now helps others feel better in their bodies and lives through science-backed, soul-conscious wellness work.Sam opens up about the rollercoaster of addiction, relapse, rehab, and recovery—not once, but over years of painful unraveling and healing. She talks about the pink cloud of early sobriety, how the body holds trauma, and what it really means to rebuild after everything falls apart.And she doesn’t just talk it—she lives it. Today, she runs a full-scale health and wellness practice that dives deep into gut health, hormones, and the mind-body connection. She’ll teach you how to run labs on yourself, heal your insides, and maybe even laugh while shitting in a box. Real talk.This is an episode about survival, reinvention, and finally figuring out what the hell makes you feel alive—and feel good.Work with Sam and get your gut right at:https://seefitpt.comFollow her on Instagram:https://www.instagram.com/seefitlivingTIME STAMPS:00:00 Navigating Distractions and Reactions05:08 Healthy Eating and Lifestyle Changes11:57 Sober Living and Its Challenges17:57 Personal Stories and Life Lessons24:05 The Impact of Substance Use30:12 Reflections on Recovery and Growth36:02 Life in Los Angeles and Career Paths42:01 Facing Consequences and Legal Issues46:28 Navigating Personal Struggles49:30 The Journey of Recovery52:23 Finding Strength in Vulnerability54:39 Life Lessons from Adversity56:42 The Impact of Relationships on Recovery01:00:50 Health and Wellness Insights01:02:19 The Role of Nutrition in Recovery01:06:33 Understanding Mental Health Challenges01:10:32 The Importance of Support Systems01:15:31 Reflections on Growth and ChangeSponsored by🛡️ McKelvey Insurance – https://www.mckelveyins.com🧠 LightSource Psychotherapy – https://findyourlightsource.com

Who this episode is for:- Bar owners who can’t stop drinking their own profits - Anyone who thinks boating and sobriety can’t mix - Those living with the secret shame of family dysfunction - People who think recovery means giving up fun - Old-school St. Louisans with a soft spot for Trainwreck Saloon - Anyone who’s ever made a mess of their lifeIf you’ve ever built a life that looked good on paper but felt like a slow-motion disaster, this one’s for you.Chris and Zoë sit down with St. Louis bar legend George Hansford—founder and owner of the iconic Trainwreck Saloon—and get real about 40+ years in the brutal bar business, alcoholism, grief, family secrets, and finally, finding hope at the end of a bottle. Literally.George opens up about growing up in Brentwood, losing both parents by age 25, and how years of unprocessed pain fueled a decades-long drinking career—until a packed suitcase and one final bender forced him to change. This episode dives deep into how trauma festers into addiction—and how it can be healed through honesty, community, and one hell of a recovery journey that took George from the landing to Key West, where he now runs Courage Charters (http://www.couragecharters.com), a name inspired by the Serenity Prayer and powered by the gift of sobriety.This dude’s not just running boats—he’s giving people hope on the water. And if that doesn’t make you cry or at least book a four-hour sandbar escape, check your pulse.Also in this episode:- Tales from Brentwood ice rink and run-ins with NHL legends - A behind-the-scenes look at the wildest nights in STL bar history - What it’s like to get sober when *you* are the bar owner - Why interventions suck—but sometimes still work - The life-changing power of “suitcase day” (aka when your wife finally packs your shit) - What recovery looks like in Key West (spoiler: it’s not all Jimmy Buffett and sunburns)Find George:Facebook – Trainwreck Saloon: http://www.facebook.com/TrainwreckSaloon Facebook – Courage Charters: http://www.facebook.com/couragecharters 🛥️ Book a charter: http://www.couragecharters.com 🍔 Grab a bison burger: http://www.trainwrecksaloon.comWhat’s inside (yeah, we timestamped the chaos):0:00 – Intro & sponsor shoutout 2:59 – The legacy of Trainwreck Saloon 5:58 – Brentwood roots, bison burgers, and Blues players at the bar 9:00 – Alcoholism in the family and trying to outrun it 11:59 – Running bars, losing control, and pretending everything’s fine 15:00 – Death, denial, and what it really means to heal 18:00 – Getting sober after 30+ years of burying pain 20:48 – From the bar scene to recovery scene: how shit changed 23:56 – Fireball, slot machines, and surviving the modern bar biz 26:58 – What’s next after recovery (hint: it involves a boat) 29:00 – Drinking culture then vs. now 31:40 – Health failing, marriage breaking—rock bottom creeps in 32:35 – Suitcase day: when your wife packs your shit and saves your life 35:01 – What real support in recovery looks like 39:04 – Why relapse happens, and how George finally got honest 41:20 – Building community when you're the former drunk at your own bar 45:17 – Losing a friend, finding purpose, and becoming a fucking captain 51:31 – Courage Charters is born: a new life on the water 56:44 – Sobriety is a gift. Period. 1:00:14 – Key West living: fishing, chillin’, and real peace 1:03:02 – Tourists vs. locals: the truth about “laid back” 1:05:58 – Recovery in paradise: meetings, connection, and keeping it simple 1:08:04 – Prayer, resentment, and doing the hard shit anyway 1:09:54 – Service work, growth, and giving back 1:10:58 – A surprise trip to Cuba 1:18:09 – Grief, love, and the long road to healing 1:19:55 – COVID, restaurants, and everything that changedSponsored by: 🛡️ McKelvey Insurance – http://www.mckelveyins.com 🧠 LightSource Psychotherapy – http://www.findyourlightsource.com

Who this episode is for:- Anyone who’s ever woken up wondering how the hell they survived their 20s- Former party girls turned spiritual gangsters- People in recovery who still laugh at their darkest stories- Anyone with complicated daddy issues- Midwest transplants trying to make peace with the lack of decent tacos- And most importantly: the still-struggling, the not-yet-sober, the ones who think it’s too late—this one’s for youAddiction, Grief, and Grace with Rene HudsonRene Hudson didn’t just dip her toe in the chaos—she cannonballed straight into it. In this raw-as-hell episode, Chris, Zoe, and (MIA) Jeff sit down with Rene, a certified SoCal wild child turned St. Louis recovery badass, to unpack a story that ricochets from beach bonfires and punk shows to addiction, grief, and spiritual rebirth.This isn’t some sanitized, “I found Jesus and now everything’s fine” kind of thing. Rene brings the real: pierced nipples as teenage rebellion, doing shots and hitting rock bottom, crashing on a boat with no working toilet, and falling into a love story that ends in heartbreak and hard lessons.You'll hear about her fast spiral into addiction, her time as the life of the party in OC’s house scene, meeting her late partner Noah (who moved in after one night and never left), and how she went from vodka breakfasts to full-body baptisms at The Gathering.The crew veers off course plenty—talking bridges, airport food etiquette, Sergeant Sausage the male stripper, and Nicholas Cage melting down at Newport bars—but it always comes back to the raw truth of recovery, trauma, and what it means to rebuild a life from scratch.This one’s funny, heartbreaking, weird, and wildly human. Just like Rene.00:00 Shoutout to the sponsors02:59 Bridge drama and Midwest geography lessons06:07 Boomers, Gen Z, and Y2K brain damage08:57 Growing up in SoCal11:58 St. Louis nice vs. California real15:01 Bonfires, beach boys, and busted boat toilets18:04 Nick Cage is a freak and we love that for him18:55 Con Air, In-N-Out, and late-night cravings21:19 Airport food shaming and clean eating confessions24:41 Real ones go to church27:56 First time telling the whole damn story33:37 Turning the wreckage into something valuable39:36 Military childhoods and doing it all yourself42:01 Teenage love, heartbreak, and “marriage?!”45:55 Nipples pierced out of spite48:50 Party girl era unlocked54:59 It starts out fun—until it’s not01:00:02 Running from everything01:02:59 A brain full of chaos01:04:57 Moving to Florida, still running01:06:55 Relationships, broken and breaking01:10:01 Losing Noah01:16:58 Grief, relapse, and trying to survive it01:20:21 Family pain and recovery roadblocks01:24:11 Putting the pieces back together01:26:40 Finally giving recovery a real shot01:27:25 Why extended care isn’t optional01:31:40 Love, support, and the shit that saves us01:33:20 The slippery slope of sobriety01:39:25 Finding your people01:42:11 Helping others = healing yourself01:46:55 It gets better—but not by accidentCheck out the recovery community that helped change Rene’s life:👉 https://gatheringnow.org/recoverySponsored by🛡️ McKelvey Insurance – https://www.mckelveyins.com/💡 LightSource Psychotherapy – https://findyourlightsource.com/

A Mother’s Story with Shelly ViveritoWho this episode is for:- Parents who’ve lost a child and are still standing somehow- Anyone who’s ever loved an addict and didn’t know how to help- Folks who’ve been burned by shady recovery programs- Those struggling with meth, depression, or both- Anyone trying to make meaning from unimaginable grief- And anyone who’s ever made a mess of their life and lived to tell the taleThis one’s not for the faint of heart.Shelly Viverito joins the Pondoff’s Anonymous crew to tell a story no parent should ever have to tell — the rise, fall, and redemption of her son Nick, who battled brutal addiction, got clean, rebuilt his life, and then was ripped away by a random, deadly brain bleed. He beat meth. He beat depression. And he still died at 39.This is a mother’s war story. From locking her door at night during his meth psychosis… to getting a tattoo of his sobriety date… to launching a foundation in his name that now funds sober living for other young men fighting for their lives.Nick Wilson may be gone, but his light — and his pit bull Jax — continue to move mountains through Shelly’s advocacy, fundraising, and raw honesty.Learn more:💥 The Nick Wilson Foundation: https://www.thenickwilsonfoundation.org💥 Learn to Live Recovery: https://learntoliverecovery.com💥 Harris House: https://www.harrishouse.orgTime Stamps:00:00 Introduction to Recovery and Support02:51 Navigating Personal Stories and Backgrounds12:51 The Journey of Addiction and Recovery26:19 Understanding the Impact of Addiction on Families27:22 The Cost of Recovery Programs28:44 The Challenges of Interventions30:34 The Impact of Hope in Recovery32:18 Navigating Relapse and Recovery37:30 Finding Support in Recovery Programs40:10 The Role of Family in Recovery43:55 The Journey to Independence53:28 Tragedy and Loss in Recovery56:35 The Gift of Life: Organ Donation and Its Impact57:57 Navigating Grief: A Mother's Journey01:00:02 Finding Purpose Through Pain: Advocacy and Speaking Out01:02:57 Creating a Legacy: The Nick Wilson Foundation01:07:34 Community and Connection: The Power of Support Groups01:12:57 Healing Through Fun: The Importance of Joy in Grief01:22:33 Creating Community and Support01:25:06 The Power of Shared Experiences01:29:50 Fundraising and Community Events01:31:11 The Importance of Mental Health Awareness01:34:40 Finding Hope in Tragedy01:39:04 Celebrating Life and ConnectionSponsored by:👉 McKelvey Insurance: https://www.mckelveyins.com👉 LightSource Psychotherapy: https://findyourlightsource.com

Welcome to the unfiltered chaos of Pondoff’s Anonymous, where recovery meets real life with no bleep button. This week, it’s a full‑house f*ck‑around session with Chris, Jeff, Zoe, and special guest Kenny “Iggy” Strode — the St. Louis radio legend with a sharp tongue, a broken filter, and a suspiciously high body count.You want deep? We’ve got deep. You want weird? Strap the hell in.Iggy drops stories from Bermuda beaches (where topless tourists get scolded by dudes in linen), explains how a freaky music review got him a nickname that’s lasted 50 years, and claims full credit for the BlueChew catchphrase that celebrities now scream into the void. Zoe brings warmth, humor, and grounded honesty — talking about music, recovery, and showing up with heart. Chris puts it best: it just means more having a strong female voice in the mix. Jeff and Chris unveil the upcoming Pondoff Anonymous Media Network and the new app that’ll put recovery, resources, and rogue banter in your damn pocket.Also covered:– How to apologize for Facebook ghosting live on‑air– Why “I’d like that” is the worst line in any movie ever– The theology of poop mirrors and peanut butter mishaps– When grief, comedy, Jesus, and erectile dysfunction collide– Singing for the Spirit, shaving your balls, and showing up anyway📲 New app drops January🎙️ Pondoff Anonymous Network launching with three weekly shows💀 Recovery, mental health, addiction, grief, nudity, and boner jokes — all wrapped up in love and laughter00:00 Introduction to Recovery and Community Support05:52 The Importance of Mental Health and Therapy12:06 Building a Podcast Network and Future Plans14:52 The Role of Humor and Lightheartedness in Recovery17:59 Reflections on Pets and Personal Growth24:19 Cultural Norms and Nudity25:30 Identity and Nicknames26:42 High School Dynamics and Music29:28 Relationships and Social Connections31:10 Podcasting and Community Engagement35:23 Mental Health and Recovery Advocacy39:09 Personal Stories and Impact42:56 Humor and Lighthearted Banter47:18 Navigating Personal Challenges49:10 Pet Peeves in Movies and TV Shows50:57 The Art of Performance and Stage Presence54:52 The Power of Authenticity in Sharing Stories01:01:12 The Impact of Addiction and Recovery01:07:01 The Importance of Community Support01:15:46 Podcasting Insights and Personal Reflections01:18:40 Navigating Mental Health and Social Work01:21:31 Community Building and Support Systems01:26:09 Creative Ventures and Future Aspirations01:32:33 Personal Stories and Connections01:38:26 Exploring Love and Connection01:39:05 Family Bonds and Shared Experiences01:41:06 Navigating Life’s Challenges01:42:01 Pet Peeves and Movie Critiques01:43:34 The Role of Nudity in Film01:45:32 Understanding the Adult Industry01:49:41 The Complexity of Relationships01:50:27 Empathy and Understanding in Recovery01:52:00 The Importance of Female Voices01:54:19 Grief and Loss in the Industry01:56:34 The Impact of Online Interactions01:58:44 Finding Peace Amidst Chaos☕ Check out the coffee that fuels the chaos:Light in the Dark – A bold Colombian roast born in recovery, made with Long Story Coffee.Available now at: https://www.pondoffsanonymous.comSupport Kenny “Iggy” Strode’s Patreon:👉 https://www.patreon.com/IggyUncutSponsored by:McKelvey Insurance – https://www.mckelveyins.com/LightSource Psychotherapy – https://findyourlightsource.com/

Who this episode is for:- Anyone who’s ever been fired and thought maybe I am the problem- People in recovery who still have a bottle whispering their name- Anyone working a toxic job and trying to smile through it- Foster parents or those considering the leap- LGBTQ+ folks living under labels that don’t fit- News junkies who wanna know what really goes down off-camera- And of course, anyone who’s made a flaming, glorious mess of their lifeSeason 2, Episode 43 – Anthony Slaughter on God, Guts, and Getting the Hell Back UpSponsored by:🛡️ McKelvey Insurance🧠 LightSource PsychotherapyAnthony Slaughter — former TV weatherman, credentialed meteorologist, single dad, and walking miracle — pulls no punches in this unforgettable episode.He talks about growing up in a Black-Portuguese family, losing his mom at age 7, and stepping up to adopt his twin nephews — babies born into chaos and addiction. And just when it seems the story can’t get heavier, it does.This is the first time (that we know of, in long form anyway) Anthony publicly opens up — really opens up — about getting fired from KSDK.One week he’s in a yearly review. The next? Walked out the door. Suddenly, managers had “concerns.” He was too goofy. Too confident. Too...himself.“It turned from me wanting to please the community… to just wanting to please one person — the boss.”He talks about the confusion, burnout, and identity crisis that came with getting dumped by a job he gave everything to. He saw coworkers vanish, leadership flail, and mediocrity rewarded.Here’s where it gets real: Anthony was already in recovery. Already had whiskey in the rearview. That firing? Could’ve broken him. Almost did.“You leave work so annoyed the first thing you wanna do is drink.”But this time… he didn’t.He journaled. He lifted. He moved.And out of the wreckage came peace.Instead of spiraling, he cracked open.Instead of drinking, he started dreaming again.Instead of chasing ratings, he started living.Now he’s building a YouTube channel. Selling weather shirts. Playing pickleball. And most importantly — telling the truth, finally, on his own terms.Time Stamps00:00 Introduction to Recovery and Coffee08:01 The Emotional Connection to Weather16:05 Life Changes and Family Dynamics28:01 Navigating Foster Care Challenges32:55 The Importance of Community Support35:29 Understanding Developmental Delays36:54 Therapy in Parenting39:00 Personal Struggles with Addiction42:04 Reflections on Life Choices44:15 Impact of Trauma on Children49:40 Lessons from Privilege51:36 Rebellion in Parenting55:19 Health Scares and Wake-Up Calls59:30 The Non-Linear Path of Recovery01:00:46 The Cost of Authenticity01:02:51 Anthony spills the tea on KSDK01:05:46 Challenges of News Ratings01:08:54 Navigating Career Changes01:12:08 Life Beyond News01:14:55 Struggles of Media Management01:18:02 Personal Growth and New Beginnings01:24:21 Theater and Connection01:27:07 Instincts and Self-Discovery01:29:09 New Ventures and Creativity01:31:04 Importance of Free Headspace01:32:38 Alcohol and Personal Choices01:40:13 Substances and Coping01:43:00 Identity and Acceptance01:49:06 Self-Acceptance01:51:30 Breaking Religious Constraints01:54:10 Biblical Misinterpretations01:57:10 Journey to Self-Acceptance02:04:02 Love and Community02:10:03 Supporting Foster Youth02:16:07 Culinary Passions02:21:58 Power of TransformationFollow Anthony Slaughter📸 Instagram: @theweatherguru📘 Facebook: facebook.com/WthrmnSlaughter▶️ YouTube: youtube.com/@wthrmnslaughter👕 Merch: skywx.myshopify.comSupport the Aralean Brown Older Youth Readiness Fund:foster-adopt.org/older-youth-readiness-fundTry PONDOFF’S COFFEE:☕ “Light in the Dark” – Colombian roast with Long Story CoffeeBuy it at: pondoffsanonymous.com

Sponsored by McKelvey Insurance and LightSource Psychotherapy.Who this episode is for: Anyone who’s ever tried to outrun their demons with a six-pack and a Stratocaster. Those who believe pain is the price of creativity. Anyone who's fallen down the rabbit hole of booze, bar tabs, and backstage passes. Recovering musicians, sober-curious punks, and people who've hit rock bottom with a guitar in hand. People who don’t believe in rock bottom—until they slam into it face first. And especially: anyone who thinks addiction is somebody else’s problem.Matt Pryor, frontman of The Get Up Kids, joins the Pondoff’s Anonymous crew and brings the fucking heat. From teenage Alateen meetings to tour bus whiskey benders, Pryor lays it all out—no filter, no fluff. This is the raw-ass story of a man who went from punk rock poster boy to broken, bedbound, and ready to die… before clawing his way out and writing a brutally honest record about the whole damn mess.Chris, Jeff, and Zoe dig deep with Pryor into the romanticized chaos of the music industry, the quiet hell of performing for thousands while dead inside, and what it takes to rebuild your soul from the inside out. We get real about diabetes, depression, spiritual recovery, and the hot mess that is AA vs. Dharma vs. “whatever keeps you alive and growing.”Also on deck: The shittiest non-alcoholic beers of the '90s Whether deep dish pizza is a valid hangover cure (spoiler: no) Detoxing with a diabetic’s nightmare hospital staff Satanic recovery groups and why they might be your jam Wrestling, wrestling, and more goddamn wrestling Touring Europe sober (and terrified) And the raw fucking truth about hitting a stage clean for the first time in decadesPryor’s not selling redemption stories or tidy endings. He’s here to tell the truth: recovery is weird, hard, slow—and fucking worth it.Episode Time Stamps: 00:00 Introduction to Recovery and Coffee 02:59 The Journey of Matt Pryor: From Music to Recovery 06:08 The Impact of Addiction on Lives and Music 08:46 Navigating the Music Scene: Drinking and Creativity 11:56 Romanticizing Addiction in the Music Industry 14:54 Finding Creativity Beyond Substance Use 18:00 The Shift in Music Culture: Sober-Friendly Spaces 20:58 Personal Reflections on Recovery and Creativity 23:55 Defining Success in the Music Industry 31:07 The Evolution of Passion in Music 32:46 Navigating Early Success and Its Pitfalls 34:41 Hitting Rock Bottom: A Journey Through Darkness 36:10 The Road to Recovery: Detox and Sobriety 39:23 Relearning Life: Sober Living in a Party Environment 41:28 The Impact of Alcohol on Health and Relationships 44:31 Diabetes and Alcohol: A Dangerous Combination 48:31 Challenges in Medical Detox and Recovery 52:45 The Stigma of Addiction and Recovery 56:35 Finding Alternative Paths in Recovery 01:01:10 The Importance of Community in Recovery 01:06:00 Navigating Spirituality and Recovery 01:11:25 Understanding Human Nature and Addiction 01:13:15 The Creative Process: Writing and Recovery 01:20:00 Artistic Expression and Personal InterpretationLinks & Resources: Matt Pryor on Instagram: @mattpryorsongs Listen to Matt’s brutally honest record “The Dishonesty”: mattpryorsongs.substack.com Catch Matt live – Tour dates & tickets at: mattpryorandthesaltonsea.comSupport the Show:Grab Light in the Dark Coffee: A bold, Colombian roast made by the show with Long Story Coffee.Buy it at: pondoffsanonymous.comSponsored by McKelvey Insurance and LightSource Psychotherapy.

It’s the F*ck Around Show — and this one is the full buffet: trauma, texting, family dysfunction, emo heart emojis, and coffee that’ll punch you in the soul.Chris, Jeff, and Zoë go deep and unhinged in this raw ride through recovery, relationships, and roasting the sh*t out of each other (and themselves). From whether ghosts can be good friends to why Zoë refuses to text anyone back unless you’re sending emojis with flair, this episode hits all the avoidant-attached neurotic highs and lows.We get into how ACA (Adult Children of Alcoholics) meetings saved people’s a**es, why support groups are for more than addicts, and what it means to be haunted by unhealed sh*t. Pondoff opens up about surviving real violence (yes, whiskey bottles and all), and Zoë shares the exact story of her conception — yes, weed, cheesecake, and genitals are involved.There’s also:Emotional support punch cardsCoffee that funds the pod (https://www.pondoffsanonymous.com)A musical interlude about inclusive worship songs that’ll have you crying in your recovery mugA debate about Siri voices and Amish communication standardsA collective obsession with The SopranosA quick pitch for executive assistants who also respond to texts (aka unicorns)This ep also features one of the wildest detours into strip clubs, pit bulls, bouncers, and the logistics of Zoe and Kathy house-sitting without burning down Chris’s life.Also, Pondoff says something outrageous in a sermon. So there’s that.Time stamps (DO NOT MISS):00:00 Introduction to Recovery and Coffee02:03 Navigating Communication in Friendships05:56 Understanding Attachment Styles11:59 Exploring Personal Relationships and Boundaries17:59 Humorous Anecdotes and Family Dynamics23:56 Navigating Family Dynamics and Healing26:20 The Importance of Support Groups28:00 Avoidance and Communication Challenges29:49 The Necessity of Change in Recovery32:00 Facing the Fear of Change33:58 Reflections on Personal Experiences35:59 The Role of Music in Healing39:00 Introducing New Show Concepts41:55 Promoting Community and Connection45:02 Coffee and Community Engagement48:04 Struggles with Weight and Substance Use51:30 Reflections on The Sopranos56:03 Personal Dynamics and Relationships01:01:05 Plans for Future Shows and Guests01:10:37 Building a Supportive Community01:13:46 The Power of Shared Stories01:17:33 Creating a Safe Space for Healing01:19:55 Redefining Church and Community01:24:56 The Importance of Connection and Outreach01:29:50 Transformative Stories of Recovery01:34:58 Encouragement and Affirmation in Community01:39:01 Looking Ahead: Future InitiativesFind the good sh*t:Light in the Dark roast – a bold Colombian collab with Long Story Coffee. Available now at pondoffsanonymous.comSong: Plowshare Prayer by Spencer LaJoyelongstorycoffee.com – use code PONDOFF15 for 15% off anything except the show’s roastSponsored by:McKelvey InsuranceLightSource Psychotherapy

Get our coffee, Light in the Dark, now at http://pondoffsanonymous.com Sponsored by McKelvey Insurance and LightSource PsychotherapyWho this episode is for: People who drink to take the edge off but can’t figure out why it’s not working Moms barely holding it together while doing all the things Anyone juggling success and secret self-destruction Former athletes still chasing performance highs Folks in the gray zone between “I’m fine” and “I’m falling apart” And the ones who think it’s “just wine”This week, Chris, Jeff, and Zoe sit down with Allison Barber, a former collegiate gymnast turned alcohol freedom coach. Her story isn’t about a dramatic crash. It’s a slow slide—wine every night, quiet disconnection, pretending things are fine when they’re anything but.She got out not through rehab or AA, but by finding This Naked Mind and realizing she didn’t need to hit bottom to change. No rock bottom. No labels. Just truth and science and a better way forward.Now she helps others who feel stuck in the same loop—drinking more than they want to, quietly wondering if it’s a problem, and not sure where to turn. If you're sick of the guilt spiral and tired of trying to out-discipline your drinking, Allison’s approach will hit home.She’s real, honest, and living proof that freedom doesn’t require everything falling apart. You can change your story before it wrecks you.Find her at https://theinsideoutfreedom.com or email allisonbarbercoach@gmail.comTimestamps: 00:00 – Sponsors 03:45 – Meet Allison Barber: gymnast, mom, nightly wine drinker 08:00 – Early perfectionism and pressure 13:15 – Bartles & James and beginning to self-medicate 22:00 – Marriage disconnect and drinking in secret 26:15 – The high-functioning lie 38:10 – Neck injury and the wake-up call 42:00 – Five bottles of wine in Florida 44:30 – Discovering This Naked Mind 53:30 – Becoming a certified coach 58:00 – Coaching without shame 1:06:00 – Parenting and healing 1:14:00 – Her last drink: June 21, 2020 1:18:32 – Confidence returns and major milestones 1:19:28 – theinsideoutfreedom.com and how to reach her 1:20:07 – Athletes and performance identity 1:21:10 – You don’t need to hit rock bottom 1:22:43 – The “sober curious” movement 1:25:43 – Ruth Langmore wisdom and humility 1:26:26 – Wine moms, COVID drinking, and purple teeth 1:29:00 – Heading to Hawaii without packing five bottles 1:31:36 – Recovery church and pizza 1:33:14 – Gratitude and staying connectedWork with Allison BarberVisit https://theinsideoutfreedom.com or email allisonbarbercoach@gmail.com to schedule a free discovery call. You don’t need to hit bottom. You just need to want something better.Sponsored by McKelvey Insurance LightSource Psychotherapy

Sponsored by:🛡️ McKelvey Insurance – https://www.mckelveyins.com🧠 LightSource Psychotherapy – https://findyourlightsource.comS2 E39 – Losing Everything to Find Recovery with Jake DunavantJake Dunavant shows up looking like a suburban dad with a Costco card. But don’t get it twisted. This man has walked through hell with a needle in his arm, kids in the next room, and nothing but chaos between him and redemption. A former union carpenter turned Senior Outreach Coordinator at Illinois Recovery Center, Jake is here to spill all the gut-punching, jaw-dropping, totally human details of his road from varsity wrestling to full-blown heroin addiction to reclaiming his family and purpose.In this wild ride of an episode, the crew dives deep into Jake’s early intro to weed and booze, the rapid-fire escalation to cocaine and opioids, and the business-decision logic of IV heroin use. You’ll hear about the overdoses (plural), the Narcan resurrections, and the terrifying moment DFS swooped in and took his babies while he and his wife were literally overdosing in the same house. And yeah, he came this close to letting it all go to shit.But against all odds, Jake and his wife Tabitha clawed their way back. Custody. Careers. Clean time. Faith. Family. All of it. He opens up about overcompensating as a parent, watching his son fumble a chance to compliment a girl (it’s hilarious), and how guilt-fueled parenting almost screwed them up all over again.You’ll also get the full backstory on how he “courted” his now-wife with a dresser full of pink oxys. Take as many as you want, babe. And the deeply emotional, unshakeable power of hearing your newborn cry, only to stop the second he hears your voice. Yeah, even while you’re high as hell.This one’s messy. It’s raw. It’s fucking real. If you’ve ever been there, or know someone who has, this episode will hit home in the deepest, ugliest, and most healing way.Time Stamps (Do Not Skip These):00:00 Introduction to the Podcast and Sponsors06:00 Introducing Jake Dunavant: A Personal Story14:03 The Role of Alcohol and Drugs in Youth19:56 The Escalation of Substance Use21:03 The Dangers of Modern Substance Use23:03 Parenting Through Addiction29:15 Overcoming Addiction and Regaining Custody32:11 The Narcan Experience36:16 The Role of Family and Faith in Recovery39:31 Empathy and Understanding in Addiction42:38 The Complexity of Love and Addiction45:11 The Journey from Pills to Heroin50:00 Reflections on Early Relationships and Substance Use50:40 The Power of Connection and Humor53:01 Navigating Relationships and Substance Use55:02 The Impact of Parenthood on Addiction59:00 The Struggles of Addiction and Family Dynamics01:02:02 Detox and the Journey to Recovery01:06:55 Life After Jail: A New Beginning01:13:36 The Cycle of Addiction and Recovery01:17:39 Finding Support and Connection01:18:16 The Struggles of Addiction01:19:32 Family Dynamics and Foster Care01:20:31 Resentment and Recovery01:21:10 Hitting Rock Bottom01:25:11 The Role of Compassionate Intervention01:27:15 Peer Support and Recovery01:29:13 The Impact of Medication in Recovery01:33:19 Building a New Life After Addiction01:40:12 The Journey to Recovery Begins01:43:07 Navigating Sober Living Challenges01:46:25 Building Accountability and Humility01:49:05 Rebuilding Relationships and Family Dynamics01:51:57 Full Circle: From Recovery to Helping Others02:00:04 Lived Experience: A Valuable Perspective02:10:06 Gratitude and Hope in RecoveryGuest: Jake Dunavant – Senior Outreach Coordinator at Illinois Recovery Center, former heroin addict, father, husband, and all-around beast of recovery.Check out Illinois Recovery Center: https://www.illinoisrecoverycenter.com

Who this episode is for:Those navigating trauma like a damn obstacle course.Anyone who’s ever been raised by chaos and still learned how to laugh.People who’ve walked out of therapy like it was a bad Tinder date.Survivors of fucked-up families who still believe in healing.Anyone tired of tiptoeing around their own pain.Those who love a little irreverence with their recovery.And yes—even people who aren’t in recovery but have ever felt like a complete mess trying to hold their shit together.S2 E38 – Introducing Zoë MendenallThis episode is the official introduction to our new co-host—and certified chaos enthusiast—Zoë Mendenall, MSW, trauma warrior, and walking tornado of wit, wounds, and wisdom.Chris and Jeff crack the mic with Zoë, who used to intern for Chris’ wife Ashley, and somehow found her way from clinical work to co-hosting this circus. She’s no stranger to the team—but now she’s on the mic, and she’s unfiltered.Zoë’s story? It’s brutal, beautiful, and deeply human. From growing up in a cyclone of addiction, loss, mental illness, and family trauma—to healing her throat chakra and ditching the vape—Zoë holds nothing back. She’s a proud “Jesus freak,” a therapy regular, a former Twitter menace (“If you’re not trying to mate like an anglerfish, I’m not interested”), and a woman who’s seen the inside of hell and still sings in church. For real.You’ll laugh. You’ll wince. You might cry. But mostly, you’ll feel like you just sat down with a friend who finally said all the shit you’ve been thinking. This is why Zoë belongs here—with us. With you. With this whole messed-up, miraculous community.Oh, and she ghosted Jeff’s Facebook request. So there’s that.CHAPTERS:00:00 Introduction to Pondoff's Anonymous and Sponsors02:57 The Impact of Chewing Sounds and Misophonia06:00 Zoe's Introduction and Her Unique Perspective08:58 Zoe's Life Experiences and Challenges12:07 Healing and Recovery: The Role of Vaping and Chakras14:59 Zoe's Tour of Illinois Recovery Center18:02 Transformational Journeys in Recovery20:59 Navigating Online Interactions and Safety Concerns21:43 The Impact of Social Media on Mental Health24:41 Navigating Personal Relationships and Boundaries27:11 Childhood Experiences and Family Dynamics35:15 Understanding Trauma and Its Long-Term Effects43:28 Friendship and Community Support44:53 Launching a New Church Initiative46:59 Mental Health Conversations49:41 Navigating Family Dynamics51:58 Loss and Grief58:50 Life Changes and Adaptation01:05:44 Navigating Digital Privacy and Parenting Challenges01:08:13 The Impact of Show Choir on Personal Growth01:09:52 Family Dynamics and Emotional Turmoil01:12:37 The Journey to Adoption and Finding a New Family01:15:30 Pursuing Education and Career Aspirations01:18:00 The Role of Community in Healing and Support01:20:38 The Importance of Empathy and Connection in RecoverySponsored by:🛡️ McKelvey Insurance🧠 LightSource Psychotherapy

Episode 37 – The Sisters Who Survived: From Pills to PurposeWho this episode is for:Anyone who’s ever been told to “get your shit together.”Those battling addiction or loving someone who is.The ones who grew up too fast, numbed out too young, or ran too far.And the rest of you who think you’ve heard every addiction story out there—this one will make you shut up and listen.Chapters00:00 Introduction to the Podcast and Guests03:07 The Journey of Addiction: Early Experiences06:00 The Impact of Environment on Substance Use09:04 Transitioning from Pills to Heroin12:06 Family Dynamics and Addiction15:09 The Role of Trauma in Addiction18:00 The Cycle of Addiction and Recovery20:58 The Struggles of Active Addiction24:03 The Reality of Treatment and Relapse26:59 The Influence of Relationships on Addiction29:56 Finding Hope and Recovery32:48 Reflections on the Journey35:59 Conclusion and Final Thoughts45:54 Transformative Journeys: Overcoming Addiction54:46 The Struggles of Withdrawal and Recovery01:06:20 Finding Balance: Life After Addiction01:18:27 The Power of Sharing Stories in RecoveryShow NotesChris, Jeff, and the newest chaos conductor Zoe open up Episode 37 with an East Coast energy injection from sisters Valeen and Tiffany — survivors, former addicts, and walking proof that even the wildest flames can cool into something fierce and steady.You might’ve seen them on Soft White Underbelly, but here they go deeper — Jersey grit, Texas dust, and all the dark in-between.From faking prescriptions in high school and running oxy scams with a 50-year-old printer lady to shooting meth in Texas kitchens and hiding dope from dogs (that literally snitched), these two don’t sugarcoat shit.They talk about how pills turned to heroin, how state-funded rehabs can feel like the Wild West, and how sisterhood can be both your downfall and your lifeline.They’ve buried friends, raised kids, lost everything, and somehow still found a way to laugh — the kind of laugh that only comes after years of crying in bathrooms.Tiffany admits she “flashed her tits and fought her sister” before getting sober; Valeen calls rehab her second home.They’re brutally honest about the switch from chaos to clarity — meth-fueled paranoia, vertigo that still haunts, and the terrifying truth that fentanyl has made ‘experimenting’ a death wish.By the time they reach the part about Kensington, Philly — the zombie apocalypse of America’s drug scene — you’ll understand why these women don’t do half measures anymore.Their new high is peace, gratitude, and laughing at their own scars.And yeah, they still drop F-bombs, still talk about Benadryl benders, still love hard. But now it’s with clear eyes.This episode is a raw love letter to resilience — two sisters who clawed their way out of hell and decided to tell the world what it really looks like when you stop running and start healing.Watch their original story on Soft White Underbelly to see how far they’ve come.Sponsored by:McKelvey Insurance – quick solutions to real-life insurance problems anywhere in Illinois or Missouri.Visit www.mckelveyins.comLightSource Psychotherapy – therapy that helps you find your light when everything else feels dark.Visit www.findyourlightsource.com

Pondoff's Anonymous - Episode 36 Show Notes Who this episode is for: Those in recovery, barely holding on, or trying to claw their way in People sober-curious but still actively using Families who’ve lost someone to addiction—or feel like they’re about to Anyone who’s been burned by a church and swore it off for good Spiritual seekers looking for something real, raw, and redemptive And anyone who’s ever thought, “There’s gotta be more to life than this shit” Episode 36 — Matt Miofsky: Building Church for the Fucked-Up and Searching This one’s not your average episode—it’s a blueprint for holy disruption. Pastor Matt Miofsky of The Gathering joins Pondoff and the crew to unpack a radical new venture: Gathering Underground, a Wednesday-night worship space and recovery community aimed straight at the hearts of people deep in addiction, doubt, grief, and the aftermath of church trauma.Matt and Chris don’t sugarcoat it. They talk real—about transformation, identity, spiritual skepticism, and the raw, bleeding edge where recovery meets faith. From humble beginnings with no carpet and a bunch of broken people, The Gathering is launching a new site at 2360 McCausland in St. Louis, smack next to the Walgreens where more than a few folks once did heroin in the parking lot. Now? It’s sacred ground. What you’ll hear: The difference between churches built on fear vs. ones grounded in love Why recovery is more than just sobriety—it’s purpose, calling, and rebirth How to claim an identity (like “pastor” or “addict”) when your soul isn’t ready Stories of relapse, reckoning, baptisms in rehab, and the holy power of a smoke break The gritty launch of a Jesus-centered recovery night for addicts, alcoholics, loved ones, codependents, trauma survivors, and anyone who can’t quite keep their shit together Gathering Underground isn’t trying to be another Sunday morning—this is midweek medicine for the walking wounded. Whether you’re detoxing, dragging kids with you, or just there for the coffee and conversation, this community is for you. No guilt. No shame. Just people who get it. Location: Wednesdays @ 6 PM The Gathering McCausland – 2360 McCausland Ave, St. Louis, MO Accessible by two major bus stops Free pizza, smoke breaks encouraged Narcan on site Childcare provided Music won’t be your grandma’s hymns Follow The Gathering on Instagram: @gatheringnowLearn more or get involved: https://gatheringnow.org CHAPTERS: 00:00 Introduction to Pondoff's Anonymous and Sponsors 02:55 Growth and Expansion of the Church 06:47 The Role of Community in Recovery 11:20 Transformation Through Recovery 17:53 Creating an Inclusive Space for Recovery 22:35 The Gathering Underground Recovery Community 25:49 Addressing Past Church Experiences 30:02 The Importance of Love Over Fear in Faith 36:55 The Journey from Fear to Love 39:17 Building a Community for Recovery 44:57 Transformation and Community Engagement 51:09 Creating Safe Spaces for Loved Ones 54:41 Healing for Families Affected by Addiction 01:00:04 Curating an Inclusive Recovery Environment 01:06:22 Understanding and Identity in Recovery 01:11:00 The Role of Personal Stories in Recovery Sponsored by: McKelvey Insurance – Real humans solving real-life insurance bullshit. Personal or commercial, they’ve got you covered without the runaround. Visit https://www.mckelveyins.com or call/text 618-623-0080.LightSource Psychotherapy – Individual, group, and family therapy that doesn’t suck. Based in Belleville, IL and run by people who actually get it. Visit https://findyourlightsource.com to learn more.

Pondoff’s Anonymous — S2 E35 — Scott Spiezio S2 E35 — “Scott Spiezio: World Series Rings, Red Soul Patch, and Recovery” Who this episode is for: Those battling addiction or depression. Anyone who’s been crushed by success, fame, or the weight of their own expectations. The baseball die-hards who remember that red soul patch and the 2006 World Series run. Parents and families trying to understand addiction in someone they love. Anyone who’s ever thought they were “too far gone.” And honestly — anyone who’s ever made a mess of their life and had to start over. Description Former MLB star and two-time World Series champion Scott Spiezio sits down with Chris Pondoff and Jeff Allen for one of the rawest conversations yet. From standing on top of the baseball world with the Angels and Cardinals to hiding vodka in the clubhouse and doing lines before games, Spiezio opens up about addiction, ego, family, and finding redemption. This one’s a ride — full of truth bombs, laughter, and brutal honesty. No filters, no PR polish, just real talk from a man who’s lived both sides of the dream. Timestamps 00:00 Introduction and Sponsorships 02:59 Meet Scott Spiezio: Music and Baseball Background 09:20 Musical Influences and Family Connections 12:02 Family Dynamics and Personal Interests 16:07 Early Signs of Athletic Talent 19:00 The Journey to Major League Baseball 23:04 Mental Preparation and Visualization Techniques 25:59 Reflections on Retirement and Addiction 30:07 Navigating Recovery and Personal Growth 32:10 Defying the Odds: From Sports to Music 39:07 Injury and Mental Health: The Turning Point 45:55 The Descent into Alcoholism 55:56 The Highs and Lows of Fame 01:01:52 The Crossroads: Relationships and Addiction 01:03:41 The Weight of Fame and Addiction 01:05:10 The Struggle with Substance Abuse 01:07:55 Living on the Edge: The Highs and Lows 01:10:25 Facing Consequences: The Overdose Incident 01:12:33 Reconnecting with Family 01:18:10 Understanding Addiction: Family Dynamics 01:21:26 The Downward Spiral: A Series of Events 01:30:46 Seeking Help: The Road to Recovery 01:35:08 Struggles with Addiction and Recovery 01:40:11 The Role of Faith in Recovery 01:45:13 Miracles and Transformation 01:52:51 Sharing Stories and Inspiring Others Social Links & Resources Scott Spiezio — Former MLB Player, 2x World Series Champion, Recovery Advocate Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/scott_spiezio/ X (Twitter): https://x.com/scott_spiezio Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/p/Scott-Spiezio-Its-Never-Too-Late-100065641682903/ MLB Feature: https://www.mlb.com/news/scott-spiezio-ed-spiezio-share-addiction-journey Wikipedia: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Scott_Spiezio Sponsors & Links McKelvey Insurance — Website: https://www.mckelveyins.com/ — Call or text: 618-623-0080 LightSource Psychotherapy — Website: https://findyourlightsource.com/ Sponsored by McKelvey Insurance (https://www.mckelveyins.com/) and LightSource Psychotherapy (https://findyourlightsource.com/).

Episode 34 – Pondoff's Anonymous Who this episode is for: Anyone deep in the bottle and lying to themselves The “functioning” alcoholics hiding bottles in the garage Friends or family watching someone drink themselves to death People in recovery who still white-knuckle their way through a gas station Anyone who’s ever told themselves “I’ve got it under control” People who don’t think they have a drinking problem—but maybe do 🎙️ Episode 34 – Breathalyzers, 99 Bananas, and One Man’s Relentless Fight to Stay Sober Sean Keeley joins Chris and Jeff (Jakob’s out for a month—he’s off getting married, congrats you beautiful bastard) to drop a quiet bomb of a story—the kind that doesn’t come with sirens and flashing lights, just slow, silent self-destruction. No DUIs. No arrests. No bar fights. Just airplane bottles hidden in gloveboxes, vodka disguised as water, and a growing sense of dread that everything was about to fall apart. Sean lays out how he went from managing people and showing up to work every day to drinking 15 mini bottles of 99 Bananas before checking into rehab. Twice. And when the second round didn’t stick, he didn’t quit. He built his own system. Breathalyzers at home and in the car. Daily accountability to his wife and coworkers. A plan with no wiggle room. This episode isn’t about hitting bottom. It’s about what happens when you’re about to and decide to turn the wheel. ⏱️ Episode Breakdown: 00:00 – Introduction and Sponsorships McKelvey Insurance (https://www.mckelveyins.com/) and LightSource Psychotherapy (https://findyourlightsource.com/) 02:25 – Golfing Experiences and Personal Stories Cold brews, bad golf, hipster confessions, and rake-stepping laughs. 12:12 – Introducing Sean and His Unique Story Quiet alcoholism that didn’t look chaotic—until it was. 24:00 – The Journey to Acknowledging Alcoholism Sharpie bottle lines. Hidden Jameson. Growing denial. 26:24 – The Journey to Recovery Begins First stint in rehab. Detox. Relapse after 45 days. 30:30 – The Struggles of Sobriety The 99 Bananas episode. Hiding the drinking better. Medical red flags. 39:48 – Finding Accountability in Recovery Breathalyzers at home and work. No escape hatch. 46:49 – The Role of Medication in Sobriety From Trazodone to Naltrexone to nothing. 54:42 – Building a Support System Wife, coworkers, radical honesty—not AA this time. 55:15 – Facing the Consequences of Addiction Liver failure warnings. Watching others die from it. 01:01:14 – The Journey to Sobriety: Finding What Works No sponsors. Just systems. Brutal self-honesty. 01:10:04 – Building a New Life: Recovery and Personal Growth No meds. No excuses. Just better health and clearer living. 01:17:43 – Strength in Adversity: Overcoming Life's Challenges Christmas Eve becomes Sean’s sober date. One day at a time. 01:25:44 – The Ripple Effect: Inspiring Change in Others Sean starts giving back, pushing for change, helping others see the signs. ☕ Mentioned in This Episode: Wagon Coffee Roasters (Denver-based Recovery Café): https://wagoncoffeeroasters.com Il Bel Lago Italian Restaurant (Where Sean celebrated Year 1): https://www.bellagostl.com 🛡️ Sponsored by: McKelvey Insurance https://www.mckelveyins.com Quick solutions to real-life insurance bullsh*t. LightSource Psychotherapy https://findyourlightsource.com If you’re f*cked up mentally or emotionally—this is where you start digging out.