Recovery Matters! Podcast

Michaela shares her powerful recovery journey shaped by trauma, homelessness, substance use, and mental health struggles. After surviving a suicide attempt that became her turning point, she found healing through peer support, holistic practices, and breathwork. Now the Executive Director of Advocacy Unlimited, Michaela reflects on long-term recovery, embodied healing, and helping others reconnect with themselves beyond their circumstances.00:00 Intro & long-term recovery01:00 What Advocacy Unlimited does02:00 Childhood trauma and early substance use03:00 Pregnancy, getting sober, and pushing everything down04:45 Relapse, suicide attempt, and rock bottom05:30 Choosing to live and beginning recovery06:45 Early recovery and learning adulthood08:30 Education, identity, and rebuilding life10:30 Finding purpose through advocacy work12:00 Discovering holistic and mind-body healing14:30 Recovery beyond sobriety16:00 Breathwork and nervous system regulation19:00 Guided breathwork practice24:00 How breathwork changed relationships and work25:00 Advocacy Unlimited programs & resources28:00 How to get involved / closing ----Across the Web----🌎 CCAR Website https://www.ccar.us✉️ Donate: https://ccar.us/donate/🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Apple Music): https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast...🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Spotify): https://open.spotify.com/show/1wGUMMO...🗣Recovery Matters Podcast TikTokhttps://www.tiktok.com/@recoverymatterspodcast?🗣Recovery Matters Podcast Instagram https://www.instagram.com/recoverymatterspodcast/🗣CCAR Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/CCAR4Recovery📸CCAR Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ccar4recovery🐦CCAR Twitter: https://twitter.com/ccar4recovery

Andrew Grazen shares his journey from a seemingly normal childhood into years of addiction, incarceration, and near-death experiences, and how recovery, community, and writing ultimately saved his life. From discovering substances at a young age to overdosing in his car and writing a memoir while incarcerated, Andrew reflects on loss, resilience, and why staying connected—and holding onto hope—can change everything. ----Across the Web----🌎 CCAR Website https://www.ccar.us✉️ Donate: https://ccar.us/donate/🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Apple Music): https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast...🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Spotify): https://open.spotify.com/show/1wGUMMO...🗣Recovery Matters Podcast TikTokhttps://www.tiktok.com/@recoverymatterspodcast?🗣Recovery Matters Podcast Instagram https://www.instagram.com/recoverymatterspodcast/🗣CCAR Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/CCAR4Recovery📸CCAR Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ccar4recovery🐦CCAR Twitter: https://twitter.com/ccar4recovery

Raised around biker culture, gangs, and addiction, Dave began using drugs and alcohol at a young age, experienced multiple overdoses, and lived a life surrounded by violence, crime, and loss. After losing both parents, surviving near-death experiences, and reaching a breaking point, Dave made a life-changing decision to seek recovery.In this episode, Dave talks about trauma, addiction, spirituality, accountability, and what it truly means to rewrite your story. Today, he is a tattoo shop owner, mentor, and someone deeply committed to service, recovery, and personal growth.This is a raw, honest conversation about addiction, recovery, faith, and transformation.00:00 Introduction & Dave’s recovery time01:00 Growing up around biker culture and gangs03:00 Early trauma, loss, and first substance use06:00 First overdose and rehab at 1409:00 Exposure to heroin and escalation12:00 Gangs, weapons charges, and self-destruction15:00 Spiritual breaking point and near-death experience18:00 Entering treatment with willingness21:00 Emotional breakthrough in rehab24:00 Early recovery and rebuilding trust27:00 Tattooing, service work, and purpose30:00 Life today in recovery33:00 Giving back and redefining success ----Across the Web----🌎 CCAR Website https://www.ccar.us✉️ Donate: https://ccar.us/donate/🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Apple Music): https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast...🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Spotify): https://open.spotify.com/show/1wGUMMO...🗣Recovery Matters Podcast TikTokhttps://www.tiktok.com/@recoverymatterspodcast?🗣Recovery Matters Podcast Instagram https://www.instagram.com/recoverymatterspodcast/🗣CCAR Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/CCAR4Recovery📸CCAR Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ccar4recovery🐦CCAR Twitter: https://twitter.com/ccar4recovery

The holidays can be one of the hardest times to stay sober — especially in early recovery or when you’re sober curious. In this conversation, Derek Benson shares why he created the Sober Holiday Hotline, a peer-to-peer support line for anyone struggling to get through holiday gatherings, family pressure, or moments of temptation. This hotline isn’t affiliated with rehabs, government agencies, or 12-step programs. Instead, it offers anonymous, lived-experience support from people in recovery who understand what those moments feel like. From practical tips to simple human connection, the goal is to help someone get through the night sober — and remind them they’re not alone. If staying sober during the holidays feels overwhelming, this conversation explains why connection matters and how support can make all the difference. ----Across the Web----🌎 CCAR Website https://www.ccar.us✉️ Donate: https://ccar.us/donate/🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Apple Music): https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast...🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Spotify): https://open.spotify.com/show/1wGUMMO...🗣Recovery Matters Podcast TikTokhttps://www.tiktok.com/@recoverymatterspodcast?🗣Recovery Matters Podcast Instagram https://www.instagram.com/recoverymatterspodcast/🗣CCAR Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/CCAR4Recovery📸CCAR Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ccar4recovery🐦CCAR Twitter: https://twitter.com/ccar4recovery

Carrie and Michelle talk openly about how addiction, trauma, and unhealthy relationships often go hand in hand. They share lived experiences with abusive relationships, codependency, and emotional manipulation — and how recovery became the foundation for learning self-love, boundaries, and healthy connections. From leaving toxic partners to rebuilding trust in themselves, this episode explores what healing relationships actually look like in sobriety, why community matters, and how spaces like The Phoenix helped them rediscover who they are beyond addiction.00:00 – Introductions & Recovery Backgrounds01:00 – Why Unhealthy Relationships Are Common in Addiction02:00 – Addiction, Insecurity, and Chasing Validation03:15 – Substances Amplifying Relationship Chaos04:16 – Knowing a Relationship Is Unhealthy but Staying05:24 – Trauma Bonds and Why It’s Hard to Leave06:20 – Self-Love, Boundaries, and Codependency08:09 – Escalation, Gaslighting, and Emotional Abuse08:40 – How Each Person Finally Got Out10:19 – What Self-Love Looks Like in Recovery11:43 – Healthy Friendships vs. Old “Using” Relationships13:47 – Finding Support and Community in Recovery15:00 – Hitting Bottom and Choosing Something Different16:08 – Therapy, Boundaries, and Learning Red Flags18:25 – Seeing People for Their Actions, Not Words20:41 – Choosing Peace and the Cost of Chronic Stress22:04 – Building Healthy Relationships in Recovery23:25 – Confidence, Community, and Personal Growth26:16 – Healing, Self-Respect, and Facing the Past29:22 – What The Phoenix Is and Why It Matters31:18 – Recovery Events, Connection, and Belonging36:16 – Recovery Is About Discovering Who You Are39:38 – Advice for Someone in Their First 24 Hours ----Across the Web----🌎 CCAR Website https://www.ccar.us✉️ Donate: https://ccar.us/donate/🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Apple Music): https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast...🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Spotify): https://open.spotify.com/show/1wGUMMO...🗣Recovery Matters Podcast TikTokhttps://www.tiktok.com/@recoverymatterspodcast?🗣Recovery Matters Podcast Instagram https://www.instagram.com/recoverymatterspodcast/🗣CCAR Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/CCAR4Recovery📸CCAR Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ccar4recovery🐦CCAR Twitter: https://twitter.com/ccar4recovery

Tony’s story is a whirlwind of loss, chaos, identity struggles, and years spent chasing anything that would make him feel whole. Growing up without a father, he searched for belonging everywhere except within himself. That search eventually pulled him into a fast-moving lifestyle that brought consequences, arrests, and years of feeling stuck in a cycle he couldn’t escape.Everything changed when a moment in detox — triggered by a story on TV — cracked him open and forced him to confront the life he’d built. That spark became surrender, and surrender became a complete transformation. Tony rebuilt his life from the ground up: he found purpose, lost over 100 pounds, restored his driver’s license after 15 years, and today he works at the CCAR New Haven Recovery Community Center, helping others find the hope he once needed.His story is proof that discipline, purpose, and community can pull anyone out of the darkest places — and into a life they never believed they deserved.0:00 — Introductions0:24 — Growing Up Without a Father1:02 — Early Behaviors & Searching for Belonging2:20 — First Experiences With Substances3:10 — Feeling “Not Enough” as a Kid4:12 — Losing Control in Young Adulthood5:07 — Slipping Into a Dangerous Lifestyle6:05 — Trouble, Consequences & Prison Time7:20 — The Cycle of Relapse8:32 — The Breaking Point9:43 — Spiritual Awakening in Detox10:58 — Starting Over at Davenport House12:18 — Beginning His Fitness Journey13:12 — Losing 100 Pounds14:10 — Food, Obsession & Filling the Void15:22 — Finding Purpose at CCAR16:30 — Coaching Others in Recovery17:50 — Living With Hope & Discipline18:45 — Gratitude, Growth & Becoming a Better Man20:00 — Rebuilding His Life Step by Step22:00 — Getting His License Back After 15 Years23:40 — Working, Volunteering & Relearning Life25:00 — Big Wins & Small Steps Forward26:40 — Advice for Someone in Their First 24 Hours ----Across the Web----🌎 CCAR Website https://www.ccar.us✉️ Donate: https://ccar.us/donate/🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Apple Music): https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast...🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Spotify): https://open.spotify.com/show/1wGUMMO...🗣Recovery Matters Podcast TikTokhttps://www.tiktok.com/@recoverymatterspodcast?🗣Recovery Matters Podcast Instagram https://www.instagram.com/recoverymatterspodcast/🗣CCAR Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/CCAR4Recovery📸CCAR Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ccar4recovery🐦CCAR Twitter: https://twitter.com/ccar4recovery

Mark Mongiardo shares the shocking truth behind years of being misunderstood, judged, and even criminally charged — all caused by a rare condition called Auto-Brewery Syndrome (ABS). Without drinking a drop of alcohol, his body would suddenly produce dangerously high blood-alcohol levels, leaving him intoxicated, confused, and fighting for his freedom and reputation.Mark opens up about losing his teaching career, facing felony prison time, and being labeled an alcoholic by coworkers and even family — all while knowing deep down that something wasn’t right. His emotional diagnosis came only after two DWIs, a glucose challenge test, and relentless research by his mother and aunt. Once he finally had the truth, he began the long, painful journey of rebuilding his life from scratch.Through strict diet changes, nonstop monitoring, and unbelievable family support, Mark has become a voice for others silently suffering from ABS. His vulnerability, advocacy, and message of E + R = O — Event + Response = Outcomemake this episode one of the most gripping stories we've ever shared.00:00 – What Is Auto Brewery Syndrome?00:36 – Mark’s Symptoms and Early Confusion02:00 – Blood Alcohol Spikes Without Drinking03:20 – Two DWIs While Sober05:50 – The Turning Point: Something Was Wrong07:25 – Arrested Sober… Again09:00 – Living With Constant Accusations10:15 – The Search for Answers Begins12:00 – The Glucose Challenge Test13:35 – The Emotional Diagnosis15:10 – Family Misunderstandings and Strain17:00 – Years of Being Labeled an Alcoholic19:00 – Learning to Manage Daily Flares21:00 – Fears About His Children and Genetics24:00 – Rebuilding His Life From Nothing27:00 – Losing His Career and Home29:00 – Starting Over With E+R=O30:20 – The Strict Zero-Carb, Zero-Sugar Lifestyle32:00 – Support Groups and Advocacy Work34:00 – Finding Community and Spreading Awareness ----Across the Web----🌎 CCAR Website https://www.ccar.us✉️ Donate: https://ccar.us/donate/🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Apple Music): https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast...🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Spotify): https://open.spotify.com/show/1wGUMMO...🗣Recovery Matters Podcast TikTokhttps://www.tiktok.com/@recoverymatterspodcast?🗣Recovery Matters Podcast Instagram https://www.instagram.com/recoverymatterspodcast/🗣CCAR Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/CCAR4Recovery📸CCAR Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ccar4recovery🐦CCAR Twitter: https://twitter.com/ccar4recovery

Ryan’s story is a powerful journey through early substance use, deep loss, incarceration, and ultimately finding real recovery. From growing up seeking acceptance, to losing his closest friend at 16, to years of cycling between numbness and despair, Ryan opens up about the turning points that shifted his life. He reflects on the moment he almost gave up, how connection inside prison planted the first seeds of recovery, and how service, honesty, and community helped him rebuild his life. Today, with six months in recovery, a thriving small business, and strong family relationships, Ryan talks about healing, purpose, and the simple daily actions that keep him grounded. His message to anyone struggling: you’re not alone, and recovery is absolutely possible.00:00 – Intro & Recovery Dates00:52 – How They First Met01:19 – Reuniting Inside AA Meetings02:07 – Ryan’s Childhood03:26 – Meeting the Friend Who Shaped Everything04:00 – First Time Trying to “Feel Something”05:00 – Becoming the “Go-To” Guy05:36 – The Night Everything Changed07:27 – Grief He Never Faced08:30 – Homeless at 1809:30 – Crossing Lines & Getting Arrested10:19 – “Recovery Curious”12:43 – Hearing the 15-Year Offer14:17 – The Serenity Prayer Moment16:05 – Tier 4 Program & Real Change17:15 – Coming Home With Purpose18:44 – Finding Community Again19:58 – Being Around Recovery vs. In Recovery21:42 – Substitution & Spiraling22:28 – Losing Himself Again23:08 – New Year’s at His Friend’s Grave24:21 – Choosing Recovery For Real25:00 – Returning to CCAR25:46 – Life in Recovery Today26:43 – Rebuilding Family Bonds27:27 – Growing His Landscaping Business28:20 – Daily Program & Service28:59 – “If I Can Do It, Anyone Can”29:25 – Advice for the First 24 Hours ----Across the Web----🌎 CCAR Website https://www.ccar.us✉️ Donate: https://ccar.us/donate/🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Apple Music): https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast...🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Spotify): https://open.spotify.com/show/1wGUMMO...🗣Recovery Matters Podcast TikTokhttps://www.tiktok.com/@recoverymatterspodcast?🗣Recovery Matters Podcast Instagram https://www.instagram.com/recoverymatterspodcast/🗣CCAR Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/CCAR4Recovery📸CCAR Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ccar4recovery🐦CCAR Twitter: https://twitter.com/ccar4recovery

Tyler shares his raw and emotional journey, detailing a chaotic childhood where addiction was the family norm. He recounts the shocking progression of his own drug use, the moment his mother introduced him to heroin, and how his father was the first person to put a needle in his arm. After years of the "jail, rehab, rehab, jail" cycle, hear how the loss of his 'perfect' life and a moment of desperation led him to a permanent path of recovery. Now sober and working at the very treatment center that saved him, Tyler discusses finding his identity, the power of fellowship, and how he navigated the grief of losing both parents while staying clean. [00:00] Podcast Introduction and Tyler's Clean Date (October 1st, 2023) [00:00:45] The Host's Initial Doubt: "He's not gonna make it" [00:02:29] Finding God and a "Physically New Person" [00:03:30] Growing Up in a Vicious Cycle of Family Addiction My Mother Gave Me My First Perk; Sniffing Heroin Together [00:07:28] "My Father Was the First Person to Put a Needle in My Arm"[00:07:47] Playing the Shitty Cards: Winning with the Disease of Addiction [00:09:26] The 10-Year Cycle: Jail, Rehab, Rehab, Jail [00:11:37] The Gift of Desperation: Leaving the "White Picket Fence" [00:14:13] The Genetic Factor of Opiate Addiction[00:15:55] Identity Crisis: Who Am I Without Drugs? [00:17:59] Life in Recovery & The Power of Fellowship (NA/AA) [00:20:18] Faking the Funk: Why Half-Stepping the Work Fails[00:30:52] Nothing Changes If Nothing Changes [00:31:35] Grieving in Sobriety: Losing Both Parents [00:34:33] Final Thought: It's Easier to Keep Your Seat Than to Get It Back [00:36:06] Conclusion and Gratitude ----Across the Web----🌎 CCAR Website https://www.ccar.us✉️ Donate: https://ccar.us/donate/🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Apple Music): https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast...🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Spotify): https://open.spotify.com/show/1wGUMMO...🗣Recovery Matters Podcast TikTokhttps://www.tiktok.com/@recoverymatterspodcast?🗣Recovery Matters Podcast Instagram https://www.instagram.com/recoverymatterspodcast/🗣CCAR Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/CCAR4Recovery📸CCAR Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ccar4recovery🐦CCAR Twitter: https://twitter.com/ccar4recovery

From shining shoes at the Connecticut State Capitol to surviving gang violence, addiction, and multiple prison sentences—Luis Flores has lived through it all. In this gripping episode of Recovery Matters, Luis opens up about his descent into Hartford’s drug trade, the pain of losing friends, and the night five guns were pointed at him—and didn’t go off. But his story doesn’t end in tragedy. After years trapped in addiction and incarceration, Luis found faith, redemption, and purpose through writing. Today, he’s the author of Don’t Judge Me, a raw memoir soon to be adapted into a movie. His transformation is proof that no matter how far you’ve fallen, recovery—and even greatness—is still possible. ----Across the Web----🌎 CCAR Website https://www.ccar.us✉️ Donate: https://ccar.us/donate/🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Apple Music): https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast...🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Spotify): https://open.spotify.com/show/1wGUMMO...🗣Recovery Matters Podcast TikTokhttps://www.tiktok.com/@recoverymatterspodcast?🗣Recovery Matters Podcast Instagram https://www.instagram.com/recoverymatterspodcast/🗣CCAR Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/CCAR4Recovery📸CCAR Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ccar4recovery🐦CCAR Twitter: https://twitter.com/ccar4recovery

At 21 years old, Lucas has never had a legal drink—yet he’s already survived alcohol addiction, Kratom dependence, and the brutal withdrawals that followed. His story begins in a chaotic household where nightly drinking and fighting were the norm. By 19, Lucas was mixing alcohol with pills, throwing up blood, and blacking out behind the wheel. That night at home became his rock bottom—and the start of change.But when he stopped drinking, Kratom slid in to fill the void. Sold right next to the energy drinks at gas stations, it seemed harmless—“all natural.” In reality, it’s a partial opioid agonist that hooks into the brain’s mu receptors. Lucas thought it was helping him stay functional—until he couldn’t go a day without it. Lucas shares what recovery looks like when you do it on your own, the painful truth about “functional” addiction, and how community ultimately helped him heal. If you or someone you love is experimenting with Kratom, this episode is a wake-up call. 00:00–Meet Lucas (21 )& early sobriety dates00:00:53–Rock-bottom night at mom’s house00:02:40–Vomiting blood, drunk driving, half-handle a day00:04:06–From quitting alcohol to “dabbling” in kratom00:05:00–What kratom is; 7-OH & partial opioid agonist00:08:20–Gas-station access, concentrates, no ID check00:11:16–The “functional” phase (school/work on kratom)00:12:44–Extracts arms race:“Feel Free,” kava mix, escalation00:16:03–Physical dependence & morning withdrawals00:21:13–Choosing to quit & what helped (and what didn’t)00:24:58–Early-recovery anxiety & doing it alone vs.support00:29:15–Finding community (AA/RCO) as a young person00:31:42–Day-one advice:“It gets better one day at a time”  ----Across the Web----🌎 CCAR Website https://www.ccar.us✉️ Donate: https://ccar.us/donate/🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Apple Music): https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast...🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Spotify): https://open.spotify.com/show/1wGUMMO...🗣Recovery Matters Podcast TikTokhttps://www.tiktok.com/@recoverymatterspodcast?🗣Recovery Matters Podcast Instagram https://www.instagram.com/recoverymatterspodcast/🗣CCAR Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/CCAR4Recovery📸CCAR Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ccar4recovery🐦CCAR Twitter: https://twitter.com/ccar4recovery

For years, musician Matthew Check drank to hide pain, pressure, and perfectionism—until one brutal morning on an old wooden floor made him face the truth. In this Recovery Matters episode, Matthew opens up about the spiral of blackout drinking, the shame that followed, and the quiet relief of his first AA meeting. He shares how he rebuilt his life through connection, spirituality, and creative expression—and why August 14, 2014 marks the day he truly began living in recovery. His story proves that recovery isn’t the end of fun—it’s the start of freedom.Purchase Matthew's new book here: https://a.co/d/ePFvVgD 00:00 Intro – Matthew Check’s Early Years  02:15 College Drinking & Blackouts  05:40 The Morning That Changed Everything  08:10 Finding Sobriety on August 14, 2014  11:05 Early AA Meetings & Emotional Healing  15:20 Music, Spirituality & Recovery  19:45 Final Reflections & Hope for Others ----Across the Web----🌎 CCAR Website https://www.ccar.us✉️ Donate: https://ccar.us/donate/🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Apple Music): https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast...🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Spotify): https://open.spotify.com/show/1wGUMMO...🗣Recovery Matters Podcast TikTokhttps://www.tiktok.com/@recoverymatterspodcast?🗣Recovery Matters Podcast Instagram https://www.instagram.com/recoverymatterspodcast/🗣CCAR Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/CCAR4Recovery📸CCAR Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ccar4recovery🐦CCAR Twitter: https://twitter.com/ccar4recovery

TJ sits down with Meghan Blanchette, a woman whose journey through addiction, relapse, and self-discovery offers a powerful look at what long-term recovery truly means.Meghan shares how her first sobriety date in 2015 marked the beginning of a new chapter—but a prescribed medication after surgery tested her honesty and recovery principles. She chose to reset her sobriety date, a humbling act that redefined her integrity and commitment to healing. Her story opens an important conversation about prescribed medication, relapse, and the moral choices that often accompany recovery.Growing up as an only child who moved frequently, Meghan reflects on how instability and self-blame laid early groundwork for addiction. Introduced to alcohol in middle school and later to opiates through a prescription, her dependency quickly escalated. By her twenties, Meghan was battling homelessness, withdrawal, and despair—until a moment of clarity walking along a busy road pushed her to seek help.Calling her mother and entering detox through Connecticut’s 2-1-1 system became the turning point. Meghan went from living in a tent to completing multiple recovery programs—detox, 90-day treatment, halfway housing, and eventually independent living—each step teaching her life skills, self-respect, and community connection.Today, Meghan thrives as a speaker, coach, and the chairwoman of the board at InterCommunity, the very organization that once helped her rebuild her life. Through her platform FiercelyMeghan.com, she empowers others with lessons in emotional intelligence, self-worth, and recovery principles that apply far beyond addiction. ----Across the Web----🌎 CCAR Website https://www.ccar.us✉️ Donate: https://ccar.us/donate/🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Apple Music): https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast...🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Spotify): https://open.spotify.com/show/1wGUMMO...🗣Recovery Matters Podcast TikTokhttps://www.tiktok.com/@recoverymatterspodcast?🗣Recovery Matters Podcast Instagram https://www.instagram.com/recoverymatterspodcast/🗣CCAR Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/CCAR4Recovery📸CCAR Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ccar4recovery🐦CCAR Twitter: https://twitter.com/ccar4recovery

Host TJ sits down with author Ian Fee, who shares his raw and unfiltered journey through addiction, family struggles, and the path to lasting recovery. From taking his first sip of alcohol at just one year old, to believing booze was his “superpower,” Ian’s story is filled with both chaos and redemption.He opens up about how alcohol shaped his childhood, his career, and his relationships—including two failed marriages and painful letters from his children describing life with a “party dad.” Ian also recounts his turning point in rehab, where he realized that true change had to start with himself.Now eight years sober, Ian talks about rebuilding his life through gratitude, community, and daily habits. He shares practical advice for those in early recovery, the importance of your “circle,” and how he transformed his pain into purpose by writing his book Wild Ride to Sobriety. This conversation is a must-listen for anyone seeking hope, resilience, and proof that it’s never too late to change.Ian's book Wild Ride To Sobriety: A Transformation from Drunken Oblivion to Profound Clarity can be purchased on Amazon: https://a.co/d/due58IO 00:00 – Welcome & Introduction00:34 – Growing up in an alcohol-centered home02:00 – Childhood party life & first jobs serving drinks03:40 – College years: booze as a “superpower”05:00 – Alcohol and career success in the hotel industry05:43 – Marriage, kids, and the cost of addiction07:14 – Stacking “rock bottoms” and going to rehab08:30 – Turning point: realizing change starts with self09:19 – Emotional impact: letters from his children11:06 – Life after rehab & the power of community13:39 – Learning to feel emotions & forgive himself15:29 – Writing Wild Ride to Sobriety17:11 – Building transformation through daily habits18:26 – The practice of gratitude19:16 – Advice for the first 24 hours of recovery20:44 – The importance of your circle & relationships21:09 – Book launch & where to find it22:26 – Setting small, achievable goals in recovery23:18 – Closing thoughts & inspiration ----Across the Web----🌎 CCAR Website https://www.ccar.us✉️ Donate: https://ccar.us/donate/🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Apple Music): https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast...🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Spotify): https://open.spotify.com/show/1wGUMMO...🗣Recovery Matters Podcast TikTokhttps://www.tiktok.com/@recoverymatterspodcast?🗣Recovery Matters Podcast Instagram https://www.instagram.com/recoverymatterspodcast/🗣CCAR Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/CCAR4Recovery📸CCAR Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ccar4recovery🐦CCAR Twitter: https://twitter.com/ccar4recovery

In this episode of Recovery Matters, TJ sits down with Matt, a young person in recovery who now works as a Young People and Family Services Coordinator with CCAR. Matt opens up about his journey, beginning with his first treatment at just 13 years old. Despite having parents in recovery, he struggled deeply with drugs, arrests, and time in the juvenile justice system. He shares the progression of his addiction—weed and pills leading to heroin, crack, and near-fatal lows including homelessness, suicidal thoughts, and severe health complications. A turning point came when he entered detox and long-term treatment programs, where structure and community support helped him rebuild his life. Matt also talks about relapse, rebuilding quickly, and how building a strong network of sober friends became crucial to his recovery. His story highlights both the tragedy of losing friends to overdose and the joy of discovering a fulfilling sober life—travel, motorcycles, relationships, and most importantly, fatherhood. Becoming a dad gave Matt a new sense of purpose, grounding his recovery in love and responsibility.  00:00 – Introductions00:36 – First Treatment at 1305:00 – Escalating Addiction07:00 – First Arrests & Juvenile Justice08:00 – Hitting Rock Bottom at 1810:00 – Sober House & Overdose Scare13:00 – Relapse After Heartbreak15:00 – Waterbury & Heavy Addiction17:30 – Final Turning Point19:00 – Structured Recovery & Torrington Move22:00 – Slip & Quick Return to Recovery23:00 – Building a New Life25:00 – Meeting His Fiancée & Becoming a Father29:00 – Parenthood in Recovery34:00 – Advice for Newcomers ----Across the Web----🌎 CCAR Website https://www.ccar.us✉️ Donate: https://ccar.us/donate/🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Apple Music): https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast...🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Spotify): https://open.spotify.com/show/1wGUMMO...🗣Recovery Matters Podcast TikTokhttps://www.tiktok.com/@recoverymatterspodcast?🗣Recovery Matters Podcast Instagram https://www.instagram.com/recoverymatterspodcast/🗣CCAR Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/CCAR4Recovery📸CCAR Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ccar4recovery🐦CCAR Twitter: https://twitter.com/ccar4recovery

Victor Reynolds shares his powerful recovery journey on the Recovery Matters Podcast. Raised in an environment of violence and addiction, he was taught to be heartless from a young age. By nine, he was on the streets, caught up in crime, substances, and chaos. Years of dust, drinking, robberies, and prison time left him broken, but also searching for meaning.His turning point came when he faced federal charges and later battled congestive heart failure while incarcerated. After multiple near-death experiences and what he describes as a divine encounter with an “angel,” Victor embraced faith and recovery. Today, he lives with humility, gratitude, and a mission to help others who are still struggling. His story is one of transformation, hope, and the belief in second chances.00:00 – Introduction: TJ & Victor00:21 – Growing up without emotions00:44 – Father’s influence & gangster lifestyle01:18 – Early street life & family struggles02:17 – First substances: dust & drinking02:43 – Crime, stickups, and first arrest03:30 – Denial of addiction problems04:00 – Prison life & getting high inside05:00 – Feeling invincible on substances06:05 – Father’s Day with his sons – breaking moment07:21 – Facing federal charges & prison time08:10 – Congestive heart failure diagnosis09:49 – Near-death experiences & survival13:11 – Belief in God’s protection & a new heart15:02 – The mysterious Dr. Kennedy encounter18:25 – Faith, recovery, and humility19:00 – Advice for people in their first 24 hours of recovery ----Across the Web----🌎 CCAR Website https://www.ccar.us✉️ Donate: https://ccar.us/donate/🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Apple Music): https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast...🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Spotify): https://open.spotify.com/show/1wGUMMO...🗣Recovery Matters Podcast TikTokhttps://www.tiktok.com/@recoverymatterspodcast?🗣Recovery Matters Podcast Instagram https://www.instagram.com/recoverymatterspodcast/🗣CCAR Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/CCAR4Recovery📸CCAR Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ccar4recovery🐦CCAR Twitter: https://twitter.com/ccar4recovery

In this episode of Recovery Matters, Brian shares his powerful journey from sports and college life to struggling with alcohol, cocaine, and compulsive gambling. He opens up about the chaos of addiction, the turning points that led him into treatment, and how community and recovery gave him a new life. Today, Brian works to support others in recovery, offering hope and connection for anyone struggling with addiction or gambling.00:00 – Introductions & basketball as an outlet01:22 – Childhood, family, and sports identity02:52 – First drink at 14 and finding belonging05:40 – College years, gambling, and substance use09:57 – “Getting away with it” and white privilege11:00 – Gambling wins, cocaine habit, and detox15:00 – Early treatment attempts and relapse18:26 – Darkest days in Brooklyn19:57 – Last bet and last drink22:45 – Surrender and finding real recovery25:20 – Building community through sober housing30:58 – Moving to Connecticut and collegiate recovery work33:44 – Life in recovery today35:02 – Advice for someone in their first 24 hours ----Across the Web----🌎 CCAR Website https://www.ccar.us✉️ Donate: https://ccar.us/donate/🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Apple Music): https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast...🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Spotify): https://open.spotify.com/show/1wGUMMO...🗣Recovery Matters Podcast TikTokhttps://www.tiktok.com/@recoverymatterspodcast?🗣Recovery Matters Podcast Instagram https://www.instagram.com/recoverymatterspodcast/🗣CCAR Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/CCAR4Recovery📸CCAR Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ccar4recovery🐦CCAR Twitter: https://twitter.com/ccar4recovery

Dr. Chad McDonald is the Chief Medical Officer at InterCommunity (a not-for-profit, addiction and behavioral health leaning FQHC-LA in the Greater Hartford, CT area), where he has the privilege of helping people find hope and healing through recovery. Initially a family physician by training, Dr. McDonald became board-certified in Addiction Medicine after witnessing the impact of substance use disorders on people close to him. Today, he works alongside a dedicated team providing compassionate, whole-person care for individuals and families across Greater Hartford.In addition to his clinical and leadership work, Dr. McDonald serves as Connecticut’s Physician Addiction State Champion with the Opioid Response Network and is an appointed member of the Health Information Technology Advisory Committee (HITAC), where he advocates for using health IT to reduce barriers to care and strengthen recovery supports.Dr. McDonald believes that recovery is possible for everyone and that access to care should never be out of reach. For anyone ready to begin their recovery journey—or for loved ones seeking help—InterCommunity offers medical detox, residential rehab, and outpatient programs. Learn more at https://www.intercommunityct.org/ ----Across the Web----🌎 CCAR Website https://www.ccar.us✉️ Donate: https://ccar.us/donate/🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Apple Music): https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast...🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Spotify): https://open.spotify.com/show/1wGUMMO...🗣Recovery Matters Podcast TikTokhttps://www.tiktok.com/@recoverymatterspodcast?🗣Recovery Matters Podcast Instagram https://www.instagram.com/recoverymatterspodcast/🗣CCAR Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/CCAR4Recovery📸CCAR Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ccar4recovery🐦CCAR Twitter: https://twitter.com/ccar4recovery

TJ sits down with Elizabeth, a former Golden Gloves boxing champion, to talk about her journey through gambling addiction and long-term recovery. Elizabeth shares how her upbringing, athletic drive, and devastating losses fueled her compulsive gambling, and how she eventually found hope, healing, and connection through recovery.From the thrill of Las Vegas to the crushing impact of debt and shame, Elizabeth’s story shines a light on the risks athletes face, the hidden dangers of gambling, and the importance of connection in recovery. Overseeing Gambling Prevention, Intervention and Treatment at Nicasa Behavioral Health Services: https://nicasa.org/program/adult-gambling-treatment/Educating collegiate athletes about gambling harm at EPIC Global Solutions: https://www.epicglobalsolutions.com/about-us/💜 September is National Recovery Month—and this year, we’re making sure recovery from gambling disorder is part of the conversation. Share a few words about what recovery means to you, and your message could inspire someone who feels alone.  https://forms.gle/NxngSPjZRrL9TtUa9 00:00 Introduction and Host's Recovery Journey00:15 Guest's Background and Early Gambling Experiences00:32 Family Influence and Gambling Culture02:06 Athlete Mentality and Gambling Addiction05:53 Boxing Career and Injury07:57 Loss and Escalation of Gambling09:17 Realization and Attempt to Control Gambling14:42 Quitting Gambling and Early Non-Recovery15:48 Facing the Past: Compartmentalization and Shame16:15 Specializing in Gambling Disorder Counseling17:12 The Turning Point: Seeking Recovery17:37 First Steps in Recovery: Meetings and Support20:07 Understanding and Forgiving Yourself21:03 The Importance of Connection in Recovery23:26 Financial Consequences and Genuine Accountability25:18 Recognizing Lingering Risk Behaviors28:43 Gambling Education and Risk Factors33:43 Advice for Early Recovery ----Across the Web----🌎 CCAR Website https://www.ccar.us✉️ Donate: https://ccar.us/donate/🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Apple Music): https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast...🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Spotify): https://open.spotify.com/show/1wGUMMO...🗣Recovery Matters Podcast TikTokhttps://www.tiktok.com/@recoverymatterspodcast?🗣Recovery Matters Podcast Instagram https://www.instagram.com/recoverymatterspodcast/🗣CCAR Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/CCAR4Recovery📸CCAR Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ccar4recovery🐦CCAR Twitter: https://twitter.com/ccar4recovery

Sean Hemeon shares his powerful journey from a chaotic childhood in a strict Mormon household, through struggles with identity, addiction, and dangerous high-stakes drug dealing, to long-term recovery and reconciliation with his family. He opens up about feeling “not enough” from an early age, the role alcohol and drugs played in numbing that pain, and how his life spiraled into violence, federal charges, and life-threatening situations. After narrowly escaping prison, Sean entered recovery in 2004 and has since built a life grounded in service, creativity, and healing. He reflects on the emotional turning points that shaped his sobriety, including confronting deep wounds with his mother, finding community in recovery, and pursuing his passion for acting and art. Today, he uses his story, and soon to be released as a memoir, as a testament to the transformative power of connection, forgiveness, and purpose.More on Sean Hemeon: https://www.seanhemeon.com00:00 – Introductions & sobriety dates00:35 – Childhood in a Mormon household, family chaos, and parental conflict02:11 – Early emotional neglect and feelings of not being enough03:42 – Teenage identity crisis and discovering same-sex attraction04:58 – First experiences with alcohol and instant connection to its effects07:31 – High school years: masking identity, increasing substance use, hidden relationship10:13 – Violence and abandonment; deepening shame and isolation11:26 – Core belief of “I’m not enough” and the cycle of addiction13:05 – College years, heartbreak, suicide attempt, and coming out to his mother15:00 – Immersion in DC’s gay club scene and early drug experiences16:18 – Meeting a meth dealer boyfriend; thrill of underground life18:57 – Becoming a dealer, escalating risks, and major consequences20:56 – Federal arrest, decision not to inform, and mysterious case dismissal22:34 – Six more weeks using before calling parents for help23:20 – Entering treatment, relapse on inhalants, and final decision to get sober25:00 – Extent of substance use before recovery26:28 – Biggest regret: a friend’s overdose and missed chance to help27:00 – Recovery process: embracing 12-step programs and community29:28 – Moving to LA, finding strong recovery support, and focusing on rebuilding30:55 – Powerful meeting story about service and greater purpose in recovery31:43 – Evolving beyond 12-step rigidity and exploring spirituality32:43 – Breaking ties with his mother to protect his recovery34:35 – Slow reconnection and pivotal forgiveness moment during the pandemic36:24 – Emotional apology from his mother and her walking him down the aisle38:52 – Reflection on miracles, higher purpose, and the role of addiction in finding connection39:01 – The memoir The Good Little Drug Lord—origin, writing process, and future release41:53 – Staying connected via Instagram and newsletter42:05 – Advice for someone in their first 24 hours of recovery42:50 – Closing thanks and CCAR’s Telephone Recovery Support information ----Across the Web----🌎 CCAR Website https://www.ccar.us✉️ Donate: https://ccar.us/donate/🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Apple Music): https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast...🎙Recovery Matters Podcast (Spotify): https://open.spotify.com/show/1wGUMMO...🗣Recovery Matters Podcast TikTokhttps://www.tiktok.com/@recoverymatterspodcast?🗣Recovery Matters Podcast Instagram https://www.instagram.com/recoverymatterspodcast/🗣CCAR Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/CCAR4Recovery📸CCAR Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ccar4recovery🐦CCAR Twitter: https://twitter.com/ccar4recovery