BORN SAVED

Today was a hard to see my reflection in the mirror for things I have sown from many moons and suns ago but I am a son of man and I am a son of God.  I am working on finding safety in my sensations (phrase and embodiment from my partner Jas Nnenna), so that I can sit, hold and let what wants to flow come through me. I hope you enjoy this Pt. 2 episode. Alex IG- @thewholeman_ The Whole Man Newsletter 

Energy is where we last left it.  In the last couple of weeks I realized that there were still 3 different versions of myself that I was carrying when I thought there was only 1.  When we carry being the cause for other people's happiness, joy or safety the side effects are defensiveness, control, anger and ultimately resentment.  This is why Death is the greatest gift there is :), said Jasmoon.    Subscribe to Newsletter: The Whole Man  IG- thewholeman_

Why is it so hard to say sorry and then take responsibility for the change to make sure it won't happen again? This isn’t really saying sorry at all. This is acknowledging you have done something wrong to get out of the guilt and shame you feel about the thing you have done. I am the king of saying sorry. Every opportunity I have there is always a thought to pass the hot potato to someone else. ‘Passing the hot potato’ normally looks like me scapegoating or using the other person involved as my punching bag. In my daily experiment of The Whole Man I realize how abusive this characteristic is. I have also realized that this characteristic comes a lot from the belief I have always held that I have to carry everyone and everything I love in order to be a good man. But trying to carry all of these things has just led to more anxiety, trying to control every little thing and anger. I don’t have any answers just reflection but I think The Whole Man is patient and nurtures themselves in inner dialogue and external action.

Convergence is when two or more things come together to form a new whole.  Both places of my life are a new whole, the before Jasmine time and my after Jasmine time. I spent the last 8 years really feeling ashamed and agonizing over all of the shitty things I did but lately things have been feeling different...  So happy to announce Born Saved Sessions. These sessions are for anyone who want to share where they're at on their journey and typically will be for someone who has felt very conflicted about their christian past. I am just here to listen. See you on the other side.  Book a BornSaved Session  

Why do I share what I believe to bring down what someone else believes?  The whole point of sharing the viewpoint that I believe I am God was to take full responsibility for myself. I realized this podcast has become a deconstructionist podcast when I only ever meant to share my personal journey.  So listen now and see where we are going :) 

In episode one of the podcast I touched briefly on why I created BORNSAVED but after re-listening to I realized that I shared what it is but not its why. I observed that I had accepted myself but not forgiven myself. Forgiveness defined as a formal release from guilt, obligation, and punishment.  So here I am coming out openly as a lover of the christ that I am. I am openly a lover of the the kingdom that lives within me.  Enjoy and please share reflections. All the blessings.

Moments like Will Smith slapping Chris Rock at the Oscars is a collective moment for all of us to look inside and engage with the war that lies in each of us.  Most of us look at these moments as outside of ourselves to make ourselves feel better. The truth is that whatever is happening to another human is also happening to us. 

Will we choose to be a creator or a servant.  The choice is always ours. 

Having been gone the last couple of Months I thought it was perfect timing to release episode 10 as a dual release from my dear friend Glo of The Infinite Podcast.  Glo did a magnificent job of just checking in with me on what it hitting my heart, pulling extra things out my story that I haven't shared yet and challenging me to be vulnerable about my desires where I see my body going.  I hope you enjoy and please like, share, and follow podcast. Cheers Fam:)  

The Archetype of the Christian Man is to be the foundation that all things are built upon.  You are called to love others as you love your own body but what if you hate your own body?  We cannot do anything for others that we do not know how to do for ourselves. This episode I share my personal reflections on developing my own Masculine practice. I hope you enjoy 

On this episode I am joined by the international poet, graffiti and fine Artist Trevor Curly Peters.  We get deep into our stories and the gratitude we feel for how we raised but also share where our God Identities were pulling us all along.  Trevor shares effortlessly the wisdom that he has gained in this life and what he feels life is still beckoning from him.  Trevor's Instagram  Trevor's Chow Doh Foo! Graffiti 6 min Documentary 

On this episode I share how it is the Fear of Identity Death that scares us as an individual to live a unique life.  Our Identity is what we find our self worth from. It is where we draw our sense of self from and it is how we ultimately move through the world in a way that we align with.  I share from an Organized Christianity perspective this identity is warped in Fear. 

On this episode I am joined by the creative and Podcaster Jillian Alexa who hosts FLAWS OF ATTRACTION.  On this episode both Jillian and I share a little about our journeys with Organized Christianity and how it has shaped who and what we are.  Along with many other things Jillian is entering into the New Paradigm by trusting the dismantling of Organized Christianity. She breaks down purity culture, spiritual expansion and deconstruction. You can reach her at her podcast and Instagram.  Instagram: @j.t.t.v  Flaws of Attraction on Spotify 

I didn't carry trauma from worshiping the Linear Christian God. My trauma was worshiping my own Father as God.  In this episode we talk about the dance of identifying as both human and as God. The divinely human dance.. 

There is only one true you in this lifetime. This episode is my story of being asked my name at every stop and what my wrestling with God looks like both today and 5 years ago. 

On this episode we talk about how the old paradigm Covenant of Jesus dying for our sins has lead to rape, pillaging, racism, genocide and separateness.  But we will also share how Christ Consciousnesses has existed since the Void and how we have never been set apart from God or each other. 

On this episode of BORNSAVED I share a little bit of my journey of falling back in love with God and some beautiful reflections along the way that have helped me live as the kingdom is within ME. 

Welcome to episode 1 of the show. I wanted to share a quick intro as to why BornSaved was created and the foundational intention it is built on. Join me next week as I share my story in depth as to what brought me to where I am today.