Manic in Miami

Saul Adamczewski is a British guitarist + singer songwriter (Fat White Family, Insecure Men, The Coward) and fellow sufferer who addresses mental illness, music, and making sense of chaos using the rawness, poignant sincerity, and sardonic humor that make him the colorful character he is today. Timestamps 00:00 backstage: testicular augmentation, big baby porn, et. al.04:28 welcome to manic in miami! new single "alien" 06:35 happiness + morning despair10:26 "core wounds" early life 12:10 ten thousand apologies: pete's cat, edward the hamster, books16:28 diagnosis of mental illness 18:42 gift of intensity + dark moments21:51 saul's psychosis last year 24:34 a whole new world: stealing, addiction, psychedelic cures29:01 crazy musicians33:12 "we're f-ked, Holly, but at least we're beautiful."37:44 Syd Barrett39:40 other people42:50 goodbye + clips from saul's fat white family pub reunion Listen to his new single "Alien" by Insecure Men:https://open.spotify.com/album/61AruJ...  / insecure__men   Manic in Miami Podcast hosted by Holly Hurricanewatch on YouTube if you preferhttps://youtu.be/lHK69SPP6Ic?si=1rkpXXi22nqnVpZ5

republished PART 1 of my 3 part PSYCHOSIS SERIES. Jordan was a successful young dude in Manhattan taking risks and living the dream and somehow straddling the aspiring artist crowd and the aspiring Patrick Batemans. He shares openly about his traumatizing psychotic breaks, so severe that they mimic the psychedelic ego death sought after by aspiring Patrick Batemans in rustic luxury resorts in Latin America. He eventually left all his invaluable possessions in New York for Miami and the rest is...history covered in this podcast...

This is a great episode!!! *yes...sorry, I posted this yesterday, but I couldn't move beyond the tiny glitch at the beginning. I replaced it with a reel, and everyone can deal. and cheel. Special Guest Dr. Scott Fisher, a South Florida psychiatrist specializing in psychedelic research and the support, psychotherapy, and integration elements of psychedelic healing experiences. I describe my ego death experiences. hehe. One during a suicidal bipolar tropical depression. Dr. Fisher joins me for an in-person video podcast to discuss psychedelics and mental health, healing trauma, progressive thoughts on mental illness + the DSM, the role of psychedelics in mental healthcare and the clinical method for psychedelic treatment, among other things. (to participate in psychedelic clinical trials in South Florida) ⁠⁠https://www.segaltrials.com/⁠psychedelics⁠ (guest) https://instagram.com/drscottfisher/ (host) https://instagram.com/hollyhearingthings/ (Multidisciplinary Association for Psychedelic Support) ⁠https://maps.org/homepage/⁠ (Segal Clinical Trials main page) ⁠https://www.segaltrials.com/⁠ a "cause" tangential to 5-MeO-DMT that I am passionate about: https://tucsonherpsociety.org/sdtf/

Details of my most recent hospitalization (released yesterday). And some thoughts, delivered on the occasion of reflection, on personal accountability and responsibility. We must manage ourselves through acute self-awareness and hard-to-swallow pills in various forms. Manic episode switched into dysphoric suicidal ideation, charged by medication non-compliance and triggers. Bipolar affective/schizoaffective bipolar type lyfe.

Update on that psychotic manic bipolar life + my two spoken word to music tracks: Direct Messages too real sexual + demonic demonizing woman eyes sing Satan’s Goddess Psychedelic Retreat in Transylvania Holly Hurricane in Miami recovering from the flu ready to fly into art basel wearing some crazy ass shit. Oops I entered the wrong version of one of my things in the last one! Sorry. Choose your own adventure. https://on.soundcloud.com/sBwZT https://instagram.com/hollyhearingthings/

EMDR is changing my life and my brain. Following my first EMDR short episode and my lighthearted episode on Fearful Avoidant Attachment, here is a brief in-depth description of the process and neurobiological mechanisms at play during therapy. Topics include preparation for EMDR, specifics of a session and the brain changes happening and why it won't work for some people. I do not have Borderline Personality Disorder, which can be a roadblock with EMDR. I have Bipolar Disorder Type 1 and Complex PTSD. https://youtube.com/@manicinmiami?si=F7Fl4X8UlTmcPLsa previous two are the two episodes below this one lol https://www.instagram.com/hollyhearingthings/

People were asking about fearful avoidant attachment after listening to the EMDR episode. Here you go: rainy day activity 8 minutes including a ridiculous literary quote about hugging FA may "get". One little part is taken from my episode "What is The Cure? Thoughts Upon Discharge From the Psych Ward." because it applies here and that's a good episode (Spotify link below or find it on your own) https://open.spotify.com/episode/1CCf0jBhgevF5okWPk6IUP?si=0dd3364d0b514b67

Details of my first EMDR therapy session: how it works. A bit of philosophical/psychoanalytic analysis of children's fantasy movie The Neverending Story (1984) and its place in my EMDR and life lol Disorganized Attachment/Fearful Avoidant Attachment CBT thought stopping Emotional Neglect + Abuse https://manicinmiami.com https://www.instagram.com/hollyhearingthings/ The Neverending Story free full movie: https://www.dailymotion.com/video/x8gen0y

**Timestamps and links below** The return of the psychedelic psychiatrist, Dr. Scott Fisher. How can psychedelics alleviate the symptoms of depression and what is depression? Find Part 1 if you missed it (June 2023). It's really good! Host Holly (Hurricane) took psilocybin the day before recording. If you're in South Florida you can apply to participate in future trials (link below). Timestamps below. https://www.segaltrials.com/ https://manicinmiami.com https://www.instagram.com/hollyhearingthings/ https://www.youtube.com/@manicinmiami Timestamps: (00:00) intro (01:05) What is Depression? (05:56) "I took psilocybin yesterday." + psychedelic trials (08:39) psychedelic journey + possibilities (16:16) psychedelics + psychotherapy interventions (19:30) upcoming psychedelic clinical trials + ending

There's no catch: I had sex with a bipolar disordered Miami man I met through this podcast. It's a confessional episode sharing the most humiliating psychotic act I've committed in the recent past. not including details that would identify this anonymous guy who was never 100% single lol. music used with permission: Surrealist Temple Band + Insecure Men "Suicide Note #1" It's kind of a funny story unless you're me! triggers: abortion, miscarriage, suicidal ideation, dumb binch on the loose

guys, I know the last episode traumatized some of you. Here is a hypomanic "look on the bright side of child sexual abuse and rape" little add-on lmao. bipolar disorder ftw? happy full blue moon? sincerely, a lunatic.

Two Bipolar Type 1 with Psychotic Features aka Manic Depressives: we crazy. Video episode! Video available for Spotify listeners and on the emerging Manic in Miami YouTube https://www.youtube.com/@manicinmiami Holly Hosts the Very Manic Brandon Rohe (find his YouTube channel here). He tells my favorite manic stories on this podcast to date! Yasss! Topics include psychic powers, bipolar brain power, spirituality, mania + psychedelics. This is edited down for time, and I didn't have much to say for once. I look forward to doing another episode with him. special music! song about manic depressives included: The Surrealist Temple Band and find on Spotify (00:22) preview clips (00:23) intro+our mental illness, psychedelics, enlightenment, etc. (06:49) legendary manic stories: "take me to your leader", "naked and unafraid", UFOs, tasers, I dunno!} (12:20) the bipolar mind, psychic powers, etc.} (25:15) "Staying Awake" by the Surrealist Temple Band *used with permission}

Manic in Miami presents Black Girl Uninterrupted. Florida Woman to Florida native. Bipolar 1 to Bipolar 2. Guest Jamila discusses her own diagnosis, her work with NAMI, mental health in the black community, intergenerational trauma and her experiences with racism and social expectations. Crushing irony: white girl interrupted Jamila in the episode (I think.) Sorry, Jam. Follow Jamila on Instagram: https://instagram.com/black_girl_uninterrupted/ https://www.nami.org/ Follow me, but people keep getting scared of my content and unfollowing (no one gets my bewildering, maladaptive humor tho): https://instagram.com/hollyhearingthings/ I contacted Jamila on Instagram way back when because she is a fellow mental health account with a fantastic username. We share the same dedication to spreading mental chillness for us all. (*special note: I was inspired to rewatch Girl, Interrupted after this. Between Winona Ryder observing the patients (in one of her signature "pensive, forlorn journal writing" roles, mind you) and Angelina Jolie's cheekbones, butt chin, and level of crazy...and my own mental illness which was thriving when the film debuted...I DID have to turn it off to protect my mental stability haha. Good movie though.)

what's coming very soon [I was psychotic] and just a few inspirational passages to get you through the week! somehow all in 3 minutes https://instagram.com//hollyhearingthings/ books: a short history of decay by emil cioran black sun by julia kristeva humiliation by wayne koestenbaum lol https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5GIF67LFcFhxEnjD5QXq0U?si=ed0e68c9df724dad

5 min intro with context and note for neurotypicals topics: Going off meds, fleeing a country, a witch doctor, a safari, gross township tours, resilience, crime... trigger warning: suicide mentioned in jest. **cut out heartbreaking stories because they're not for entertainment. I accidentally recorded a Zoom catch-up with the Capetonian surfer/skateboarder I dated in Africa.  note: I did not intentionally stop my meds, listen to the lack of stigma and support of this dude, people manage to rise above trauma. that was a time.

This is a great episode!!! *yes...so sorry that you're receiving this twice. I couldn't move beyond the tiny glitch at the beginning and posted a second video. I replaced it with a reel, and everyone can deal. and cheel. Special Guest Dr. Scott Fisher, a South Florida psychiatrist specializing in psychedelic research and the support, psychotherapy, and integration elements of psychedelic healing experiences. I describe my ego death experiences. hehe. One during a suicidal bipolar tropical depression. Dr. Fisher joins me for an in-person video podcast to discuss psychedelics and mental health, healing trauma, progressive thoughts on mental illness + the DSM, the role of psychedelics in mental healthcare and the clinical method for psychedelic treatment, among other things. (to participate in psychedelic clinical trials in South Florida) ⁠⁠⁠https://www.segaltrials.com/⁠psychedelics⁠⁠ (guest) ⁠https://instagram.com/drscottfisher/⁠ (host) ⁠https://instagram.com/hollyhearingthings/⁠ (Multidisciplinary Association for Psychedelic Support) ⁠⁠https://maps.org/homepage/⁠⁠ (Segal Clinical Trials main page) ⁠⁠https://www.segaltrials.com/⁠⁠ a "cause" tangential to 5-MeO-DMT that I am passionate about: ⁠https://tucsonherpsociety.org/sdtf/⁠

Two bipolar mood disordered ladies who have been psychotic (which at times feels somewhat erotic). I don't know what to label anyone anymore. Am I really schizoaffective? It doesn't matter. ANYWAY. My former remote French podcast guest and I met in Paris!!! We recorded in Luxembourg Gardens on a gorgeous late Spring day! The intro is back in Miami on a dreary day with an exhausted and somewhat morose Holly Hurricane. I have a few clips from our first episode together at the end. We sang Live Forever at karaoke because, in our search for karaoke common ground, we realized the lyrics are somewhat manic and make a good point in the context of psychosis: We see things y'all sane people will never see. 17 min fairly short, all things considered. Check out the Manic in Reims + Miami episode for the full version https://instagram.com/hollyhearingthings/

exactly what the title says... solo mini episode addressing Dr. Nassir Ghaemi and perspectives on the DSM, the phenomenological approach to treating depression and my thoughts and subjective experience with psychedelic treatment for depression.

10 min mini episode to follow up the 13 min mini episode. The paradox of mental health awareness and mental illness. The stories of the mentally ill and empowering forms of therapy.

Bipolar Disorder, pharmaceuticals, benzos, side effects, antipsychotics...things are complicated. https://instagram.com/hollyhearingsthings/ Books: Leader, D. (2013). Strictly bipolar. Penguin Books Ltd. Whitaker, R. (2011). Anatomy of an epidemic: Magic Bullets, psychiatric drugs, and the astonishing rise of Mental Illness in America. Crown.