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Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss
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In a world full of social media promoting "perfect lives", many of us are afraid to show our true authentic selves. The good, the bad and the ugly. Behind the Smile with Ash Butterss is a podcast that aims to reveal the truth that lies behind the masks we wear.
After making the decision to get sober in 2020, Ash set out on a mission, quitting her corporate job and diving deeply into the world of self-development and recovery. Her mission is to smash through the stereotype that surrounds mental health, trauma and addition, to help people live a fulfilled life connected to their purpose.
After making the decision to get sober in 2020, Ash set out on a mission, quitting her corporate job and diving deeply into the world of self-development and recovery. Her mission is to smash through the stereotype that surrounds mental health, trauma and addition, to help people live a fulfilled life connected to their purpose.
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To kick off the new year, Ash sits down with holistic psychologist Laura Corcoran for a soulful and grounded conversation about how to truly create a powerful year ahead.Together, they explore the practice of letting go, not as something you think your way through, but as something you feel, embody, and live. They speak candidly about surrender, emotional release, and the subtle moments where growth asks you to slow down, soften, and trust yourself more deeply. Woven throughout is the importance of authenticity and the role of community in supporting real, lasting change.As they reflect on the year that’s been and turn their attention toward what’s possible next, Ash and Laura invite you to reconsider what it means to thrive. Less hustle, more presence. Less force, more space. A year shaped by rest, reflection, and joy, rather than pressure or perfection.The episode closes with an exciting announcement about The Embodied Woman, their upcoming retreat created for women who are ready to reconnect with their bodies, reclaim their worth, and step into the next chapter feeling grounded, supported, and deeply embodied.Episode Chapters:00:00 New Beginnings: Embracing 202601:38 Letting Go: The Journey of Self-Discovery04:29 The Power of Surrender: Trusting the Process09:54 Finding Strength Within: The Role of Emotional Release14:30 The Simplicity of Self-Connection: Embracing Stillness18:57 Redefining Success: From External Validation to Inner Peace23:22 The Importance of Community: Navigating Transformation Together26:26 Embracing Self-Worth and Authenticity27:20 Breaking Free from Co-dependency29:56 The Power of Presence and Self-Expression31:21 Navigating Loneliness and Connection35:30 The Journey of Self-Discovery and Embodiment37:27 Setting Intentions for 202643:11 The Embodied Woman Retreat49:39 Taking Action Towards ChangeYou can connect with Laura on her IG @hersuccessfulmind Upcoming Workshops:A Return To You | One Day Retreat Sunday 22nd February, 2026Tickets available here. Join Ash on retreat in 2026!The Embodied Woman Retreat | Gold Coast | May 2026 Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!
In part two of this conversation, Gabby opens up about what happened after her first attempt at recovery, when alcohol crept back in and the old patterns she thought she’d left behind began to resurface in new, painful ways.She speaks honestly about the experience of being a “dry drunk,” white-knuckling her way through sobriety without true emotional healing, and how that disconnection eventually led her back to party drugs and an inevitable rock bottom. Through raw reflection, Gabby unpacks the misconceptions she once held about addiction and sobriety, the fear that kept her stuck, and the moment she finally became willing to seek deeper help.She explores the ongoing nature of recovery: the reality of relapse, the weight of unaddressed trauma, and the mental health struggles that don’t magically disappear when the substances do. Ash and Gabby talk about the power of community, the safety of honest relationships, and the courage it takes to let others in when shame is loud. At the heart of this episode is a message of hope, about the transformative role of gratitude, self-awareness, and self-care in building a life that is not just sober, but genuinely connected and worth staying for.Episode Chapters:00:00 Introduction and Trigger Warning01:00 First Round of Recovery: A Journey Begins05:51 The Struggle with Alcohol and Denial09:59 The Dry Drunk Experience14:01 Revisiting Old Habits: The Return of Party Drugs19:53 Rock Bottom: A Descent into Darkness28:16 Facing Fear and Seeking Help31:42 The Journey to Rehab32:39 Discovering Community in Recovery35:40 Relapse and Realizations38:17 Understanding Rock Bottom41:54 Navigating Mental Health in Recovery45:49 Exploring CPTSD and Healing51:53 Finding Balance in Recovery57:24 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling LifeConnect with Gabby: IG: @bellylaughsbrutalhonesty and @gabriellesiobhan Podcast: Belly Laughs and Brutal Honesty Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram @ashbutterssWebsite www.ashbutterss.comUpcoming Workshops:A Return To You | One Day Retreat Sunday 22nd February, 2026Tickets available here. Join Ash on retreat in 2026!The Embodied Woman Retreat | Gold Coast | May 2026 Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!Support ServicesIf this conversation has brought anything up for you, please know you don’t have to go through it alone. Support is always available. You can reach out to Lifeline on 13 11 14 for 24/7 crisis support, Beyond Blue on 1300 22 4636 for mental health support and guidance, or the Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467 for free counselling.
In this two-part episode, I sit down with my close friend Gabby Williamson to lift the lid on the reality of living life in recovery. In part one of this conversation we talk about how, in her mid thirties, Gabby had everything that was supposed to add up to a good life - an impressive marketing career, a busy social calendar, and a carefully curated image. Behind the scenes, though, she was unraveling, using substances to cope with unresolved pain, mounting pressure, and a growing sense of disconnection from herself.Gabby shares the story of what happened when her life finally collided with the truth. She talks about hitting rock bottom and entering rehab at 39, and how that experience became the doorway to resilience, gratitude, and a completely new way of living. Her journey stretches back to childhood challenges, early substance use, and the impact of boarding school on her sense of identity, tracing how those early wounds shaped the choices she made in adulthood.Ash and Gabby explore the realities of navigating concerts, parties, and dating in recovery, and what it means to show up to those spaces without the old crutches. Gabby reflects on past relationships, the societal expectations that kept her performing a role, and the ongoing work of embracing her authentic self. She also speaks about motherhood, the weight of her decisions, and the profound growth that comes with redefining love, intimacy, and connection through a sober lens.Episode Chapters:00:00 Introduction and Background02:55 Life in Recovery and Daily Routines05:53 Navigating Social Situations in Sobriety08:58 Experiences at Concerts and Events11:58 Reflections on Past Relationships and Self-Perception15:06 The Impact of Substance Abuse on Life18:12 The Role of Gratitude in Recovery20:51 Hiding Behind a Smile: Personal Struggles23:48 Childhood and Early Exposure to Substance Use37:31 Childhood Trauma and Early Coping Mechanisms40:31 The Impact of Boarding School on Identity46:32 Escalation of Substance Use in Adolescence51:29 Navigating Relationships and Emotional Connections01:00:06 Reflections on Motherhood and Personal Choices01:06:32 Dating in Recovery and Redefining RelationshipsConnect with Gabby: IG: @bellylaughsbrutalhonesty and @gabriellesiobhan Podcast: Belly Laughs and Brutal Honesty Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram @ashbutterssWebsite www.ashbutterss.comUpcoming Workshops:A Return To You | One Day Retreat Sunday 22nd February, 2026Tickets available here. Join Ash on retreat in 2026!The Embodied Woman Retreat | Gold Coast | May 2026 Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!Support ServicesIf this conversation has brought anything up for you, please know you don’t have to go through it alone. Support is always available. You can reach out to Lifeline on 13 11 14 for 24/7 crisis support, Beyond Blue on 1300 22 4636 for mental health support and guidance, or the Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467 for free counselling.
Back by popular demand, this father daughter episode brings the conversation close to home, as Ash sits down with her dad, Rod, to explore what it truly means to grow, heal, and live with intention. Together, they reflect on how energy, consciousness, and the way we choose to see the world can shape the course of a life far more than circumstance ever could.Together, Ash and Rod dive into the practices that have supported their own journeys, including gratitude and meditation, and how these tools have helped them navigate relationships, soften old patterns, and find a deeper sense of peace beneath ambition and material success. They speak honestly about the complexities of family dynamics, the tension between chasing more and being enough, and the ongoing work of aligning how you live with what really matters.With the holiday season looming, their conversation turns to the emotional weight that Christmas can carry, especially for those in recovery or struggling behind the scenes. They share gentle, practical insights on protecting your energy, setting boundaries, and meeting yourself with compassion during a time that can feel anything but festive. At its heart, this episode is an invitation to slow down, look within, and choose kindness, to yourself and others, as a daily, deliberate practice.Episode Chapters:00:00 Introduction to the Holistic Retreat00:45 Exploring Personal Growth and Energy03:19 The Power of Ho'oponopono and Forgiveness06:17 Understanding Consciousness and Energy Frequencies08:53 Navigating Relationships and Personal Growth11:39 The Role of Gratitude in Healing14:29 Reflections on Materialism and Happiness18:03 Ambition vs. Inner Peace21:53 The Importance of Self-Awareness24:45 Christmas and Family Dynamics27:25 Coping with Holiday Stress and Expectations30:03 Navigating Sober Holidays34:06 Finding Peace in Family Gatherings36:42 The Shift from Materialism to Experiences39:42 The Importance of Kindness and Connection42:28 Final Thoughts and Non-Negotiables for HappinessFollow and connect with Ash on: Instagram @ashbutterssWebsite www.ashbutterss.comUpcoming Workshops:A Return To You | One Day Retreat Sunday 22nd February, 2026Tickets available here. Join Ash on retreat in 2026!The Embodied Woman Retreat | Gold Coast | May 2026 Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!
In the heart of New York City, Abby Calabrese was living the dream on paper but the reality was she was quietly unravelling behind the scenes. Long days, late nights, and a culture steeped in drinking turned alcohol into her go-to coping mechanism, even as the cost to her wellbeing grew harder to ignore.In this episode, Abby shares how walking away from alcohol became the catalyst for a complete identity shift and the creation of Alcohol Free Rebellion, a movement dedicated to helping others question the role alcohol plays in their lives. Ash and Abby dive into the awkwardness of social events without a drink in hand, the emotional honesty that sobriety demands, and how choosing not to numb out can radically transform relationships and self-worth.Abby offers practical guidance for facing triggers, especially during the holidays, while staying anchored in intention, community, and self-compassion. She speaks to the power of mindfulness in strengthening intuition and making choices that truly align with who you are. At the heart of her story are the non-negotiables she now lives by: authenticity, emotional awareness, and unwavering self-care as the foundation of a full, meaningful, alcohol-free life.Episode Chapters:00:00 Introduction to Abby Calabrese and Her Journey02:53 Navigating Life After Alcohol05:45 The Challenge of Socializing Sober08:29 Understanding Emotions and Feelings11:34 Shifting Perspectives on Life14:20 The Impact of Alcohol on Relationships17:25 Hiding Behind a Smile: Abby's Photo Story20:02 Recognizing Rock Bottoms and Justifications22:48 The Roots of Abby's Drinking History24:19 The Role of Alcohol in Socialization29:29 Recognizing the Problem32:21 The Turning Point37:24 The Challenge of Sobriety38:44 Shame and Stigma in Motherhood43:59 Transforming Relationships in Sobriety45:46 Embracing Authenticity in Relationships47:22 Navigating Sobriety During the Holidays49:16 Practical Tips for Alcohol-Free Celebrations53:40 Listening to Your Intuition56:50 Cultivating Mindfulness and Self-Awareness01:02:36 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling LifeFollow and connect with Ash on: Instagram @ashbutterssWebsite www.ashbutterss.comUpcoming Workshops:The Letting Go Ritual: Breathwork, Yin, and Intention Setting for 2026Tickets available here. A Return To You | One Day Retreat Sunday 22nd February, 2026Tickets available here. Join Ash on retreat in 2026!The Embodied Woman Retreat | Gold Coast | May 2026 Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!
Growing up on the streets of London, Damo H learned at an early age how to outrun pain, but it always caught up. In this candid and moving episode, Damo traces his journey through childhood trauma, the shadow of addiction, and the relentless pursuit of healing.He recounts how alcohol first became his refuge, how physical injury and prescription medication complicated his path, and how new beginnings in Australia brought a new set of challenges. The rock bottoms came again and again, each one forcing him to confront the reality of his disease.Through service, community, and the support of a 12-step program, Damo found answers that went deeper than sobriety. He shares how recovery reshaped his family, revived his passion for photography, and gave him a sense of purpose. With honesty and hope, Damo reveals what it means to rebuild life from the ground up, and how after years of struggle, he’s learning to embrace happiness, gratitude, and authentic connection.Episode Chapters:00:00 Introduction and Letting Go Ritual00:51 Meet Damo H: A Journey Begins02:57 Daily Life and Recovery Practices05:59 The Role of Service in Recovery08:47 Childhood and Family Dynamics12:01 The First Drink: A Turning Point14:55 Growing Up in London: The Streets and Gangs18:11 The Impact of Alcoholism on Relationships20:50 Moving to Australia: New Beginnings24:09 Career and Alcoholism: A Fragile Balance27:08 Rehab and the Road to Sobriety30:00 Family Tragedies and Resilience32:04 Reflections on Sobriety and Happiness36:24 The Slippery Slope of Addiction39:54 The Return to Alcohol46:11 Rock Bottoms and Revelations50:40 A New Approach to Sobriety01:01:30 Building a New Life in Sobriety01:07:20 Non-Negotiables for a Happy LifeFollow and connect with Ash on: Instagram @ashbutterssWebsite www.ashbutterss.comUpcoming Workshops:The Letting Go Ritual: Breathwork, Yin, and Intention Setting for 2026Tickets available here. A Return To You | One Day Retreat Sunday 22nd February, 2026Tickets available here. Join Ash on retreat in 2026!The Embodied Woman Retreat | Gold Coast | May 2026 Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!
For Shannon McCabe, hitting rock bottom became the beginning of everything. Once living a life that looked “fine” on the outside yet was quietly ruled by addiction, Shannon, a sober coach and transformation mentor, opens up about the raw truth of her journey through alcohol dependency and the deep healing that followed.In this powerful conversation, Ash and Shannon explore the emotional unraveling that precedes real change, the spiritual awakening that came through surrender, and the daily rituals that now anchor her sobriety. Shannon speaks honestly about motherhood and the challenges that come with caring for a child with special needs. The shame she battled on a daily basis through her addiction. Rediscovering self-worth, and showing how setting boundaries and embracing community became her path to peace.This episode is a reminder that recovery isn’t about who you were, it’s about who you’re becoming.Episode chapters:00:00 Introduction to Shannon's Journey02:05 A Day in the Life of a Sober Mom04:48 The Importance of Morning Routines06:50 Devotional Practices and Spirituality13:46 Behind the Smile: A Photo Reflection21:40 The Progression of Alcohol Use31:41 Moments of Clarity and Rock Bottoms37:43 The All-or-Nothing Mindset44:45 Non-Negotiables for a Sober Life53:19 Navigating Relapses and Setbacks58:42 Living Authentically and FreeYou can connect with Shannon using the links below:Website: www.shannonleighmccabe.comIG @shannonleighmccabeFollow and connect with Ash on: Instagram @ashbutterssWebsite www.ashbutterss.comThe Letting Go Ritual: Breathwork, Yin, and Intention Setting for 2026Tickets available here. Join Ash on retreat in Bali in 2026! All the details can be found at https://www.ashbutterss.com/bali-retreat-2026. Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!
What happens when self-worth becomes the missing piece in healing? In this episode, Ash sits down with Trauma Specialist and Psychotherapist, Jackson Goding, for a raw and thought-provoking conversation about what it really takes to recover, grow, and build authentic connection.Jackson opens up about his own journey through codependency, the reality of doing deep trauma work, and why self-worth sits at the heart of true healing. Together, they explore the often messy path of relationships, meditation, and emotional regulation, unravelling why personal growth is rarely linear and almost never easy.This episode goes far beyond the surface of “self-care.” It’s about courage, consistency, and the daily non-negotiables that help us return to ourselves again and again. Expect honesty, humour, and plenty of takeaways to help you nurture your own sense of worth and connection.Episode chapters:00:00 Introduction to Jackson Goding and His Work02:45 Living in Sydney and Future Plans05:33 Daily Life and Mindfulness Practices08:31 The Challenge of Powerlessness and Surrender11:14 Meditation: The Struggle and Its Importance14:04 Hiding Behind a Smile: Personal Struggles17:00 Relationships as Mirrors for Personal Growth19:40 The Complexity of Relationships and Recovery22:21 The Journey to Becoming a Therapist24:59 Core Beliefs and Their Impact on Identity31:02 Navigating Shame and Self-Worth31:46 Understanding Triggers and Responses33:07 Effective Communication in Relationships35:06 The Impact of Past Experiences36:53 Identifying and Expressing Needs39:59 The Importance of Boundaries41:36 Self-Accountability and Inner Child Work44:24 Defining Codependency48:10 The Challenges of Recovery from Codependency52:57 Staying Accountable in Relationships56:12 Establishing Non-Negotiables for Self-Care01:02:26 Finding Balance in RelationshipsYou can connect with Jackson via the below channels:It Ends With Us Retreat: https://findreasontherapy.com.au/it-ends-with-us/ IG @findreasontherapy https://www.instagram.com/findreasontherapy/ Before you do more work: https://app.heartbeat.chat/findreason/courses/c/e7acf2c4-df05-4546-8b6c-092d8363fa2aFollow and connect with Ash on: Instagram @ashbutterssWebsite www.ashbutterss.comThe Letting Go Ritual: Breathwork, Yin, and Intention Setting for 2026Tickets available here. Join Ash on retreat in Bali in 2026! All the details can be found at https://www.ashbutterss.com/bali-retreat-2026Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!
One moment changed everything for Rhiannon Tracey, but it didn’t define her spirit. In this heartfelt conversation, the motivational speaker, TEDx presenter, and wellness advocate opens up about the accident that left her with a spinal cord injury and the extraordinary journey that followed.Rhiannon shares how she transformed tragedy into purpose, from the early days of relearning life’s simplest tasks to founding a not-for-profit dedicated to helping others do the same. Along the way, she discovered the healing power of community, self-love, and joy in the smallest moments.With honesty and warmth, she reflects on the boundaries she’s learned to set, the intuition she’s learned to trust, and the unconditional love of her pets that carried her through. Her story is a moving reminder that freedom doesn’t come from circumstance, it comes from choosing to live with hope, gratitude, and authenticity.The episode highlights are:00:00 Introduction to Resilience and Transformation01:55 Daily Life and Joys of Rhiannon05:11 Hiding Behind a Smile: A Photo Reflection22:53 The Day That Changed Everything: Rhiannon's Accident26:43 Resilience Through Adversity29:52 Finding Hope in Trauma37:30 The Role of Hope in Recovery47:33 Creating a Community for Healing50:12 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling LifeYou can connect with Rhiannon using the links below:Website: www.rhiannontracey.com.auThe Next Step Recovery & Wellness Centre: www.thenextstepsci.org.auInstagram: @rhiannontraceymywheellife | @our_little_urban_homestead | @thenextstepscirecoveryEmail: rhiannontraceymywheellife@gmail.comFollow and connect with Ash on: Instagram @ashbutterssWebsite www.ashbutterss.comJoin Ash on retreat in Bali in 2026! All the details can be found at https://www.ashbutterss.com/bali-retreat-2026. Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!
After decades on the front line, retired police officer Jay Prothero found himself fighting a different kind of battle—the one inside his own mind. In this raw and powerful conversation, Jay opens up about the toll that years of trauma, high pressure, and suppressed emotion took on his mental health.He shares how anxiety, depression, and PTSD slowly crept in, and how alcohol became his escape from the pain he didn’t know how to face. But Jay’s story goes far deeper than his time in uniform. It’s also about the heartbreak of watching his own child spiral into ice addiction, and the painful, messy road toward family healing.Together, Ash and Jay unpack what it truly means to break the silence, to face yourself with honesty, and to rebuild a life grounded in authenticity, courage, and hope.Episode chapters:00:00 Introduction to Jay Prothero's Journey04:14 The Power of Ice Baths and Breathwork08:49 Hiding Behind a Smile: Jay's Struggles with Mental Health17:35 The Impact of a Police Career on Mental Health26:22 The Journey to Recovery: Jay's Path to Healing35:13 Parenting Through Addiction: Jay's Experience with His Son43:30 Living Authentically: Jay's Non-Negotiables for HappinessYou can connect with Jay through:Instagram @freezeyourself_au @breathe_with_jay Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram @ashbutterssWebsite www.ashbutterss.comJoin Ash on retreat in Bali in 2026! All the details can be found at https://www.ashbutterss.com/bali-retreat-2026. Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!
Psychosis is one of the most misunderstood experiences in mental health, often clouded by fear, stigma, and silence. In this powerful episode, Ash sits down with clinical psychologist Dr. Julia Nicholls, who courageously shares her personal journey through postnatal depression and psychosis.What makes Julia’s story so extraordinary is not just her vulnerability, but the fact that she’s a mental health professional who found herself on the other side of the system she once worked within. Together, Ash and Julia unpack the misconceptions surrounding psychosis, the shame that still shadows mental health struggles, and the raw reality of asking for help when you’re expected to have the answers.Julia also opens up about the healing process of writing a memoir with her husband, revealing how storytelling and connection became powerful tools for recovery. This conversation is a reminder that even those who guide others through their darkest moments are not immune to them—and that speaking openly about our pain can be the very thing that sets us free.Key Highlights:The importance of taking time for self-care and rest.Reflective practice is crucial for psychologists to maintain objectivity.Hiding behind a smile is common among those struggling with mental health.Early motherhood can be particularly challenging for mental health.The inner critic can exacerbate feelings of inadequacy in new parents.Mental health practitioners also need support and can face stigma.Postnatal psychosis is often misunderstood and can manifest in various ways.Electroconvulsive therapy (ECT) is a safe and effective treatment for severe depression.Open communication is essential for healing in relationships affected by mental health issues.Seeking help is vital, and there are many resources available.Episode chapters:[00:00] Introduction and Retreat Announcement[03:15] Meet Dr. Julia Nicholls[10:45] Understanding Postnatal Depression[20:30] The Stigma of Mental Health in Professionals[30:00] Exploring Psychosis and Misconceptions[40:15] The Role of ECT in Recovery[50:00] Healing and Open Communication[60:00] Closing Thoughts and ResourcesYou can connect with Dr. Julia Nicholls using the links below:LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/julia-nicholls-105679a3Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/drjulianicholls/Website: https://drjulianicholls.com/Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram @ashbutterssWebsite www.ashbutterss.comJoin Ash on retreat in Bali in 2026! All the details can be found at https://www.ashbutterss.com/bali-retreat-2026. Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!
In this episode, Ash sits down with former pro surfer turned mental health trailblazer, Cooper Chapman, for a raw and inspiring conversation about purpose, mindset, and creating real change from the inside out.After years chasing trophies and external success, Cooper realised the waves he truly needed to ride were the ones within. What followed was a powerful shift, one that led him to build The Good Human Factory and dedicate his life to helping others nurture their mental wellbeing.Cooper opens up about what he’s learned along the way, from the quiet power of small daily habits to the freedom that comes when we stop seeking validation outside ourselves. He shares the story behind the 1% Good Club, a global movement encouraging people to spend just 14 minutes a day on gratitude, mindfulness, and self-reflection, because big change always starts small.Together, Ash and Cooper explore the importance of community, balance, and practical self-care routines that actually stick. Cooper’s message is simple yet profound: mental health isn’t a destination, it’s a daily practice of showing up with compassion, curiosity, and consistency.Key highlights include:Cooper's journey from pro surfer to mental health advocate.The importance of small, consistent actions for mental health.The 1% Good Club encourages daily mental health practices.External validation can impact mental wellbeing.Community support enhances accountability in mental health.Mindfulness and gratitude are key practices for mental health.Mental health is a continuous journey, not a destination.Finding balance in life is essential for wellbeing.Nature and connection to the earth are vital for mental health.It's okay to take a break and prioritise self-care.Episode chapters:00:00 Introduction to the Retreat and Guest00:45 Cooper Chapman's Journey and Book Launch01:54 The Impact of External Validation06:40 Navigating Long-Distance Relationships11:27 Finding Balance in Life and Work13:32 Hiding Behind a Smile: Cooper's Struggles19:32 Shifting Mindsets and Mental Health Advocacy26:27 The Birth of the Good Human Factory33:55 The 1% Good Club: A Community for Mental Health38:52 Daily Practices for Mental Wellbeing51:41 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling LifeYou can connect with Cooper using the links below:Instagram - @cooperchapman + @thegoodhumanfactoryWebsite - thegoodhumanfactory.com1% Good Club Book - Buy Here!Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram @ashbutterssWebsite www.ashbutterss.comJoin Ash on retreat in Bali in 2026! All the details can be found at https://www.ashbutterss.com/bali-retreat-2026. Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!If you need support with your mental health, please contact Lifeline on 13 11 14. Or if you'd prefer to text lifeline, you can reach a support team member on 0477 13 11 14.
In this heartfelt episode, Ash is joined by breathwork facilitator and sober mum, Jo Kinna, for a powerful conversation about rebuilding life after addiction. Jo opens up about the deeply personal journey of repairing her relationship with her children, navigating the pain of divorce, and discovering her true purpose in the middle of life’s most challenging season.Through honesty and vulnerability, she shares how breathwork, meditation, and community became essential tools in her healing and how they continue to support her sobriety today. Jo’s story is one of resilience, showing that even after years of struggle, it’s possible to create meaningful connection, inner peace, and a life aligned with your true self.This episode shines a light on the courage it takes to start over, the strength found in repairing broken bonds, and the hope that comes when you embrace mid-life as a new beginning.The episode highlights are:00:00 Introduction to the Retreat and Podcast Themes01:52 Jo's Journey: From Addiction to Recovery06:27 Daily Practices: Meditation and Breathwork11:03 Navigating Social Anxiety and Relationships14:40 The Impact of Trauma on Addiction18:29 The Cycle of Addiction: A Personal Story23:00 Hitting Rock Bottom and Seeking Help27:57 The Role of Community in Recovery32:42 Life After Rehab: Challenges and Growth37:25 Finding Purpose: Breathwork and Teaching42:03 Future Aspirations and Continued Growth46:32 Closing Thoughts and Non-NegotiablesJoin Jo at her next event The Gift of Pause on November 12th at Merkabar Studio in Cheltenham - Event Details & Tickets Here! You can connect with Jo Kinna on Instagram here @beyondthewave__Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram @ashbutterssWebsite www.ashbutterss.comJoin Ash on retreat in Bali in 2026! All the details can be found at https://www.ashbutterss.com/bali-retreat-2026. Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!
In this episode, we’re joined by Nick Jonsson, a global keynote speaker and mental health advocate. Nick shares his inspiring journey from reaching the heights of corporate success to his journey of personal recovery, discussing the challenges of hitting rock bottom and getting sober, along with balancing travel, work, and family life. He opens up about his hidden struggles behind his smile, the isolation that comes with success, losing a close friend to suicide and the physical manifestations of stress. Nick emphasises the importance of surrendering to change, building connections, and sharing stories to combat loneliness. He also talks passionately about the role of fitness in his recovery. This episode offers a profound look at vulnerability, resilience, and the transformative power of connection in the pursuit of mental and emotional well-being.The episode highlights are:00:00 Introduction to Nick Jonsson's Journey02:52 The Importance of Routine in Recovery05:43 Behind the Smile: The Struggle with Executive Loneliness08:25 The Downward Spiral: From Success to Isolation11:31 The Roots of Anxious Overachievement14:12 The Impact of Drinking Culture on Mental Health16:57 Hitting Rock Bottom: The Psychosomatic Illness19:55 The Turning Point: Finding Hope and Connection23:44 The Power of Surrender28:33 Building Connections in Recovery30:24 Honoring Simon: A Catalyst for Change35:35 Understanding Smiling Depression39:09 The Journey of Self-Discovery42:51 Encouraging Vulnerability in Men46:37 Fitness as a Key to Recovery49:03 Living Authentically: Non-Negotiables for LifeYou can connect with Nick through:LinkedIn: www.linkedin.com/in/nick-jonssonYouTube: www.youtube.com/c/NickJonssonInstagram: www.instagram.com/jonssonnickFacebook: https://web.facebook.com/jonsson.nickFollow and connect with Ash on: Instagram @ashbutterssWebsite www.ashbutterss.comJoin Ash on retreat in Bali in 2026! All the details can be found at https://www.ashbutterss.com/bali-retreat-2026. Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!#behindthesmilewithashbutterss #recoveryjourney #lonliness #mentalhealthmatters #depression #resilience #breakthestigma #vulnerability #mensmentalhealth #recoveryispossible
In this raw and unfiltered solo episode, Ash opens up about what really happened after returning from a powerful retreat in Bali. She shares the unexpected crash that followed, the darkness she found herself sitting in, and how she’s been navigating waves of depression with honesty and self-compassion.Ash talks about the messy reality of healing, the role of the nervous system in moments of struggle, and the surprising strength that comes from leaning on community. She doesn’t sugarcoat the hard parts, but instead shows how vulnerability, connection, and small acts of self-care can carry us through even the heaviest seasons.If you’ve ever felt like you “should” be further along or questioned why things feel so hard after big breakthroughs, this episode will remind you that you’re not alone, and that the path to healing is never a straight line.The episode highlights are:00:00 Introduction to the Retreat and Podcast01:38 Vulnerability and Personal Reflection02:34 Post-Retreat Struggles and Burnout05:24 Navigating Depression and Emotional Awareness10:14 Finding Comfort in Nostalgia and Self-Care14:22 Understanding Nervous System Regulation17:47 The Importance of Emotional Processing20:53 Self-Compassion and Authenticity28:51 Insights from the Retreat Experience33:20 Looking Ahead: Slowing Down and Self-CareTo access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resourcesFollow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Website
In this episode, Ash welcomes Justine Youl, who shares her remarkable journey of recovery and transformation after facing an abusive relationship, crippling addiction and debilitating mental health. At the peak of her alcoholism, Justine couldn’t even leave her house. Now, over three and a half years sober, Justine runs a thriving international business from her home in Bali, where she lives with her partner and three children. Justine describes the discipline of her morning routine, the importance of setting clear boundaries, and the life-changing effects of breathwork and meditation on her healing process.Justine also bravely opens up about navigating grief, her spiritual journey, and how living with ADHD has shaped her perspective and daily life. Through her experiences, she embodies resilience and hope, demonstrating that it is possible to create a meaningful and joyful life after overcoming immense challenges.This conversation is a powerful reminder of the strength found in self-discovery, the healing power of mindfulness, and the courage it takes to build a fulfilling life one day at a time.Her story is one of resilience, hope, and the pursuit of a fulfilling life after overcoming significant obstacles.The episode highlights are:00:00 Introduction to Justine's Journey02:54 Life in Bali: A New Beginning05:41 Facing the Past: Sobriety and Family Dynamics08:30 The Impact of Domestic Violence11:30 The Descent into Addiction14:24 Finding Recovery: The Path to Sobriety17:10 Building a New Life: Parenting and Recovery20:10 The Power of Morning Routines22:54 Navigating Grief and Loss25:54 Establishing Boundaries with Family28:57 Spiritual Growth and Transformation31:47 Breathwork and Meditation: Tools for Healing34:35 The Role of ADHD in Daily Life37:29 Cold Therapy and Its Benefits40:19 The Journey of Faith: Baptism and Belief43:03 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling LifeYou can connect with Justine through:Instagram: @jus_youlLinkedIn: Justine YoulTo access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website.Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Website
In this episode, Ash is joined by Chris Gimpel, a passionate advocate for sobriety and mental health, who shares his courageous journey of overcoming alcohol dependence. Chris speaks candidly about the realities of living with addiction, the pivotal moment that inspired him to seek help, and the ongoing work required to maintain his recovery.The conversation explores the essential role of community, the practice of self-compassion, and the process of rewiring the brain to establish healthier patterns and habits. Chris reflects on the non-negotiables that anchor his daily life, including prioritising rest, spending quality time with his dog, and finding purpose in supporting others on their own paths to healing.This episode is a testament to the power of authenticity and connection, offering hope, practical insight, and inspiration for anyone navigating the challenges of recovery and self-discovery.The episode highlights are:00:00 Introduction to Chris Gimple and His Journey06:18 The Role of Pets in Recovery09:15 Life Before Sobriety: A Day in the Life15:57 Understanding Alcohol Dependence22:49 The Recovery Process: Challenges and Realizations25:32 The Turning Point: A Moment of Honesty26:53 Recognizing the Need for Change28:04 Seeking Help and Support29:25 The Role of Family and Self-Worth30:45 Finding Motivation for Recovery33:25 Relearning Emotions and Thoughts36:45 Creating Healthy Patterns37:08 Navigating Challenges in Sobriety42:04 Embracing the Unknown46:26 Choosing Your Hard48:39 Living Authentically and Non-NegotiablesTo access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resourcesFollow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Website You can connect with Chris through his Instagram: @gimpse 4-Week Sober Challenge with Danni Carr
In this deeply inspiring episode, Ash sits down with Sarah Viliamu, founder of The Self Love Supply, to explore her extraordinary journey of resilience, healing, and empowerment. From experiencing childhood homelessness and family violence to navigating the heartbreak of recurrent miscarriages, Sarah opens up about the adversity that has shaped her and the tools that have helped her rise above it. With openness and wisdom, Sarah shares the practices that have supported her path to healing, highlighting the power of self-love, the importance of community, and the courage it takes to keep showing up when life feels unbearable. She reflects on how personal struggles can impact relationships and offers insight into the ways grief can also deepen connection and compassion. Sarah also gives a glimpse into the upcoming Empowered Her event, created to inspire women, foster meaningful connection, and remind us all of the strength that comes from standing together. This is an episode about finding light in the shadows, embracing vulnerability, and choosing resilience as a way forward.The episode highlights are:00:00 Introduction and Sensitive Topics Warning00:51 Meet Sarah Villiamu: A Journey of Resilience03:29 Life Changes: Pregnancy and Family Dynamics05:12 Behind the Smile: The Reality of Miscarriage08:33 Coping with Loss: Tools for Healing10:40 The Complexity of Grief and Support14:28 Navigating Relationships Through Grief17:00 The Role of Friends in Times of Loss18:06 Childhood Experiences: A Unique Upbringing22:58 Impact of Family Violence on Relationships25:03 Escaping Reality: Coping Mechanisms26:24 The Journey to Modeling and Body Image30:05 Self-Acceptance and Inner Healing37:16 Creating Community: The Self Love Supply39:43 Empowered Her Event: A Space for Women43:14 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling LifeFollow and connect with Sarah below: Instagram @sarahviliamuInstagram @theselflovesupply Tiktok @sarahviliamuFind out more about The Empowered Her Event here.Empowered Her 2025 Event Discount Code = Use the code BTS50 for $50 off the ticket price!To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resourcesFollow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Website
In this episode, Ash is joined by Ryan Bayly, who courageously shares his story of 19 years of sobriety, the mental health battles he has faced, and the isolating experience of living with Sharp Edge Eye Syndrome, a condition doctors struggled to believe. For decades, Ryan hid behind a smile, staying quiet about his pain, carrying the weight of loneliness and misunderstanding.Sobriety became the first step in Ryan’s journey back to himself, helping him rediscover who he truly was beneath the silence and struggle. It opened the door to living fully, embracing travel, and building a life that feels expansive and aligned. He reflects on the freedom that comes from connection, community, and allowing himself to be seen as he really is.This conversation is a raw and inspiring reminder that even in the depths of silence and struggle, connection can bring light. It’s a testament to resilience, self-acceptance, and the hope that comes from walking the journey of recovery together.The episode highlights are:00:00 Introduction to Ryan's Journey02:49 Daily Life and Sobriety05:15 The Impact of Mental Health Work07:57 The Struggles of Social Interactions10:39 Childhood Experiences and Their Effects13:06 The Development of Sharp Edge Eye Syndrome15:48 Coping Mechanisms and Alcoholism18:33 The Journey to Recovery21:16 Finding Community and Understanding23:47 The Importance of Breath and Mindfulness26:13 The Power of Sharing and Connection29:23 Non-Negotiables in Life32:07 Conclusion and Final ThoughtsTo access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resourcesFollow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Website
In this inspiring episode, Ash is joined by Elle McBride, a Certified Havening Techniques® Trainer, who opens up about her personal journey through trauma and the healing work that has transformed her life.Elle shares how discovering Havening became a turning point, not only in her own recovery, but in her ability to help others release the emotional weight of their past. Together, Ash and Elle explore the lasting impact of childhood trauma on adult behavior, and the role of community, self-compassion, and resilience in creating lasting change.This is a powerful conversation about the deep human need for connection, and the practical tools that can guide us toward emotional freedom and healing.The episode highlights are:00:00 Introduction to Elle McBride and Havening Techniques03:49 Elle's Personal Journey and Transformation08:33 Understanding Havening Techniques11:49 The Impact of Havening on Clients16:28 Elle's Childhood and Early Influences20:51 Near-Death Experience and Its Significance25:45 Finding Purpose and Meaning Through Challenges27:20 Finding Peace Through Struggles34:34 The Power of Community and Connection36:06 Understanding Childhood Trauma44:02 Healing and Building Resilience47:40 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling LifeYou can connect with Elle through social media and her links listed below: Web: www.ellelouisemcbride.comHouse of Delta: www.houseofdelta.comEmail: contact@ellelouisemcbride.comProgram Login: https://havening.podia.com/Train with Elle: https://www.houseofdelta.com.au/haveningtrainingInstagram: @ellelouisemcbrideFacebook: Elle McBride OfficialYouTube: Elle Louise McBrideInsight Timer: Elle Louise McBrideTikTok: @ellelouisemcbrideLinkedIn: Elle Louise McBrideTo access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resourcesFollow and connect with Ash on: Instagram TikTok Website























