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Aya's out here in her feels per usual. Looking within as she takes space from the digital world. Now she has to sit with herself in silence. Aya dives into her Rapé ceremony and how it really slapped her in the face. Learning how to sit with deep emotions can easily be avoided when you have a phone where on the other hand she's feeling the withdrawal symptoms of running from big emotions by distraction and sitmulation. Dive in as Aya process her journey and how she's preparing for major energetic shifts. Instagram:  Personal - https://www.instagram.com/sshelbs/ Podcast - https://www.instagram.com/ayawithin/ Tiktok:  https://www.tiktok.com/@soshelbs https://www.tiktok.com/@ayawithin Youtube:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCGOD2QlFksgcrSMXBcOya0w Website:  https://www.soshelbs.com Services Provided:  Personal & Branding Coaching  Content Creation  Brand Management Workshops & Retreats 

In this episode, Aya dives into the difference between what your nervous system is reacting to and what your intuition is actually trying to tell you. She explores why familiar cycles feel safer than aligned ones, why the unknown triggers anxiety, and why endings can feel like grief even when they’re the right move for your evolution.Aya also breaks down the science behind why we cling to old patterns from prediction error, to dopamine withdrawal, to the brain’s addiction to the familiar. And she shares what it really means to be the black sheep, the first in your family to choose a path with no blueprint.If you’ve been confusing fear with intuition… or mistaking comfort for alignment… this episode will shift the way you listen to your body and your soul.Full moon Youtube: https://youtu.be/mkDQz_85hQU?si=6qYG8gcoE108oNhy

In this first episode of Season 2, I get honest about something I’ve avoided talking about for years: the holidays.Not the cute, cozy, Instagram version the real version.The anxiety, the loneliness, the pressure, the grief of not having the childhood holiday story you were “supposed” to have… the weird mix of nostalgia and sadness when December rolls around. And what it feels like to spend the holidays alone, again, as a single nomadic woman rebuilding her life from scratch.I talk about how holidays have changed for me, why they never felt like home, what I wish holidays actually looked like as adults and the power of rewriting the narrative. If the holidays make you feel heavy, tender, disconnected, or just plain weird… you’re not alone.Welcome to Season 2 after a year of NO CONTACT xoxo The unfiltered era.

Aya dives into the complexities of friendships and communication. She dissects her own communication style and considers how her communication has impacted the development and longevity of old, new, and future relationships. She discusses the difficulties around being neurodivergent and how this could impact one's communication skills.  Join us this May 28th for The Divine Self Retreat in Portugal. To learn more head ⁠here ⁠ Instagram:  Personal - https://www.instagram.com/sshelbs/ Podcast - https://www.instagram.com/ayawithin/ Tiktok:  https://www.tiktok.com/@soshelbs https://www.tiktok.com/@ayawithin Youtube:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCGOD2QlFksgcrSMXBcOya0w Website:  https://www.soshelbs.com Services Provided:  Personal & Branding Coaching  Content Creation  Brand Management Workshops & Retreats 

Aya is coming in raw straight from the iPhone memos in the Dominican Republic. Exploring the relationship shifts that are happening within her life. Letting go of old friendships, and places, and traveling to the Dominican. Is Aya ready to rekindle her relationship with her mom after no contact for 3 years? Many shifts happening and more to come.  Join us this May 28th for The Divine Self Retreat in Portugal. To learn more head ⁠here ⁠ Instagram:  Personal - https://www.instagram.com/sshelbs/ Podcast - https://www.instagram.com/ayawithin/ Tiktok:  https://www.tiktok.com/@soshelbs https://www.tiktok.com/@ayawithin Youtube:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCGOD2QlFksgcrSMXBcOya0w Website:  https://www.soshelbs.com Services Provided:  Personal & Branding Coaching  Content Creation  Brand Management Workshops & Retreats 

Aya takes us on a journey through the evolution of her life over the past four months. Offering a glimpse into her world, she shares updates on various aspects, with a particular focus on light, frequency, and sound. The episode promises an insightful exploration of these elements and their impact on Aya's life. Tune in to hear firsthand about the recent developments and experiences that have shaped Aya's unique journey. OIN US MAY 2024 for the Third Divine Self Retreat   https://www.soshelbs.com Instagram:  Personal - https://www.instagram.com/sshelbs/ Podcast - https://www.instagram.com/ayawithin/ Tiktok:  https://www.tiktok.com/@soshelbs https://www.tiktok.com/@ayawithin Youtube:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCGOD2QlFksgcrSMXBcOya0w Website:  https://www.soshelbs.com Services Provided:  Personal & Branding Coaching  Content Creation  Brand Management Workshops & Retreats 

Aya is finally listening... thank goodness because her spiritual team has been yelling at her but shes been to stimulated to even listen. Not only is Aya taking a major digital detox but all of her romantic partnerhsips are coming to a close. Dive into part 2 of how she's leaning into silence. Instagram:  Personal - https://www.instagram.com/sshelbs/ Podcast - https://www.instagram.com/ayawithin/ Tiktok:  https://www.tiktok.com/@soshelbs https://www.tiktok.com/@ayawithin Youtube:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCGOD2QlFksgcrSMXBcOya0w Website:  https://www.soshelbs.com Services Provided:  Personal & Branding Coaching  Content Creation  Brand Management Workshops & Retreats 

my partner cheated wtf do I do? Aya dives into a topic that a lot of her community members comes to her about. Cheating is a subject she is all to familar with after finding out her ex husband and partner of 8 years was cheating on her with 6 women for 7 years. This event was the shift she was manifesting into her life and was a time that brought up anger, shame, rejection, and a deeper spiritual awakening. During this episode Aya talks about her perspective and what she learned as she grieved her past life, relationship, and self. As always this is just one perspective and a experience that is meant to be delivered with love & respect. JOIN US SEPTEMBER 1st - 6th 2023 for the second Divine Self Retreat   https://www.soshelbs.com/retreat-sign-up Instagram:  Personal - https://www.instagram.com/sshelbs/ Podcast - https://www.instagram.com/ayawithin/ Tiktok:  https://www.tiktok.com/@soshelbs https://www.tiktok.com/@ayawithin Youtube:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCGOD2QlFksgcrSMXBcOya0w Website:  https://www.soshelbs.com Services Provided:  Personal & Branding Coaching  Content Creation  Brand Management Workshops & Retreats 

This convo is raw and real! After a long work day a new soul friend and aya stopped to smoke a joint and dove into the most divine convo. Tears, laughter, and golden nuggets - both helping eachother gain something the universe needed them to hear. JOIN US SEPTEMBER 1st - 6th 2023 for the second Divine Self Retreat   https://www.soshelbs.com/retreat-sign-up Instagram:  Personal - https://www.instagram.com/sshelbs/ Podcast - https://www.instagram.com/ayawithin/ Tiktok:  https://www.tiktok.com/@soshelbs https://www.tiktok.com/@ayawithin Youtube:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCGOD2QlFksgcrSMXBcOya0w Website:  https://www.soshelbs.com Services Provided:  Personal & Branding Coaching  Content Creation  Brand Management Workshops & Retreats 

What does self-sabotage look like to you? How are you currently self-sabotaging in your life? What reoccuring patterns do you see happening within your life? Is this self-sabotaging behavior generational? The way I ruin my life due to this deep fear of rejection is pretty fucking frustrating tbh. This fear plays a role in all my relationships an now I'm really experiencing it at a different level now that I've entered the dating world after a 8 year relationship and getting divocred due to infidelity. Let's dive into how I self-sabotage within my relationships and what I'm doing to step into my power an heal these deep ingrained patterns. Book I'm currently reading: Attached. The New Science of Adult Attachment and How it Can Help You Find and Keep Love Amir Levine, M.D., and Rachel S.F. Heller, M.A. JOIN US SEPTEMBER 1st - 6th 2023 for the second Divine Self Retreat   https://www.soshelbs.com/retreat-sign-up Instagram:  Personal - https://www.instagram.com/sshelbs/ Podcast - https://www.instagram.com/ayawithin/ Tiktok:  https://www.tiktok.com/@soshelbs https://www.tiktok.com/@ayawithin Youtube:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCGOD2QlFksgcrSMXBcOya0w Website:  https://www.soshelbs.com Services Provided:  Personal & Branding Coaching  Content Creation  Brand Management Workshops & Retreats 

Are you a planner? Aya dives into the topic about planning and how it creates energetic blocks in her life. She loves to plan but is realizing maybe it's because she's trying to gain control where there actually is no control. "Do we try and plan our lives to find some type of footing when in reality we have no control?" Let's chat about how I'm trying not to plan but love to plan & how planning might be creating more probelms than actually helping. JOIN US SEPTEMBER 1st - 6th 2023 for the second Divine Self Retreat   https://www.soshelbs.com/retreat-sign-up Instagram:  Personal - https://www.instagram.com/sshelbs/ Podcast - https://www.instagram.com/ayawithin/ Tiktok:  https://www.tiktok.com/@soshelbs https://www.tiktok.com/@ayawithin Youtube:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCGOD2QlFksgcrSMXBcOya0w Website:  https://www.soshelbs.com Services Provided:  Personal & Branding Coaching  Content Creation  Brand Management Workshops & Retreats 

It was my time to do a deep dive into my life. I wanted to give a better idea of who I am, where I come from, and my own specific challenges I face. This is part 1 where I talked about my childhood, schooling, and how there has always been this common theme in my life that I am trying to process.   Love to hear your thoughts and let me know if you're excited for pt 2!

From 2020 to 2025, everything cracked open.The plans we thought were solid dissolved. Identities fell apart. Coping mechanisms stopped working. And whether we were ready or not, we were asked to meet ourselves more honestly than ever before.In this episode, Aya reflects on the collective initiation of the last five years - what it meant to live through constant uncertainty, emotional shedding, and deep personal reckoning. She shares her own story of identity loss, nervous system recalibration, and learning how to listen to the quieter, truer voice beneath the noise.As we step into 2026, we’re closing out a powerful cycle of endings and entering a new season of renewal, movement, and embodied direction. This conversation explores what it means to consciously release what no longer fits, honor what shaped us, and intentionally call in the next version of our lives - without bypassing the grief, fear, or tenderness that comes with change.This is not a “new year, new you” conversation.It’s a remembering. It's raw and intimate. A recalibration.An invitation to move forward with clarity instead of force.If you’ve felt like the last few years broke you open and you’re ready to choose what comes next this episode is for you.

What Happens When You Stop Smoking WeedAnxiety, emotional flooding, vivid dreams, REM sleep rebound, attachment patterns, and nervous system recalibration explained.Within this podcast episode, Aya dives into what actually happens in your body when you stop smoking weed not from a place of shame or fear, but through a nervous-system-informed, trauma-aware lens.She explores how cannabis interrupts natural emotional processing, why emotions can feel overwhelming when the numbness wears off, and why anxiety, sleep disruption, and vivid dreams are common during withdrawal. This episode breaks down emotional numbing, dissociation, REM sleep rebound, attachment styles, and the “emotional backlog” effect explaining why quitting can feel worse before it feels better.Rather than framing cannabis as the problem, Aya reframes the experience as a process of emotional completion, nervous system recalibration, and self-regulation. This episode is especially for anyone who has used weed to cope with stress, trauma, anxiety, or overwhelm and wants to understand what’s actually happening in their body when they take a break.This is not an anti-weed conversation.It’s an invitation into clarity, self-trust, and learning how to meet yourself when the numbness fades.If this resonates and you’re craving structure, tools, and support while your nervous system recalibrates, you'll love the THE RESET COMMUNITY THE RESET SELF GUIDE 1:1 Coaching Meditation App Name: Field Trip

welcome to a lil q&a with aya diving into the fundamentals of mushys. this episode is based off personal experiences and our bff chat gpt. For all things 🍄 go to Mycrologi and use code AYAWITHIN for a discount! Some of my favs: Clarity Wavy Microdose Bliss Bites (my fav) Support What I want to try: Restore Psychedelic Bundle Ritual Albion A Join me in the Dominican as we dive within, connect with the land, and vibeee.  Instagram:  Personal - https://www.instagram.com/sshelbs/ Podcast - https://www.instagram.com/ayawithin/ Tiktok:  https://www.tiktok.com/@soshelbs https://www.tiktok.com/@ayawithin Youtube:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCGOD2QlFksgcrSMXBcOya0w Website:  https://www.soshelbs.com Services Provided:  Personal & Branding Coaching  Content Creation  Brand Management Workshops & Retreats 

cheated on once again... maybe its just me? aya dives into her little jungle life and how she took her discomfort & said "fuck you, let's make the most of it". has aya made a mistake of going back to the small village where her ex lives and is currently dating his old ex girlfriend or is this the next step in her journey of healing a deep wound around rejection and claiming it as redirection. Next Retreat Feb 13th-19th for more info here Instagram: Personal - https://www.instagram.com/sshelbs/ Podcast - https://www.instagram.com/ayawithin/ Tiktok:  https://www.tiktok.com/@soshelbs https://www.tiktok.com/@ayawithin Youtube:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCGOD2QlFksgcrSMXBcOya0w Website:  https://www.soshelbs.com Services Provided:  Personal & Branding Coaching  Content Creation  Brand Management Workshops & Retreats 

In this episode, Aya dives into the transformative practice of cycle syncing—aligning your lifestyle with the four phases of your menstrual cycle to optimize your health, productivity, and overall well-being. Cycle syncing allows you to work with your body’s natural rhythms, making every phase an opportunity for growth, rest, or connection. Aya breaks down each phase, explaining how to harness the unique energy of each one and sharing journal prompts designed to deepen your self-awareness and support personal development: Menstrual Phase: Focus on rest and reflection. Journal Prompt: "What am I ready to let go of? How can I give myself more rest and care during this time?" Follicular Phase: Tap into creativity and new ideas. Journal Prompt: "What new ideas or projects excite me right now? How can I turn them into action?" Ovulatory Phase: Embrace confidence and connection. Journal Prompt: "How can I use my confidence to build stronger connections? Who can I reach out to for collaboration or support?" Luteal Phase: Focus on completion and introspection. Journal Prompt: "What unfinished tasks need my attention? How can I bring more balance into my life before my next cycle?" Throughout the episode, Aya emphasizes how syncing your diet, exercise, and self-care routines with your cycle can help reduce stress, balance hormones, and prevent burnout. She also explains how this practice leads to greater self-awareness, productivity, and emotional well-being by helping you live in alignment with your body. Whether you're looking to optimize your energy or deepen your connection to yourself, this episode will guide you through how cycle syncing can become a life-changing practice. Tune in to discover how to leverage your body’s natural rhythm for intentional, empowered living! Join Natural Cycles with code: SHELBS for 15% off your annual subscription and a free thermometer. https://www.naturalcycles.com/join-me?utm_campaign=instagram-newsletter-podcast&utm_medium=organic&utm_content=sshelbs&utm_source=Instagram&code=Shelbs&name=Shelby&percentage=15

In this episode of ayawithin, we’re diving deep into all things sex. Aya gets personal, sharing how growing up in Utah with teen parents shaped her sexual awareness. As she embarked on her spiritual journey, she felt a profound calling to connect with her womb on a deeper level. Aya opens up about the powerful shift she experienced transitioning from hormonal to non-hormonal birth control. This episode is sponsored by Natural Cycles, and as a gift to our community, use code SHELBS at naturalcycles.com to get 15% off your annual subscription, plus a free thermometer. Instagram:  Personal - https://www.instagram.com/sshelbs/ Podcast - https://www.instagram.com/ayawithin/ Tiktok:  https://www.tiktok.com/@soshelbs https://www.tiktok.com/@ayawithin Youtube:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCGOD2QlFksgcrSMXBcOya0w Website:  https://www.soshelbs.com Services Provided:  Personal & Branding Coaching  Content Creation  Brand Management Workshops & Retreats 

Join Aya for an ayawithin frequency session—a laid-back smoke session where we’ll explore the techniques she's been using to manage anxiety, the powerful process of closing circles in Ayas life, and a soothing mini meditation to wrap things up. Roll up and set an intention. Artists: Olivia Dean Joy Crooks ENNY Pip Millet Keisuke Sakai Erothyme Entheo Instagram:  Personal - https://www.instagram.com/sshelbs/ Podcast - https://www.instagram.com/ayawithin/ Tiktok:  https://www.tiktok.com/@soshelbs https://www.tiktok.com/@ayawithin Youtube:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCGOD2QlFksgcrSMXBcOya0w Website:  https://www.soshelbs.com Services Provided:  Personal & Branding Coaching  Content Creation  Brand Management Workshops & Retreats 

Aya confesses to her self-sabotaging patterns as her body still remains in a survival mode. Aya is faced with new challenges as she's learning how to navigate falling in love while also reconditioning her mind and body as she is easily triggered in a new way. Press play for a real and raw experience as Aya dives into her life in a vulnerable way. Instagram:  Personal - https://www.instagram.com/sshelbs/ Podcast - https://www.instagram.com/ayawithin/ Tiktok:  https://www.tiktok.com/@soshelbs https://www.tiktok.com/@ayawithin Youtube:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCGOD2QlFksgcrSMXBcOya0w Website:  https://www.soshelbs.com Services Provided:  Personal & Branding Coaching  Content Creation  Brand Management Workshops & Retreats