Marvellous Mind

A deep exploration of addiction as an illusory pleasure that erodes autonomy, offering insights into breaking free and choosing long-term nourishment over short-term relief.Timestamps 0:02 Addiction and loss of autonomy1:01 Pleasure as a mask for pain1:40 Shrinking time perspective in addiction2:15 Short-term highs vs long-term costs3:20 Coping without destructive habits4:20 Why nourishing choices feel harder6:15 Seeing pleasure for what it really is8:10 Planting seeds for long-term growth

A contemplative talk on lifelong learning, curiosity, and the danger of stagnation — exploring how humility, not-knowing, and authentic creativity keep the soul alive. #curiosity #spiritualgrowth #selfrealization #philosophy #learning #ego #creativity #mindfulness #growth #awarenessTimestamp Chapters:0:00 Lifelong learning and conscious living1:20 Comfort, complacency, and the death of curiosity2:30 The friction of studying something new3:40 Returning to economics and rediscovering old passions4:50 The beauty of not knowing6:00 Reality tunnels and the limits of perception7:10 Humility as the foundation of growth9:00 Curiosity as the antenna of the mind10:30 The trap of algorithmic repetition in content creation14:00 Freedom, authenticity, and staying a student of life

In this video I reflect on our collective enslavement to money, the invisible chains of debt and work, and how capitalism conditions us into perpetual dissatisfaction. From India to the UK, I’ve seen how money dominates psychology and culture alike. This is not just economics—it’s spiritual. It’s about how we live, what we give our energy to, and whether we can ever be free.Chapters:0:00 – Introduction: Enslavement to money0:35 – Cost of living and scarcity conditioning1:55 – Poverty, development, and global money consciousness3:07 – Work, wages, and the hamster wheel trap5:12 – Debt as invisible chains7:49 – Capitalism’s perpetual dissatisfaction9:19 – Productivity culture and being constantly squeezed11:16 – Spirituality, politics, and bypassing the real world

Silence isn’t absence—it’s the ground of awareness that lets you see the mind clearly, reclaim your attention, and end the worry loops that drain your life force. In this talk I unpack practical self-mastery: cultivating a one-pointed mind, easing the stress response, and returning to the primordial stillness behind thoughts (presence, meditation, mindfulness, non-dual insight).Chapters0:00 – Welcome & thesis: silence = self-mastery0:36 – Scattered attention and wasted life force1:46 – Training a silent, one-pointed mind2:56 – How to look at the mind: pause, witness, zoom out4:18 – Stress response vs. restoration (why anxiety exhausts you)6:01 – Worry loops and fear of the future8:03 – Attention gives reality; the nuance of “manifestation”10:09 – Reality as a neutral field of potentials11:45 – Beyond thought: the primordial silence (Dao/Brahman)15:20 – Words are pointers; closing reflection

Comfort feels safe—but over time it shrinks our capacity to live, love, learn and evolve. In this talk I break down why “comfort addiction” keeps us stuck, how to build a real relationship with the unknown, and why courage, repetition and sacred work grow the soul. If you’re ready to trade numbness for aliveness, this one’s for you.Chapters0:00 – Comfort as an addiction (why it quietly traps us)0:36 – How comfort atrophies capacity & keeps life the same1:44 – Making friends with the unknown (controlled stress)2:30 – Staring fear in the face: adversity as a teacher3:20 – Talk vs action: the courage to risk failure4:05 – Beginner’s mind: ego, instruments & perseverance5:26 – Talent vs discipline & the sacredness of work6:50 – Practice, attention, neuroplasticity & slow gains8:43 – Perfectionism vs becoming; gratitude for growth10:58 – Learn from failures and wins; honour your desiresKey ideas• Comfort is sweet in the moment, costly over years• Growth = chosen discomfort + consistent practice• Failure is feedback; success isn’t a finish line• Discipline and devotion turn potential into powerIf this helped: drop a comment with one discomfort you’ll choose this week. Share with someone who needs a nudge out of the nest.Subscribe for more grounded conversations on addiction, attention, purpose, and spiritual growth.Hashtags#ComfortAddiction #SelfGrowth #Spirituality #Courage #Discipline #Perseverance #MindsetShift #Neuroplasticity #Perfectionism #PersonalEvolution

Change isn’t blocked by a lack of tips—it’s blocked by our addiction to comfort, distraction, and high-dopamine loops. In this talk I unpack why stepping into the unknown feels scary, how hidden “attention leaks” drain your life-force, and the practical path back to courage, focus, and soul-aligned work (including dopamine reset, ending escapist habits, and choosing challenge on purpose). If you’re tired of Groundhog Day living, this one’s for you.Chapters00:00 Why change feels scary (the real cost of comfort)01:49 Groundhog Day living & comfort zones02:31 Attention leaks: habits as energy sinks03:49 Reclaiming energy by ending addictions04:56 Escapes, possession & procrastination loops05:40 Choose consciously: zoom out on your life path06:50 Love discomfort: learn badly first (instruments example)07:47 Flow & passion vs high-dopamine “fun” (video games)09:31 Redirect your energy to purpose (what actually nourishes)11:24 Dopamine, anhedonia & resetting pleasure

In this video I explore the roots of addiction, the illusion of relief it offers, and how true healing comes from turning inward rather than seeking constant distractions. Through personal reflection and spiritual insight, I share how awareness, shadow work, and valuing health over instant gratification open the path to recovery and regeneration.0:00 – Introduction: Why we chase feeling good0:33 – Addiction as short-term relief and long-term pain1:36 – Psychological and spiritual roots of coping2:23 – Shadow work and self-reflection3:39 – Looking inward vs filling the void5:33 – The cycle of distraction and relapse6:41 – Reciprocal narrowing of addiction7:47 – Choosing health and the body’s power to heal

Addiction recovery isn’t just about quitting a substance or behavior—it’s about facing the emptiness, boredom, and restlessness that rise when the crutch is gone. In this video, I explore why early recovery feels so bleak, how boredom becomes the greatest test, and why sitting with stillness is the gateway to freedom. We’ll talk about patience, willpower, the higher self, and how life transforms once you stop being a slave to your impulses.This is a message for anyone wrestling with boredom, relapse temptations, or the subtle pain of withdrawal. Healing takes time, but it also brings profound strength, awareness, and alignment with who you truly are.⏱ Chapters0:00 – Facing addiction with courage and willpower1:01 – Why recovery feels boring and blunted2:41 – Boredom, relapse risk, and the pain of stillness3:57 – Patience and impermanence: nothing lasts forever5:17 – The war with yourself and inner demons6:07 – Fun feelings vs. the soul’s deeper hunger7:37 – Higher self vs. lower self: moving toward alignment✨ If this video resonates, make sure to subscribe for more grounded reflections on addiction, healing, and spiritual growth.#AddictionRecovery #HealingJourney #OvercomingAddiction #SpiritualAwakening #HigherSelf

In this video, I explore the hidden link between escapism and addiction. From childhood video games to modern distractions like Football Manager, I share my personal journey of how escapism can spiral into addictive patterns—and how awareness, shadow work, and courage can help us reclaim our attention and energy. If you’ve ever wondered why boredom feels unbearable, or why certain habits consume more of your life than they give back, this reflection will help you see addiction not as weakness, but as a teacher pointing towards growth.Chapters:0:00 – Escapism as the root of addiction1:14 – Childhood patterns and early gaming habits2:29 – Video games as powerful escape simulators3:44 – Falling back into old grooves (Football Manager)5:00 – Moderation turning into compulsion7:00 – Energy leaks, overstimulation & lack of growth9:48 – Awareness, courage, and cutting escapist patterns

We avoid boredom because it exposes us—so we drown ourselves in dopamine, feeds, and “productivity.” This talk maps how perpetual stimulation breeds burnout and addiction-style loops, and why sitting with boredom becomes the doorway back to creativity, sanity, and a deeper okay-ness. Watch slow, not as a hit.Chapters 00:01​ — Why we avoid boredom00:24​ — Overstimulated senses & avoiding the self00:57​ — Boredom as a portal to creativity01:07​ — Dopamine economics: waves vs. the “tsunami” life01:42​ — Rest, passivity, and assimilation (letting the psyche digest)02:35​ — Caffeine culture & the cult of productivity03:20​ — The Burnout Society: costs of perpetual output04:41​ — Feeds as slot machines: the endless-scroll design06:23​ — Addiction parallels: tolerance, novelty-chasing, numbness10:28​ — Getting off the wheel: detox, mindfulness, radical okay-ness

A raw meditation on addiction — exploring cravings, the rewiring of the brain, the illusion of pleasure, and the slow erosion of spirit. I share my personal journey through substances, cannabis dependency, and the deeper cycles of indulgence, panic, depression, and recovery. More than just a warning, this reflection frames addiction as both a destructive demon and a strange teacher — a shamanic descent into the underworld that can either consume you or forge wisdom from suffering.Chapters:0:00 – Opening meditation on addiction0:32 – The demon of desire and escape1:55 – Cravings and the brain’s rewiring3:49 – Early sobriety and distorted memory5:45 – Addiction, loneliness & meaninglessness7:01 – Cannabis and the illusion of self-medicine9:57 – From cannabis to harder substances12:27 – The compulsive redose loop14:05 – Anhedonia and loss of natural joy16:01 – The devil’s seduction: pleasure vs. spirit17:00 – Addiction as shamanic descent and rebirth

A raw and unfiltered journey through addiction, self-destruction, and recovery. I share my personal experience with substances like 4-MMC and ketamine, exploring how addiction begins as self-medication, spirals into isolation, and eventually forces a confrontation with the shadow self. This is not theory — it’s lived truth. For anyone struggling or seeking to understand addiction as both a human wound and a potential teacher, this reflection may offer perspective, honesty, and hope.Chapters:0:00 – Why I Keep Talking About Addiction0:39 – Addiction as Self-Medication for Pain2:27 – The Paradox: Knowing It’s Harmful but Still Using3:05 – My Story with 4-MMC (Mephedrone)5:00 – The Rush, the Redose, and Losing Willpower7:50 – Social Anxiety, University Life, and Escaping Through Drugs9:25 – The Shrinking World of Addiction11:20 – Sweaty at 4 a.m., Looking in the Mirror12:40 – Loneliness, Boredom, and Dependency18:56 – Recovery, Shadow Work & The Slow Path of Healing

In this reflective talk, I explore the reality of creative block — how it feels, why it arises, and what it can teach us about awareness, environment, food, and rest. Drawing on personal experience, Ayurveda, and self-inquiry, I share insights into the deeper roots of stagnancy, the importance of environment and nutrition for mental clarity, and how rest and stillness are as vital to creativity as action itself. A grounded meditation on burnout, inspiration, and the cycles of creation.Chapters & Timestamps:0:00 – IntroductionCreative block as the seed of today’s reflection.0:36 – The Feeling of Creative BlockDullness, resistance, and cognitive numbness.2:05 – Block as a Portal to Self-InquiryUsing stagnancy as a meditation bell.3:14 – Environment and InspirationUrban chaos vs. natural stillness.6:07 – Food and Mental StateThe intimate link between nutrition and creativity.7:19 – Ayurvedic PrinciplesSattvic, Rajasic, and Tamasic foods explained.11:28 – My Shift from Coffee to TeaTuning into the energetics of caffeine.13:02 – Inputs to ConsciousnessHow environment and food feed awareness.17:16 – Facing Burnout in the MomentRest, boredom, and waiting for inspiration.22:59 – Rest as Creative FuelBalancing action and stillness for authentic creativity.

In this talk I explore the power of attention as our most precious resource. How distraction loops, social media, and unconscious habits drain our energy—and how meditation, awareness, and paying attention to attention itself reconnects us to reality, sovereignty, and even the mystical dimension of being. This is about reclaiming your consciousness, seeing through illusion, and remembering the divinity at the heart of existence.0:00 – Attention as Our Most Precious Resource0:36 – The Attention Economy and Distraction Loops1:18 – Sovereignty of Consciousness2:44 – Attention and the Present Moment (Meditation)4:19 – Attention Shapes Reality and Action6:07 – Awareness of Patterns and Habits8:41 – Root Causes, Jung, and Active Imagination9:40 – Mystical Experience and Ineffability12:01 – God, Nature, and Divinity as Existence14:30 – Dissolving the False Self and Quantum Reality18:04 – Latent Human Capacities and Forgotten Magic20:53 – Subtleties of Consciousness and Final Questions

In this video I explore the metaphysics of neurodivergence — the loneliness of being different, the masks we wear to survive, and the deep gifts of awareness and sensitivity. From childhood alienation to the bliss of solitude, this is a reflection on acceptance, rarity, and finding meaning as an outsider.If you’ve ever felt out of step with the world, this is for you.Chapters0:00 – Introduction: Being Different2:00 – Seeing Patterns Others Miss4:00 – Questioning Money & Social Structures6:00 – Psychic Attacks & Lesser Awareness8:00 – The Exhaustion of Masking10:00 – Solitude as Bliss12:00 – Why Small Talk Feels Absurd14:00 – Philosophy Without Curiosity16:00 – Outliers & Innovation18:00 – Autism, Hyper-Interests & Labels20:00 – Acceptance Over Fitting In22:00 – Rare Connections & Quality Over Quantity

In this heart-centered conversation, my wife and I explore the deeper terrain of romantic relationships — beyond roles and rules, into presence, truth, and soul. We speak on emotional safety, sacred partnerships, assumptions, and how to love without possession. This is for anyone navigating the edges of love, growth, and spiritual connection.⸻⏱️ Chapters:0:00 – Oceanic BeginningsOpening the space for an intuitive, soulful riff on relationships.1:30 – Attention is the Purest Form of LoveWhy real understanding starts with presence, not assumption.3:50 – The Fear of Conflict and Speaking TruthHow fear blocks emotional intimacy, and how to trust your partner with your truth.6:10 – Commercial Love vs Sacred ConnectionExploring how consumer culture distorts our expectations of love.9:00 – Creating Emotional SafetyWhat it means to hold space and create nonjudgmental safety in partnership.11:45 – Healing Before You Meet ThemUnhealed patterns attract unhealed partners — how to shift that.14:30 – Endings as Spiritual InitiationsLetting go to make space for aligned love. Ending with dignity.17:00 – Clearing Baggage to Make SpaceHow past projections sabotage the present — and what to do about it.

No plans. No frame. Just the raw stream of presence.In this unscripted riff, I explore the tension between creation and depletion, silence and noise, truth and bypassing, and the shadow side of spiritual commodification. I speak on ethical service, content fatigue, attention warfare, and the pathless path of awakening — the kind that doesn’t skip over the dark.0:00 Pure breath, pure meditation1:16 Craving silence in a noisy world3:00 Burnout, rest, and the creative cycle6:00 The trap of algorithmic content8:14 Bypassing vs honouring the dark9:32 Ethical service & resisting the sellout11:47 Consumerism and what really matters13:27 Spirituality, illusion, and the matrix16:56 Reverence for both light and dark20:00 Awareness, healing, and the body23:00 Mystery, psychedelics, and awakening

In this one, I speak openly about my own experience with addiction — not in some clinical, detached way, but as someone who’s been through the depths. Addiction isn’t just about substances… it’s about escape, fixation, the loss of self. But it’s also an initiation. A breakdown that can, if you’re willing, become a turning point. This is about healing — not through therapy-speak or shallow affirmations, but through facing your own darkness, reclaiming your agency, and learning to trust in your body’s intelligence. If you’re in it, or coming out of it, I hope something here lands.00:00 intro – the truth about addiction01:00 the illusion of escape03:00 chaos, collapse, and awakening06:00 the cycle of craving and self-destruction09:30 facing mortality, choosing to heal11:00 the body’s intelligence & self-healing12:30 belief, agency, and real recovery#Addiction #Healing #SpiritualRecovery #ShadowWork #ComingHomeToYourself

In this unscripted riff, I explore the raw terrain of attention, inner stillness, and the ego’s constant narration. We’ve become addicted to noise — thought loops, dopamine spikes, endless stimulation — and forgotten the subtle intelligence of simply watching.This isn’t a meditation tutorial. It’s a deeper inquiry into what arises when the mind is quiet — how true creativity flows, how society suppresses that flow, and why awakening isn’t just about self-care... it's a form of rebellion.I move through themes of nonduality, gnosis, the Demiurge, food as mind control, and the factory farming of human consciousness. If you've ever questioned the system you’re in, or sensed the deeper pattern beneath the chaos, this one’s for you.✨ In this riff:The real purpose of meditationCreativity without egoGnosticism, archons & the priest classPsychedelics and the war on inner freedomWhy silence threatens the systemHow to reclaim your own awarenessIf it resonates, subscribe, drop a comment, and share it with someone waking up too.#Silence #SpiritualAwakening #Gnosticism #Demiurge #Nonduality #InnerFreedom #CreativeFlow #EgoDeath #Consciousness #TheMatrix

In this riff, I speak on the nature of growth — not as a self-help cliché, but as a process of death, discomfort, and deep spiritual honesty.Real evolution demands that we let go of who we think we are.It asks us to embrace the unknown. To face our fear of failure.To stop numbing ourselves with comfort and begin showing up — raw, humble, and willing — as students of the universe.I share thoughts on:– Why growth is always tied to loss– How comfort becomes a trap– The importance of resistance in transformation– What it really means to feel alive– The spiritual power of doing something that unsettles youIf you’re someone drawn to inner work, shadow integration, and the deeper currents beneath selfhood — this one’s for you.Subscribe for more riffs on consciousness, change, and the slow return to wholeness.Let’s keep going — together.Timestamps (Chapters):00:00 – Growth & evolution00:56 – Death of the old self02:49 – Fear of failure03:05 – Becoming a student of the universe05:02 – Comfort as a spiritual block08:12 – Flow vs. obligation09:03 – Boredom & lack of surprise#SpiritualGrowth #ShadowWork #HealingJourney #EgoDeath #PersonalEvolution #Mysticism #ConsciousnessShift #LettingGo #InnerWork #SelfTransformation