Recovery Daily Podcast

Yesterday I finished an amazing book! It’s called Unexpected Awakening: 22 Days at a Buddhist Monastery Freed Me from Abuse by Laurie S. Jacobson (Available on Amazon here: https://a.co/d/09rqj0Ln)It’s a MUST READ for anyone who’s ever stayed too long in a relationship that was breaking you. While this book tells a story, it is a testimony of resilience of the human spirit. There is a beautiful series of synchronicities throughout the book that inspire the reader to look beyond what’s in front of you to the hope we can cultivate within ourselves in our darkest seasons.I was able to relate to the main character on so many levels, from quietly enduring emotional abuse to the restitution of her identity she found at the monastery. I, as a grateful recovering alcoholic and stroke survivor, recognized the deeply familiar feeling of detoxing from the chaos and finding that I’d not yet given up on myself. The mercy and silence at the beginning of a structured recovery journey is uncomfortable but necessary to start rebuilding one’s self-worth.The psychological toll of emotional abuse is a self-constructed prison, and the author nails articulating her inner battle, fears, and the journey of her awakening. Her journey is not ordinary, in fact, it leaves the reader inspired that there is more going on in this life than what we see with our eyes. The story shows us how small choices and inner dialogue can lead us to freedom, just as it has in my recovery. Noticing, staying, and feeling the hard stuff is the imperfectly human pathway to living a new beautiful life. That ending? I wasn’t prepared for it, and it absolutely undid me.On my world famous Reads and Recovery Readometer scale it came in at 5 TAIL WAGS! https://recoverydailypodcast.com/reads-and-recovery/Listen and subscribe wherever you get your podcasts and YouTube. Rather listen on Apple Podcasts? https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/recovery-daily-podcast/id1693924779 Visit my Etsy shop, and join my creative journey at Recovery Upcycling. https://www.etsy.com/shop/RecoveryUpcyclingLink my low impact Recovery Exercise Program Week 1: https://recoverydailypodcast.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/02/Exercise_Week1.pdf#emotionalabuse #spiritualawakening  #freedomfromabuse #recoveryjourney #abusivemarriage 

I’m exercising while I podcast, because my commitment to the show is solid and I’m hoping I can “borrow” a little of that and apply it to building a new exercise routine. It’s odd, but it works! 💃🏻As I move through an upper-body-and-posture routine today, I talk about an amazing quote I heard: “Some of the worst things in my life never happened.” - Mark Twain. Wow! Doesn’t that just speak volumes about the terrifying stories we tell ourselves, especially during the slow collapse of my life when I felt trapped yet feared change. Chronic headaches and winter isolation has blurred the line between fatigue and depression lately. It’s important during the winter months to notice if I still feel gratitude and look forward to things. These are signs that I’m experiencing fatigue instead of depression. Recognizing that they feel similar and learning how to distinguish them within me is a big step in stroke recovery.If you’d like to join my low impact Recovery Exercise Program Week 1, listen to todays episode, and click here for your copy: https://recoverydailypodcast.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/02/Exercise_Week1.pdfListen and subscribe wherever you get your podcasts and YouTube. Rather listen on Apple Podcasts? https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/recovery-daily-podcast/id1693924779 Visit my Etsy shop, and join my creative journey at Recovery Upcycling. https://www.etsy.com/shop/RecoveryUpcycling #StrokeRecoveryExercises #VestibularRecovery #PostStrokeRehab #GratitudeInRecovery #AdaptiveFitness

Exercise used to be second nature for me before my stroke. I used to do flow yoga at 4pm daily, 4-mile walks with Autumn daily, and frequent outdoor runs. Now my vestibular symptoms, headaches, and stubborn back pain turned movement into a whole new negotiation.So I outsmarted the resistance by pairing exercise with the one routine I never abandon — my podcast! As I demonstrate Day 1 of a 7-day, 30-minute, low-impact exercise plan ✨SEE LINK TO EXERCISE PLAN BELOW ✨ (sit-to-stands, supported lunges, calf raises, weight shifts, heel-to-toe walking), I also share what’s been rattling around in my head: self-imposed crisis, expectations, ego, motives, and the tension between showing up for others versus showing up for myself. As the inner debate built a verdict, I landed on the role of gratitude in my life after stroke. Link to Recovery Exercise Program Week 1: https://recoverydailypodcast.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/02/Exercise_Week1.pdfListen and subscribe wherever you get your podcasts and YouTube. Rather listen on Apple Podcasts? https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/recovery-daily-podcast/id1693924779 Visit my Etsy shop, and join my creative journey at Recovery Upcycling. https://www.etsy.com/shop/RecoveryUpcycling #StrokeRecoveryExercises #VestibularRecovery #PostStrokeRehab #GratitudeInRecovery #AdaptiveFitness

An unscripted check-in about enjoying the Super Bowl without looking at the TV, navigating vestibular limits, sober traditions, and the quiet mental load of noticing what affects symptoms.Listen and subscribe wherever you get your podcasts and YouTube. Rather listen on Apple Podcasts? https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/recovery-daily-podcast/id1693924779 Visit my Etsy shop, and join my creative journey at Recovery Upcycling. https://www.etsy.com/shop/RecoveryUpcycling #vestibulardiscorder #vestibular #sobersuperbowl #soberlife #vestibularmigraine

Practicing Step 1 in stroke recovery is the activation point of building a psychological immune system. By accepting that my stroke changed my life forever, I could then begin adapting to the injury without exhausting myself in a constant fight against reality. Admitting powerlessness and unmanageability over my neurological injury took two years. In both alcoholism and stroke recovery, denial delayed healing. No matter how hard I tried to act normal, I was only making things worse. Step 1 interrupted that pattern. Once I accepted my disability, I could start healing physically and psychologically.Each day I make decisions based on today’s brain, not yesterday’s. I must accept my fatigue, visual overload, and pacing as reality not failures. This is the same muscle I built in sobriety, accepting that alcohol was not an option and building a life around that truth. Acceptance stabilized life, strengthening my psychological resilience allowing for healing, adaptation, and hope.Listen and subscribe wherever you get your podcasts and YouTube. Rather listen on Apple Podcasts? https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/recovery-daily-podcast/id1693924779 Visit my Etsy shop, and join my creative journey at Recovery Upcycling. https://www.etsy.com/shop/RecoveryUpcycling #strokeRecovery #StepOneAA #AcceptanceInRecovery #PsychologicalResilience #LivingInAcceptance #lifeafterstroke

Step 1 in my stroke recovery started the same way Step 1 did in my sobriety. I had to admit that I’m powerless over my disability just as I did my alcoholism, and that my life had become unmanageable. I was in denial prior to the moment of admission in both situations. No one could see what was wrong with me, and with both, all the pain was between my ears. I could describe symptoms, explain the pain, but I dismissed the severity with both. I tried to function normally while the pain gradually got worse each time. I pushed through and convinced myself the pain would go away. It never did. Step One taught me to become self-aware. Stroke recovery took that lesson I learned in sobriety and turned the volume all the way up. Now I’m conscious of my eye movement, my pace, my gaze, the tiny shifts that most people don’t even notice but trigger pain for me. I see the same pattern in my addiction cravings and my impulse in stroke recovery to push beyond the limits of what my brain can do. My biggest challenge isn’t knowing what I can’t do, it’s accepting it. Listen and subscribe wherever you get your podcasts and YouTube. Rather listen on Apple Podcasts? https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/recovery-daily-podcast/id1693924779 Visit my Etsy shop, and join my creative journey at Recovery Upcycling. https://www.etsy.com/shop/RecoveryUpcycling #StrokeRecovery #AcceptingUnmanageability #RecoveryJourney #RadicalAcceptance #LifeAfterStroke #step1 

What are you afraid of, and would you be willing to expose your fears? I used to be afraid to leave the house, talk to people, and even answer the phone. Now, at 9.5 years sober, many of my fears have been addressed, while a few are still very much alive. The biggest thread for me, abandonment, was exposed the first time I did my Step 4 in 2017. I have some irrational fears that I work on with my psychiatrist weekly, and although they aren’t reasonable they are very real and scary for me.Sobriety has grown my confidence and shifted my perspective on so much. I encourage you to get out a piece of paper and a pen (remember what those are?) and listen to this list of fears. This is a great opportunity to learn about yourself and build a life where fear doesn’t drive the bus. You might not even notice the fears you return to most often.Listen and subscribe wherever you get your podcasts and YouTube. Rather listen on Apple Podcasts? https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/recovery-daily-podcast/id1693924779 Visit my Etsy shop, and join my creative journey at Recovery Upcycling. https://www.etsy.com/shop/RecoveryUpcycling #EmotionalSobriety #StepFour #FacingFear #InnerWork #RecoveryDaily

Everything in my head feels like a five-alarm fire. How do I take my emotional emergencies and right-size my thoughts and emotions so they match the situation I’m actually in. I tend to treat discomfort like it’s urgent, permanent, and catastrophic. Not every uncomfortable feeling requires an immediate action, and sometimes no response at all is the wisest.I’ve always had big emotions, but big feelings don’t require big actions. The majority of my time is spent emotionally time-traveling. I’m either reliving the past or panicking about the future. If I can sit with discomfort long enough to see where it took root, I can choose a response that matches the size of the situation, and build new habits of self-awareness and emotional regulation. I’m not a victim of my emotions.Listen and subscribe wherever you get your podcasts and YouTube. Rather listen on Apple Podcasts? https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/recovery-daily-podcast/id1693924779 Visit my Etsy shop, and join my creative journey at Recovery Upcycling. https://www.etsy.com/shop/RecoveryUpcycling #EmotionalRegulation #MentalHealthAwareness #EmotionalWellness #MindfulnessPractice #selfawareness

When I’m pissed at someone, I played a role in the communication breakdown. I must stop fixating on what the other person did to me and look honestly at where I’ve been selfish, dishonest, self-seeking, or afraid (without turning it into a shame-fest).It’s humbling to set aside the emotional inner retaliation and ask, “What was my part?” So in today’s episode, I admit some of my real-life mistakes 😬 and those character defects I still battle, like wanting things my way, jealousy, wanting to be the best, and wanting to be liked. Gratitude is the best antidote. Listen and subscribe wherever you get your podcasts and YouTube. Rather listen on Apple Podcasts? https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/recovery-daily-podcast/id1693924779 Visit my Etsy shop, and join my creative journey at Recovery Upcycling. https://www.etsy.com/shop/RecoveryUpcycling #StepFour #AARecovery #SobrietyJourney #gratitude #step4 

Long-held resentments are the trickiest. Sobriety removes the anesthesia that kept old pain muted, so these resentments start peeking out of the chaos as the numbing wears off. Time fossilized them into the foundation of my life. Step Four gives those resentments a voice. What do I do with resentments when I can’t talk to the person? When they’re unreachable, unavailable, or no longer alive, closure doesn’t have to be a conversation. It can be an internal shift.Step Four pulls me out of a mental courtroom. In my head, every resentment turns into a trial with a judge, jury, prosecutor, and defendant trying to prove who’s guilty. But Step Four acknowledges what was threatened: my safety, identity, self-worth, etc. And then I get to notice my behavioral patterns. Holding on to a resentment simply re-injures myself, repeating the same wound. The “magical” part of Step Four is asking what my role was when my brain keeps insisting I’m only the victim. Step Four lets me look back just long enough to extract the lesson, put it in my pocket, and walk forward. That’s where serenity is born. I’m loosening my grip on what no longer serves me, freeing up the energy I need for recovery, and rewiring my reactions.Listen and subscribe wherever you get your podcasts and YouTube. Rather listen on Apple Podcasts? https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/recovery-daily-podcast/id1693924779 Visit my Etsy shop, and join my creative journey at Recovery Upcycling. https://www.etsy.com/shop/RecoveryUpcycling #StepFour #AARecovery #SobrietyJourney #OneDayAtATime #step4 

I’m working on Step Four for the second time. That means I think about it and procrastinate, because yes, I have a spreadsheet and avoid actually filling it out.When I list my character defects for Step Four, I’m supposed to focus on the ones I have now that I’m sober. Still, I like to look at what sobriety itself has removed from my life, like lying, recklessness, and insecurity, because it reaffirms my commitment to not picking up a drink. The character flaws that linger, like fear, competitiveness, judgment, and internal conflicts, are the ones I get to bring to my sponsor and into meetings.As I went through the list today, it was easy to see how drinking had been my attempt to numb fear, anxiety, and depression. Decades of my behavior were rooted in chaos. No wonder I did things I’m ashamed of. I was building my life on a cracked foundation.In sobriety, I walk toward what scares me instead of avoiding it, and that’s helped me rebuild my self-esteem. I still work every day on doing the next right thing, even if it’s just folding the laundry that’s been sitting there long enough to qualify as a roommate.Listen and subscribe wherever you get your podcasts and YouTube. Rather listen on Apple Podcasts? https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/recovery-daily-podcast/id1693924779 Visit my Etsy shop, and join my creative journey at Recovery Upcycling. https://www.etsy.com/shop/RecoveryUpcycling #StepFour #AARecovery #SobrietyJourney #OneDayAtATime #step4 

The first thing I do I the morning when my eyes open is remember that I’m a grateful recovering alcoholic and stroke survivor. I need to accept that before my feet hit the floor, so that I don’t fight what’s in front of me that day. Acceptance simplifies things. It clears my mind and quiets obsessive thinking, giving me the freedom to think instead of being held hostage by my own mind. Each day offers a new opportunity to begin again, but only if I practice that acceptance first.Listen and subscribe wherever you get your podcasts and YouTube. Rather listen on Apple Podcasts? https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/recovery-daily-podcast/id1693924779 Visit my Etsy shop, and join my creative journey at Recovery Upcycling. https://www.etsy.com/shop/RecoveryUpcycling #Acceptance #Serenity #RecoveryJourney #MentalWellbeing #strokesurvivor 

Being wrong can make me feel unworthy, as if it says something about me as a person. We learn early on that being right equals competence, so we cling to that at the cost of curiosity and connection with others. But, being wrong is not a personal failure, it’s a part of learning. Every huge lesson I’ve  learned came from being very very wrong. When I allow myself to be wrong, I am open to new information and a more honest relationship with myself and others.Letting go of the need to be right softens everything. Conversations become less about winning and more about understanding. You can change your mind without betraying yourself. It’s okay to be wrong. Listen and subscribe wherever you get your podcasts and YouTube. Rather listen on Apple Podcasts? https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/recovery-daily-podcast/id1693924779 Visit my Etsy shop, and join my creative journey at Recovery Upcycling. https://www.etsy.com/shop/RecoveryUpcycling #PersonalGrowth #SelfAwareness #EmotionalIntelligence #MindsetShift #GrowthOverPerfection

Without rest, identity becomes performance. How true this has rung for me, both in my career and stroke recovery, as I rebuild my identity in this new broken body. I have a tendency to overdo it - my old boss can vouch for me. I pour myself into my podcast, hobbies, and new “brilliant” ideas without pause. Although these all start with purpose and intention, I’m not always acting from purpose. Some call it being a “workaholic.” I call it crossing the line from identity to performance. It’s where productivity becomes priority rather than purpose. Restraint brings me back to why I’m doing what I’m doing in the first place. In my stroke recovery, restraint protects my physical well-being, minimizing my chronic pain. Restraint is leaving something in the tank, honoring my limits, and choosing sustainability over intensity. Restraint, for me, is wisdom in action rather than simply awareness, and it’s how I stay well enough to show up again tomorrow.Listen and subscribe wherever you get your podcasts and YouTube. Rather listen on Apple Podcasts? https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/recovery-daily-podcast/id1693924779 Visit my Etsy shop, and join my creative journey at Recovery Upcycling. https://www.etsy.com/shop/RecoveryUpcycling #restraint #StrokeRecovery #Disability #ChronicPain #Recovery

Take a walk with me today with Autumn through Lake of the Woods as I discuss what restraint feels like for me.Restraint has always been hard for me, but after my stroke it became a necessity. My alcoholism felt like a lack of restraint until I learned that it is a disease. Today lack of restraint costs me physical well-being. When I don’t stop in time, or I do more than I should, the pain in my head becomes unbearable. I’m aware of my limits, but awareness alone isn’t enough. What I need is the wisdom to act before I cross the line, not after. Wisdom is choosing to stop while I still feel okay, instead of waiting until I’ve gone too far.More tomorrow on restraint, but today I wanted to talk through simply what it feels like in both sobriety and in stroke recovery. As always, the topic of restraint can apply to us all. Give it a listen and see if you can relate.Listen and subscribe wherever you get your podcasts and YouTube. Rather listen on Apple Podcasts? https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/recovery-daily-podcast/id1693924779 Visit my Etsy shop, and join my creative journey at Recovery Upcycling. https://www.etsy.com/shop/RecoveryUpcycling #StrokeRecovery #LivingWithDisability #ChronicPainLife #RecoveryWisdom #ListeningToMyBody #restraint

Anger was an unexpected emotion after my stroke. It’s a result of fear, loss of control, frustration, exhaustion, and daily pain. Anger is the wrap around the primary emotion at its core. Underneath it is grief, fear, and the uncertainty of living in a body and mind that don’t behave the way they used to.Anger is a choice, even though it feels very much like I’m a victim when I feel it. Even when I don’t act on it, holding onto it affects my attitude and  pulls me away from “sober” thinking. Relief comes faster when I pause, breathe, cry, share, and accept what I can’t change. Yes, I cry when I’m angry, and I know I’m not unique in that.And when I feel distant from serenity, I try to remember that I’m the one who moved, not God. Choosing hope is always part of recovery, but man, it’s hard some days.Listen and subscribe wherever you get your podcasts and YouTube. Rather listen on Apple Podcasts? https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/recovery-daily-podcast/id1693924779 Visit my Etsy shop, and join my creative journey at Recovery Upcycling. https://www.etsy.com/shop/RecoveryUpcycling #StrokeRecovery #SoberThinking #MentalHealthRecovery #ChronicPain #ChoosingHope

The same tools that keep me sober help me thrive post-stroke despite chronic pain. I heard some meaningful slogans over the past 24 hours that help me:“Does this thought or action bring me closer to or further away from a drink.” I replace drink with God, pain, relief, or anything that moves me in the right direction.“When I approach a decision do I walk through the door first or do I hold the door for God and let him enter before me?” Consider whether I am consistently and constantly connected to my higher power in daily life.“The only thing between me and a drink is God.” Again, I can replace drink with pain because often my pain can be minimized by doing the next right thing, which I innately know when I am staying in the present.To hear more great one-liners that have inspired me in recovery listen to this episode. 🎧Listen and subscribe wherever you get your podcasts and YouTube. Rather listen on Apple Podcasts? https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/recovery-daily-podcast/id1693924779 Visit my Etsy shop, and join my creative journey at Recovery Upcycling. https://www.etsy.com/shop/RecoveryUpcycling #StrokeRecovery #SobrietyJourney #ChronicPainLife #MentalHealthRecovery #OneDayAtATime

I believe and doubt as much as I need to. My living amends to myself is choosing today what makes tomorrow’s me happier and healthier, gently leading the fearful parts of me when they don’t want to show up.Listen and subscribe wherever you get your podcasts and YouTube. Rather listen on Apple Podcasts? https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/recovery-daily-podcast/id1693924779 Visit my Etsy shop, and join my creative journey at Recovery Upcycling. https://www.etsy.com/shop/RecoveryUpcycling #RecoveryJourney #EmotionalSobriety #MentalHealthAwareness #LivingAmends #PersonalGrowth 

Wandering was how my loneliness showed itself long before I had words for it. I had some shameful memories bubbles today, and I turned them into useful lessons by opening my mouth and hitting “Record”.Listen and subscribe wherever you get your podcasts and YouTube. Rather listen on Apple Podcasts? https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/recovery-daily-podcast/id1693924779 Visit my Etsy shop, and join my creative journey at Recovery Upcycling. https://www.etsy.com/shop/RecoveryUpcycling #SobrietyJourney #AddictionRecovery #MentalHealthAwareness #EmotionalSobriety #RecoveryStory

My loneliness was a cunning unwellness I tried to outrun, numb, and distract myself from. But the absence of feeling at home inside myself began to heal when I removed alcohol from my life.Listen and subscribe wherever you get your podcasts and YouTube. Rather listen on Apple Podcasts? https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/recovery-daily-podcast/id1693924779 Visit my Etsy shop, and join my creative journey at Recovery Upcycling. https://www.etsy.com/shop/RecoveryUpcycling #SobrietyJourney #AddictionRecovery #HealingFromWithin #MentalHealthAwareness #EmotionalHealing