The Mormon History Hoedown

This is one of those conversations that changes how you see your entire life. Leah Young shares what it actually feels like to have your belief system collapse in real time and what it takes to rebuild from the ground up. From reading the CES letter to nearly losing her marriage, this episode goes deep into identity, fear, control, and the moment you decide to trust yourself. If you’ve ever questioned what you were taught, needed guidance on how to talk to believers, or wondered who you are outside of the system you were raised in, this episode will hit!All the Carah Burrell links 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuancehoe Carah Burrell Substack: https://substack.com/@carahburrell? Help me continue making important, hilarious content by becoming a one-time or monthly donor! 🤝 DONATE via DONORBOX! https://donorbox.org/thanks-for-the-amazing-content-carah-let-me-help-you-keep-it-funded 👩‍💻 Join the Hoetown community on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/nuancehoe 🍯 Tip Jar (Venmo: CarahB): https://account.venmo.com/u/CarahB 📫 Contact Nuancehoe: thenuancehoe@gmail.com Show notes: Balanced Living With Leah Website: https://balancedlivingwithleah.com/ Leah's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/balancedlivingwithleah/ CES Letter: https://cesletter.org Steven Hassan: https://freedomofmind.com/cult-mind-control/bite-model Mormon Stories Podcast interviews with Leah: https://youtu.be/aFr8Schuv5w?si=fo8t5WDusn7d2NY_ https://www.mormonstories.org/young-family/

Why is the U.S. bombing Iran? Why is it that we are seeing a sudden, frantic surge in apocalyptic rhetoric coming from the highest levels of our government? Is it possible that the people currently steering our military into a conflict with Iran are operating from a "prophetic blueprint"? Let's discuss. All the Carah Burrell links 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuancehoe Carah Burrell Substack: https://substack.com/@carahburrell? Help me continue making important content by becoming a one-time or monthly donor! 🤝 DONATE via DONORBOX! https://donorbox.org/thanks-for-the-amazing-content-carah-let-me-help-you-keep-it-funded 👩‍💻 Join the Hoetown community on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/nuancehoe 🍯 Tip Jar (Venmo: CarahB): https://account.venmo.com/u/CarahB 📫 Contact Nuancehoe: thenuancehoe@gmail.com

Buckle up to use your brains; we're talking neuroscience. Before I share how my 30 days of Mormonizing went, I wanted to open up about some big-picture ideas. I’m joined by Mat Sillito to talk about why belief isn’t just ideas in your head, it’s what your body rehearses. We get into the brain’s default mode network, how environments trigger responses before you “choose” them, and why rituals can function like drugs: shaping attention, identity, anxiety, and connection.Subscribe to @drugfactswithdrmat Link: https://www.youtube.com/@UCM5hJmIY3yxtj5exJ-IESLQAll the Carah Burrell links 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuancehoeCarah Burrell Substack: https://substack.com/@carahburrell?Help me continue making important, hilarious content by becoming a one-time or monthly donor!🤝 DONATE via DONORBOX! https://donorbox.org/thanks-for-the-amazing-content-carah-let-me-help-you-keep-it-funded👩‍💻 Join the Hoetown community on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/nuancehoe🍯 Tip Jar (Venmo: CarahB): https://account.venmo.com/u/CarahB📫 Contact Nuancehoe: thenuancehoe@gmail.com

In this episode, I chat with Elena Bridgers, science writer and author of Motherhood Until Yesterday to talk about the lie most moms are living under: that motherhood should feel natural, effortless, and fulfilling on its own. Instead, we uncover why modern motherhood feels so hard and why it’s not your failure, it’s the mismatch between how humans evolved to raise children and how we’re expected to do it now. Elena explains how real human parenting used to look, why community and support were the norm, and why isolation and pressure leave so many mothers overwhelmed and exhausted. We also dive into the narratives many moms inherit from religion, feminist ideals, and internet culture that frame motherhood in ways that help just about no one. Elena’s work blends evolutionary biology, anthropology, and real-life experience to help mothers feel seen, understood, and less alone. Elena Bridgers Links: 📍 Newsletter — Motherhood Until Yesterday (Substack): https://elenabridgers.substack.com/ 🌍 Website: https://elenabridgers.com/ 📸 Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/elena.bridgers/ All the Carah Burrell links 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuancehoe Carah Burrell Substack: https://substack.com/@carahburrell? Help me continue making important, hilarious content by becoming a one-time or monthly donor!🤝 DONATE via DONORBOX! https://donorbox.org/thanks-for-the-amazing-content-carah-let-me-help-you-keep-it-funded 👩‍💻 Join the Hoetown community on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/nuancehoe 🍯 Tip Jar (Venmo: CarahB): https://account.venmo.com/u/CarahB 📫 Contact Nuancehoe: thenuancehoe@gmail.com

What are the chances of a guy like Jesus and a girl like me ending up together? Not good. But I'm throwing my life into the turmoil of holiness anyway to get some data! I'm making my way through a year-long course on secular spirituality, and now it's time I introduce my project for 2026, working title: Mormonize Me. In this first episode, I introduce my ideas and talk to experts and friends like Britt Hartley @nononsensespirituality , Eve Pearce, Shaun Miller, and Eric Moutsos @ericmoutsosshow All the Carah Burrell links 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuancehoe Carah Burrell Substack: https://substack.com/@carahburrell?Help me continue making important, hilarious content by becoming a one-time or monthly donor! 🤝 DONATE via DONORBOX! https://donorbox.org/thanks-for-the-amazing-content-carah-let-me-help-you-keep-it-funded 👩‍💻 Join the Hoetown community on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/nuancehoe 🍯 Tip Jar (Venmo: CarahB): https://account.venmo.com/u/CarahB 📫 Contact Nuancehoe: thenuancehoe@gmail.com

CONTENT WARNING: This episode includes frank discussion of racism, domestic violence, religious trauma, online harassment, and threats. Today, we dive into de-radicalization, Christian nationalism, and the real human cost of propaganda, featuring Jennie Gage from Life, Take Two a former white supremacist and ex-Mormon. Jennie rebuilt her life through community, accountability, and hard truths. We talk about how racism was spoon-fed to us as normal, and how indoctrination separates people from themselves and the beautiful world around us. Life Take Two channel, "How MAGA Destroyed My Life": https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vXQa7jW_QmY Jennie's Substack: https://lifetaketwo.substack.com/p/i-was-a-white-supremacist?r=35knav&utm_medium=ios&triedRedirect=true Business Insider Article: https://www.businessinsider.com/trad-wife-on-tiktok-shares-idyllic-lifestyle-risks-money-2024-3 All the Carah Burrell links 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuancehoe Help me continue making important, hilarious content by becoming a one-time or monthly donor! 🤝 DONATE VIA DONORBOX! https://donorbox.org/thanks-for-the-amazing-content-carah-let-me-help-you-keep-it-funded 👩‍💻 Join the Hoetown community on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/nuancehoe 🍯 Tip Jar (Venmo: CarahB): https://account.venmo.com/u/CarahB 📫 Contact Nuancehoe: thenuancehoe@gmail.com

My first working title for this episode was: "Leaving Mormonism and Flying Frontier: What I Wish I Had to Survive." I think that sums it up! Storytimes are always fun, so sit back and let me tell you the tale of the girl who had to rebuild a nervous system from scratch. "That doesn't sound fun." What if I include my newest lore and hijinks without end? Great. All my links 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuancehoe Help me continue making important, hilarious content by becoming a one-time or monthly donor! 🤝 DONATE VIA DONORBOX! https://donorbox.org/thanks-for-the-amazing-content-carah-let-me-help-you-keep-it-funded 👩‍💻 Join the Hoetown community on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/nuancehoe 🍯 Tip Jar (Venmo: CarahB): https://account.venmo.com/u/CarahB 📫 Contact Nuancehoe: thenuancehoe@gmail.com

Everyone be nice. It's a heavy time.All my links 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuancehoe Help me continue making important, hilarious content by becoming a one-time or monthly donor!🤝 DONATE VIA DONORBOX! https://donorbox.org/thanks-for-the-amazing-content-carah-let-me-help-you-keep-it-funded👩‍💻 Join the Hoetown community on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/nuancehoe🍯 Tip Jar (Venmo: CarahB): https://account.venmo.com/u/CarahB📫 Contact Nuancehoe: thenuancehoe@gmail.com

You'll never guess who I ran into at the local "Fuck Nazis" rally in Utah. That's right, Kwaku El. The face of Ward Radio and Mormon apologetic videos sits down with me for a deep dive on the history and viewpoints of this funky, new brand of white supremacy that bowie knife-wielding involuntary celibates are calling "DezNat". Why? Because the Nazis are here and no one, least of which the LDS church or its pro-LDS podcasters, are doing anything about it.All my links 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuancehoe Help me continue making important, hilarious content by becoming a one-time or monthly donor!🤝 DONATE VIA DONORBOX! https://donorbox.org/thanks-for-the-amazing-content-carah-let-me-help-you-keep-it-funded👩‍💻 Join the Hoetown community on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/nuancehoe🍯 Tip Jar (Venmo: CarahB): https://account.venmo.com/u/CarahB📫 Contact Nuancehoe: thenuancehoe@gmail.com

In today's episode of the podcast, Carly Bingham gives us the low down on the hoedown as we discuss all the aspects of her faith journey. Carly, best known for her viral ex-Mormon related content across Instagram and TikTok, shares her raw, funny, and thoughtful reflections on leaving the Mormon Church, navigating motherhood, sexuality, and personal growth. Whether you're in the middle of your own faith crisis or just curious, you're in the right place.Carly's links:Substack for Uncertainly Carly: https://substack.com/@uncertainlycarly?utm_source=%2Fhome%2Fcategory%2F96&utm_medium=reader2Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/uncertainlycarly/TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@uncertainlycarlyAll my links 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuancehoeHelp me continue making important, hilarious content by becoming a one-time or monthly donor!🤝 DONATE VIA DONORBOX! https://donorbox.org/thanks-for-the-amazing-content-carah-let-me-help-you-keep-it-funded👩‍💻 Join the Hoetown community on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/nuancehoe🍯 Tip Jar (Venmo: CarahB): https://account.venmo.com/u/CarahB📫 Contact Nuancehoe: thenuancehoe@gmail.comComedy Church: https://www.adambroud.com/comedychurch

Join me, Carah Burrell, for two hours of joy as I sit down with comedian Adam Broud, known for his hilarious and thought-provoking stand-up show "Comedy Church". You'll either laugh your ass off or say "Get thee hence, Satan." No further explanation is needed.Check out these links to see where Adam Broud is performing next: https://www.adambroud.com/upcoming-showsAdam Broud's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/adambroud/?hl=enAll my links 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuancehoeHelp me continue making important, hilarious content by becoming a one-time or monthly donor!🤝 DONATE VIA DONORBOX! https://donorbox.org/thanks-for-the-amazing-content-carah-let-me-help-you-keep-it-funded👩‍💻 Join the Hoetown community on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/nuancehoe🍯 Tip Jar (Venmo: CarahB): https://account.venmo.com/u/CarahB📫 Contact Nuancehoe: thenuancehoe@gmail.com

Howdy y'all, I’m back and ready to share and care. In this episode, I'm answering questions and unpacking a whole bunch of stuff about my Mormon life and what I believe now. Haters get lost cause I'm getting honest about the good, the bad, and the divorced. Thanks to everyone who've been lovely sweethearts and followed my journey!All my links 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuancehoeHelp me continue making important, hilarious content by becoming a one-time or monthly donor! 🤝 DONATE VIA DONORBOX! https://donorbox.org/thanks-for-the-amazing-content-carah-let-me-help-you-keep-it-funded👩‍💻 Join the Hoetown community on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/nuancehoe🍯 Tip Jar (Venmo: CarahB): https://account.venmo.com/u/CarahB📫 Contact Nuancehoe: thenuancehoe@gmail.com

The ultimate Ex-Mormon sex Q&A is here! If you've heard of sex or tried it, hold off going at it until you watch me and my guest Faith Erickson answer listeners' burning questions and give our million-dollar advice.Faith's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/faith_ironically/Mormon Stories: Redefining Sexuality and Body Autonomy - Faith Erickson's THRIVE Story: https://www.youtube.com/live/5oeoIYjyCJM?si=MCetG_omERkX4RzqAll my links and info on the group trip to Greece! 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuancehoe👇 👇 👇 I live and die on donor support! So, great news! The Nuance Hug Foundation is up and running as a 501c3 nonprofit. All donations to ✨Donor Box and Venmo✨ are tax deductible in the US! More podcasts and shorts are coming full-time as long as I can keep it funded. Help me and my team continue making important, hilarious content by becoming a one-time or monthly donor!EQUIPMENT FUNDRAISER: https://donorbox.org/christmas-eve-equipment-fundraiser-2👩‍💻 Join the Hoetown community on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/nuancehoe🍯 Tip Jar (Venmo: CarahB): https://account.venmo.com/u/CarahB

Welcome to a recap of the multi-part series on The Mountain Meadows Massacre with historian, author, director of Signature Books, content editor of the award-winning "Massacre at Mountain Meadows" and co-author of "Vengeance Is Mine, The Mountain Meadows Massacre and Its Aftermath" Barbara Jones Brown!In this live steam we ask Barbara the quick facts on the Mountain Meadows Massacre, a tragic event in Mormon history where a group of Mormons in 1857 killed a large group of innocent men, women, and children. With Destiny begging to Manifest in the 1850s, the US government was hot for an economic and cultural superiority expansion. Mormons had their backs! Or DID they?Here's the overview of all the forces at play that led otherwise sane people (hold your jokes) to commit heinous acts of violence on innocent people.Pick up the book Vengeance Is Mine from your local bookseller or online: https://www.amazon.com/Vengeance-Mine-Mountain-Massacre-Aftermath/dp/0195397851Listen to the audiobook of Vengeance Is Mine: https://www.audible.com/pd/Vengeance-Is-Mine-Audiobook/B0C6FPQFB5?eac_link=QUOOMHSekDaE&ref=web_search_eac_asin_3&eac_selected_type=asin&eac_selected=B0C6FPQFB5&qid=xMIVfP7ajx&eac_id=140-1729692-0760619_xMIVfP7ajx&sr=1-3All my links and info on the group trip to Greece! 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuancehoe👇 👇 👇 I live and die on donor support! So, great news! The Nuance Hug Foundation is up and running as a 501c3 nonprofit. All donations to ✨Donor Box and Venmo✨ are tax deductible in the US! More podcasts and shorts are coming full-time as long as I can keep it funded. Help me and my team continue making important, hilarious content by becoming a one-time or monthly donor!EQUIPMENT FUNDRAISER: https://donorbox.org/christmas-eve-equipment-fundraiser-2👩‍💻 Join the Hoetown community on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/nuancehoe🍯 Tip Jar (Venmo: CarahB): https://account.venmo.com/u/CarahB

On today's episode, me and John Dehlin @mormonstories tackle our top reasons Mormonism falls on its face. No messing around, no games, just one: Jenga. We heard you like metaphors so we got you 54 of them delicately stacked, then SACKED. You'll have to watch and see who wins! (Rationality) And who goes home the loser! (Anyone who can't finish this video masterpiece)All my links and info on the group trip to Greece! 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuancehoe👇 👇 👇 I live and die on donor support! So, great news! The Nuance Hug Foundation is up and running as a 501c3 nonprofit. All donations to ✨Donor Box and Venmo✨ are tax deductible in the US! More podcasts and shorts are coming full-time as long as I can keep it funded. Help me and my team continue making important, hilarious content by becoming a one-time or monthly donor!EQUIPMENT FUNDRAISER: https://donorbox.org/christmas-eve-equipment-fundraiser-2👩‍💻 Join the Hoetown community on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/nuancehoe🍯 Tip Jar (Venmo: CarahB): https://account.venmo.com/u/CarahB

Welcome to the video that Mormons wish was just clickbait. We're embarking on a thought-provoking analysis, featuring an exclusive interview with Ryan Fisher, @NephiteExplorer. It's an honor to have Ryan join us again to provide deeper insights into the complex narrative of Tim Ballard. We are connecting dots and making enemies with doomsdayers and 100 billion dollar corporations. Shocking blessings from Mormon leaders that absolve Tim of guilt is just the start. This is NOT a drill. This is the REAL DEAL. Do these key pieces of intel from Ryan's decade-long friendship with Tim Ballard combined with the new amendments in the lawsuit and passages from Vision of Glory explain everything? Everyone's pencils down and eyes forward for the most fascinating deep dive into the mind and making of Tim Ballard. Class starts now!Nephite Explorer: https://www.youtube.com/ @NephiteExplorerAll my links and info on the group trip to Greece! 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuancehoe👇 👇 👇 I live and die on donor support! So, great news! The Nuance Hug Foundation is up and running as a 501c3 nonprofit. All donations to ✨Donor Box and Venmo✨ are tax deductible in the US! More podcasts and shorts are coming full-time as long as I can keep it funded. Help me and my team continue making important, hilarious content by becoming a one-time or monthly donor!EQUIPMENT FUNDRAISER: https://donorbox.org/christmas-eve-equipment-fundraiser-2👩‍💻 Join the Hoetown community on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/nuancehoe🍯 Tip Jar (Venmo: CarahB): https://account.venmo.com/u/CarahB

Welcome Nephite Explorer to the podcast! In part one, we're diving deep into the mind of Tim Ballard, founder of Operation Underground Railroad, with Ryan Fisher, former confidant of Tim Ballard, esteemed videographer, ex-Heartlander, and journalist. Get ready for an eye-opening multi-series interview with Ryan. From where Tim Ballard's controversial journey began in the conservative Mormon demographic, and the ethical concerns surrounding his efforts to combat child trafficking. Ryan shares his experience working closely with Tim and launching his American Covenant theories into mainstream Mormonism. In this gripping exposé, we peel back the layers of Tim Ballard's enigmatic persona, and unravel the complex web of connections between Tim Ballard, the Mormon Church, M. Russell Ballard, and Joseph Smith. Plus, we'll delve into the controversial topic of the second anointing in Mormonism and its potential implications for Tim's trajectory.Nephite Explorer: https://www.youtube.com/ @NephiteExplorer All my links and info on the group trip to Greece! 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuancehoe👇 👇 👇 I live and die on donor support! So, great news! The Nuance Hug Foundation is up and running as a 501c3 nonprofit. All donations to ✨Donor Box and Venmo✨ are tax deductible in the US! More podcasts and shorts are coming full-time as long as I can keep it funded. Help me and my team continue making important, hilarious content by becoming a one-time or monthly donor!EQUIPMENT FUNDRAISER: https://donorbox.org/christmas-eve-equipment-fundraiser-2👩‍💻 Join the Hoetown community on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/nuancehoe🍯 Tip Jar (Venmo: CarahB): https://account.venmo.com/u/CarahB

Join me for the Tim Ballard podcast to end all Tim Ballard podcasts.All my links and info on the group trip to Greece! 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuancehoe👇 👇 👇 I live and die on donor support! So, great news! The Nuance Hug Foundation is up and running as a 501c3 nonprofit. All donations to ✨Donor Box and Venmo✨ are tax deductible in the US! More podcasts and shorts are coming full-time as long as I can keep it funded. Help me and my team continue making important, hilarious content by becoming a one-time or monthly donor!EQUIPMENT FUNDRAISER: https://donorbox.org/christmas-eve-equipment-fundraiser-2👩‍💻 Join the Hoetown community on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/nuancehoe🍯 Tip Jar (Venmo: CarahB): https://account.venmo.com/u/CarahBNewest lawsuit: https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fi/y4v8s9nd6hrxdytsr90nr/filing-document-xchange.pdf?rlkey=9u31rqm9fiseo90rn8rzwa5sd&e=2&st=8ih572bh&dl=0

Join me and the amazing Radio Free Mormon from Mormon Discussions for a very special episode where we dive into Steve Densley's leaked speech "Proving The Church Is True". One lawyer versus another!Radio Free Mormon: https://radiofreemormon.org/All my links and info on the group trip to Greece! 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuancehoe👇 👇 👇 I live and die on donor support! So, great news! The Nuance Hug Foundation is up and running as a 501c3 nonprofit. All donations to ✨Donor Box and Venmo✨ are tax deductible in the US! More podcasts and shorts are coming full-time as long as I can keep it funded. Help me and my team continue making important, hilarious content by becoming a one-time or monthly donor!EQUIPMENT FUNDRAISER: https://donorbox.org/christmas-eve-equipment-fundraiser-2👩‍💻 Join the Hoetown community on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/nuancehoe🍯 Tip Jar (Venmo: CarahB): https://account.venmo.com/u/CarahB

In this special second episode with Brittney Hartley, we dive into her insightful book, "No Nonsense Spirituality." Brittney takes us through topics such as deconstruction and reconstruction, the tools we choose for ourselves to keep from religion and how to bust out and develop new rituals that we can build off of. We're getting into some deep stuff, from necklace symbols to reintegration and anger roles. Britt shares her unique and brilliant approach compared to the "big 3" ideologies. Who are the players and what are the tools each one offers as well as their shadow sides?We discuss the balance between ideals of less harm and the realities of everyday life, as well as recommendations for books and podcasts for self-exploration. And what about those spiritual experiences? Britt has some of the wisest words I've ever heard. Lastly, cultivating awe in your life! It's a must! Don't miss out on this epic convo about no nonsense spirituality and self-discovery—hit that play button now and hit the link to buy Brittney's book! And join me on the group trip to Greece!Buy the book! No Nonsense Spirituality: All the Tools No Belief Required: https://www.amazon.com/dp/1958670367?psc=1&smid=ATVPDKIKX0DER&ref_=chk_typ_imgToDpAll my links and info on the group trip to Greece! 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuancehoe👇 👇 👇 I live and die on donor support! So, great news! The Nuance Hug Foundation is up and running as a 501c3 nonprofit. All donations to ✨Donor Box and Venmo✨ are tax deductible in the US! More podcasts and shorts are coming full-time as long as I can keep it funded. Help me and my team continue making important, hilarious content by becoming a one-time or monthly donor!EQUIPMENT FUNDRAISER: https://donorbox.org/christmas-eve-equipment-fundraiser-2👩‍💻 Join the Hoetown community on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/nuancehoe🍯 Tip Jar (Venmo: CarahB): https://account.venmo.com/u/CarahB