botanical studies of internet magic

when thinking (or talking) about my business, there's at least twenty words I don't use -- many of them super basic, like "marketing," "sales," "landing page," "launch," or "productivity" ... even "goals." I've rewritten my own creative business dictionary -- because language shapes our relationship to our worlds. I'll list the words, and tell you what words I use instead. rewriting my language helps me recreate my entire paradigm -- to create a business that values agency over manipulation, ecosystem webs over linear metrics -- and grow a system that I actually love, and want to live in. 🧧 my business class, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Digital Abundance⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, starts March 9 -referencedtranscendence of the productivity addictsharing space camp build a labyrinth, not a funnel~💌 ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠receive ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠my newsletters⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠🌳 explore my ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠courses⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠✨ visit my ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠web world⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠

I love making art in the void, and I've felt called to build a community. this calling is probably precisely because I have such a complicated relationship with community. I've run away from them. I've chosen self-exile. I've swung from hyper-independence to over-responsibility. in this episode, I'll share how I'm thinking of shaping my community as creative companionship, bounded by shared questing. I'll explore my four guiding values for a community -- like caring for a garden, weaving a dream catcher, or making an infinite feast. A community can be a living creative practice that feeds our inner worlds. *🦋 join ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Labyrinth Library⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, starting Feb 16🧧 explore ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Digital Abundance⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, starting March 9 -referenceda hermit growing creative communitymake art in the void make art for no audience~💌 ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠receive ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠my newsletters⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠🌳 explore my ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠courses⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠✨ visit my ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠web world⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠

today is an atmospheric map for our slow transition from winter into spring — through the archetypes of Pisces, Aries, and Taurus. we'll explore how to work with these energies in deepening into the creative life.I'll share why thinking in seasons has become such an important practice for me, and my intentions for this coming season, along with personal life context. we'll dive into the three archetypes and their grounding theme words: Pisces (dreaming), Aries (instinct), Taurus (embodying), as well as the questions they invite us to contemplate. this itinerary is the 12 week map for season 2 of Labyrinth Library, which opens Monday.*🦋 join ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Labyrinth Library⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, starting Feb 16🧧 explore ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Digital Abundance⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, starting March 9 🧃 take 7 days of ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Money Juice Cleanse⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠~💌 ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠receive ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠my newsletters⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠🌳 explore my ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠courses⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠✨ visit my ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠web world⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠

this is about trusting in the work you need, and how creating from necessity is a form of creative power, because it keeps you close to what's vital, alive, and electric -- more than any "should" energy ever could. I'll explore how generative discomfort can be used as fuel for excavating creative potential, and how to sense into what's ready to be metabolized -- into medicine. I'll share concrete examples from my 11 years of obsessions, and leave you with questions to contemplate. *🦋 join ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Labyrinth Library⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, season starts Feb 16🧧 explore my March course, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Digital Abundance⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠🧃 take 7 days of ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Money Juice Cleanse⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠~mentioned:the process is the way~💌 ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠receive ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠my newsletters⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠🌳 explore my ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠courses⁠⁠⁠⁠✨ visit my ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠web world⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠

changing your relationship to money is not a 10 step checklist, it's tending to an ongoing practice -- with curiosity and tenderness -- as you do with your creative work. I'll share my own personal stories and significant reframes -- money as a circle, as feminine force, as a child of your creative energy. I'll walk you through my 7 practices for working with money -- and invite you to see money as a portal for working with your sense of resourcedness, enoughness, worthiness to receive, and your power to claim what you desire. *🧃 take 7 days of ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Money Juice Cleanse⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠🧧 explore my new course, ⁠⁠⁠⁠Digital Abundance⁠⁠⁠⁠🦋 join ⁠⁠⁠⁠Labyrinth Library⁠⁠⁠⁠, winter season ~mentioned:curated money stories money is a circle, process, practicecreative energy is the mother of money~💌 ⁠⁠⁠⁠receive ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠my newsletters⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠🌳 explore my ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠courses⁠⁠⁠✨ visit my ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠web world⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠

part 3 of a mini-seriesremember that your art is not an afterthought -- it is the center that holds everything. it's the life source that feeds your creative world. in this episode, I'll examine the ways we're taught to think about the binary of art vs. business -- and propose my third way of deep integration. this means allowing your artist child to grow up -- and claim their voice, power, and leadership in the material world. I'll share how two forms of artist energy can exist in a business, and the importance of creating containers that actually allow your creative self to thrive. I'll leave you with guiding questions to consider on how to integrate your artist energy into your work. *🧃 take 7 days of ⁠⁠⁠⁠Money Juice Cleanse⁠⁠⁠⁠🧧 explore my new course, ⁠⁠⁠Digital Abundance⁠⁠⁠🦋 join ⁠⁠⁠Labyrinth Library⁠⁠⁠, winter season ~mentioned:⁠the way of the artist entrepreneur⁠make art for no audience (EP. 8) ~💌 ⁠⁠⁠receive ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠my newsletters⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠✨ visit my ⁠⁠⁠web world⁠⁠ ⁠🌳 explore my ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠courses⁠⁠⁠

part 2 of a mini-serieswhen tending to my business, I bring it back to two practices -- making offerings, and weaving my web. I share how I think about offerings as sacred containers, organic shapes, and potent distillations of your creative energy -- into usable form. I'll talk about weaving your web as an energetically efficient, long-term strategy that builds your body of work, and invites people into your world. this episode is about all perspective shifts -- to reimagining business as a generative, potent creative practice. *🧃 take 7 days of ⁠⁠⁠Money Juice Cleanse⁠⁠⁠🧧 explore my new course, ⁠⁠Digital Abundance⁠⁠🦋 join ⁠⁠Labyrinth Library⁠⁠, winter season ~mentioned:my business is a hammock I weave by handthe way of the artist entrepreneurbuild a labyrinth, not a funnel~💌 ⁠⁠receive ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠my newsletters⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠✨ visit my ⁠⁠web world⁠⁠ 🌳 explore my ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠courses⁠⁠⁠

to begin the new year, I’m creating a 3 part mini-series with grounding anchors; minimalist instructions for navigating the uncertainties of the creative life. when in doubt, or overwhelmed, or stuck in overthinking, all you need to focus on is this — make the work, share the work. this is the equivalent of (in meditation), returning to the body, and the breath. I’ll explore my 4 guiding principles (agency, process/pleasure, regenerativity, authenticity), and we’ll discuss the nuance of each word — what is “work?” what does it mean to “make?” what does “sharing” mean? my hope is that this episode will give you a gentle nudge to just do / make / share the damn thing — and learn your way in the process — whatever your thing is. 🧃 take 7 days of ⁠⁠Money Juice Cleanse⁠⁠🧧 explore my new course, ⁠Digital Abundance⁠🦋 join ⁠Labyrinth Library⁠, winter season ~💌 ⁠receive ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠my newletters⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠✨ visit my ⁠web world⁠ 🌳 explore my ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠courses⁠⁠⁠

the vast majority of business advice has never worked for me, not because it was wrong, but because it didn't align with my energy, and the way I wanted to exist in the world. it took me years to build my own operating system -- a model for business that didn't make me want to burn it all down, ghost everything, and just get a day job. I realized that I run my business like a super scorpio -- lunar, cyclical, waiting behind veils, operating from the depths. Far from being a weakness, that it's my greatest power. I'm calling this my"underworld business practices" -- and today, I've distilled them down into 8 parts to share with you. 🧧 explore my new course, Digital Abundance🧃 take 7 days of Money Juice Cleanse🦋 join Labyrinth Library, winter season ~💌 receive ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠my letters⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠✨ visit my web world 🌳 explore my ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠courses⁠⁠⁠

who gives us the right to call ourselves "artists"? where do you source your sense of legitimacy and validity from? how do you face the voices of imposter syndrome and not-enoughness? in this episode, we'll unpack the gap between self-perception, other-perception, and the daily process/practice of being an artist. I'll share why claiming yourself as an artist in the wild -- beyond all institutional validation -- is the most powerful thing you can do. you don't owe anyone an explanation. 🧧 explore my new course, ⁠Digital Abundance⁠🧃 take 7 days of ⁠Money Juice Cleanse⁠🦋 join ⁠Labyrinth Library⁠, winter season ~💌 ⁠receive ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠my letters⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠🗺️ visit my ⁠web world⁠ ✨ 1:1 advising ~ ⁠⁠⁠⁠liminal leap⁠⁠⁠🌳 explore all my ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠courses⁠⁠⁠

one of the most significant shifts I've ever had is letting go of linear (ladder-like) models of external success -- in order to put my own journey, process, and energy at the center. but, how do you do that, if you don't know what's at your center, or if your center is always changing? I'll explore facets of this question through the metaphor of a labyrinth as journey -- how to dance with seasonal cycles, moving between structure and spontaneity, and focus on just taking the next step forwards. 🦋 explore ⁠⁠⁠labyrinth library⁠⁠⁠, a seasonal community~ 🗺️ visit my ⁠⁠web world⁠ ⁠💌 receive ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠my letters⁠⁠⁠⁠✨ 1:1 advising ~ ⁠⁠liminal leap⁠⁠🌳 explore my ⁠⁠⁠⁠courses⁠⁠

I've had a very long, tumultuous relationship with self-doubt -- as my number one enemy, a villianous monster, a generous teacher, a loyal friend, and a companion for the twisty, dark paths of the creative life. today, I'll share my own relationship with doubt, and offer a reframe for what doubt is -- not as contamination, or poison, not as something to fight or run away from, but as a essential friction for your life. I'll suggest a 3 part practice to work with doubt -- by creating spaciousness and containers to hold it, and to keep moving forwards, even (or especially) with doubt by your side. ~🦋 explore ⁠labyrinth library⁠✨ imagine a liminal leap🌳 browse my ⁠⁠courses🗺️ visit my ⁠web world⁠ 💌 receive ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠my letters⁠⁠⁠⁠

there is a difference between wanting clarity, and wanting permission. or certainty. or safety. clarity isn't something external that I wait to happen to me (like good weather conditions), but a moving, fluid energy that I'm in conversation with -- like a bird. sometimes I see it. sometimes it's gone. I'll explore why clarity feels so crucial for the pathless path, how people see me as having a lot of "clarity" (when in fact, I experience it as something different). I'll share what questions I ask myself for cultivating a deeper relationship to clarity. ~ 🦋 explore labyrinth library, a seasonal community🌳 explore my ⁠courses & ⁠offerings⁠🗺️ visit my web world 💌 receive ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠my letters⁠⁠⁠

hello there, after a summer. this episode is on why being with the unknown is at the heart and core of all imaginative, wilderness work -- through your inner life, creative life, digital life, and business. today, I'll share my syllabus-itinerary for navigating uncertainty through the autumnal astrological archetypes of Libra, Scorpio, and Sagittarius -- aka, how to hold complex truths, walk through the darkness, and find joy in the quest. -this is my itinerary for the first season of Labyrinth Library -- an ongoing seasonal community and teaching vessel for mystery work. we begin September 29. explore more here.mentioned: truth is a glittering glacierthe visual slides of this episode (youtube) ~🏡 visit my website 🌳 explore my courses & ⁠offerings⁠ 💌 receive ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠my letters⁠⁠⁠

this is about escaping the noise of platforms and constant connectivity. I reflect on why acclimating to digital silence can feel stark, lonely, and hard, at first. it's like how the body feels on "airplane mode," or when when waking up in a forest after a decade in a cramped city apartment. in this episode, I explore how and why platforms (by design) turn us into static noise. I share my personal experiments on digital minimalism and solitude -- as a way of practicing more presence and here/now-ness, wherever you are. this is a meditation on digital silence as a rich landscape, showing you a deeper way into the self. related12 experiments in digital freedom (from 2020, in Japan)a day without screens (2020) why I don't use email or social media before noon (from 2016, back when I was still on social)~🏡 explore ⁠⁠house on the webs course🌀 explore creative systems course🪷 inquire about ⁠⁠advising sessions⁠⁠💧 ⁠⁠water⁠⁠ my world 💌 receive ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠my letters⁠

I spent many years needing to feel “productive” everyday — a word that was programmed into me, and which I clung to — but which felt wholly insufficient in trying to measure creative work, especially when self-employed. in this episode, I’ll tell you my journey — from being a productivity addict, to rejecting all imposed structures, to slowly, over time, reimagining what a sustainable, regenerative system actually looks and feels like.I made this podcast shortly after creating my zine, in preparation for teaching a new course, Creative Systems. 📓 Zine: Deconstructing the Productivity Machine (download)🪺 Creative Systems Course (self-paced study)also mentioned: The Serviceberry: an Economy of Abundance (essay) by Robin Wall KimmererA Moody Creative’s Guide to Work Overwhelm ~💌 sign up for ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠my letters⁠⁠🏡 explore ⁠⁠⁠house on the webs course⁠🪷 inquire about ⁠⁠⁠advising sessions⁠⁠⁠💧 ⁠⁠⁠water⁠⁠⁠ my world

hello again, after a few months break. during my retreat, I thought a lot about what being "present" online means. I'll propose that digital presence isn't dependent on your labor or content production, but about cultivating a digital container that holds your energy. I'll explore:choosing inner rhythms over consistency pressurefreedom from treating yourself as a means of productionembodying the permission to be absentwhy content batching doesn't really work for mehow time works differently on the internetaccumulating wormholes to past selvesdigital spaces as vessels for presence~💌 sign up for ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠my letters⁠⁠🏡 explore ⁠⁠⁠house on the webs course⁠🌀 explore ⁠creative systems course⁠🪷 inquire about ⁠⁠⁠advising sessions⁠⁠⁠💧 ⁠⁠⁠water⁠⁠⁠ my world

on untangling the fear of being seen -- and understanding where the desire to hide (in your creative work, life, or your digital expressions) comes from, and exploring how to release it. we'll dive into: the practice of un-hiding yourselfthe tension of being different being present is more important than being public deliberately curating your safe zones facing your imaginary shadow gaze why making art in public -- IS the practicing seeing yourselfbecoming the loving, attentive gaze ~🌱 additional resourcesmake art for no audiencemake art in the void⁠the internet as a creative practice⁠~🏡 explore ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠house on the webs course⁠⁠⁠🌀 explore ⁠⁠creative systems course⁠⁠🪷 inquire about ⁠⁠⁠⁠advising sessions⁠⁠⁠⁠💧 ⁠⁠⁠⁠water⁠⁠⁠⁠ my world 💌 sign up for ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠my letters⁠⁠⁠⁠

inhabiting a home on the internet is really about making space to be yourself, in public. you resist the digital flattening of the self and, instead, grow a wild ecosystem. how? first, through committing to your creative practice. in this episode, we’ll explore: what it means to inhabit a space my three step, cyclical processes for growing a digital home -- create, curate, carve paths. why focus on creation first, before structuring Q&A: how often do you need to maintain a website? Q&A: will things look jarring side by side? and more… I hope this episode gives you a sense of permission and possibility for growing and tending to a creative world of your own. 🌱 additional resources⁠build a labyrinth, not a funnel⁠house on the webs: introductionhouse on the webs: day 0 incubation workbuild a world, not an audience the internet as a creative practice~🌀 explore ⁠⁠⁠creative systems course⁠⁠⁠🪷 inquire about ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠advising sessions⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠💧 ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠water⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ my world 💌 sign up for ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠my letters⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

this week, I’ll deconstruct and translate the concept of website as digital world into concrete design elements, and give you a poetic reframing of how to think about each piece of your website under the philosophy of world-building — we’ll explore: the website as a body to inhabit the atmosphere of a world — vision / brand / world logic places & destinations — homepage & subpages the garden for creative growing things — blog CMS 4 pathways of traveling — navigation & links this episode is about the big-picture vision of imagining and building a website world, and making your creative home in a digital body. 🌱  additional resources house on the webs: introductionhouse on the webs: day 0 incubation workhow to build a world: a cyclical guideways of seeing by john berger ~ 🌸 read ⁠⁠⁠⁠the ⁠⁠⁠⁠text transcript⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ of this episode 🗺️ visit me on my ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠website-world⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ 💌 sign up for ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠my weekly newsletter⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠