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After a traumatic childhood, Jaimee yearned for peace and stability. She found temporary solace in a long-term marriage, but when it ended, she was drawn to a charismatic and charming man. However, beneath his appealing exterior lay a dark reality. As the relationship unfolded, it spiraled into psychological control, emotional and physical abuse. Caught in a dangerous and toxic situation, Jaimee soon found herself in a battle for her life. chapters (00:00) listen with caution (00:17) next on lovelustfear (01:34) about jaimee (02:45) jaimee’s story (01:04:30) questions & answers (01:14:57) closing thoughts (01:16:14) charity & organizations (01:16:44) submit your story (01:16:55) disclaimer ** This episode contains explicit content, including descriptions of sexual assault, physical and emotional abuse. Please listen with caution.** quotes “I was in an extremely vulnerable place…I was in a real crossroads in life. My marriage was breaking down. I was very alone. I was lacking this love, lacking attention, lacking validation.” - Jaimee “…he was so hot and cold, so he would be super charismatic and flirty and then all of a sudden would kind of shift and become quite offhand or even slightly rude.” - Jaimee “He called me so many names that night and I was just so taken aback. It's the first time I'd ever seen this side. I was a bitch. I was a slut.” - Jaimee “I was just an absolute mess inside and out. My body was shutting down. I shook all day. I shook all day constantly. I had anxiety attacks constantly.” - Jaimee “…and he locked the car doors and he drove off away from my driveway. And he said, I fooled you. I tricked you.” - Jaimee  “I really thought that he said to me, I'll fucking kill you. I'm gonna fucking kill you. And I thought, okay, I really am gonna die here.” - Jaimee  “That's seriously, one of the biggest things I've learned is you just, you can't, you can't outrun your trauma. It will catch you at, at some point, unless you, you face it and you deal with it.” - Jaimee  topics | #DysfunctionalFamily #AbusiveRelationship #ChildhoodTrauma #CopingMechanisms #ToxicRelationships #Manipulation #LoveBombing #EmotionalAbuse #Control #AssaultSurvivor #Isolation #MentalHealthMatters #LeavingAbuse #TraumaHealing #SurvivorStory #HealingJourney #SupportSurvivors #EndAbuse #YouAreNotAlone #Resilience music | sounds Lost Place Atmospheres 002  & Just Deep 1 by Sascha Ende Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com) Other Music and Sound Effects by: Alex Wit, cybercutie, Samuel Kamau, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, AlesiaDavina, and UNIVERSFIELD from Pixabay stay aware | follow | share (jaimee) National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788  https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ story submission information  If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below. submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ subscription links Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/b06d0ea8-cb29-4c3a-98e6-0249d84df748/lovelustfear Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0e3ndcf5u8lZ5lhN1lvWec Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283 RSS feed https://audioboom.com/channels/5125912.rss Want to hear more? Whatever app you’re listening on, just rate us and/or leave us a comment or review. Thank you for your support! 

Former judge and veteran divorce attorney Michele Locke pulls back the curtain on the world of family law. From messy divorces to high-stakes custody battles and domestic violence cases, Michele brings her courtroom experience to the mic—sharing personal stories, legal insights, and real-world advice. Whether you’re facing family court or just curious about how it all works, this episode delivers a powerful, no-nonsense introduction to the emotional and legal terrain of family law. lovelustlaw premieres July 1st! **DISCLAIMER** The information shared in this podcast is intended for entertainment purposes only. It should not be considered as professional legal advice or a substitute for seeking professional legal advice.  Subscribe Here: lovelustlaw - Apple Podcasts lovelustlaw - Spotify Podcasts lovelustlaw - Amazon Music Credits lovelustlaw is hosted by Michele Locke Jake Deptula is Executive Producer Haley Gray is Producer, Writer, & Researcher Jared Landis is Sound Editor & Mixer  Links Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Jake Deptula www.instagram.com/jaked3000 lovelustfear https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283 https://open.spotify.com/show/0e3ndcf5u8lZ5lhN1lvWec https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ Strictly Stalking https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/strictly-stalking/id1494237083 https://open.spotify.com/show/5dw1NJIObaOsj0o7JdruVQ https://www.instagram.com/strictlystalkingpod/ Haley Gray | Producer & Researcher https://www.instagram.com/HaleyGrayResearch www.HaleyGrayResearch.com  National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788  https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ topics | #FamilyLaw #DivorceAttorney #MicheleLocke #CourtroomInsights #LegalAdvice #FamilyCourt #LegalPodcast #TrueCourtStories #BehindTheBench #LawUnfiltered #NoNonsenseLaw #RealTalkLaw #DivorceSupport #CustodyBattles #MessyDivorces #ChildCustody #DivorceDrama #FamilyLawMatters #DomesticViolenceAwareness #SurvivingFamilyCourt #EmotionalJustice #CourtroomRealities #FamilyLawTruth

In this episode of lovelustfridays, hosts Jake Deptula and Michele Locke, alongside producer Haley Gray, are joined by Heather Ashley of Big Mad True Crime and Kyle Ashley from Critical Incidents to discuss the tragic story of Emma Compton. They explore the harsh realities of domestic violence, delving into the emotional and legal hurdles survivors face as well as the systemic obstacles that often block justice. The discussion highlights investigative issues in Emma’s case and emphasizes the need for improved communication between law enforcement and victims’ families. Heather shares her expertise in criminal intelligence and violent crime reduction, while Kyle brings insights from his military and law enforcement background. Together, they reflect on the importance of advocacy, mental health awareness, and sharing survivor stories. The conversation also touches on the personal challenges of working in true crime media, including managing criticism and maintaining balance. Heather Ashley / “Big Mad True Crime” – Links https://www.instagram.com/theheatherashley/ https://www.threads.com/@theheatherashley https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/big-mad-true-crime/id1477773466 https://open.spotify.com/show/1EKq0vbB08ke1QdCsWwIwh https://www.instagram.com/bigmadtruecrime/ https://www.facebook.com/BigMadTrueCrime/ Kyle Ashley / “Critical Incidents” – Links https://www.instagram.com/criticalincidentspod/ https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/critical-incidents/id1793167009 https://open.spotify.com/show/1XheQUBCO4U9gAekwkgdYQ Discussion Links  https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.thehotline.org/stakeholders/domestic-violence-statistics/  https://www.strangulationtraininginstitute.com/impact-of-strangulation-crimes/important-facts/  https://www.timesvirginian.com/news/article_1686a486-580b-11e7-822b-0f6070bab2df.html https://www.nbcnews.com/feature/missing-in-america/emma-compton-layne-still-missing-four-months-after-disappearing-n815781 https://www.nbcnews.com/feature/missing-in-america/four-years-dateline-s-missing-america-90-still-missing-n826516 https://www.facebook.com/TomRodgers197/posts/missing-woman-in-halifax-county-vaemma-layne-age-52-was-last-seen-on-saturday-ev/260060507734080/ https://www.nbcnews.com/feature/missing-in-america/remains-found-very-shallow-grave-identified-missing-virginia-woman-emma-n837286 https://www.chathamstartribune.com/news/article_f342c0f2-d52f-11e7-b4bc-cb5cabdfc22a.html https://www.yourgv.com/news/local_news/medical-examiner-neck-injury-caused-death-in-2017-homicide/article_2b07667a-9396-11e9-b9b5-37dda535c91f.html https://www.wdbj7.com/content/news/New-billboard-in-Halifax-Co-to-help-solve-Emma-Compton-Layne-murder-561157591.html https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rgqWAZ1cQdY&ab_channel=WSLS10 https://www.wdbj7.com/content/news/Vigil-to-be-held-for-Halifax-County-murder-victim-Emma-Compton-Layne-568552601.html?fbclid=IwZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAR0RPQ3cLtTwBFHE3aAISaGC2hhFOku8wH6jBQTdgJRygpxfes7UJDocxJo_aem_dDfHz6nR1coB6kCl-KWbOg https://www.wdbj7.com/content/news/Three-years-later-Who-murdered-Emma-Compton-Layne-571298181.html https://www.wsls.com/news/local/2023/11/22/emma-compton-layne-murder-still-unsolved-six-years-after-her-body-was-found/ https://www.wdbj7.com/2023/11/24/family-emma-compton-layne-still-seeking-justice-six-years-after-her-murder/  https://www.yourgv.com/news/local_news/justice-for-emma-rally-hosted-in-unsolved-death-of-nathalie-woman/article_f7b56cd2-2c0a-11ef-a6d6-bbbd81dc549b.html https://www.change.org/p/5-years-no-justice-for-emma-compton-layne https://www.wdbj7.com/content/news/Emma-Laynes-family-wants-justice-for-her-murder-469039723.html https://wset.com/news/local/one-year-later-emma-laynes-sister-still-seeking-justice https://www.yourgv.com/news/local_news/reward-offered-in-search-of-missing--year-old-cody/article_31787f4a-59e0-11e7-a45e-7f5dc8ffffb9.html  https://www.wdbj7.com/content/news/Halifax-County-missing-woman-search-continues-two-weeks-later-431832353.html  https://www.wsls.com/news/2017/08/03/vigil-being-held-for-missing-halifax-county-woman/  https://www.wdbj7.com/content/news/Human-remains-found-in-Halifax-Co-foul-play-expected-459605953.html  https://www.wdbj7.com/content/news/Family-believes-human-remains-found-in-Halifax-County-belong-to-Emma-Layne-460626173.html  https://www.wdbj7.com/content/news/SHARE-Police-search-for-missing-woman-from-Halifax-county-429921923.html  https://www.evaporatethemissing.com/post/with-butterfly-kisses  https://www.facebook.com/HelpFindEmmaComptonLayne  https://www.yourgv.com/news/lightmare-says-sister-of-missing-cody/article_d96de88e-6d86-11e7-a1cd-d3a4270a79ed.html  https://www.yourgv.com/obituaries/sylvia-whitlow-mccurry/article_5d5effb4-b1e5-11e7-95a9-8bf90331c580.html  Interview with Shawna https://www.nbcnews.com/dateline/missing-in-america/husband-arrested-murder-emma-compton-layne-rcna182219 https://www.wdbj7.com/2024/11/29/emma-compton-laynes-sister-reacts-murder-arrest/ Moms and Mysteries podcast https://www.momsandmysteries.com/ Series Links lovelustfear https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ lovelustfridays https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfridays Jake Deptula www.instagram.com/jaked3000 Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Haley Gray | Producer & Researcher https://www.instagram.com/HaleyGrayResearch www.HaleyGrayResearch.com  National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788  https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ guest + story | submission information  If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below. E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear subscription links Amazon Music Spotify Music Apple Podcasts RSS feed https://audioboom.com/channels/5125912.rss Want to hear more? Whatever app you’re listening on, just rate us and/or leave us a comment or review. Thank you for your support!  topics | #EmmaCompton #HeatherAshley #KyleAshley #BigMadTrueCrime #CriticalIncidents #LovelessFridays #DomesticViolence #Podcasting #Crime #LawEnforcement #Military #LegalSystem #EmotionalAbuse #VictimSupport #SafetyPlans #Investigation #WomensRights #MentalHealth #Empowerment #CommunitySupport #ForensicEvidence #ProsecutionStrategies #JuryDynamics #VictimAdvocacy #TrueCrimePodcasting #StrangulationStatistics #CriminalJusticeSystem #PodcastCollaboration #SurvivorStories #Advocacy #TrueCrime #Storytelling #PersonalGrowth #CommunityEngagement 

As Lisa rises to fame in the modeling world, her ambition takes her around the globe. What starts as a dream life quickly unravels when she becomes the target of a dangerous sexual predator. Exploited by those in power, she refuses to stay silent, putting herself at risk to uncover the truth and protect others from the same fate. chapters (00:00) listen with caution (00:16) next on lovelustfear (01:44) about lisa (02:40) lisa’s story (36:16) questions & answers (44:39) closing thoughts (46:12) charity & organizations (46:42) submit your story (46:53) disclaimer ** This episode contains explicit content, including descriptions of sexual assault, human trafficking, and coerion. Please listen with caution.** quotes "I definitely always had this personality where I like to have a voice." - Lisa "As I became a model in my teens, it was like. The mid nineties, right? So we had all these supermodels and every little girl wanted to be a model." - Lisa I've had certain experiences that I always felt like I could handle." - Lisa "His whole demeanor changed. He was definitely very, very different at this point. I felt like I couldn't leave the room." - Lisa "It just changed everything for me and my trust in men for my body, my trust in myself." - Lisa  "They cannot be silenced anymore. That's where the shift is going to change, because when people, yes, are assaulted, they're speaking out where predators have always relied on the fact that all the victims stay silent." - Lisa topics | #Healing #Transparency #Modeling #Identity #Podcasting #Trauma #Empowerment #Predators #Boundaries #SelfDiscovery #Grooming #Assault #Trust #Relationships #SelfPerception #Mentorship #PowerDynamics #EmotionalImpact #Abuse #ModelingIndustry #SpeakingOut #SurvivorStories #Corruption #PersonalGrowth music | sounds Music (CC BY 4.0): Lost Place Atmospheres 002 by Sascha Ende Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com) Other Music and Sound Effects by: Alex Wit, cybercutie, freesound_community, Geoffrey Harvey, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, AlesiaDavina, and UNIVERSFIELD from Pixabay stay aware | follow | share (lisa) https://www.instagram.com/iamlisaphillips/ https://www.youtube.com/@fromnowonpod https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/from-now-on/id1766405014 https://open.spotify.com/show/1vOhoPrOkwIyCNApzsBlF8 https://www.tiktok.com/@fromnowonpod https://linktr.ee/fromnowonpod National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788  https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ story submission information  If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below. submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ subscription links Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/b06d0ea8-cb29-4c3a-98e6-0249d84df748/lovelustfear Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0e3ndcf5u8lZ5lhN1lvWec Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283 RSS feed https://audioboom.com/channels/5125912.rss Want to hear more? Whatever app you’re listening on, just rate us and/or leave us a comment or review. Thank you for your support! 

Brittani Ard, host of You Probably Think This Story's About You, joins Jake and Michele on lovelustfridays for a raw and thoughtful conversation about trauma, relationships, and the emotional weight of storytelling. She opens up about her transition from a career in architecture to podcasting, and the lessons she's learned along the way. The discussion dives into the complexities of dating in midlife—particularly for strong, independent women—touching on breakups, emotional boundaries, and the process of unintentionally emasculating men. Brit also reflects on how independence can sometimes hinder connection, and why taking small, intentional steps back into the dating world can be so valuable. Please Visit Our Sponsors! Ready to start your own podcast? Descript instantly converts your audio files into text documents—just like editing in Google Docs or Microsoft Word. It's the tool we rely on for Lovelust Fridays to keep everything running smoothly. Click here to try it for free! https://get.descript.com/pepqx4ars509 Brittani Ard  – Links Website: https://brittaniard.com/ Podcast: “You Probably Think This Story’s About You” Apple Podcasts Spotify Podcasts Amazon Music Instagram https://www.instagram.com/brittani.ard/ Discussion Links  https://www.thehotline.org/ Series Links lovelustfear https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ lovelustfridays https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfridays Jake Deptula www.instagram.com/jaked3000 Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Haley Gray | Producer & Researcher https://www.instagram.com/HaleyGrayResearch www.HaleyGrayResearch.com  National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788  https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ guest + story | submission information  If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below. E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear subscription links Amazon Music Spotify Music Apple Podcasts RSS feed https://audioboom.com/channels/5125912.rss Want to hear more? Whatever app you’re listening on, just rate us and/or leave us a comment or review. Thank you for your support!  topics | #LovelustFridays #Pleasure #Relationships #DatingInMidlife #EmotionalAvailability #Independence #Partnership #SelfDiscovery #Attraction #PersonalNeeds #HighDrama #StabilityInRelationships #Parenting #EmotionalAbuse #SurvivorStories #Podcasting #Kindness #PersonalGrowth #MentalHealthAwareness #Healing #SelfLove #EmotionalHealing #MidlifeJourney #RelationshipGrowth #SurvivorStrength #MentalHealthMatters #YouProbablyThinkThisStorysAboutYou #BrittaniArd

Jenna Brister is a comedian, actor, and screenwriter behind the feel-good Hallmark movies adored by millions. She bravely opened up about her harrowing experience of being trapped in an abusive marriage with a volatile chef in episode 6 of lovelustfear, titled “No One Gets Out This Early,” Now, she joins Jake Deptula to reflect on the red flags she faced, the healing power of comedy, and how her real-life romance with her new partner—who she’s traveled the world with—mirrors the kind of love she now brings to life in her scripts. Jenna shares her journey of surviving trauma, finding her own leading man, and how food, humor, and holiday movies helped her write her way to a true happy ending. Please Visit Our Sponsors! Ready to start your own podcast? Descript instantly converts your audio files into text documents—just like editing in Google Docs or Microsoft Word. It's the tool we rely on for Lovelust Fridays to keep everything running smoothly. Click here to try it for free! https://get.descript.com/pepqx4ars509 Jenna Brister – Links Instagram https://www.instagram.com/jenna.brister/ Google Knowledge Panel https://g.co/kgs/9nrnGbm IMDB https://www.imdb.com/name/nm4488723/ Discussion Links  https://www.thehotline.org/ Series Links lovelustfear https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ lovelustfridays https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfridays Jake Deptula www.instagram.com/jaked3000 Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Haley Gray | Producer & Researcher https://www.instagram.com/HaleyGrayResearch www.HaleyGrayResearch.com  National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788  https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ guest + story | submission information  If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below. E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear subscription links Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/b06d0ea8-cb29-4c3a-98e6-0249d84df748/lovelustfear Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0e3ndcf5u8lZ5lhN1lvWec Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283 RSS feed https://audioboom.com/channels/5125912.rss Want to hear more? Whatever app you’re listening on, just rate us and/or leave us a comment or review. Thank you for your support!  topics | #LovelustFridays #JennaBrister #Comedy #HallmarkMovies #AbuseRecovery #relationships #lifetimovies#ImprovComedy #DatingLife #Storytelling #RomComs #FilmProduction #CulinaryArts #ChristmasMovies #WritingCommunity #Escapism #LoveAndHealing #EmotionalSafety #HealthyBoundaries #SelfRespect #Resilience #HealingJourney #Romance

After enduring sexual harassment in her early teens, Lynn turns to older men for comfort as she enters adulthood. She becomes pregnant by an abusive partner, faces the heart-wrenching decision of abortion, and suffers further assault. Despite her longing to heal, she becomes caught in toxic cycles, growing increasingly isolated and trapped. Driven by the need to end the cycle of abuse, she fights to break free. chapters (00:00) listen with caution (00:24) next on lovelustfear (02:23) about lynn (03:18) lynn’s story (46:04) questions & answers (58:59) closing thoughts (01:00:08) charity & organizations (01:00:38) submit your story (01:00:50) disclaimer ** This episode contains explicit content, including descriptions of sexual assault, physical abuse, and abortion. Please listen with caution.** quotes “I developed very fast. I felt like I almost went from being a little girl to being a young woman, who was leered at and gawked at…” - Lynn “They became abusive…you never knew what kind of person you were gonna get with him.” - Lynn “…there's no way that I'm gonna get pregnant. and that's exactly what happened.” - Lynn “A few months later I got a phone call from the father of the baby, from my previous boyfriend, He broke into the house in the middle of the night. He walked into my bedroom, scared the hell out of me. And then in the morning he had left me this incredibly creepy note that said, amongst other things, I just wanted to watch you sleep.” - Lynn “…that was his way of getting me away from everything that I knew, my job, my friends, my hometown, any connection that I had to anyone to get me alone in a new state to isolate me.” - Lynn “I encourage everyone out there who has experienced any type of abuse, whether it be emotional or physical, psychological, sexual, to find a good outlet.” - Lynn “I feel like every time I tell the story, now that I gain a little bit of myself.” - Lynn topics | #Relationships #EmotionalAbuse #ToxicDynamics #Trust #SelfWorth #AbusiveRelationships #EmotionalManipulation #SexualAssault #ToxicRelationships #RedFlags #Support #Silencing #Fear #Trauma #Reporting #Assault #GenerationalTrauma #Healing #Partner music | sounds Music (CC BY 4.0): Lost Place Atmospheres (001-003) by Sascha Ende Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com) Other Music and Sound Effects by Alex Wit, cybercutie, TheoJT, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, Samuel Kamau, and UNIVERSFIELD from Pixabay stay aware | follow | share (lynn) National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788  https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ Hope Alliance  https://www.hopealliancetx.org/ To assist those whose lives have been affected by family and sexual violence by providing safety, services, and developing partnerships that lead to hope, healing, and prevention. To provide hope of future generations through prevention and be a leader in saving and transforming lives affected by family and sexual violence. End Violence Against Women International https://evawintl.org/ We confront interpersonal violence against adults and adolescents of all genders. We specialize in trauma-informed law enforcement responses—from the first interaction with a victim through the investigation and potential prosecution. Positive outcomes for survivors require everyone working together, so we also champion collaborative practices, with multidisciplinary training for health care providers, prosecutors, advocates, and others who respond to survivors. The National Training Center on Crimes Against Women https://trainingcaw.org/ The National Training Center on Crimes Against Women (NTC) is a state-of-the-art facility in Dallas, Texas that provides year-round training for those addressing violence against women. Leveraging the rich history of the Conference on Crimes Against Women, NTC offers learning opportunities ranging from basic to advanced levels. Additionally, NTC builds community in the region by hosting free events, even those outside its primary focus areas. story submission information  If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below. submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ subscription links Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/b06d0ea8-cb29-4c3a-98e6-0249d84df748/lovelustfear Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0e3ndcf5u8lZ5lhN1lvWec Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283 RSS feed https://audioboom.com/channels/5125912.rss Want to hear more? Whatever app you’re listening on, just rate us and/or leave us a comment or review. Thank you for your support! 

In this episode of lovelustfridays, hosts Jake Deptula and Michele Locke explore the intersection of spirituality, relationships, and personal transformation with guest Amber Rasmussen, host of Next Realm and Ex-Wives Undercover. Jake opens up about his intense connection with a karmic soulmate, while Michele shares her deep-seated fear of visiting a psychic. The conversation unpacks the role of psychics, spiritual mediums, and the often-misused concept of twin flames, exploring cosmic and karmic connections. Amber shares how the death of her nephew ignited her spiritual curiosity, leading her to uncover signs and experiences that shaped her beliefs. The discussion also highlights how spirituality and religion can influence relationships, helping individuals set boundaries and recognize toxic patterns. Amber details the real-life story behind Ex-Wives Undercover, revealing how she and her co-host exposed a serial manipulator, ultimately saving a woman’s life. The episode includes a thought-provoking discussion on the contrast between spirituality and organized religion and their impact on love, trust, and personal growth. Amber Rasmussen + Next Ream | Links Website: https://www.nextrealmpod.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/nextrealmpod/ Story Submissions: NextRealmPodcast@Gmail.com Please Visit Our Sponsors! Ready to start your own podcast? Descript instantly converts your audio files into text documents—just like editing in Google Docs or Microsoft Word. It's the tool we rely on for Lovelust Fridays to keep everything running smoothly. Click here to try it for free! https://get.descript.com/pepqx4ars509 Discussion Links  https://www.thehotline.org/ Spiritual Abuse: https://www.thehotline.org/resources/what-is-spiritual-abuse/#:~:text=Regardless%20of%20either%20partner's%20religious,creating%20an%20emotional%20safety%20plan  Ex-Wives Undercover: https://linktr.ee/Exwivesundercover   Next Realm: https://www.nextrealmpod.com/  Jake’s Episode of Next Realm: https://www.nextrealmpod.com/8-beyond-the-veil-a-grandmothers-last-goodbye-and-life-lessons/  Reach Amber at NextRealmPodcast@gmail.com “Extraordinary Measures” Movie https://www.imdb.com/title/tt1244659/  Crystal’s LinkTree: https://linktr.ee/CrystalJCorl  The Visitation Podcast: https://www.listennotes.com/podcasts/the-visitation-the-visitation-podcast-JDzQ82-hGKs/ Jake’s Karmic Soulmate interview: (Jake is credited as “Charlie M.”) https://www.getmegiddy.com/dating-karmic-soulmate The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma (Book) https://www.amazon.com/Body-Keeps-Score-Healing-Trauma/dp/0143127748 More about Twin Flames from Medical News Today: https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/twin-flame-meaning#Summary  Series Links lovelustfear https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ lovelustfridays https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfridays Jake Deptula www.instagram.com/jaked3000 Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Haley Gray | Producer & Researcher https://www.instagram.com/HaleyGrayResearch www.HaleyGrayResearch.com  National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788  https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ guest + story | submission information  If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below. E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear subscription links Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/b06d0ea8-cb29-4c3a-98e6-0249d84df748/lovelustfear Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0e3ndcf5u8lZ5lhN1lvWec Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283 RSS feed https://audioboom.com/channels/5125912.rss Want to hear more? Whatever app you’re listening on, just rate us and/or leave us a comment or review. Thank you for your support!  topics | #spirituality #personalgrowth #relationships #karma #energy #crystals #intuition #familylaw #podcasting #emotionalhealing #psychics #twinflames #soulmates #familyconnections #emotionalintelligence #spiritualawakening #cosmicsoulmate #karmicrelationships #spiritualconnections #toxicrelationships #storytelling #wisdom #lifeexperiences #love #personalstories #connection #meditation #celebrityencounters #sharingexperiences #signsfrombeyond

Jake, Michele, and Haley team up with Lauryn (lovelustfear) for an epic battle between Galentine’s Day and Valentine’s Day, sharing awkward dating experiences that have shaped their views on the holiday. They dive into the communication struggles between men and women, the decisions behind regifting, and how their understanding of love languages has changed over the years. Their conversation also touches on classic Valentine’s Day topics—proposals, gifts like chocolates and stuffed animals, and the pressure to make the day unforgettable. To wrap it up, they get playful with games like ‘Never Have I Ever’ and ‘Love it or Leave it.’ Discussion Links  https://rosetoyofficial-us.com/ (Tell them Michele sent you!) https://stlzoo.org/give/zoo-parents-program/valentine  https://www.farmsanctuary.org/news-stories/2025-valentines-day/?utm_source=chatgpt.com https://www.walmart.com/ip/DesignPac-Jack-Links-Valentine-Meat-Fur-You-Heart-Box-0-625oz/2465067498 https://manlymanco.com/products/meathearts?variant=31479920951379 https://www.etsy.com/market/valentines_coupons  Series Links lovelustfear https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ lovelustfridays https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfridays Jake Deptula www.instagram.com/jaked3000 Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Haley Gray | Producer & Researcher https://www.instagram.com/HaleyGrayResearch www.HaleyGrayResearch.com  National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788  https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ music | sounds On Hold for You Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com) Licensed under Creative Commons: By Attribution 3.0 License http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/3.0/ guest + story | submission information  If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below. E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear subscription links Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/b06d0ea8-cb29-4c3a-98e6-0249d84df748/lovelustfear Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0e3ndcf5u8lZ5lhN1lvWec Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283 RSS feed https://audioboom.com/channels/5125912.rss  Want to hear more? Whatever app you’re listening on, just rate us and/or leave us a comment or review. Thank you for your support!  topics | #ValentinesDay #Relationships #RealityTV #Psychology #GalentinesDay #Love #SelfAcceptance #Pressures #Dating #Friendship #Intimacy #Vulnerability #ChildhoodExperiences #GenderDifferences #Communication #Expectations #Celebrations #Midwest #Chicago #Boston #LoveLanguages #GiftGiving #SelfLove #Design #Events #PersonalConnections #ThoughtfulGifts #PersonalGrowth #EmotionalConnections #CreativeIdeas #SelfReflection #Compatibility #Nostalgia #PopCulture #EmotionalBaggage

In this episode, Jake and Michele are joined by Gina and Amber from the Weird True Crime podcast to discuss the tragic story of Judy Malinowski, a mother of two who was set on fire by her abuser, Michael Slager, and bravely fought for 696 days to survive—ultimately making legal history by testifying against him. The discussion delves into the devastating impact of domestic violence, the legal significance of Judy’s case, her brave testimony, and the historic role she played in speaking out against her abuser. The panel also explores the warning signs of abusive relationships, the difficulties victims face when trying to escape, and the lasting legacy of Judy’s Law. They emphasize the importance of raising awareness about domestic abuse and the vital work Weird True Crime is doing to highlight lesser-known cases and bring attention to critical issues in the true crime world. **PLEASE NOTE** The topics discussed in this episode are dark in nature and may be distressing to some listeners. We will be exploring sensitive subjects, including domestic violence, severe fire burns, and murder, which may not be suitable for all audiences. Listener discretion is strongly advised.  Support Links  https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.thehotline.org/resources/get-help-50-obstacles-to-leaving/  https://www.facebook.com/Judysfoundation.org  Weird True Crime https://www.weirdtruecrime.com/ https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/weird-true-crime/id1642363009 https://open.spotify.com/show/3BHNffWPPzW79m0s5phIWM https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/9d0c54e2-1ec0-4994-bc3c-33c8a0c3dcaf/weird-true-crime https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCcAPlqQ1t9nzA9B6kAKifmA Case Source Links https://lawandcrime.com/crime/michael-slager-pleads-guilty-to-murder-after-dousing-girlfriend-with-gas-setting-judy-malinowski-on-fire/  https://www.judysfoundation.org/about/ https://people.com/judy-malinowski-woman-set-fire-ex-testified-grave-behind-bars-life-7503471 https://people.com/crime/the-fire-that-took-her-judy-malinowski-case/ https://people.com/crime/judy-malinowski-set-fire-fiance-heroic-fight/ https://people.com/judy-malinowski-last-moments-fire-that-took-her-exclusive-7503538 https://appgateway.drc.ohio.gov/OffenderSearch/Search/Details/A731261 https://www.nbc4i.com/news/judy-malinowski-dies-nearly-two-years-after-being-set-on-fire/ https://www.10tv.com/article/news/local/gahanna-man-pleads-no-contest-charges-setting-woman-fire/530-bebe39bc-62ac-43a7-b42a-50e121da7965 https://people.com/crime/judy-malinowski-set-on-fire-fiance-5-things/ https://www.10tv.com/article/news/local/judy-malinowski-attack-survivor-who-fought-change-ohio-law-dies-33/530-1fe7ee85-aa78-499e-bad3-f065fae1bbcf https://web.archive.org/web/20190702053044/https://www.10tv.com/article/find-help-run-woman-set-fire-shares-message-abused-women https://web.archive.org/web/20190702083142/https://www.10tv.com/article/woman-set-fire-i-want-fight-live https://web.archive.org/web/20171002181027/http://www.10tv.com/article/woman-set-fire-attackers-punishment-doesnt-fit-crime https://web.archive.org/web/20190702051023/http://www.10tv.com/article/judge-woman-set-fire-allowed-record-testimony-potential-murder-trial https://www.egan-ryan.com/obituary/Judith-Malinowski https://www.gofundme.com/f/hope-and-help-for-judy https://www.wdtn.com/news/u-s-world/slager-sentenced-to-life-in-prison-after-pleading-guilty-in-judy-malinowski-murder-case/ https://www.dispatch.com/story/news/crime/2018/07/05/slager-pleads-avoids-death-penalty/987168007/ https://web.archive.org/web/20190705225458/http://www.10tv.com/article/judy-malinowskis-daughters-our-mommy-didnt-suffer-vain  https://people.com/crime/judy-malinowski-murderer-michael-slager-pleads-sentenced/ https://people.com/judy-malinowski-fire-took-her-exclusive-dying-wish-daughters-7505022 Judy’s deposition https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IBapvOaUjj4  The Fire That Took Her (2022), https://www.imdb.com/title/tt21995004/  Series Links lovelustfear https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ lovelustfridays https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfridays Jake Deptula www.instagram.com/jaked3000 Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Haley Gray | Producer & Researcher https://www.instagram.com/HaleyGrayResearch www.HaleyGrayResearch.com  National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788  https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ guest + story | submission information  If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below. 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In this episode of lovelustfridays, host Jake Deptula and producer Haley Gray discuss the importance of National Stalking Awareness Month. They discuss the legacy of Peggy Klinke, whose tragic murder led to the establishment of National Stalking Awareness Month, and discuss the significant work done by advocates like her sister, Debbie Riddle, and organizations such as SPARC. They delve into the often-overlooked crime of stalking, its relationship with domestic violence, and the misconceptions surrounding it. Haley shares her personal experience with stalking, highlighting the realization and challenges faced by victims. The conversation emphasizes the need for awareness, better legal support, and community resources for stalking survivors. Resources and contact information for further support and advocacy are provided. Stalking Support | Links  https://www.stalkingawareness.org/   https://www.standupresources.com/  https://www.actionagainststalking.org/  https://victimsofcrime.org/ www.womenslaw.org  www.victimconnect.org  https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.lenoraclairellc.com/ Additional Links Peggy’s Strictly Stalking episode https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/strictly-stalking/id1494237083?i=1000556692586 Haley’s Strictly Stalking episode https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/strictly-stalking/id1494237083?i=1000683900247 Strictly Stalking Podcast https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/strictly-stalking/id1494237083 https://www.instagram.com/strictlystalkingpod Moms And Mysteries Podcast https://www.momsandmysteries.com/  National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788  https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ Case Source Links https://web.archive.org/web/20230115111213/https://www.cdc.gov/injury/features/prevent-stalking/index.html https://spu.edu/-/media/administration/safety-and-security/documents/History-of-Stalking-Awareness-Month.ashx#:~:text=NSAM%20began%20in%20response%20to,to%20stalking%20and%20save%20lives  links lovelustfear https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ lovelustfridays https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfridays Jake Deptula www.instagram.com/jaked3000 Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Haley Gray | Producer & Researcher https://www.instagram.com/HaleyGrayResearch www.HaleyGrayResearch.com  guest + story | submission information  If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below. E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear subscription links Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/b06d0ea8-cb29-4c3a-98e6-0249d84df748/lovelustfear Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0e3ndcf5u8lZ5lhN1lvWec Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283 RSS feed https://audioboom.com/channels/5125912.rss Want to hear more? Whatever app you’re listening on, just rate us and/or leave us a comment or review. Thank you for your support!  topics | #relationships #lawenforcement #dating #trauma #domesticviolence #trust #intimatepartnerviolence #caseanalysis #accountability #emotionalresponses #legalanalysis #officerbehavior #patternsofabuse #investigativestrategies #communication #casestudies #nsam2025 #nationalstlakingawarenessmonth #peggyklinke #debbieriddle

In this episode of lovelustfridays, hosts Jake Deptula and Michelle Locke sit down with retired FBI agent and profiler Julia Cowley, who reflects on her 22-year career investigating serial killings, sex offenses, and other violent crimes. Julia discusses the realities of working as an FBI profiler, sharing her insights into high-profile cases, including those involving intimate partner violence. They cover the heartbreaking case of Vashti Forrest, a mother of two killed in 2011 after filing for divorce from her abusive husband, Brett Seacat, a police officer. Julia sheds light on the warning signs of domestic violence, the psychology of offenders, and the emotional toll of such investigations. As the host of highly rated The Consult: Real FBI Profilers podcast, Julia offers an honest, in-depth look at the complexities of FBI profiling, debunking myths often portrayed in TV and film, and providing a deeper understanding of criminal investigations. guest links | Julia Cowley https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-consult-real-fbi-profilers/id1586909557 https://open.spotify.com/show/4BRyHb1KZjdGYrMfu2zMeM https://www.truecrimeconsult.com/  https://facebook.com/theconsultpod https://www.instagram.com/theconsultpod/ https://www.twitter.com/theconsultpod  links lovelustfear https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ lovelustfridays https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfridays Jake Deptula www.instagram.com/jaked3000 Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Haley Gray | Producer & Researcher https://www.instagram.com/HaleyGrayResearch www.HaleyGrayResearch.com  Additional Links Strictly Stalking Podcast - Featuring Julia Cowley “Real FBI Profiler” https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/207-real-fbi-profiler-julia-cowley/id1494237083?i=1000640310287 https://open.spotify.com/episode/2rHGTzMSo5J6FjEx0jvqvP FBI Retired Case File Review Podcast https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/fbi-retired-case-file-review/id1082012464 https://open.spotify.com/show/5gtvYJG343U7NBxcOfI2P4?si=eZD1ISmESmKoSIaJZYTKaw&nd=1&dlsi=e1969a41e5f54afa https://jerriwilliams.com/  National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788  https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ Case Source Links https://www.thehotline.org/ Brett Seacat, Department of Corrections State of Kansas v. Brett T. Seacat, Supreme Court of Kansas, 15 January 2016 Brett T. Seacat v. State of Kansas, Court of Appeals of Kansas, 11 February 2022 Potter, Tim, “Vashti Seacat autopsy…”, Wichita Eagle, 8 August 2014 Truesdell, Jeff, “Kansas mom’s death…”, People, 10 June 2013 Potter, Tim, “In wake of Kingman…”, Wichita Eagle, 1 February 2014 Gray, Darcy, “Vashti Seacat was hopeful…”, Wichita Eagle, 8 August 2014 Leiker, Amy Renee, “Oral arguments set…”, Wichita Eagle, 8 August 2015 Hurst, Laviana, “Brett Seacat sentenced…”, Wichita Eagle, 8 August 2014 Potter, Tim, “Sister testifies in Kingman…”, Wichita Eagle, 5 August 2014 Gray, Darcy, “Jury hears Brett Seacat…”, Wichita Eagle, 8 August 2014 Gray, Darcy, “Friend of Seacat’s…”, Wichita Eagle, 8 August 2014 Leiker, Amy, “Brett Seacat prosecutors…”, Wichita Eagle, 8 August 2014 N/A, “Ex-police instructor…”, Associated Press, 5 August 2013 Potter, Tim, “Questions linger after…”, Wichita Eagle, 8 May 2011 Potter, Tim, “Suspect in Kingman death…”, Wichita Eagle, 8 August 2014 Gray, Darcy, “Investigator says he…”, Wichita Eagle, 8 August 2014 Leiker, Amy, “Jury to resume…”, Wichita Eagle, 8 August 2014 Leiker, Amy, “Defense rests in…”, Wichita Eagle, 8 August 2014 guest + story | submission information  If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below. E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear subscription links Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/b06d0ea8-cb29-4c3a-98e6-0249d84df748/lovelustfear Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0e3ndcf5u8lZ5lhN1lvWec Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283 RSS feed https://audioboom.com/channels/5125912.rss Want to hear more? Whatever app you’re listening on, just rate us and/or leave us a comment or review. Thank you for your support!  topics | #FBI #profiling #criminalbehavior #investigations #emotionaltoll #podcasting #relationships #lawenforcement #dating #trauma #domesticviolence #trust #roadrage #policeabuse #intimatepartnerviolence #caseanalysis #accountability #emotionalresponses #legalanalysis #officerbehavior #patternsofabuse #investigativestrategies #communication #casestudies #vashtiforrest #theconsult

In this episode of lovelustfridays, hosts Jake Deptula and Michele Locke are joined by Debra, who shared her harrowing story in lovelustfear Episode 12, “I’ve Always Seemed To Attract The Crazy Type.” Debra talks about her journey to get sober after a tough first marriage and dealing with toxic relationships. They dive into the challenges of staying sober, how addiction can impact relationships, and how important it is to have self-worth and resilience in recovery. Michele and Jake also share their own experiences with alcohol and dating and the pressure to drink at social events. They also discuss online dating, dating age gaps, narcissism, and the rise of professional matchmaking services. guest links | debra The Alternative Hair Alchemist | Podcast https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/alternative-hair-alchemist-a-podcast-about/id1627588998 links Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Haley Gray | Producer & Researcher https://www.instagram.com/HaleyGrayResearch www.HaleyGrayResearch.com  Additional Links  Three Day Rule - Matchmaking Service https://www.threedayrule.com/ National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788  https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ guest + story | submission information  If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below. E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear subscription links Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/b06d0ea8-cb29-4c3a-98e6-0249d84df748/lovelustfear Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0e3ndcf5u8lZ5lhN1lvWec Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283 RSS feed https://audioboom.com/channels/5125912.rss Want to hear more? Whatever app you’re listening on, just rate us and/or leave us a comment or review. Thank you for your support!  topics | #sobriety #addiction #relationships #personalgrowth #alcohol #recovery #dating #selfdiscovery #support #empowerment #onlinedating #narcissism #relationships #matchmaking #selfdiscovery #datingprofiles #threedayrule #agedynamics #personalgrowth #empowerment #love

In this lovelustfridays 2024 Year-End Wrap-Up, Hosts Jake, Michele and Producer Haley engage in a candid conversation about relationships, personal growth, and the valuable lessons they've learned throughout 2024. Jake opens up about his three dating rules—and why they still keep getting broken. Michelle reveals her essential dating hygiene must-haves, while Haley reflects on her people-pleasing tendencies and where they stem from. In addition, they delve into the application of AI—specifically ChatGPT—to analyze their personalities and uncover surprising insights. The conversation wraps up with an exciting announcement: a brand new podcast series for 2025, aimed at demystifying the legal system and examining how it impacts relationships. links Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Haley Gray | Producer & Researcher https://www.instagram.com/HaleyGrayResearch www.HaleyGrayResearch.com  Additional Links  National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788  https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ guest + story | submission information  If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below. E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear subscription links Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/b06d0ea8-cb29-4c3a-98e6-0249d84df748/lovelustfear Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0e3ndcf5u8lZ5lhN1lvWec Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283 RSS feed https://audioboom.com/channels/5125912.rss Want to hear more? Whatever app you’re listening on, just rate us and/or leave us a comment or review. Thank you for your support! 

Host Jake Deptula and family law attorney Michelle Locke are joined by Lauryn from Episode 17 of lovelustfear, titled “You Have to Learn to Trust Me.”  Lauryn reflects on her first toxic relationship, sharing the emotional toll of repeated breakups and reconciliations that led her to question her self-worth. She describes how these painful cycles pushed her to emotional extremes and behaviors she didn’t recognize in herself. Lauryn also opens up about her struggles with body image, self-confidence, and how societal pressures influenced her perception of beauty. The conversation delves into the challenges women face today, the journey to self-acceptance, and the critical role of family and friends in overcoming adversity. Michelle offers valuable advice for parents on how to help their children navigate emotionally challenging breakups. links Lauryn Lugo Here’s a link to my show Border’d on YouTube:  https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3XBICHsy7GjVKinY7RhZXh8gy67zOSNZ&si=sYPzspemX3P1e1EG Here’s a link to my show Little Things on YouTube:  https://youtu.be/BowNWLggBzQ?si=mGcgCnGkVUrcNdmb Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Haley Gray | Producer & Researcher https://www.instagram.com/HaleyGrayResearch www.HaleyGrayResearch.com  Additional Links  NAMI https://www.nami.org/ NAMI is the National Alliance on Mental Illness, the nation’s largest grassroots mental health organization dedicated to building better lives for the millions of Americans affected by mental illness. The Gift of Fear Survival Signals That Protect Us from Violence by Gavin De Becker (Book) https://www.amazon.com/Gift-Fear-Gavin-Becker/dp/0316235776/ One Tree Hill https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/One_Tree_Hill_(TV_series) Sources https://people.ucsc.edu/~sgrabe/Shellys_Home_page/Publications_files/Grabe%20&%20Ward,%20Hyde,%20Media%20Meta%20(PB,%202008).pdf  https://www.pewresearch.org/internet/2020/05/08/dating-and-relationships-in-the-digital-age/  National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788  https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ guest + story | submission information  If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below. E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear subscription links Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/b06d0ea8-cb29-4c3a-98e6-0249d84df748/lovelustfear Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0e3ndcf5u8lZ5lhN1lvWec Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283 RSS feed https://audioboom.com/channels/5125912.rss Want to hear more? Whatever app you’re listening on, just rate us and/or leave us a comment or review. Thank you for your support!  topics | #bodyimage #selfconfidence #toxicrelationships #mediainfluence #personalgrowth #selfworth #societalpressures #healing #friendship #parentingadvice #heartbreak #parenting #emotionalsupport #relationships #love #mentalhealth #copingstrategies #familydynamics #stalking #selfdiscovery #intuition #theater #empowerment

Lauryn’s romance with her movie theater coworker spirals into a toxic cycle of heartbreak, doubt, and obsession, leaving her emotionally crushed but driven to prove her instincts right. chapters (00:00) listen with caution (00:16) next on lovelustfear (02:08) about lauryn (03:14) lauryn’s story (31:26) questions & answers (38:49) closing thoughts (39:53) charity & organizations (40:23) submit your story (40:34) disclaimer quotes "...in middle school when girls and boys were starting to pay more attention to each other. And I had crushes, but they were not reciprocated..." - Lauryn “At the time, I was just like, we're going to be together forever. We had talked about it. You're the love of my life. I'm the love of your life.” - Lauryn "He breaks up with me, I'm devastated, I start to move on, he calls me, we get back together, he starts to pull away again." - Lauryn "I'm crying and sobbing, and I wake my parents up. I wake my mom up, and I tell her…I feel like I'm going to die and I will do anything to make this pain stop." - Lauryn "I'm begging him, begging him, please just break it off with me. I can't do this anymore. I know that you're cheating on me. I know something's going on. I feel it. He was like, I know that we've been through a lot, but you have to learn to trust me." - Lauryn “Most people that know me, I guarantee you would be like Lauren would rather eat glass than sit around and let someone disrespect her because it's not who I am. But back then, it was who I was…” - Lauryn topics #romanticmovies #toxicrelationships #heartbreak #infidelityandbetrayal #selfesteemjourney #comingofagestory #emotionalrecovery #lifeafterheartbreak #loveandselfdiscovery #cheatingandrecovery #teenageromance #lovecycles #findingyourself #healingafterheartbreak #toxiclovepatterns #copingwithbreakups #romanticizedlove #boundariesinrelationships #heartbreaktohealing #redefininglove #trust #stability #doubts #cheating #breakup #devastation #infidelity #confrontation #betrayal #trauma #mentalhealth #recovery #chronicillness #podcasting #awareness #support #podcast music | sounds Music (CC BY 4.0): Lost Place Atmospheres 002 by Sascha Ende Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com) Other Music and Sound Effects by Alex Wit, Yevhenii Kovalenko, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, and UNIVERSFIELD from Pixabay stay aware | follow | share (lauryn) Women Deliver https://womendeliver.org An Unwavering Advocate for Girls and Women – Women Deliver We’re a global advocacy organization guided by one end result: that every girl and woman exercises her rights to full bodily autonomy and health. National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788  https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ story submission information  If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below. submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ subscription links Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/b06d0ea8-cb29-4c3a-98e6-0249d84df748/lovelustfear Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0e3ndcf5u8lZ5lhN1lvWec Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283 RSS feed https://audioboom.com/channels/5125912.rss Want to hear more? Whatever app you’re listening on, just rate us and/or leave us a comment or review. Thank you for your support! 

Host Jake Deptula and family law attorney Michele Locke are joined by Lori Morrison, a retired private investigator, speaker, author, podcaster, and church safety coach.  Lori shares her insights into spiritual abuse, the role of women within religious communities, and offers advice for those seeking guidance in handling church-related disputes. The episode also covers Lori’s journey into private investigation and her continued dedication to helping victims through her podcast, The Unlovely Truth. The conversation emphasizes the gender-based power dynamics prevalent in many faiths and how women need to challenge such oppressive structures respectfully but firmly, highlighting the paramount importance of understanding and asserting one's rights. Jake and Michele also discuss their personal experiences with the Catholic Church, addressing issues such as the hypocrisy observed within religious institutions and how churches handle misconduct accusations. They highlight the problematic nature of internal conflict resolution within churches and discuss the broader issues of abuse and cover-ups in various denominations.  links The Unlovely Truth Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-unlovely-truth/id1490970256 Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0oOJagNw54yyATuQ5dI6l0 Lori Morrison https://theunlovelytruth.com/ https://www.facebook.com/theUnlovelyTruth https://www.instagram.com/theunlovelytruthpodcast/ Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Haley Gray | Producer & Researcher https://www.instagram.com/HaleyGrayResearch www.HaleyGrayResearch.com  Additional Links  National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788  https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ guest + story | submission information  If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below. E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear subscription links Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/b06d0ea8-cb29-4c3a-98e6-0249d84df748/lovelustfear Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0e3ndcf5u8lZ5lhN1lvWec Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283 RSS feed https://audioboom.com/channels/5125912.rss Want to hear more? Whatever app you’re listening on, just rate us and/or leave us a comment or review. Thank you for your support!  topics | #ChurchSafety #SpiritualAbuse #LoriMorrison #PrivateInvestigator #ChurchAccountability #GenderAndFaith #ReligiousReform #AbusePrevention #FaithAndJustice #WomenInChurch #TruthAndHealing #AddressingAbuse #ReligiousHypocrisy #FaithBasedAbuse #TheUnlovelyTruth #ChurchLeadership #ChurchSafetyCoach #EmpowerWomen #ReligiousCommunity #SpeakUpForJustice #SupportSurvivors

Host Jake Deptula is joined by family law attorney Michele Locke and Gabi Conti, an author, producer, and TV host known for her candid discussions on dating and relationships. This episode explores the challenges of workplace romances, the impact of dating apps, and how to recognize and address emotional and physical abuse. Gabi, who previously shared her own toxic dating story in LoveLustFear Episode 4, "We Can’t Break Up," offers valuable insights on spotting red flags and empowering others through her work, including her book 20 Guys You Date in Your 20s and her podcast Bad Influencer. Michele reflects on her own hesitations about reentering the dating scene after two decades post-divorce, while Gabi provides practical advice for navigating modern relationships—emphasizing the importance of practice, staying open-minded, and prioritizing personal well-being. The discussion also features workplace anti-fraternization policies, celebrity relationship dynamics, and essential steps for identifying and escaping toxic situations. Gabi - Episode Link "We Can’t Break Up" https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear-gabi-we-cant-break-up/id1735876283?i=1000654153175 https://open.spotify.com/episode/3GFc3ga6PgAKaAOGqySQFY links Live Event 12/6 Los Angeles, CA See Gabi in Holy Cannoli Comedy at the Hollywood Improv Lab on 12/16 https://improv.com/hollywood/event/holy+cannoli+comedy+with+jaclyn+marfuggi+caprio+and+gabriella+maria+conti%21/13938693/ Gabi Conti personal website | https://www.gabiconti.com/ instagram | https://www.instagram.com/itsgabiconti/ tiktok | https://www.tiktok.com/@itsgabiconti twitter | https://twitter.com/itsgabiconti book | https://www.gabiconti.com/book-twenty-guys-you-date-in-your-twenties-by-gabi-conti bad influencer | podcast | https://link.chtbl.com/LdLb8v6u Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Additional Links  National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788  https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ guest + story | submission information  If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below. E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear subscription links Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/b06d0ea8-cb29-4c3a-98e6-0249d84df748/lovelustfear Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0e3ndcf5u8lZ5lhN1lvWec Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283 RSS feed https://audioboom.com/channels/5125912.rss Want to hear more? Whatever app you’re listening on, just rate us and/or leave us a comment or review. Thank you for your support! 

Host Jake Deptula is joined by family law attorney Michele Locke and Allyn Amerongen, a survivor, advocate, and podcaster, featured in lovelustfear episode sixteen, "It’s A Lot Worse Than We Thought." Allyn opens up about her traumatic experience in a long-distance relationship, the double-edged nature of vulnerability, and the challenges survivors face when navigating relationships after trauma. She also shares her personal journey while creating her podcast, “When Heaven Meets Hell”, and its global impact on listeners. The conversation emphasizes that survivors should never feel pressured to prove their trauma and be encouraged to embrace their truths. The episode highlights the importance of setting clear boundaries, fostering trust, and supporting survivors as they share their stories and continue their healing journeys toward recovery. ​​**This episode of lovelustfridays contains topics including sexual abuse. Please listen with caution.** links When Heaven Meets Hell Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/when-heaven-meets-hell/id1757647021 Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0Ck1Xm1rqmu8BgEUbZpyfE Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/596cc7d9-1ad4-4777-838a-8680c1b62cf6/when-heaven-meets-hell Allyn Amerongen Instagram https://www.instagram.com/allyn.amerongen/ Michele Locke https://www.michelelocke.com/ https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/ Additional Links  War Party Movement https://warpartymovement.com/ National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788  https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ guest + story | submission information  If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below. E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear subscription links Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/b06d0ea8-cb29-4c3a-98e6-0249d84df748/lovelustfear Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0e3ndcf5u8lZ5lhN1lvWec Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283 RSS feed https://audioboom.com/channels/5125912.rss Want to hear more? Whatever app you’re listening on, just rate us and/or leave us a comment or review. Thank you for your support! 

Allyn meets a captivating man who swiftly declares his love, asks her to be his girlfriend, and proposes. But as their long-distance relationship deepens, she uncovers his lingering connection with an ex, leading her down a dark path of deception. chapters (00:00) listen with caution (00:16) next on lovelustfear (01:40) about allyn (02:38) allyn’s story (56:35) questions & answers (01:01:54) closing thoughts (01:02:40) charity & organizations (01:03:10) submit your story (01:03:21) disclaimer quotes “My criteria was something more serious and committed in hopes of finding my person in marriage and all the things that I had kind of been shown and was striving for in life…” - Allyn “He was all the things that I hadn't experienced in conversations prior with people, and that was something that really drew me in and that I appreciated about him.” - Allyn “Within less than a week, he told me that he loved me. That was right after our first FaceTime, within probably twenty minutes of us getting off the phone. At that same time, he told me that he wanted to have kids with me, couldn't wait for me to be their Mom.” - Allyn “Within two hours, probably two hours of being there, I was with his mom…and his mom was with me and she ended up on the phone, on speaker with someone. And they said, Allyn and, and him are going to be coming by, they're with us now, we'll all be together later or something. And the person said, who's Allyn? Who's that? I can't keep track of them.” - Allyn  “And I leaned down, pull something, and out comes lingerie from under his bed. And I just froze. And I look under there, and there's also a woman's shirt and a purse. And I'm thinking really fast, how do I want to handle this?” - Allyn “...but, in my mind, I was just waiting for, we were waiting for something to happen with his work, we were waiting for a green light on something, and again, he left me in limbo. I just felt like a weird suspended state.” - Allyn topics #datingjourney #onlinedating #datingapps #socialawkwardness #whirlwindromance #commitment #engagement #intertwinedfamilies #engagement #honesty #secret #trust #stability #housing #ex-girlfriend #frustration #gaslighting #doubts #cheating #breakup #devastation #infidelity #confrontation #devastation #anger #remorse #cover-up #betrayal #trauma #mentalhealth #recovery #chronicillness #podcasting #awareness #support #podcast music | sounds Music (CC BY 4.0): Lost Place Atmospheres 002 & 003 by Sascha Ende Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com) Other Music and Sound Effects by Alex Wit, Yevhenii Kovalenko, Geoffrey Harvey, Cybercutie, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, and UNIVERSFIELD from Pixabay stay aware | follow | share (allyn) Podcast | When Heaven Meets Hell https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/when-heaven-meets-hell/id1757647021 https://open.spotify.com/show/0Ck1Xm1rqmu8BgEUbZpyfE https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/596cc7d9-1ad4-4777-838a-8680c1b62cf6/when-heaven-meets-hell Instagram https://www.instagram.com/allyn.amerongen/ Allyn Amerongen: Coaching. Speaking. Community. https://doingitdespite.com/ War Party Movement https://warpartymovement.com/ At War Party Movement we're about having "less thunder in the mouth, more lightning in the hand." We are fiercely committed to taking action in breaking cycles of abuse and fundamentally changing the way women are treated, across the country and particularly in Native communities, through our 501(c)3 non-profit War Party Ranch. We provide opportunities for women and girls to create working and life skills that foster independence and self reliance in all aspects of their lives and in all future endeavors. National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788  https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ story submission information  If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below. submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ subscription links Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/b06d0ea8-cb29-4c3a-98e6-0249d84df748/lovelustfear Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0e3ndcf5u8lZ5lhN1lvWec Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283 RSS feed https://audioboom.com/channels/5125912.rss Want to hear more? Whatever app you’re listening on, just rate us and/or leave us a comment or review. Thank you for your support!