wandering into the void

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In this brutally honest and wildly relatable solo episode, the host dives into what it's like trying to survive online school while mentally glitched out and emotionally fried. They talk about juggling schizophrenia, depression, dissociation, and social anxiety—while also pretending to be a “functional” college student. If you’ve ever felt like you’re buffering through life, half-human, half-error message, this one hits home.You’ll hear chaotic thoughts on lectures, dissociation during Zoom calls, unwashed planners, planner stickers, and why squirrels have life more figured out than most people. It’s vulnerable, weird, funny, sad, and surprisingly hopeful in that “I’m still here, even if I don’t know why” kinda way. Great for students, mentally ill creatives, and anyone who’s had an existential crisis at 3AM while watching a lecture they forgot to finish.Topics Covered (for SEO + indexing):Mental health in online collegeLiving with schizophrenia, depression, DID, and social anxietyCollege burnout and existential fatigueOnline learning vs. in-person classesFeeling disconnected in digital spaces (Zoom/Canvas)Hygiene struggles and executive dysfunctionProductivity guilt and planner shameDissociation during classFeeling invisible in academiaHumor as a coping mechanismBuffering brain and attention glitchesThe difference between meditation and dissociationTrying to measure progress with mental illnessThe feeling of being “haunted” by your own thoughtsMotivation vs. survival modeWanting to finish anything (college, a vlog, a sandwich)Identity crises in schoolComparing yourself to a squirrel eating a CheetoWanting to matter—even in the backgroundFeeling like a glitchy NPC in lifeHope in hopelessnessFunctioning while mentally overloadedPretending to be okay as survivalAcademic pressure with neurodivergenceInternalized failure and educational traumaCrashing, restarting, but still trying

In this raw, unfiltered solo episode, I dive deep into the exhausting cycle of dealing with toxic people while mentally struggling to keep it together. If you've ever felt gaslit, emotionally drained, or like your mind is your worst enemy, this one’s for you. I unpack the subtle manipulation tactics used by energy vampires, the guilt spiral of overthinking, and the brutal truth about healing, especially when it means being alone.This stream-of-consciousness-style rant explores how toxic behavior sticks in your brain, how it intertwines with mental health issues like dissociation, depression, self-harm urges, and paranoia, and the internal war of trying not to become what hurt you. It’s messy, painful, brutally honest—and 100% relatable for anyone feeling like they’re barely surviving in a world full of fake smiles and passive-aggressive texts.Topics Covered (for SEO + content indexing):Signs of toxic people in daily lifeMental health and toxic relationshipsGaslighting in friendships and online spaces (like Discord)How toxic behavior affects self-perception and identityOverthinking, self-blame, and spiralingEmotional manipulation and passive-aggressive behaviorThe loneliness of healing and setting boundariesStruggling with routines and dissociationIntrusive thoughts and negative self-talkCoping with emotional exhaustion and brain fogSelf-harm as a response to emotional painThe fake confidence of toxic peopleThe fear of becoming toxic yourselfTrying to stay kind without being a doormatThe curse of introspection and emotional sensitivityHumor and childhood coping mechanismsInternalized abuse and broken self-trustDiscord drama, group chat trauma, and social anxiety

Diving headfirst into the chaos: therapy, antidepressants, psych ward stories, existential dread, and why Captain America: Brave New World wasn’t it. Plus, deep thoughts on Invincible, Harley Quinn, Fleabag, and the eternal question—does anything actually get better? Strap in for a raw, unfiltered rant session where self-improvement meets nihilism.Topics Covered: Therapy & medication: Does it actually work? My psych ward experience (not as bad as TikTok says), Movie & TV rants: Captain America: Brave New World, Invincible, Harley Quinn, Fleabag & more, Student loans: The modern curse, Existential spirals & why I feel like a ghost, Wanting to escape but being too broke to do it

Think life’s got an emergency exit? Think again. In this episode, we’re crash-landing into the chaos of modern existence—why hustle culture is a scam, why "balance" is a lie, and why we can’t all be like A$AP Rocky (no matter how much we manifest). If you’re tired of self-help gurus peddling productivity like it’s salvation, buckle up. This is the anti-motivational pep talk you didn’t know you needed.Topics Covered: The myth of balance (aka, why I’d rather burn out than fade away), Hustle culture and why it’s just capitalism with a wellness filter, A$AP Rocky vs. the rest of us mere mortals, Emotional plane crashes (and why I refuse to brace for impact), Passion vs. practicality—why chasing stability feels like slow death, Why feeling everything is better than feeling nothing at all, The fear of mediocrity and why comfort is the real villain, Why playing it safe is just another way of dying early

Ever stared at a wall for so long you start beefing with it? Wondered if boredom is just a symptom of late-stage capitalism or if you’re actually just built wrong? Yeah, same. In this episode of Wandering Into the Void: A Rantcast, we dive headfirst into: The existential horror of boredom, Why scrolling is a psychological graveyard, Making bad decisions for funsies (cut your own bangs, text your ex in Morse code, etc.), Anhedonia and the art of feeling absolutely nothing, Meds that fix the symptoms but steal your soul (shoutout Risperidone), Peripheral ghosts and hallucination hangovers, The guilt of existing when you were raised to be useful, not loved, Mothers who see you as a servant instead of a person, Why forgiveness feels fake and overrated, The weird limbo of still being here but not really living, The absolute fraudulence of “just find a hobby”, Creating terrible, ugly art as an act of rebellion, Disappearing for a day just to prove you can, The desperate need to just exist without expectationFollow, rate, comment, or share—because if you vibed with this, you’re probably a fellow ghost wandering the algorithmic abyss.

feel like nothing helps? i ran out of meds, money, and motivation... and somehow didn’t fall apart. or maybe i did—and just started liking the view. this one broke me. but it made sense after.in this raw, unfiltered spiral, i talk about life after antidepressants, what happens when the system drops you, and the strange peace that comes from stopping the fight. this episode isn’t medical advice. it’s a voice note from the edge. for the non-compliant, the misdiagnosed, the ones detoxing from pills, people, and expectations.if you’ve ever felt punished for choosing your own path, shamed for trying to feel again, or just tired of being “fixed” into someone you’re not—this one’s yours.👇 carrd for support/donations/resources:erelyt.carrd.co#wanderingintothevoid #selfhealing #spiritualawakening #antipsychiatry #mentalhealthtruth #naturalhealing #deprescribing #rawpodcast #faithoverpharma #noncompliant #emotionalresilience #innerwork #spiritualgrowth #cancelled #antiwoke #authenticself #mentalhealthawareness #shadowwork #truthseeker #christianminimalist #mentalhealthgrift #youarenotalone #breakthecycle #unmedicatedandalive #faithoverfear #ritualsoverroutine #rawtruth

ever feel like you’re talking to yourself on the internet? yeah, same. in this episode, we dive headfirst into the existential chaos of content creation, online validation, and the creeping horror of silence. is posting just a desperate attempt to prove we exist? is the void actually listening? and most importantly—why do we keep scrolling when we know there’s nothing new? join me as i rant, overthink, and probably contradict myself in this anti-self-help therapy session disguised as a podcast.topics covered: the absurdity of chasing numbers online, the fear of silence vs. the fear of noise, how the algorithm gaslights you into thinking you're important, social media as a never-ending feedback loop of existential dread, the illusion of progress when no one's actually listening, the art of screaming into the void and making it aesthetic, why we keep posting even when we know it doesn’t matter, & the seductive, terrifying nature of pure, unfiltered quiet.#screamingintothevoid #existentialdread #contentcreation #algorithmhell #onlinesilence #socialmediaanxiety #digitalexistence #internettherapy #selfhelpbutmakeitnihilism #overthinkingoutloud #postandperish #voidposting #existentialpodcast #antiinfluencer #contentcrisis #scrollingintotheabyss #whywepost #onlinevalidation #algorithmgaslighting #quietdespair #creatorburnout #rantcast #nihilistpodcast #lonelyinternet #aestheticdread #podcasttherapy #digitalnoise #absurdcontent #invisibleaudience #thevoidislistening #meaninglessposting #numbersdontmatter

is life just a poorly coded simulation? are we all just background npcs running the same glitchy script? do breakfast food rules even make sense?? in this episode, we spiral into the abyss of existential dread, corporate overlords, social collapse, meaningless routines, the government watching you, ai stealing your soul, breakfast anarchy, and why baby otters are the only thing keeping us sane.perfect for mindless scrolling, dissociating, or pretending you're productive while ignoring your laundry. tune in, vibe out, and question your entire existence with me.#howtohaveanexistentialcrisis #existentialdread #simulationtheory #npctheory #lateNightThoughts #spiraling #deepthoughts #conspiracymemes #socialcollapse #breakfastanarchy #aiiscoming #thegovernmentknows #nihilismcore #absurdism #dissociationstation #mindlessscrolling #weirdyoutube #darkhumor #podcastvibes #mentalspiral #whyarewehere #philosophyshit #backgroundnpc #babyottersaveslives #collapsecore #2amthoughts #anxietyfuel #thisisfine #everythingisfake #glitchinthematrix #burntoutbrain

Where I scream into the void, and it screams back. Tonight, we dive into the illusion of originality, free thought, and whether your brain is just a well-optimized content farm. Are your ideas even yours? Or are you just a walking, talking algorithm puppet? We unpack the ouroboros of content consumption, the fear of new ideas, and why quitting the internet cold turkey sounds nice—but let’s be real, you won’t do it. Topics Covered: When was your last original thought? No memes, no TikTok trends, just you? The myth of originality—Shakespeare, Greek fanfiction, and artistic theft through the ages. The algorithm doesn’t just know you—it is you. Viral content: why everything has to feel like something you've seen before. You’re not addicted to entertainment. You’re addicted to the scroll. Can you actually log off? No, seriously. Try. The digital panopticon: Who benefits from your existence online? (Spoiler: Not you.). If you’re still listening, congrats—you’re part of the problem.

Are we really thinking for ourselves, or are we just NPCs in the algorithm’s favorite simulation? In this episode, we unpack why humanity decided to bully AI like it’s the new kid in school, the terrifying content creator-to-algorithm pipeline, and whether we’ve already outsourced our personalities to the For You Page. We also spiral into a healthy dose of existential dread—because what’s a podcast without questioning your entire digital existence?Topics Covered: Why do we treat AI like dirt? The college dropout-to-content creator pipeline is real. Are influencers just AI’s unpaid interns? The ouroboros of engagement: AI trains us more than we train it. Is the algorithm actually running our lives? The internet time loop—why every discourse is just recycled drama. Have we already lost the ability to have original thoughts? The horrifying possibility that we are just anxious AI with flesh suits.

This episode is a raw, unfiltered dive into the messy, nonlinear reality of healing. Is growth just another form of escapism? Are we truly getting better, or just better at avoiding what hurts? Society loves a clean-cut version of healing, but the truth is far messier—filled with spirals, distractions, and uncomfortable truths. If you’ve ever questioned whether you're actually healing or just numbing the pain with endless distractions, this episode is for you.Topics Discussed: The illusion of healing vs. the reality of distraction, Society’s romanticized version of self-improvement, Numbing pain with social media, work, and entertainment, The fear of never actually healing, The danger of distractions masking real emotions, The cycle of pretending to be fine vs. truly facing the pain, The struggle of accepting uncertainty in the healing process, The pressure to “have it all figured out”, Finding meaning in just surviving, and The importance of showing up, even in the mess

Welcome to Not Like the Other Podcast, where the chaos is real, the spirals are deep, and nothing is ever neatly wrapped up. This episode is all about creation vs. existence—what it means to make, to produce, to chase dreams, and whether any of it actually matters. Is podcasting a passion or just another hamster wheel? Can we ever escape the pressure to constantly be something? And when does the hustle become just another distraction from the real questions? We get existential, we get messy, and we ask the big, terrifying questions about identity, purpose, and the meaning (or meaninglessness) of it all. If you've ever felt like you're running in circles, drowning in content, or just vibing with the void, this one's for you.Topics Discussed: (in order:) The grind of podcasting – Is it fulfilling or just another job? The illusion of productivity – Are we creating, or just distracting ourselves? Nature as pure chaos – No peace, only survival. Overthinking everything – The endless spiral of self-doubt. Content creation addiction – Why we can’t stop making. The moving goalposts of success – What happens after “making it”? The pressure to be ‘on’ – Why stepping back is necessary. The reality of distraction – Are we healed or just busy? Authenticity vs. performance – Are we just playing a role? Finding meaning in the mess – Maybe the point is that there is no point.