The Christian J Show

A quiet, honest look at the role fathers play in shaping who we become — whether they were present, absent, inconsistent, or emotionally unavailable. This episode unpacks the questions we stopped asking, the wounds we learned to hide, and the identity we built around what we had… and what we didn’t. It’s a conversation about truth, impact, and the work of becoming ourselves without carrying the blame.

A raw, unfiltered look at the double standards inside Black families — how sons are protected, softened, and excused, while daughters are prepared, pressured, and pushed into strength before they’re ready. This episode breaks down the emotional split, the resentment it creates, and the generational wounds that shaped our mothers long before they ever raised us. It’s an honest examination of the roles we inherited, the love we misunderstood, and the healing required to rewrite the rules.

A deep dive into the complicated love language of Black households — where discipline, expectations, and fear often show up disguised as protection. This episode unpacks how pressure becomes a form of love, how survival shapes parenting, and how those early expectations follow us into adulthood. It’s an honest look at the weight we carried, the lessons we absorbed, and the healing required to separate love from pressure.

“The First Hurt” is me going back to the moment that quietly changed everything the first time something cut deep enough to shape how I moved, how I trusted, and how I protected myself. It’s the wound I didn’t have the language for back then, but I can finally name now. This episode isn’t about reliving the pain or blaming anyone. It’s about understanding how that moment became the blueprint for my reactions, my boundaries, my silence, and the version of myself I learned to become just to survive.

Black people in this country learn to carry a weight we never asked for — a weight built from history, silence, stereotypes, and expectations that were placed on us long before we were born. In this episode, I’m breaking down the pressure we inherit, the trauma we’re taught to swallow, and the double standards we’re forced to navigate every day. This isn’t about making the truth comfortable. It’s about naming the reality we live with and the cost of carrying it. This is the start of a season that refuses to whisper.

This season is personal. It’s the story beneath the story — the weight, the healing, the culture, the history, the laughter, the scars, the becoming. I poured every version of myself into this. The child who didn’t understand, the teen who carried too much, the adult who finally found the words. This is the season I needed years ago, and the one I’m finally ready to share. I’m Black and I’m Proud is on the way.

Sometimes the most powerful moment in your faith journey isn’t the breakthrough — it’s the return. The moment you come back to God after drifting, doubting, shutting down, or simply getting tired. The moment you whisper, “Hello God… again,” and realize He never left.In this season finale of The Christian J Show: Hello God, I Need You, we’re talking about the beauty of coming back to God — not perfectly, not confidently, but honestly. This episode is for anyone who’s ever felt guilty for returning, ashamed of inconsistency, or afraid that God is tired of them.He’s not.He’s been waiting.And your return is holy.

There are moments where faith and fury collide — where you love God, but you’re angry. Where you trust Him, but you’re tired. Where you believe, but you’re breaking. And nobody talks about that part of the journey.In this episode of The Christian J Show, we’re diving into the emotional collision that happens when your spirit says “hold on” but your heart says “I’m done.” This is the breakdown you don’t post, don’t preach about, and don’t admit to anyone but God.This isn’t about losing faith — it’s about being honest in it.Because God can handle your heat.He can handle your questions.He can handle your fury.If you’re in a season where your faith feels like it’s fighting your frustration, this episode is for you.

It’s easy to look at other people’s faith and feel like you’re falling behind. Their prayers sound deeper. Their worship looks stronger. Their relationship with God seems cleaner, louder, more consistent. And suddenly your own faith feels small, messy, or not enough.In this episode of The Christian J Show, we’re talking about the trap of comparison — how it distorts your view of God, your view of yourself, and your view of your spiritual journey. Because the truth is, you’re comparing your behind‑the‑scenes to someone else’s highlight reel.This episode is a reminder that God isn’t grading you against anyone else.Your journey is unique.Your pace is holy.Your faith is enough.If you’ve ever felt like everyone else is doing faith “better,” this one is for you.

In a world where everything is content, even faith can turn into a performance. The prayers become posts. The worship becomes branding. The testimonies become marketing. And somewhere in the middle of all the noise, the heart of it gets lost.In this episode of The Christian J Show, I’m talking about what happens when faith becomes a stage — when the spotlight becomes more important than the Savior. From performative spirituality to curated vulnerability to ministry that looks more like marketing than calling, we’re unpacking the quiet dangers of turning devotion into a show.This isn’t about judgment — it’s about honesty.It’s about returning to a faith that’s lived, not performed.If you’ve ever felt pressured to package your faith for people, this episode is for you.

Some of the strongest faith you’ll ever have is the faith nobody sees — the faith you build in silence, in stillness, in the moments where it’s just you and God. Not the faith you post. Not the faith you perform. The faith you practice when there’s no audience and no applause.In this episode of The Christian J Show, I’m talking about the quiet power of private faith. The kind of faith that grows in the dark. The kind that sustains you when life gets heavy. The kind that doesn’t need validation to be real.If you’ve been in a season where your faith feels hidden, quiet, or unseen, this episode is for you. God does some of His best work in private — and what He builds there will last.

Forgiveness sounds holy until you have to do it over and over again. Until the same person hurts you the same way, gives the same apology, and repeats the same behavior. At some point, you stop feeling spiritual and start feeling exhausted. And nobody talks about that part — the part where forgiveness feels heavy instead of healing.In this episode of The Christian J Show: Hello God, I Need You, I’m talking about the emotional weight of forgiveness. The anger you don’t admit. The hurt you still feel. The guilt you carry for not bouncing back fast enough. And the truth that forgiveness doesn’t mean pretending you’re okay — it means choosing freedom, even when it’s hard.This isn’t about being a “good Christian.”It’s about being an honest one.If you’re tired of forgiving, this episode is for you. God sees the effort, the tears, and the strength behind every step you take toward letting go.

Some of us blame the devil for everything — the inconvenience, the heartbreak, the consequences, the chaos we created, and the lessons God is trying to teach us. But the truth is… the devil didn’t do all that.In this episode of The Christian J Show, I’m talking about the difference between spiritual warfare and simple accountability. The moments we call “attacks” that are really just growth. The habits we blame on demons that are actually decisions. And the uncomfortable truth that sometimes God disrupts our plans to protect us from ourselves.This isn’t about shame — it’s about clarity.It’s about discernment.It’s about taking your power back.If you’ve ever wondered whether you’re under attack or just under construction, this episode is for you.

There’s a kind of silence that makes you question everything — your faith, your prayers, your patience, even your worth. When you’ve been asking God for clarity, comfort, direction, something… and all you get back is quiet, it’s easy to wonder if heaven has you on mute.In this episode of The Christian J Show, I’m talking about the moments when God feels distant, unresponsive, or completely silent. The moments where you’re trying to stay faithful, but your heart is tired. The moments where you’re scared to admit out loud, “God… it feels like You’re ignoring me.”This isn’t about losing faith — it’s about being honest in it.Because silence doesn’t mean abandonment.And unanswered doesn’t mean unseen.If you’re in a season where God feels quiet, this episode is for you. You’re not forgotten. You’re not overlooked. You’re not talking to a wall. God is closer than you think — even when He’s quieter than you want.

Some Christians act like they’ve been hired as God’s personal security team — checking people’s playlists, monitoring their holidays, policing their identity, and handing out “prophetic warnings” that sound more like personal opinions than anything heaven‑sent. And somehow, all of this gets labeled as “discernment.”In this episode of The Christian J Show: Hello God, I Need You, I’m talking about the judgment that hides behind spirituality. The way we shame people over music. The way we demonize holidays. The way LGBTQ+ inclusion becomes a battleground instead of a place to practice love. The way performative prophecy gets used to control, intimidate, or elevate egos instead of pointing people to God.This isn’t about dragging the church — it’s about freeing it.Because faith was never meant to be policed.And God doesn’t need gatekeepers.If you’ve ever felt watched, judged, or pushed out by people acting like they own the keys to the kingdom, this episode is for you. Grace doesn’t need security. Love doesn’t need surveillance. And God doesn’t need a bodyguard.

Somewhere along the way, church culture blurred the line between honoring leaders and worshipping them. We don’t call it idolatry — we call it “respect,” “covering,” “submission,” or “spiritual authority.” But if we’re honest, a lot of us have given pastors a level of loyalty, protection, and devotion that belongs to God alone.In this episode of The Christian J Show: Hello God, I Need You, I’m talking about the pedestal we put pastors on — the pressure it creates, the harm it causes, and the way it distorts our faith. Not to attack leaders, but to humanize them. Because pastors are people, not saviors. And when we treat them like they’re flawless, we set them up to fall… and we set ourselves up to be disappointed.This is a call back to balance.Back to truth.Back to remembering who the church is actually built on.If you’ve ever confused charisma with calling, personality with presence, or leadership with lordship, this episode is for you. God never asked us to worship pastors — just to love them, support them, and keep our eyes on Him.

There comes a point in your faith where the words just… stop. Where you’ve prayed the same prayer so many times it feels rehearsed. Where you’re exhausted, disappointed, and wondering if God is even listening anymore. Nobody talks about that part — the part where prayer feels heavy instead of holy.In this episode of The Christian J Show: Hello God, I Need You, I’m talking about the quiet exhaustion that hits when you’re spiritually worn out. The moments where all you can offer God is a sigh, a tear, or silence. The moments where you feel guilty for being tired, even though you’re doing the best you can.This isn’t an episode about giving up.It’s an episode about being honest.Because sometimes the most powerful prayer you can pray is,“God… I’m tired.”If you’re in a season where praying feels hard, empty, or repetitive, this episode is for you. God hears the words you can’t say — and He hasn’t forgotten you.

Everybody loves to shout “New Year, New Me,” but what do you do when the year changes… and your struggle doesn’t. When the calendar flips, but the weight, the questions, the habits, the prayers you’ve been praying for months — maybe years — all follow you right into January.In this episode of The Christian J Show: Hello God, I Need You, I’m talking about the uncomfortable space we don’t celebrate enough: transition. The in‑between. The season where you’re not who you used to be, but you’re not fully who you’re becoming either. The place where faith feels quieter, shakier, slower — but somehow more real.This isn’t about perfection.This is about becoming.This is about trusting God in the middle, not just at the finish line.If you walked into the New Year with the same struggle, the same questions, or the same fight… this episode is for you. You’re not behind. You’re not failing. You’re transitioning — and God is right there in the shift.

Healing sounds beautiful until you’re the one actually doing it. Nobody posts the part where you’re crying at 2 a.m., repeating old patterns, starting over for the fifth time, or trying to forgive things you still don’t have language for. We love the testimony, but we avoid the truth: healing is messy.In this episode of The Christian J Show: Hello God, I Need You, I’m talking about the side of grace we don’t glamorize — the uncomfortable, unfiltered, “God, this is ugly” part. The part where you’re growing and grieving at the same time. The part where you’re trying to let go, but your heart is still catching up.This isn’t the cute version of healing.This is the real version.The version where grace meets you in the dirt, not the spotlight.If you’re in a season where your healing feels chaotic, slow, or nothing like the inspirational quotes… this episode is for you. Grace is still working — even when it doesn’t look pretty.

Christmas looks peaceful on the outside — the lights, the music, the smiles, the matching pajamas. But for a lot of us, the holidays feel more like chaos than comfort. The noise, the pressure, the expectations, the memories… it all hits at once. And somewhere in the middle of that, we’re supposed to find God.In this episode of The Christian J Show: Hello God, I Need You, I’m talking about the Christmas we don’t post. The messy one. The lonely one. The one where you’re trying to hold it together while everyone else looks picture‑perfect.This is the reminder I had to give myself:God isn’t found in the perfection — He’s found in the real, the tired, the broken, the chaotic.If this season feels heavy, overwhelming, or nothing like the movies, this episode is for you. God is still here. Even in the chaos.