My Psychedelic Roots

Erika Dyck is a professor in the Department of History at the University of Saskatchewan. Her work focuses on 20th century medical history, including the history of psychedelics, psychiatry, eugenics and population control. Erika grew up not far from the Weyburn, Saskatchewan, the birthplace of the word ‘psychedelic’, and where a lot of psychedelic research was happening in Canada in the early days. And yet, Erika’s roots were very much outside of that world. In our conversation, we wend our way through her relatively secular upbringing, her desire to leave rural Saskatchewan and experience the world, and we talk about some of her early exposures that led her to become interested in the field of psychedelic studies. We also dive into one of her more recent and deeply meaningful psychedelic experiences which she had in communion with others and with the natural world-- allowing her to connect not just to the geography but also the history and communities that continue to shape both her research and her own lived experience.ShownotesA link to learn more about Erika's books on the history of psychedelics: https://research-groups.usask.ca/history-medicine//publications.phpOr check out her most recent publication "Psychedelics: A Visual Odyssey": https://mitpress.mit.edu/9780262547666/psychedelics/ Hear more about Erika's work by watching her TEDx talk "Just Say Know" about psychedelic drug history: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gc7Blc1w1hoMusic credit: Music by Mass X Audio from Pixabay#psychedelics #podcast #tripreport

Anthony di Virgilio is a father, a registered psychotherapist and a student of sacred plant teachers. He is deeply interested in the connection between mental and emotional health, relational dynamics, and spirituality - and he integrates these perspectives into his therapeutic work, and we hear in our conversation together, he also integrates these into his own work with psychedelic medicines. Anthony also studies vitalist herbalism, Indigenous healing modalities, and principles of Traditional Chinese Medicine, and is a Fire Keeper and Song Carrier for Anishinaabe Elder Douglas Cardinal, and a humble student of North and South American Indigenous teachings and ceremonies. In our conversation together, Anthony and I talk about the fear, confusion and isolation he experienced as a child— and the bravery he worked to cultivate as he tried to make sense of a world that felt very unsafe in both the physical and spiritual realms. We talk about some of his first experiences with cannabis before eventually making his way towards his first psychedelic experience with ayahuasca 14 years ago--- a foundational relationship that continues to shape his life and practice today.ShownotesHolistic Psychotherapy, Anthony’s therapy practice website with his wife and associates: https://www.holisticpsychotherapy.ca/Music credit: Music by Mass X Audio from Pixabay#psychedelics #podcast #tripreport

Trigger Warning: discussions of suicidalityRobert Décarie is a local certified Holotropic Breathwork facilitator, a former counselor and wildlife management specialist, and a delightful human being. As we explore in our conversation together, after having a gregarious but dissociated childhood in Montreal and experiencing a dark night of the soul in his early twenties, he pivoted to study environmental sciences (M.Sc.) and had a 25-year career in wildlife management. In the mid-2000s, he readjusted the course of his life to deepen its meaning and chose to study to become a counselor, and in 2008, he started practicing Holotropic Breathwork, eventually completing his training to become a certified facilitator which he has been offering to the Ottawa community since 2015. In our conversation together, we walk through several decades of psychedelic roots, from visiting Mexico in the 1970s, to experimenting with ayahuasca in a couple of different settings, to finally experiencing what he considers to be his first true psychedelic experience in a well-supported set and setting that allowed him to connect deeply with himself and to love. It was a pleasure to wend our way through Robert’s psychedelic roots, or what he calls his holotropic life!A reminder that this episode contains mentions of suicidality. This warning is meant to empower you with the knowledge you need to make healthy decisions about how and if you should consume this podcast content. We invite you to practice self-care and do what feels right for you. And if you need support, please connect with someone who can help: family and friends, professionals, or a crisis line. There are both Canadian and international recommendations in the show notes below. You are not alone-- not in your pain, nor in your healing.ShownotesRobert’s holotropic breathwork website: https://ottawaholotropic.ca/en/Favourite song from Sgt. Pepper album: A Day in the Life, but the entire album surging from nowhere, colorful, creative, joyful, and alive.First Carlos Castenada book read: A Separate RealityCurrent precious inner exploring and integration tool, Focusing (Eugene T. Gendlin, 1982, Bantam Books) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZtYGnwwGzdABelow are some Canadian and international mental health resources to access if you are in distress or need support:Crisis Services Canada: https://988.ca/Befrienders Worldwide (crisis lines serving 32 countries): https://befrienders.org/International Directory of Mental Health Helplines: https://www.helpguide.org/find-help.htmThe Fireside Project (US-only psychedelic-specific support): https://firesideproject.org/Psychology Today (to find a therapist in North America): https://www.psychologytoday.com/ca/therapistsMusic credit: Music by Mass X Audio from Pixabay#psychedelics #podcast #tripreport

Trigger Warning: discussions of suicidal thoughtsDr. Paul Grof is a Canadian research psychiatrist and clinician who has been involved in psychedelic and transpersonal work for over six decades. He was a professor at several Canadian and European universities until recently retiring from the University of Toronto in 2022, and served as an Expert at the World Health Organization from 1985 to 2000, where he chaired the Committee on Psychotropic Substances. It was a pleasure to get to sit down with Paul to explore his roots: from growing up in the Czech Republic, to being part of the initial wave of people in Western society experimenting with LSD in research labs. In our conversation together, he takes us back to the 1950s and 60s and generously shares some of his experiences during those early days of Western psychedelic research--- and perhaps most importantly, about how he was so personally and professionally impacted by this unfolding.ShownotesPresentation on Paul's recently published paper "Consciousness: local and non-local" on Youtube: https://youtu.be/NKt36A0bKV8?si=dY8tqcDR2E6QC9gN _______A reminder that this episode contains mentions of suicidal thoughts. This warning is meant to empower you with the knowledge you need to make healthy decisions about how and if you should consume this podcast content. We invite you to practice self-care and do what feels right for you. And if you need support, please connect with someone who can help: family and friends, professionals, or a crisis line. There are both Canadian and international recommendations in the show notes below. You are not alone-- not in your pain, nor in your healing.Below are some Canadian and international mental health resources to access if you are in distress or need support:Crisis Services Canada: https://988.ca/Befrienders Worldwide (crisis lines serving 32 countries): https://befrienders.org/International Directory of Mental Health Helplines: https://www.helpguide.org/find-help.htmThe Fireside Project (US-only psychedelic-specific support): https://firesideproject.org/Psychology Today (to find a therapist in North America): https://www.psychologytoday.com/ca/therapistsMusic credit: Music by Mass X Audio from Pixabay#psychedelics #podcast #tripreport

Ruth Webster is a retired library scientist, a fellow New Brunswicker, and someone with a lifelong curiosity about connection with self and the world around them. After a complex childhood growing up in the 1950s and 60s and first encountering psychedelics as a teenager and saying ‘no’, her curiosity about psychedelics was not piqued again until 2015 when she started a Holotropic Breathwork training course. Through a number of curious coincidences, she found her way to her first psychedelic experience with Iboga at a retreat centre in Mexico a year later. Ruth shares about her first experience, and how it has shaped her relationship with the substances, and with herself.For the listener, Ruth is someone who also navigates some physical limitations, so please feel welcome to enjoy finding your audio groove as you listen in to our conversation. ShownotesHolotropic Breathwork training Ruth mentioned taking: https://www.holotropic.com/As well as the Grof Legacy Training: https://grofpsychedelictrainingacademy.ca/breathwork/Music credit: Music by Mass X Audio from Pixabay#psychedelics #podcast #tripreport

Matt Jaworski was born into a mixed family in the Ottawa suburbs, and was exposed to many things that seemed surreal to him from an early age. Because of this, he has spent much of his life seeking out answers to why things are the way they are, and at the same time learning to let go and be led when the path to follow is clear.  In our conversation, we talk about his childhood and his very trusting nature as a kid, what he learned about the world and himself growing up with a differently-abled younger brother, how his passion for organic food cultivated his curiosity in plant medicines, all of which which led him to eventually grow his own mushrooms and experience his welcoming and warm first psychedelic trip.  While he is no longer an active member, Matt also helped start the Ottawa psychedelic society which is still in operation today--- one of the many seeds he has planted along his psychedelic path. ShownotesJames Fadiman’s “The Psychedelic Explorer’s Guidebook”: https://www.psychedelicexplorersguide.com/ Yann Martel's "Life of Pi": https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/4214.Life_of_PiCeline Dion, ‘The Power of Love’ music video: https://youtu.be/Y8HOfcYWZoo?si=rYRgL7GSSlnSq72c Ottawa Psychedelic Education Network: https://www.ottpsychedelic.ca/ Music credit: Music by Mass X Audio from Pixabay#psychedelics #podcast #tripreport

Lucia Rios Maia da Silva is a queer Brazilian psychotherapist whose life and research are guided by a deep connection to nature and plant medicines. In our conversation together, we explore their childhood raised by two pastors, and the disconnection that they experienced as they were forced to try to ‘correct’ their queerness, and the new communities and spiritualities they built as they learned to live in their truth. After coming out in Brazil, Lucia moved to Winnipeg, Manitoba, Canada in 2019 seeking a safer social and political context, which moves us into hearing about their first psychedelic experience with psilocybin mushrooms. They also co-facilitate a biweekly hapeh circle open to the Ottawa community members, and during their free time, they can be found practicing yoga, cycling along the river, or drumming on their djembe.ShownotesLucia's professional website: www.linesofbecoming.comFacebook group for the hapeh circle Lucia helps convene: https://www.facebook.com/groups/1104427398535575Music credit: Music by Mass X Audio from Pixabay#psychedelics #podcast #tripreport

Trigger Warning: discussions of suicidalityPedram Dara is an Iranian-born refugee to Canada and a former MDMA-assisted therapy clinical trial participant who has turned his experiences into founding and directing the Psychedelic Lived Experiences initiative, a patient-led movement advancing lived experience expertise in psychedelic research, treatment, and policy. In our conversation together, we talk about how his current advocacy work is built off of his early experiences as a child growing up in Iran. We explore some of the confusing messaging that surrounded him about drugs as he was growing up, before eventually talking through what led him to having his first therapeutic psychedelic experience to help heal his PTSD in a clinical trial setting.A reminder that this episode contains mentions of suicidal thoughts. This warning is meant to empower you with the knowledge you need to make healthy decisions about how and if you should consume this podcast content. We invite you to practice self-care and do what feels right for you. And if you need support, please connect with someone who can help: family and friends, professionals, or a crisis line. There are both Canadian and international recommendations in the show notes below. You are not alone-- not in your pain, nor in your healing. ShownotesPsychedelic Lived Experiences initiative that Pedram has builtThe upcoming Psychedelic Lived Experiences Summit, a free online event happening November 2025The FDA decision on June 4, 2024 to reject the initial application for MDMA therapy: https://www.npr.org/sections/shots-health-news/2024/06/04/nx-s1-4991112/mdma-therapy-ptsd-fda-advisorsMK Ultra experiments that happened at McGill in the 1950s and 60s: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Montreal_experimentsFDA Advisory Committee Meeting on MDMA Approval (U.S.) On June 4, 2024, Pedram spoke at the FDA’s Psychopharmacologic Drugs Advisory Committee meeting during its review of MDMA-assisted therapy for PTSD. As a public hearing speaker, he shared insights from his firsthand experience as a Phase 2 clinical trial participant, highlighting both the benefits and limitations of the treatment.Psychedelic Science 2025 Conference (U.S.) On June 19, 2025 Pedram led a self-organized panel at Psychedelic Science 2025, the first ever by MDMA-assisted therapy trial participants. The session brought together diverse voices who found benefit, faced challenges, or experienced harm, offering a rare, unfiltered look into the real-world complexity of psychedelic treatment and patient experience.Breaking Convention 2023 Keynote Presentation (Exeter, England) On April 22, 2023, Pedram delivered a keynote at Breaking Convention, Europe’s largest psychedelic conference, held at the University of Exeter. He shared insights from his own MDMA therapy experience, four years after participating in a Phase 2 clinical trial in Canada and discussed how to improve patient outcomes. He also joined a panel with renowned policy advocate Amanda Feilding.Below are some Canadian and international mental health resources to access if you are in distress or need support:Crisis Services Canada: https://988.ca/Befrienders Worldwide (crisis lines serving 32 countries): https://befrienders.org/ International Directory of Mental Health Helplines: https://www.helpguide.org/find-help.htmThe Fireside Project (US-only psychedelic-specific support): https://firesideproject.org/ Psychology Today (to find a therapist in North America): https://www.psychologytoday.com/ca/therapistsMusic credit: Music by Mass X Audio from Pixabay#psychedelics #podcast #tripreport

Dr. Monnica T. Williams is a board-certified licensed clinical psychologist and Professor at the University of Ottawa in the School of Psychology, where she is the Canada Research Chair in Mental Health Disparities. She is also the Clinical Director of the Behavioral Wellness Clinics in Connecticut and Ottawa, where she provides supervision and training to clinicians for empirically-supported treatments. In our conversation together, we sit down outside of the professional context and talk a bit about her personal journey towards psychedelics for healing, and how her relationship with these substances evolved into what has become an important part of her career unfolding. We talk about what she learned in that first journey in a well-supported clinical environment, and learn more about how her evolving dance with psychedelics has impacted not just her career path, but just as importantly, her relationship to herself.  ShownotesMonnica's professional website: https://www.monnicawilliams.com/Monnica's upcoming retreat on Psychedelics and Racial Trauma in Mexico in November: https://www.mentalhealthdisparities.org/retreats.php Links to a few of the studies back in 2015 that opened her mind to the potential of psychedelics:The safety and efficacy of 3,4-methylenedioxymethamphetamineassisted psychotherapy in subjects with chronic, treatment-resistant posttraumatic stress disorder: the first randomized controlled pilot studyDurability of improvement in post-traumatic stress disorder symptoms and absence of harmful effects or drug dependency after 3,4-methylenedioxymethamphetamine-assisted psychotherapy: a prospective long-term follow-up studyMonnica’s Social Media links: X: @DrMonnicaInstagram: @drmonnicaLinkedIn: www.linkedin.com/in/monnicawilliamsTrainings she offers: http://www.racialtraumahealing.com/certification.phphttps://ebtrainingsolutions.com/event/2026-03-19/treating-racial-trauma-anti-racismhttps://bewellct.com/ketamine-retreat.phpMusic credit: Music by Mass X Audio from Pixabay#psychedelics #podcast #tripreport

Jaz Cadoch is an Amazigh Moroccan Jewish woman dedicated to rebuilding a relationship with her lineage, and a cultural and medical anthropologist who has spent the past nine years studying the integration of psychedelic medicines into modern Western policy, medicine, and culture. Jaz also serves as a co-steward of the Global Psychedelic Society, a role which is deeply connected to her psychedelic roots, in which she experienced loneliness and disconnection in childhood, eventually finding solace and purpose in her shared experiences supporting others and being supported in kind. In our conversation together, we also explore her spiritual foundations and how the acts of rejecting religion and subsequently 'remembering' have helped her integrate her lineages, curiosities, teachings and experiences of psychedelics and of the divine. ShownotesJaz's personal website: https://jazcadoch.com The Global Psychedelic Society (GPS): https://globalpsychedelic.org/ Terence McKenna books that Jaz was impacted by in her teen years: True Hallucination (https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/114867.True_Hallucinations) and Food of the Gods (https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/51660.Food_of_the_Gods)Music credit: Music by Mass X Audio from Pixabay#psychedelics #podcast #tripreport

Myriah MacIntyre is a Ph.D. candidate studying clinical psychology at the University of Ottawa, focusing her research on the impact of traditional medicines and psychedelics on healing racial trauma. In our conversation, Myriah shares about her own lived experience as a Black Caribbean-Indigenous lesbian woman, and how her identities have intersected with her research choices, but also with her own personal psychedelic unfolding. Growing up in a small Canadian city and attending a Lutheran private school, she felt isolated due to her race and sexuality. As she shares in this episode, what carried her through then-- and continues to now-- is her connection to spirituality and to music, which is a special relationship she talks about with us, both as a musician and as someone who has experienced chromesthesia from a very young age.  ShownotesInfo about Chromosthesia: https://www.thesynesthesiatree.com/Girls/Womxn skate group in Ottawa (Instagram @): girlsskate613Calm/comforting frequencies: 528 Hz Spotify playlist https://open.spotify.com/playlist/37i9dQZF1DWTvEFX6xtoQd Information on racial trauma: Racial Trauma resources http://www.racialtraumahealing.com/client-worksheets.phpThe Lab for Culture and Mental Health Disparities website: https://www.mentalhealthdisparities.org/Myriah's personal linksLinkedIn: Connect on LinkedIn https://www.linkedin.com/in/m-myriah-macintyre-106bb2197/Instagram: Myriah MacIntyre IG https://www.instagram.com/myriahmacintyre/Research Gate: Myriah MacIntyre Publications https://www.researchgate.net/profile/M-MacintyreMusic credit: Music by Mass X Audio from Pixabay#psychedelics #podcast #tripreport

Bonney Elliott is a dual-licensed registered psychotherapist and nurse practitioner based in Ottawa, Canada. Working in private practice and group retreat settings, she has a decades-long career supporting people grieving loss and chronic illness, people recovering from trauma and those navigating significant life transitions. As we will hear in this episode, Bonney is also a person learning to caretake herself and find her own joy. After a childhood peppered with references to psychedelics in the 70’s and 80s, and a difficult first encounter with mushrooms in her early 20s, Bonney’s interest in psychedelics lay dormant but was eventually reignited by a CBC radio piece a few years ago about the connection between end of life distress and psilocybin mushrooms. From there she made her way to her first supported experience with psychedelics, and was able to experience some of the care and joy that she had been providing others throughout her life. ShownotesBonney's professional website: bonneyelliott.ca A link to the CBC Tapestry podcast on psychedelics and end of life that inspired her re-engagement with psychedelic curiosity: https://www.cbc.ca/radio/tapestry/can-psychedelic-drugs-help-ease-the-fear-of-death-1.2992608Music credit: Music by Mass X Audio from Pixabay#psychedelics #podcast #tripreport

Doris is a neuroscientist who has over 25 years of experience working in the field of substance use and addiction. She has worn many hats over the years - from rave kid and community harm reduction advocate in the 90s, to becoming an academic research scientist using brain imaging to understand addiction, to serving as knowledge mobilizer supporting evidence-informed policies, programs, and decisions. However in our conversation together, we dive deeply into her personal journey with psychedelic substances, and how her evolving relationship to them has impacted not just her career choices, but perhaps more importantly, her relationship to herself, her psyche and her spirit. ShownotesDanceSafe, a community dedicated to promoting safety within the rave and nightlife community, where Doris started and led a chapter in her early years: https://dancesafe.org/The Beckley Foundation: https://www.beckleyfoundation.org/Two of Doris' favourite raver songs: 'Knights of the Jaguar' by the Aztec Mystic (https://youtu.be/lLq8c2xuL6E?si=RrhrJUSYgseUgFMc); and 'Revolution 909' by Daft Punk (https://youtu.be/Wtd6DvLoCsU?si=dEmujAYAa0-LHyao)And a shout out to the Arboretum crew and the Konfused? Krew, which she didn't do by name in the podcast episode but wished she had!Music credit: Music by Mass X Audio from Pixabay#psychedelics #podcast #tripreport

Yamina Abassi is a lover of life, a psychedelic-assisted psychotherapist, and she makes sense of the how's and why's of life through relationship and connection. Her journey with psychedelics began as a young adult in recreational settings, and she quickly became fascinated with its potential to offer new ways of understanding herself, others, and the world around her. This curiosity and love for people, along with a near-death experience at the age of 25, led her to pursue academic avenues of connection and support to be able to continue to engage in this space in professional settings. In this episode, Yamina shares her early childhood experiences trying to make sense of herself in relation to the rest of the world, her first psychedelic experience, as well as her near-death experience at age 25 and the mystical spiritual opening she went through after the accident, which factored prominently in her psychedelic unfolding. ShownotesFlow State, the clinic where Yamina works in Ottawa: https://www.flowstatetherapy.ca/Finding the 'others' with the Ottawa Psychedelic Education Network: https://www.ottpsychedelic.ca/ Music credit: Music by Mass X Audio from Pixabay#psychedelics #podcast #tripreport

Judith is a New York-born-and-bred naturalized Canadian mother of two young adults. She is a technical writer and trainer, and like many folks curious about psychedelics, also a life-long learner. She came to the psychedelic community in 2018 as she was seeking relief from overwhelming grief, depression, and anxiety. As we hear in this episode, Judith took a measured approach to her entry into the psychedelic space, coming to psychedelics seeking healing, and ultimately finding that and much more. Our chat wends its way through her childhood in Brooklyn and how her family played a role in her eventual first psychedelic encounters, and takes us into her first solo and supported experiences, all of which played an important role in shaping some of the guiding values that she continues to embody in her life. ShownotesKelley Brogan (https://www.kellybroganmd.com/) and her book on gut health for mental health (https://www.kellybroganmd.com/books/a-mind-of-your-own)Ayelet Waldman (https://www.ayeletwaldman.com/) and her microdosing book ‘A Really Good Day’ (https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/30212082-a-really-good-day)Adam Strauss (https://adamstrauss.com/) and his play “The Mushroom Cure” (https://www.themushroomcure.com/)A link to the Fadiman microdosing protocol (https://microdosinginstitute.com/how-to/microdosing-protocols/#fadiman-protocol)Music credit: Music by Mass X Audio from Pixabay#psychedelics #podcast #tripreport

Raymond Feng is a breakdancer, writer, appreciator of life, and a self-described life-long learner. He discovered his passion for psychonautics through psychedelic medicine and spirituality, and has brought that passion into his life in a variety of ways. Academically, he has finished two Bachelor degrees at University of Ottawa, one in Biomedical Sciences and the other in Psychology, and recently completed a Master’s in Mental Health Counselling & Behavioral Medicine at Boston University School of Medicine. Raymond ‘s balanced nature is on full display as he shares about his first psychedelic experience, which challenged him to trust his connection to self and others in some life-changing ways.Music credit: Music by Mass X Audio from Pixabay#psychedelics #podcast #tripreport

Manzar Zare is a Muslim woman, mother, legal professional and PhD student who is conducting research on psychedelics and the mental health of people of color, with a particular focus on support to Muslim women. This research naturally played a big role in her decision to have her own experience with psychedelics, which she recently undertook in a well supported psychedelic retreat centre in Jamaica. This decision to have her own healing experience with psychedelics also came out of becoming a mother and navigating her own mental health struggles with postpartum depression. Manzar embodies thoughtfulness in all senses of the word: both in her caring for the lived experience of others, and in her long-standing desire to explore and understand the human experience with her whole mind, body and spirit-- all of which is on full display in this episode.ShownotesManzar's most recent publication:Zare, M., & Williams, M. T. (2024). Muslim Women and Psychedelics: a Look at the Past, Present, and Future. International Journal of Mental Health and Addiction, 22(2), 897–912. https://doi.org/10.1007/s11469-023-01108-9Music credit: Music by Mass X Audio from Pixabay#psychedelics #podcast #tripreport

Joe La Torre is a psychedelic enthusiast and researcher, currently serving as Lead Research Psychologist at the Center for Novel Therapeutics in Addiction Psychiatry (NTAP) at the University of Washington, where he co-leads a variety of research including a three-year Phase 2 psilocybin safety clinical trial funded by the state of Washington. In our conversation together in this episode, Joe shares his path towards psychedelics which includes being confronted with his academic pursuits in Buddhist studies, learning what it takes to navigate the shifting of his friendships and relationships, and ultimately being encouraged to reimagine what he thought his life’s path might look like.  Music credit: Music by Mass X Audio from Pixabay#psychedelics #podcast #tripreport

Laura Ritzie is a counsellor with over 20 years of experience supporting clients in both the public and private sectors. She is also a PhD student with a passion for researching psilocybin in ceremony and contributing to conversations about loss, grief and our relationship with death. She is curious about people's experiences of connection in relation to resilience, meaning making and flourishing.    In our chat together, Laura shares about her own brushes with serious illness and her own mortality, her discovery of cannabis to help heal, and how this curiosity about alternate healing modalities led to her first psychedelic experience in her 40s.Music credit: Music by Mass X Audio from Pixabay#psychedelics #podcast #tripreport

Trigger Warning: discussions of suicide and suicidalityKellen Saxberg is a self-proclaimed queer history nerd, psychedelic enthusiast, and student researcher on the intersection of queerness, psychedelics and healing. In our conversation together, Kellen and I talk about navigating conservativism and queerness in their youth, their experiences of losing a sense of self, experiencing awe and cultivating trust, and eventually moving towards finding their way back home, both literally and figuratively, in their first psychedelic experience.A reminder that this episode contains explicit discussion of suicide. This warning is meant to empower you with the knowledge you need to make healthy decisions about how and if you should consume this podcast content. We invite you to practice self-care and do what feels right for you. And if you need support, please connect with someone who can help: family and friends, professionals, or a crisis line. There are both Canadian and international recommendations in the show notes below. You are not alone-- not in your pain, nor in your healing.ShownotesLinks toKellen’s grandfather, Donald Ross, served as one of Canada’s first openly gay ordained ministers: https://passages.winnipegfreepress.com/article/id-323/Minister,_advocate,_dad,_heroThe quote “A book is a suicide postponed” is from Emil M. Cioran’s The Trouble With Being Born (1973)  https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/117564.The_Trouble_With_Being_BornBelow are some Canadian and international mental health resources to access if you are in distress or need support:Crisis Services Canada: https://988.ca/Befrienders Worldwide (crisis lines serving 32 countries): https://befrienders.org/ International Directory of Mental Health Helplines: https://www.helpguide.org/find-help.htmThe Fireside Project (US-only psychedelic-specific support): https://firesideproject.org/ Psychology Today (to find a therapist in North America): https://www.psychologytoday.com/ca/therapistsMusic credit: Music by Mass X Audio from Pixabay#psychedelics #podcast #tripreport