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Touring, Trauma & Terranova: An Unfiltered Talk with PhaseOne

2025-08-2001:04:47

Bass, blood, marriage, and mayhem — welcome to the wild world of PhaseOne.In this episode of Kisses and Chaos 💋, I sit down with one of bass music’s most heavy producers to talk about everything the rave flyers don’t tell you. From emo metal kid roots and chihuahua drama to insane fan encounters (yes, there’s blood) and almost getting arrested overseas, PhaseOne opens up about the chaos of touring, the pressure of DJ life, and what it really means to balance love, music, and madness.We also dive into his new album Terranova, how it became a story about creating a “new world,” and why you’ll never catch him having sex to dubstep.It’s messy. It’s hilarious. It’s raw. And it’s the side of PhaseOne you’ve never heard before.If you love EDM, bass music, or just want the unfiltered truth behind life on tour, this episode is pure chaos in the best way.

Victim Mentality Is Blocking Your Blessings: How to Detach, Heal & Glow Up 💅

2025-05-2113:39

Are you stuck in a loop of “why does this always happen to me?” Baby… it might be victim mentality. In this spicy and soul-shaking episode, i’m getting real about how trauma, anxiety, and control issues keep us in a cycle of learned helplessness—and how the law of detachment can set you free. We’re talking signs you’re stuck in victim mode, how to rewire your brain, stop chasing people who don’t choose you, and finally glow the f*ck up. Plus: my personal story of how letting go led to my viral moment (yep, detachment really is that girl). It’s time to drop the pity party and reclaim your power.

Love or Limerence? Why I Couldn’t Let Her Go (Even When She Screamed at Me in Front of Renee Rapp)

2025-04-2329:18

This one is pure chaos. I found texts in her phone saying I wasn’t her type — but she wanted festival access. Then she got drunk at my music video (while Renee Rapp was there), screamed at me, and passed out. Oh, and she joined my live the other day. Also: she’s now dating a girl from our friend group.I give you the full limerence breakdown: what it is, why I stayed, and why I finally had to walk away. Plus a happy birthday text from no contact, CEOs major crash out, and reconnecting with my first-ever girlfriend — who we’re now calling Riverbend.It’s giving toxic, nostalgic, and maybe a little hopeful.

You’re Not Behind, You’re Becoming (Happy 28th to Me 💋)

2025-04-1621:45

Turning 28 used to terrify me—because I thought I’d be married by now, maybe a mom, definitely “figured out.” But plot twist: I’m not. And I’m finally okay with that. In this raw, glittery episode of Kisses and Chaos, I dive deep into why feeling “behind” in life is actually a lie, the psychology behind timeline anxiety, and how I went from multiple engagements and identity crises to fully owning my Forevermore era. We talk self-worth, social clocks, puffer jacket breakdowns, and why your 30s might be the best thing ever. ✨You’re not late. You’re just becoming.

Closure Sex Is a Scam (but I did it anyways)

2025-04-0917:10

I swore it was one last time. Just one final hookup for closure… and now I’m more confused than ever. In this episode, we’re diving into toxic sex, love bombing vs. real change, and why “closure” with your ex is usually just chaos in disguise.Rate the pod, tell your ex I hate them, and let’s suffer together, bestie 💋

Ghosted? Good. Let the Trash Take Itself Out 💅🗑️

2025-04-0217:01

She love bombed me, joined my Twitch, called me her dream girl… then disappeared like a cheap magic trick. In this ep, we’re roasting ghosters, reclaiming our hotness, and reminding ourselves: no response is a response, babe. And it screams “I’m a coward.” Let’s laugh, glow up, and move the fuck on. 💅💋

They Cheated (AGAIN) But I’m Still That B*tch: How to Not Let It Break Your Worth

2025-03-2618:10

Yep… she cheated. And not just once. In this episode of Kisses and Chaos 💋, I share how I found out—straight from her ex—that my ex (no contact) had been cheating on me more than I ever knew. We’re getting all the way into it: the shock, the heartbreak, and the healing. I’m breaking down how to stop blaming yourself, why their cheating is a reflection of them (never you), and how to take your power back when someone tries to shatter your self-worth. If you’ve ever been betrayed and blamed yourself—you need this episode.

Not Everyone’s Cup of Tea ☕️: Handling Hate & Thriving Anyway

2025-03-1916:20

In this episode of Kisses and Chaos , we’re getting real about criticism, online hate, and why being ‘not everyone’s cup of tea’ is actually a power move. From a deep dive into a Reddit thread to learning how to detach from negativity, we’re talking about confidence, boundaries, and not letting the opinions of strangers define us. If you’ve ever struggled with being misunderstood or judged, this one’s for you. Pour a drink, settle in, and let’s get into it. 💋

Loving Them Isn’t Enough: Walking Away from Toxic Love

2025-03-1916:13

Okay, besties… we’re getting real in this one. Walking away from someone you love? Brutal. Walking away from someone toxic, even though your heart still wants them? A whole other level of pain. In this episode of Kisses and Chaos , we’re talking about why love isn’t always enough, how to actually leave for good, and (yep) my own personal drama, because I’m literally going through it right now. If you’ve ever felt addicted to a relationship that’s lowkey ruining you, grab a drink, get cozy, and let’s get into it.

Addicted to the Chaos: Why We Stay in Toxic Relationships

2025-03-1218:32

Why do we stay in toxic relationships, even when we know they’re bad for us? In this episode of Kisses and Chaos, I get real about my own messy situation—falling for potential, getting hooked on the highs and lows, and why the sex (ugh, amazing) makes it even harder to walk away. We’re diving into the science behind toxic attraction, the trap of chasing a fantasy, and the brutal cycle that keeps us coming back for more. If you’ve ever been stuck in a love that feels like a rollercoaster, this one’s for you.Hit play, because it’s time to break the cycle—together.

Life Gets Better When You Realize They’re a F*cking Loser

2025-12-1028:19

In this raw and unfiltered episode of Kisses & Chaos 💋, I talk about the moment my rose-colored glasses finally shattered and how I realized my toxic ex was not the love of my life. I break down trauma bonds, narcissistic behavior, emotional manipulation, breadcrumbing, and the psychology behind why it’s so hard to leave unhealthy relationships. From online harassment and messy friend groups to glow-ups, healing out loud, and reclaiming my self-worth,.If you’re struggling with no contact, toxic cycles, emotional addiction, or recovering from a manipulative partner, this episode is for you.Topics covered: toxic relationships, narcissists, trauma bonds, emotional manipulation, breadcrumbing, no contact rule, breakup recovery, self-worth, dating red flags, glow-up after heartbreak.

Mercury Retrograde, Missing Your Ex, and the Five Stages of Grief After A Breakup ❤️‍🩹

2025-11-2637:48

Inthis episode, I’m talking about why Mercury retrograde is making us miss ourtoxic exes and breaking down the five stages of breakup grief — denial, anger,bargaining, depression, and acceptance. I get real about spiraling duringretrograde, sending that “one last message,” getting randomly unblocked, cryingat night, trauma bonding, and trying to heal while still craving someone whohurt me.If you’ve been:• stalking your ex’s socials• romanticizing someone who was chaotic• craving “closure”• or feeling like a delusional little lover girl…this episode is literally for you, babe.I’m sharing my full breakup lore, why retrograde brings back old patterns, howtrauma bonds mess with your brain, and why missing them doesn’t mean they’reyour soulmate — it means you’re withdrawing.If you’re healing, heartbroken, or just trying not to text your ex at 2 AM,play this. We’re choosing ourselves now. 💋✨

Twin Flame, Soulmate, or Just a Trauma Bond?

2025-11-1219:15

Hi babes, welcome back to Kisses & Chaos. It’s Luci!Today we’re talking about the difference between a twin flame, a soulmate, and a trauma bond because the way we all romanticize chaos and call it fate is actually insane. And yes, I’ve done it too. Like… deeply.I’m breaking down:that euphoric destiny feeling of a twin flamethe calm “I can finally breathe” love of a soulmateand the rollercoaster addiction that is a trauma bondI share my own stories. the insane passion, the red flags I ignored, the “I can fix her” delusion, the withdrawals, the chasing potential… all of it.If you’ve ever said “but it just feels different with them”, this episode is for you.You’re not crazy.You didn’t imagine the connection.You just deserve something that doesn’t set your nervous system on fire to feel alive.We’re healing.We’re self-respecting.We’re still manifesting the tall hot soulmate.Rate, review, subscribe, and let’s get into the chaos. 💋

You Can’t Fix Anyone But Yourself

2025-10-2925:48

In this solo episode, I’m getting real about something I’ve had to learn the hard way — you can’t fix anyone but yourself. I talk about going back to my ex, and how I fell into the cycle of trying to save someone who didn’t want to be saved. If you’ve ever found yourself trying to fix a toxic partner, or you’ve been stuck in a push-and-pull relationship, this episode will hit close to home.This is your sign to stop pouring into people who refuse to grow and start reinvesting that energy back into yourself diva. 💋

Softest Chyl (Softest Hard + CHYL) on Real Beef, PR Stunts ,and Toxic Love

2025-10-0143:51

On this episode of Kisses & Chaos 💋, I sit down with Softest Chyl — the duo made up of Chyl and Softest Hard — and babes we get into everything. We talk about the real beef in the EDM scene (yes, there’s actual drama), their wild origin stories from Wall Street to festivals, and how they created their own sound blending speed house and hardstyle. We get honest about touring, internet drama, toxic vs. stable sex, dating as DJs, and the craziest things they’ve seen backstage. This one is chaotic, funny, and super real — just how we like it.

Villain Era, Aphrodite Energy & Toxic vs. Stable Love w/ JVNA 💋

2025-09-1745:15

hi babies 💋 it’s Luci, and this week on kisses and chaos i’ve got one of my besties, Jvna, in the studio and we’re going ALL in. she’s in a brand new villain era (yes, the brows are shaved) and we’re talking about what inspired her dark, fashion-forward vibe, the double standards women face in EDM, and how being sexy in this scene can still get you judged.we also get messy about love — falling for red flags, attachment styles, jealousy, and why toxic sex vs. stable love hits so different. i even share some of my own chaos and how i relate to it.Jvna spills how she writes songs inspired by aphrodite and goddess mythology, why dating as a dj can be intimidating, and her hot take on why melodic bass is fadingand of course… we wrap it all up with a chaotic round of would you rather that you don’t want to miss.if you’re into raw girl talk, edm gossip, and witchy vibes — this one’s for you. 💌

You’re Not Behind in Love: Taylor Swift, Broken Timelines & Starting Over at 28

2025-09-0318:26

Babes, do you ever feel behind in love? Same. In this solo episode of Kisses and Chaos 💋, I’m getting real about why starting over doesn’t mean you’re latem it just means you’re brave.When I saw Taylor Swift get engaged at 35, it hit me: why am I crying at 28 thinking my love story is over? I’ve been engaged twice (wild, I know), went through heartbreak with “No Contact,” got swept up with “Maybe Mrs. Wright,” and now I’m single again—processing all the chaos, the broken promises, and the timelines that never happened.I’m breaking it all down with:✨ Taylor Swift’s engagement & why love has no timeline✨ Psych facts like ambiguous loss & the social clock theory✨ Saturn return chaos and the lessons it’s forcing us to learn✨ Why starting over isn’t failure—it’s experienceIf you’ve ever cried into Hot Cheetos after seeing an engagement post, this one’s for you. Your love story isn’t late, babe—it’s just still unfolding. 💔➡️💖

Jealousy Is a Mirror: How to Stop Comparing Yourself and Reclaim Your Power

2025-08-0625:08

In this solo episode, I’m getting real with you about something we all feel but rarely admit: jealousy. Yeah… that gut-punch feeling when you're scrolling and it seems like everyone else is thriving, booking festivals, buying houses, getting married and you're just sitting there like, “What the fuck am I doing with my life?”I’ve been there. Honestly, I’m still there some days. I’m opening up about the truth behind my career setbacks, missing out on festival seasons, feeling overlooked, and how getting called a “has-been” nearly broke me. But I’ve also learned that jealousy isn’t something to shame .. it’s a mirror. And if you look close enough, it shows you exactly what you desire most.In this episode, I talk about:✨ How to reframe jealousy and stop comparing yourself✨ The psychology behind why we feel behind✨ How to protect your peace on social media✨ My own story of rebuilding after being dropped and dismissedIf you’re in your “Why not me?” era… just know your “It’s finally my turn” era is on the way.Let’s talk about it. 💋

From Dubstep to Techno, Cheating Exes & Rebirth – Dani Thorne on Reinventing Herself, Industry Drama & Hot Girl Chaos

2025-07-2357:50

In this chaotic, unfiltered episode of Kisses and Chaos 💋, I sits down with the stunning, savage, and soulful, Dani Thorne (formerly Com3t) to talk about everything from rebranding her entire identity to catching her ex mid-FaceTime with a fresh tattoo of another girl’s name 😮‍💨🖤We dive into:Dani’s transformation from rainbow-haired dubstep DJ to hard techno baddieHow a cheating ex with a secret girlfriend (and a tattoo to prove it) Growing up in Hollywood & navigating fameSexism in the EDM scene, toxic DJ boyfriends, and rebranding under her real nameHot girl tour life, chaotic afterparties, and her hardest heartbreaksThis ep is funny, emotional, savage, and inspiring the ultimate girl's guide to reinvention, red flags, and rising from the ashes 💄🕯️

Identity Crisis Covered in Glitter: Becoming Everyone but Myself

2025-07-0931:18

If you've ever looked in the mirror and been like, “Wait... who even am I anymore?” same. This episode is for the girls, gays, and theys who've shapeshifted so many times to fit in, to be loved, to survive, that you don’t even recognize yourself anymore. I’ve been the alien, the ex-girlfriend, the popstar, the burnout and I’m finally finding my way back to who I really am. We’re talking identity crises, failed rebrands, masking as a neurodivergent person, and how exhausting it is to try and be what everyone else wants. If you're in the middle of a life reset, this one’s for you. It's chaotic, messy, honest, and kind of beautiful. 💋

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