Faith, Trust and Tears

This episode marks a pause. God is leading me into a season of stillness, stripping, and rebuilding. I talk about the spiritual warfare I’ve been walking through, the friendships that fell away, the patterns God exposed in me, and why He’s calling me into a quiet place with Him. Just like Jesus in the wilderness, this season is about obedience, honesty, and letting God remake me from the root. Whenever I return, I pray it’s with a renewed spirit and a clearer purpose anchored in Him.

If you have ever read Proverbs and felt personally attacked, welcome to the club. I talk about my daily commitment to this book, how God exposed my gossip, my fear, my false humility, and the way I tear myself down without noticing. It is rough, but it is freedom.

This episode sits in the middle of my real life. My relationships have been shifting. People have been pulling away. I shaved my head and stepped into a new version of myself, and the reactions have been mixed. I have felt judged, misunderstood, and alone. But even in the middle of that loneliness, God has been pressing on my heart that He is still shaping me. 

I did something I’ve been wanting to do for years...I shaved my head. Not for a trend, not out of impulse, but because God told me to cut it off. For years, my hair was tied to my identity, my confidence, and honestly, my need for approval. But when it all had to go, I realized He was freeing me from way more than dead ends.

This week and last week have been rough. I cried more than I want to admit, had panic attacks, and felt like the enemy was trying to wear me down, but God was louder. Through all the fear and chaos, I saw growth. I saw strength. I saw faith that actually stood.God humbled me, reminded me to slow down, to stop rushing, to be content with what I already have. And even when I spiraled into old habits, He met me right where I was... again.

This week, I realized how hard it is for me to just accept blessings without waiting for something to go wrong. I was talking to my mom about how blessed I’ve felt—how God’s been answering prayers and showing up everywhere I turn. and in the same breath, I started doubting it. Like, “What if this is just the calm before the storm?”But God’s been teaching me something new: to rest in His goodness. To stop bracing for trials and start trusting His timing. To see blessings as blessings, not warnings.

This week, I hit a wall. I couldn’t figure out why I felt so far from God until I realized, I’d fallen into sin and started hiding. Shame took over. I spiraled. I broke. But God met me in the middle of it on the floor, in silence, and reminded me what grace really means.

I’ll be real, I’ve spent a lot of my life praying like God was my problem-solver on call. “Fix this, bless that, make this easier.” But lately, God’s been convicting me to flip the question: instead of “what can You do for me,” asking “Lord, what can I do for You?”

 In this episode I’m coming for your comfort zone and mine too. Laziness, excuses, and blaming the devil for stuff he didn’t even do!! it’s all on the table. I dig into what God actually says about laziness, how we love to overcomplicate change, and why the power to move forward is already in us through Christ and yes I’m calling you out. If you’ve been waiting for motivation, this is your sign to get up and do it.

In this episode, I share my raw reaction to the shocking assassination of Charlie Kirk, a man who loved Jesus, spoke boldly about his faith, and sought to unite people despite differences. I reflect on the darkness in our world, the desensitization social media brings, and why we must cling to Jesus above all else.

This week I’m talking about what it feels like when God puts a mirror in front of your face through situations and people. I’ve been seeing my flaws clearer than ever, and instead of running, I’ve been learning to lean into God, let Him reshape me, and embrace the uncomfortable. It’s been messy, funny, convicting, but also full of joy.

Last week was one of the hardest weeks I’ve had in a long time. My family was going through it, I was stressed, late to work, no sleep felt like enough, and honestlyI was burnt out in every sense of the word. I didn’t even want to go to church on Sunday. But that’s exactly where God met me. He reminded me that I’ve been leaning on myself instead of Him. He used my mom’s faith to convict me, humbled me, and then restored me all in one moment. This episode is me walking through that encounter, what God revealed, and why I know He’s not done with me or my family.

I spent years begging God for peace and love. Instead, I got heartbreak, fake friends, loneliness, sin, and straight-up chaos. But it turns out, I wasn’t being punished.. I was being refined. In this episode, I’m talking about God’s perfect timing, how His “better” is nothing like the “better” I had in mind, and why letting go of my own plan changed everything.

’m diving into one of my biggest struggles.. music, movies, and entertainment. From growing up on Ariana Grande and Broadway to vibing with Drake, Nicki, and Chris Brown, I never realized how much the lyrics and shows I consumed were shaping me. God started convicting me, and suddenly all I could hear was sex, drugs, violence, and depression on repeat. I’ll share how I found peace in worship, Christian rap, and R&B that actually glorifies God, and why it’s easier now to walk away from Hollywood’s mockery of Him. This is about choosing what feeds your spirit and realizing not everything “catchy” is harmless.

I’m gonna be honest y'all my Bible’s been sitting right next to my bed for a while, collecting dust. My flesh has been lazy, my spirit starving, and I’ve been letting everyday life take God’s place in my priorities. Even my morning verse habit with a pastor friend has gone stale… I send it without reading it. In this episode, I’m talking about what it really looks like when your walk with God loses intentionality, how easy it is to drift, and how dangerous it is to stay there. This isn’t about guilt for guilt’s sake, it’s about waking up before you spiritually dry out completely.

Why do we crave attention we don’t even want? From blasting music in my car to nights out that never matched who I am, I’ve wrestled with the pull to be noticed and the emptiness it leaves behind. In this episode, I talk about breaking the cycle of seeking validation, why it never delivers, and how to shift our focus back to God’s approval over everyone else’s.

I’m not great with money. I’ve put myself in more debt buying a new car I didn’t need but totally “aligned” with, I online shop when I’m bored instead of talking to God, and I’ve had Whole Foods rot in my fridge while I ate Chick-fil-A three times a week. But here’s the thing..God has always provided. Even in my most broke moments, He’s humbled me, blessed me, and reminded me He’s still paying attention. In this episode, I’m sharing how I prayed about my finances, still messed up, and somehow ended up with a raise I didn’t even know was coming. If you’ve ever felt undeserving of God’s provision, this one’s for you.

So I was ready to risk it all for a tan. I planned a spontaneous trip to San Diego, just me, my AirPods, and the sun. But from the moment I tried to start my car at 3am, God was like, “Yeah… no.” Anxiety, tire lights, stove paranoia, and a tsunami watch later,I turned around and went home. And then… the next day, God lined up everything for me to buy a brand-new car. Like… huh?! This episode is about those moments when you’re chasing one thing and God redirects you to something better. It’s also about surrender, trusting God even when you’re stubborn, and how He really does go before us—even if it takes a broken-down Quesadilla to get our attention.

Lately, I’ve been feeling like I keep saying the same thing on this podcast over and over again. The same heartache. The same healing. The same prayer. But then I realized... that’s the point. God hasn’t changed. And in every struggle, every breakthrough, every quiet moment, I see Him holding my hand. In this episode, I’m talking about the insecurity I’ve been battling in creating these episodes, how obedience sometimes means saying it again, and why I’m surrendering my platform to God’s timing, not my pride. I also share a story about a recent "God kiss" that reminded me why I keep going. If you’re in a season that feels repetitive, maybe it’s not a rut maybe it’s refinement.

I woke up with a heavy chest and no clue why. Everything felt off, my thoughts were spinning, and a simple email triggered this wave of anxiety that made me question everything. This episode is me being real about that. About how hard it is to receive criticism, how fast shame creeps in, and how anxiety convinces us we’re failing even when we’re not. I talk through what it means to be overwhelmed, to overthink, to feel like you’re not enough and how God meets us in that mess.