Love, Light, and Black Holes

You know that pattern you keep repeating? The same relationship drama, different person. The same career block, different job. The same "not enough" feeling, different situation.You've tried the affirmations. You've done the mindset work. You've set the intentions. And yet... HERE YOU ARE AGAIN.Here's why: You're trying to fix the visible problem while completely ignoring the invisible wound that's actually running the show.Your shadow is in the driver's seat. And you don't even know it exists.In this episode, I'm breaking down:What your shadow actually is (and why ignoring it keeps you stuck in loops)How your Chiron sign and house reveals your deepest woundWhy this is the FASTEST way to start shadow work if you don't know where to beginWhat changes when you finally meet the part of you that's been sabotaging everythingHow to find your shadow without spending years in therapy guessingThis is tough love, slap-in-the-face truth. People have told me the free Chiron report made them cry because they finally felt understood. It's uncomfortable. It's revealing. And it's the most liberating thing you'll ever do.The thing you're most afraid to look at is the thing that will set you free.Ready to stop running? Grab the free Chiron Shadow Report below and find out what's been dictating your life in silence all these years!Programs and ResourcesFREE Report to Find Your Shadow: https://shadow.lovelightandblackholes.com/FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditationKeep the Magic Rolling:Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholesMy website → https://lovelightandblackholes.comRead my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/About Our Sponsors:Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/storeGet 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/Disclaimer:This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions,...

Okay, hear me out because I know this is going to ruffle some feathers. But I'm here for it!If you’ve been feeling the urge to manifest harder, visualize clearer, or clutch your vision board for dear life during eclipse season, this episode might lovingly ruin that for you. 😌Eclipse season is not a manifestation portal. It’s a surrender portal.In this episode, I riff on why trying to “control the outcome” during eclipses often backfires because eclipses work on a different timeline. They interrupt, reveal, destabilize, and reroute. They don’t respond well to micromanagement.Today I talk about why eclipse energy is more about trust than effort, why things can feel wired and exhausted at the same time, and why this particular Aquarius solar eclipse is stirring collective themes around belonging, truth, nervous system overload, and the future we’re collectively building.I also break down:Why eclipses tend to dissolve what’s no longer aligned (even when we don’t want them to)The difference between “calling something in” and letting the universe reorganize your lifeThe larger astrological backdrop happening right now and why it all feels so intenseWhat to do instead of manifesting when clarity feels slippery and control feels temptingThis episode is about trusting what’s already in motion and letting the universe take the wheel.Programs and ResourcesFREE Report to Find Your Shadow: https://shadow.lovelightandblackholes.com/FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditationKeep the Magic Rolling:Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholesMy website → https://lovelightandblackholes.comRead my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/About Our Sponsors:Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/storeGet 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/Disclaimer:This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.The is a Maeluna Media Production a...

What happens when you realize the voice you’ve been following isn’t actually yours. This episode is a love letter to that realization.We talk about why so many of us think our intuition is broken, when really, we’ve just been listening to everyone else’s opinions, timelines, and “shoulds” for way too long. I share how easy it is to confuse anxiety with intuition, and how the ego can sound urgent, loud, and convincing … while the soul is quieter, slower, and doesn’t need to explain itself.I also go into the difference between fear-based guidance and true inner knowing, why intuition doesn’t shout, and how constant self-correction can disconnect us from our own internal compass.This isn’t an episode about fixing yourself or learning a new technique. It’s about remembering. About softening. About noticing where you stopped trusting yourself, and why that actually makes so much sense.If you’ve been questioning your instincts, outsourcing your decisions, or feeling disconnected from your own yes and no… this one is for you.Programs and ResourcesFREE Report to Find Your Shadow: https://shadow.lovelightandblackholes.com/FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditationKeep the Magic Rolling:Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholesMy website → https://lovelightandblackholes.comRead my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/About Our Sponsors:Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/storeGet 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/Disclaimer:This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

Okay let’s talk about being deluluBecause right now the internet is fully romanticizing the idea that if you just decide something is true, it’ll magically work out. And listen, sometimes that mindset is actually powerful as hell.And sometimes?It’s just avoidance in a cute outfit.In this episode, I’m breaking down when “the delulu is the solulu” and when it quietly turns into spiritual bypassing, nervous system freeze, or straight-up lying to yourself.I get into:Why acting “as if” can genuinely change your lifeThe psychology behind why confidence before evidence actually worksThe moment delusion stops being playful and starts being harmfulHow manifestation turns toxic when it disconnects you from realityThe difference between faith and avoidance (and how to tell which one you’re in)What conscious delusion actually looks like — belief that moves you forward, not keeps you stuckIf you’ve ever wondered whether you’re trusting the universe… or just not wanting to deal with something uncomfortable, this episode will hit.Programs and ResourcesFREE Report to Find Your Shadow: https://shadow.lovelightandblackholes.com/FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditationKeep the Magic Rolling:Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholesMy website → https://lovelightandblackholes.comRead my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/About Our Sponsors:Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/storeGet 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/Disclaimer:This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

This episode isn’t cute. It’s honest.Today I’m talking about the parts of ourselves we don’t want to integrate. The ones we wish never happened. Not the soft, Instagram-friendly shadows like dimming your light. Or even that shadows that focus on what others did to you or your wounded inner child. But the moments where we hurt someone. Where we straight up caused harm and moved on with life, with an over-sized bag of shame.This is the kind of shadow work almost no one wants to touch. Because it’s not about reclaiming power. It’s about responsibility.I talk about why it’s easier to face the places where we were wounded than the places where we had agency, and how pretending those parts “aren’t us anymore” doesn’t actually free us, it just buries them.In this episode I talk about:• Why unintegrated shadow doesn’t disappear, it leaks• The difference between accountability and self-shaming• How cruelty, judgment, avoidance, and superiority often come from distorted protection• Why integration is not approval and never justification• What real wholeness actually asks of usThis episode is an invitation to stop trying to be spotless… and start being honest.Programs and ResourcesFREE Report to Find Your Shadow: https://shadow.lovelightandblackholes.com/FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditationKeep the Magic Rolling:Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholesMy website → https://lovelightandblackholes.comRead my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/About Our Sponsors:Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/storeGet 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/Disclaimer:This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

HOLY FREAKIN MOLY!!! It's real! I signed my NEW book contract this morning and I am giddy with passion and purpose and direction.When I lost my dad the day after Christmas in 2024 I was just hoping the survive the year of firsts. I never imagined the first year after his death would be filled with so much life, creativity, adventure, joy, and new beginnings.My disco ball soul was shattered at the end of 2024, but now a year later I’m shining brighter than ever 🪩This book is going to show you just how potent and productive looking at your darkness can be.This is what's possible through shadow work. I wouldn't be where I am if I didn't go into my darkness and ask what it had to show me. I've centered my entire career around shadow work because I've seen first hand that it's literally the key to everything you want to become and do.This episode is testament to what "doing the work" can do and how to make your shadow sparkle.AAAAAARRRRROOOOO!!!!Programs and ResourcesWay of the Witch Coven CLOSES JANUARY 7: https://www.sagedshop.com/products/way-of-the-witch-virtual-covenFREE Report to Find Your Shadow: https://shadow.lovelightandblackholes.com/FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditationKeep the Magic Rolling:Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholesMy website → https://lovelightandblackholes.comRead my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/About Our Sponsors:Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/storeGet 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/Disclaimer:This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

Let’s talk about January 1st and the lie we've been told! Buckle up, this is a GOOD one!Because if you’ve ever felt exhausted, behind, unmotivated, or low-key resentful of “new year, new you” energy, this episode is your permission slip to stop blaming yourself.January 1st is NOT the new year we've been told it is. And pushing yourself to reinvent yourself in the dead of winter actually does more harm than good.In this one, I pull back the curtain on the calendar itself and how we got tricked into something that robs us of our power.If you’ve ever felt like something about the New Year rush didn’t sit right in your bones… this episode will put language to that feeling.No resolutions. No hustle.Just truth, a bit of fascinating history, and a gentler way to move through the season.Programs and ResourcesWinter 2026: Way of the Witch coven https://www.sagedshop.com/products/way-of-the-witch-virtual-covenFREE Report to Find Your Shadow: https://shadow.lovelightandblackholes.com/FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditationKeep the Magic Rolling:Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholesMy website → https://lovelightandblackholes.comRead my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/About Our Sponsors:Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/storeGet 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/Disclaimer:This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

In this episode, I’m talking about grief during the holidays. Not in a “here’s how to get through it” way, but in a let’s sit together in this way.I laugh, I cry, and /i keep it real like always. Grief isn't something to push through. It's not an inconvenience, although our society might have you thinking otherwise.Grief is proof of love. And if your sick of the energy of "holly jolly holidays" this one is for you.If the holidays feel heavy this year…If you’re missing someone…If you’re grieving a person, a version of life, or a season that will never come back…You’re not alone.You’re not doing it wrong.And you don’t have to carry it quietly.Mentioned in this episode:The Wild Edge of Sorrow by Francis Wheeler https://www.amazon.com/Wild-Edge-Sorrow-Rituals-Renewal/dp/1583949763 Laura Lynn Jackson: Signs + other books https://lauralynnejackson.com/Programs and ResourcesWinter 2026: Way of the Witch coven https://www.sagedshop.com/products/way-of-the-witch-virtual-covenFREE Report to Find Your Shadow: https://shadow.lovelightandblackholes.com/FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditationKeep the Magic Rolling:Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholesMy website → https://lovelightandblackholes.comRead my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/About Our Sponsors:Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/storeGet 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/Disclaimer:This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

Pull up a chair, because we need to talk about 2026.And no, not in the Instagram “new year, new me ✨” kind of way.We’re leaving a Snake Year and a global 9 year, which basically means the universe has been shaking your life like a snow globe and watching what falls apart. If things crumbled, burned, broke, ended, dissolved, disappointed you, ghosted you, or revealed their true form?Yeah. That was the curriculum.And now we're walking straight into a 1 year… and a Fire Horse Year.And listen, everyone online is acting like this is some sparkly fresh start.But I’m here to tell you the real truth:2026 isn’t a clean slate. It’s a construction site.It’s not a “glow up.” It’s a rebuild.It’s not “new beginnings.” It’s identity initiation.This episode is the conversation no one else is having. Because everyone wants to sell you optimism, but I want to tell you the truth.In this episode I cover:what a Fire Horse year actually meanswhy Japan’s birth rate dropped 25% last time we have a Fire Horse Yearthe rise of powerful, untamable feminine energywhy a 1 year feels disorienting, not excitinghow to calculate your personal year & what it really meansSaturn + Neptune in Aries (aka identity demolition meets spiritual clarity)why next year burns what you’ve outgrown and ignites what you’ve deniedthe real emotional experience of stepping into a new 9-year cycleIf you're tired of spiritual bypassing, manifestation rainbows and unicorns, and fake positivity…This episode is your permission slip to feel the raw truth of what’s unfolding — and the power in it.2026 isn’t coming to bless you.It’s coming to activate you.Programs and ResourcesFREE Astro Shadow Report → https://shadow.lovelightandblackholes.com/FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditationKeep the Magic Rolling:Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholesMy website → https://lovelightandblackholes.comRead my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/About Our Sponsors:

You’re not afraid of your power, like Marianne Williamson said.You’re afraid of what your power will change, of the identity that will die, of the unfamiliar and unpredictable, and unknown.Because when you rise, things shift.Relationships recalibrate.Identity rearranges.Old comfort zones dissolve.Your life gets bigger than the person you’ve been.And your nervous system LOVES a good predictable mess.It hates unfamiliar peace, unfamiliar success, unfamiliar ease.In this episode, I dive into:why the ego clings to the familiar even when it sucksthat WILD Michigan fMRI study where the brain literally panics at the successful future selfwhy you sabotage right when something starts workingwhy consistency feels terrifying (it's change, not sabotage)how identity death is the real shadow of expansionand the truth nobody wants to admit: success is only scary because it guarantees change.If you’ve ever wondered why you retreat, retract, procrastinate, or stall right when things start getting better… this episode is your mirror.You’re not afraid of rising.You’re afraid of what rising will require.Programs and ResourcesNOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturneFREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditationFree Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-bThe Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journeyKeep the Magic Rolling:Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholesMy website → https://lovelightandblackholes.comRead my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/About Our Sponsors:Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/storeGet 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/Disclaimer:This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

If you’re already mentally preparing for the holiday Hunger Games, I recorded this for you.But before you pack emotional armor for Thanksgiving, let’s talk about something juicy:Your triggers aren’t meltdowns waiting to happen — they’re portals.Yep. This week on Love, Light & Black Holes, we’re going right into the spiritual lion’s den:n family, holidays, emotional landmines, and the shadow work hidden in your aunt’s passive-aggressive comments.In this episode, I’m breaking down why the holidays turn us into emotional werewolves… why your nervous system reacts before your brain even registers what’s happening… and how to move through family triggers without flipping the entire table over the cranberry sauce (tempting, though).We’re talking:Why your body remembers your family before your mind doesHow triggers are actually invitations, not punishmentsThe version of you your family resurrects (even when you’ve outgrown her)Real-life examples we can all relate to (yes, including “You look tired”)How to handle holiday portals like the spiritually evolved badass you areAnd why sometimes the most sacred thing you can do… is hide in the pantry with a cookieThis one is real, raw, and honestly one of the most relatable episodes I’ve ever recorded.Listen before you walk into the holiday lion’s den. Your shadow will thank you — and your future self will avoid a felony.Programs and ResourcesNOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturneFREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditationFree Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-bThe Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journeyKeep the Magic Rolling:Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholesMy website → https://lovelightandblackholes.comRead my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/About Our Sponsors:Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/storeGet 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/Disclaimer:This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

Stop focusing on trying to to regulate your nervous system. You need to let out the scream you've been holding in the past decade.We’ve somehow convinced ourselves that being peaceful all the time is the goal — like inner peace is the new personality trait. But what I’ve learned (through life, shadow work, and a few cosmic smackdowns) is this:sometimes the most spiritual thing you can do is scream into a pillow at full volume.In today’s episode, we get into the messy truth the wellness world avoids:Why “inner peace” can secretly be a trauma responseWhy your body doesn’t want calm — it wants completionHow sacred rage is actually your path into real peaceThe neuroscience behind anger, suppression, and emotional bottleneckingWhy softness after rage is stronger than pretending you’re chillAnd why your soul doesn’t want constant regulation… it wants permissionThis is the episode where we break up with performative peace and come back into actual aliveness.Because if you’re never angry … you’re probably not being honest.Grab your matcha, get cozy, and let me tell you why your rage is medicine — and your peace is stronger because of it.Programs and ResourcesNOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturneFREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditationFree Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-bThe Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journeyKeep the Magic Rolling:Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholesMy website → https://lovelightandblackholes.comRead my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/About Our Sponsors:Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/storeGet 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/Disclaimer:This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

You know that feeling when life rips the rug out from under you, and your first instinct is to grab tighter? Yeah, same.In this episode, I revisit something I wrote a decade ago while living in Granada, Spain, back when uncertainty meant adventure, not anxiety. Back then, I chased the unknown through cobblestone streets and open roads. But after the quantum crumble of the past few years, I’ve learned that uncertainty isn’t something you conquer… it’s something you befriend.In this episode I talk about:Why the ego craves control but the soul craves expansionHow science proves uncertainty is literally the fabric of realityWhy softness is the new strength (and surrender is sacred)What Hartmut Rosa and Gabor Maté teach us about letting goAnd how to find peace when you have no idea what’s nextIf you’ve been fighting to “figure it all out,” this one’s your permission slip to stop gripping and start trusting. Because control is an illusion — but presence is real.Back then, uncertainty felt like freedom.Now I know it’s the portal to everything real.Programs and ResourcesNOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturneFREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditationFree Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-bThe Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journeyKeep the Magic Rolling:Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholesMy website → https://lovelightandblackholes.comRead my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/About Our Sponsors:Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/storeGet 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/Disclaimer:This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

Yup ... I'm the problem. IT'S ME! But I'm also the solution, and you are too.Press play on this MICRODOSE that packs a mega dose of wisdom.Programs and ResourcesNOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturneFREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditationFree Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-bThe Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journeyKeep the Magic Rolling:Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholesMy website → https://lovelightandblackholes.comRead my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/About Our Sponsors:Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/storeGet 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/Disclaimer:This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

You know that moment when your healing journey starts to feel heavy?Like you’ve been journaling, meditating, shadow-working your ass off. And somehow still feel stuck? Or even like things are getting worse? Yeah. That was me. I was compulsively focused on healing, which made me think I was broken. And that ain't it!!!!In this episode, I share the story of when I realized I’d become addicted to healing. It was right after I lost an IUD inside my body (yep, lost), had surgery for fibroids, and watched them grow right back. Like my body was screaming: “you can’t fix what you won’t feel.”That was the moment everything changed. I moved from panic to purpose, from control to surrender, from obsessively “working on myself” to actually living as myself.In this episode I go deep on:How healing can quietly become a form of avoidanceWhy your nervous system can literally get addicted to processingWhat it means to stop identifying with the “wounded self”How to move from endless shadow work into integration and embodimentAnd the exact moment I realized: I wasn’t healing anymore, I was hiding.This one’s raw, real, and probably not what you’ve heard before.It’s not about giving up on healing. It’s about remembering what healing is for.If you’ve ever wondered why your “inner work” doesn’t feel like it’s working anymore, this episode will change how you see everything.Programs and ResourcesNOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturneFREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditationFree Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-bThe Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journeyKeep the Magic Rolling:Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholesMy website → https://lovelightandblackholes.comRead my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/About Our Sponsors:Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/storeGet 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/Disclaimer:This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

You know those random memories that still make you cringe? The ones that sneak up while you’re brushing your teeth and you’re like, “ugh, why did I do that?” Yeah. This episode is about that.Grab your tea, your oat-milk latte, whatever and let’s talk about what it really means to make peace with all the versions of you that came before.Because here’s the truth: they were doing their best. The one who stayed too long, the one who settled, the one who self-sabotaged, the one who didn’t know any better… she’s not the enemy. She’s the reason you’re here.In this week’s Love, Light, & Black Holes microdose, we’re diving into:Why rejecting your past keeps you stuck in the same loopHow accepting your past selves brings your future self in fasterHow to actually forgive yourself without bypassing accountabilityThe 3-step process I use to reconnect and integrate those old selvesA short mirror ritual that’ll leave you soft, grounded, and freeThink of this as the cosmic version of a catch-up with your best friend who loves you enough to tell you the truth: your past doesn’t need to be erased, it wants to be embraced.Programs and ResourcesNOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturneFREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditationFree Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-bThe Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journeyKeep the Magic Rolling:Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholesMy website → https://lovelightandblackholes.comRead my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/About Our Sponsors:Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/storeGet 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/Disclaimer:This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

Buckle up, because this one’s a controversial portal!I just got back from an AI summit that was supposed to be about tech… but every speaker kept talking about the same thing: being more human.And it hit me. Artificial intelligence isn’t replacing us. It’s revealing us.In this episode of Love, Light & Black Holes, we’re diving into how AI can become your spiritual thought partner — a tool for subconscious reprogramming, shadow work, and self-discovery that mirrors your inner world back to you.This isn’t about outsourcing intuition or bypassing your humanness. It’s about learning to use AI as a conscious mirror. To see yourself more clearly, to code new beliefs, and to integrate your mind, body, and spirit through intelligent reflection.Here’s what we get into:How AI helps you talk directly to your subconscious (and why that’s huge)Why traditional self-help and talk therapy are evolving — fastHow to use AI ethically, consciously, and spiritually (without losing your soul)The Soul x System Method: a 3-step practice to mirror, recode, and embody your next evolutionThis is the future of awakening. Not higher, not holier, but more human.⭐️ Let me know what you think of this episode! I know it's going to be controversial, but I'm so curious about your thoughts. Email me at magic@lovelightandblackholes.com or DM me on InstagramMentioned in this episode:The AI Surfer: https://theaisurfer.com/Superconscious by Tom McCarthy: https://www.superconscious.io/Vision Espresso: https://justgrowvisions.com/Programs and ResourcesFREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditationFree Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-bThe Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journeyKeep the Magic Rolling:Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholesMy website → https://lovelightandblackholes.comRead my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/About Our Sponsors:Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/storeGet 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/Disclaimer:This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional...

When I first stepped onto my spiritual path, I became a professional emotion rejector. I thought healing meant I'd never feel anger again, that enlightenment meant floating above the messiness of being human. I was so busy trying to ascend that I forgot to expand.This is the trap of what's called spiritual bypass. The tendency to use spiritual practices and beliefs to avoid dealing with painful feelings, unresolved wounds, and developmental needs. And nowhere is this more prevalent than in the "love and light" movement that dominates modern spirituality.THIS is why Love, Light and Black Holes exists. Because the more darkness you can hold, the brighter your light becomes.In this episode I talk about:How spiritual awakening requires both light work AND shadow integrationThe truth about high vibration vs. low vibration teachingsMoving beyond toxic positivity and spiritual bypassing4-step framework on how to actually alchemizeIncreasing capacity so chaos doesn't take over⭐️ NOCTURNE starts on 10/23 for 21-days of grounded, anchored, and real shadow work! If you miss the live launch, the course will still be available here: https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturnePrograms and ResourcesFREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditationFree Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-bThe Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journeyKeep the Magic Rolling:Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholesMy website → https://lovelightandblackholes.comRead my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/About Our Sponsors:Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/storeGet 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/Disclaimer:This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

Did you kill an old version of yourself only to discover your ego came back in white linen and mala beads with a "higher than thou" energy?The spiritual ego is suuuuuch a big thing in the spiritual industry and community so it had to be talked about. If you're gonna go killing old parts of yourself and have a spiritual experience, please don't let your ego put your spirituality on a pedestal. That's not the point!This 10-minute Microdose goes deep into the sneakiest part of the spiritual path: the spiritual ego. The one that turns awakening into an identity, healing into hierarchy, and growth into a performance.I give you a quick deep dive on:Why the ego never really dies (it just rebrands itself)How to spot spiritual superiority and perfectionism disguised as “alignment”The 3-steps to stay humble, grounded, and humanRam Dass’s reminder that “The ego can convert anything to its own use, even spirituality.”This is your reality check and your reset. A reminder that real spirituality isn’t about being above life, it’s about being deeply in it.⭐️ This is the FINAL WEEk to join NOCTURNE! We start on October 23 for 21-days of shadow work that will have you feeling brighter than ever. Stop hiding behind your trauma and finally step into your full, electric power! https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturnePrograms and ResourcesFREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditationFree Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-bThe Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journeyKeep the Magic Rolling:Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholesMy website → https://lovelightandblackholes.comRead my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/About Our Sponsors:Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/storeGet 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/Disclaimer:This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

I'm a murderer! Call your fav true crime podcast host and get me on, cuz I've committed murder 1000 times. And I've been reborn 1001!Sometimes the only way forward is through your own identity funeral.This episode is an initiation into the death of the old self. The version of you that’s outgrown its own skin. The one that keeps pretending, performing, or holding it all together when your soul is begging for release.We’ll go deep into the spirituality, psychology, and energy of identity death and why it’s the most necessary and sacred part of transformation.Here’s what we’ll explore:The signs and symptoms that it’s time for an identity deathWhy your ego resists change (and how an "ego death" is impossible)The spiritual and scientific mechanics of death and rebirthHow to hold your own self-death ritual and write your own obituaryWhat happens in the void between who you were and who you’re becomingFeaturing wisdom from Carl Jung, Joseph Campbell, Ram Dass, Pema Chödrön, and Alan Watts, this episode is a journey through shadow, surrender, and the dark night that births the dawn.If you’ve felt the breakdown coming, this is your permission to let it. The death of your old self is exactly what you need to let your future self into the spotlight.💥 NOCTURNE starts on 10/23 and is your portal to everything you want! That might sound like a big promise, but it's true. Shadow work is literally the key to unlock every door of desire in your heart. For 3 weeks we'll dive deep into the darkness so you can come out shining with your disco ball soul! Learn more and save your spot to do shadow work with me! https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturnePrograms and ResourcesFREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditationFree Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-bThe Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journeyKeep the Magic Rolling:Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholesMy website → https://lovelightandblackholes.comRead my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/About Our Sponsors:Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/storeGet 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/Disclaimer:This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.The is a Maeluna Media Production