Her Audacity Podcast

After unexpected loss, Ceci and Nikki find themselves not only grieving loved ones, but the deeper fracture of family itself. They reflect on growing up in a time when connection came naturally, before the FLDS disrupted relationships, rewrote family dynamics, and created years of distance that still linger today. This conversation unpacks what it means to grieve living people, navigate reconnection as adults, and confront the quiet fear of being a burden in someone else’s life. More importantly, it becomes a call to action: to stop waiting, to reach out, and to rebuild the kind of community and family structure they once had, and still deeply crave. The truth is simple, if we want connection, we have to create it.

Ceci and Nikki sit down with Shalina for a conversation that moves through healing, motherhood, and the quiet ways our past shapes who we become. From navigating loss and chronic pain to writing a book rooted in inner child work, Shalina shares how she learned to trust her intuition and step into her purpose, even when it meant being seen in ways she once avoided. Together, they talk about emotional patterns, breaking cycles, and what it really looks like to raise children with the love and validation many of us didn’t receive growing up. This episode is a reminder that healing doesn’t follow a straight path, and that becoming the woman you needed often starts with the way you speak to yourself.

In this episode, we talk about the way women so often turn pain, hardship, and major life shifts into something meaningful. From divorce, illness, and self-doubt to building brands, creating community, and learning to trust themselves again, this conversation explores the strength women carry and the beauty that can come from lived experience. We also get into mentorship, collaboration, integrity in business, and why no one can do what you do quite the way you do it. It’s a conversation about courage, community, and the audacity it takes to keep creating anyway.

In this episode, we sit down with Karianne, a mother of six who had to step into a role she never planned for. Becoming the provider, caretaker, and decision-maker for her entire family. With no clear roadmap, she found herself navigating years of uncertainty while holding everything together behind the scenes. We talk about what it really looked like to carry that weight, how she rebuilt in the middle of it, and the mindset shift that led her to create something of her own, not just to survive, but to create options for her future. This is a conversation about resilience, identity, and what happens when you stop waiting to feel ready… and step up anyway.

In this episode of Her Audacity, Ceci and Nikki talk about what it looks like to find yourself through different seasons of life. From motherhood and marriage to friendship, healing, and work, this conversation explores how trying new things, slowing down, and paying attention to what truly brings you peace can lead to clarity. They open up about rest, creativity, accountability, evolving relationships, and the courage it takes to build a life that feels good to you. It’s a conversation about noticing what matters, letting go of what doesn’t, and giving yourself permission to grow.

In this episode, we sit down with Maray, a marriage and family therapist and founder of Evolve Healing House, to talk about trauma, boundaries, and building emotionally safe families. We discuss how childhood experiences shape our relationships, how to set healthy standards with family and co-parents, and simple ways couples can reconnect through honest emotional check-ins. Maray shares practical insight for anyone working to heal old patterns and create healthier relationships moving forward. Connect with Maray: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/evolvewithmaray Website: https://evolvehealinghouse.com/ Follow Her Audacity: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/heraudacitypod TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@heraudacitypod All Links: https://linktr.ee/heraudacitypod

Nikki and Ceci welcome Ceci's husband, Aaron onto the podcast for the first time. Aaron shares what it was like stepping into a relationship with a woman who had five children, navigating blended family dynamics, and building trust after both had experienced difficult past relationships. He opens up about his military background, the structure and discipline that shaped him, and the personal growth required to become the kind of husband and father he always wanted to be. This episode is honest, grounded, and deeply human. It’s about choosing commitment when things get hard, building a family on stability instead of chaos, and becoming the kind of person your children can feel safe with. If you’ve ever wondered what it looks like for a man to grow into leadership, vulnerability, and devotion, this conversation is for you.

Nikki and Ceci catch up on the chaos of post-move life, packed schedules, and the real need for “off days” in a world that expects us to be constantly on. They talk about what it looks like to reshape work around creative bursts and recovery, instead of a never-ending daily grind. The conversation shifts to the emotional weight of being online, how heavy news and dark stories can follow you from scroll to scroll, and why survivors especially have to protect their nervous system without dismissing what others have lived through. From there, they unpack what it means to build a truly safe home for your kids: a place where they can come back, tell the truth, and know they’re loved through mistakes. They also explore the longing for real community, being a “villager,” creating spaces where people can gather, and why in-person connection matters more than ever after years of isolation. The episode closes with encouragement to set one simple goal for the month, and an invitation for listeners to share theirs so the Her Audacity community can cheer them on.

In this episode of Her Audacity, we’re catching up in the most real way, from travel resets and winter heaviness to what it feels like when a new home changes everything. We talk about how environment impacts mental health, creativity, and the ability to actually show up for the life you’re building, plus the tenderness of moving back to Utah for family, kids, and a new season of growth. We also go deep on the pressure to be “the strong one,” especially after leaving the FLDS, and the hard-earned realization that you can care deeply without carrying everyone. Nikki opens up about the kind of friendship heartbreak that knocks the wind out of you, what it taught her about self-worth, and how stepping back helped her find herself again. Along the way, we share the moments that kept us going, the “God winks” that felt like confirmation, and the truth that joy really does come back around. It’s laughter, tears, nervous system truth, and the reminder that you’re allowed to rebuild gently, love fully, and still choose yourself. New episodes drop every Thursday.

In this powerful episode, Janice shares her story of growing up in the aftermath of leaving the FLDS, where parents were trying to survive, children were left unprotected, and generational trauma quietly took root. She speaks openly about sexual assault, emotional abandonment, and the long road toward safety, stability, and self-forgiveness. Together, we explore what real accountability looks like, why acknowledging harm doesn’t erase love, and how healing begins when we stop protecting systems and start protecting children. This episode is about breaking cycles, not through blame, but through truth. ⚠️ Trigger warning: Sexual violence, abuse, and trauma are discussed.

In this episode, Ceci and Nikki return for Episode 21, their first episode of 2026 and their first conversation back with just the two of them. They reflect on the start of a new year, how goal-setting has changed over time, and why January often feels more like a reset than a push. The conversation weaves through business growth, creative alignment, and what it means to build community after growing up in environments where vulnerability wasn’t safe. Ceci and Nikki discuss friendship, discomfort, and the responsibility of staying present instead of walking away. Episode 21 sets the tone for 2026: choosing connection, allowing support, and building a village with intention.

In this episode of Her Audacity, we sit down with Donia Jessop, Mayor of Hildale, Utah, to talk about leadership, faith transitions, and rebuilding a community after deep hurt. Donia shares what it took to step into public leadership, challenge long-standing systems, and move her town forward—often in the face of criticism and resistance. She reflects on motherhood, vulnerability, accountability, and the strength it takes to keep choosing progress when going backward would be easier. This conversation is about standing firm, leading with humanity, and remembering one essential truth: you are enough. Content note: This episode includes discussion of high-control religion and emotional harm. Listener discretion advised.

Hosted by Nikki and Ceci, this episode of Her Audacity welcomes their first male guest, Dubby. In an honest and deeply personal conversation, Dubby shares his experience growing up in the FLDS, losing his father at a young age, being pulled out of school to work, and eventually leaving the church in the middle of the night with nothing but his tools and a bag of clothes. Together, Nikki, Ceci, and Dubby talk through co-parenting, fatherhood, marriage, work ethic, and the long process of unlearning survival patterns while building a steady, loving family. This episode offers a rare male perspective on leaving high-control religion, navigating relationships without a roadmap, and choosing peace, responsibility, and presence in everyday life. Raw, grounded, and unexpectedly tender, this conversation is for anyone rebuilding after control, loss, or starting over — and proof that healing doesn’t have to be loud to be powerful.

In this episode, Ceci and Nikki sit down with Kelly, a sports nutritionist, dentist, and fitness model—to explore her journey from growing up without religion, to joining the LDS church as a teenager, to surviving a five-year abusive relationship, and ultimately rebuilding a life rooted in confidence and autonomy. Together, they examine the parallels between domestic violence and high-control religion, the way manipulation and isolation take hold, and how leaving a belief system can feel just as destabilizing as leaving a partner. Kelly shares how education, community, and reconnecting with her intuition changed the trajectory of her life, eventually leading her into dentistry, motherhood, and a new understanding of faith and identity. This conversation dives into healing, resilience, and the moment a woman decides she will no longer make herself small.

What if the way you bring up hurt is the very thing keeping you from real repair? In this episode, Ceci and Nikki unpack a simple line that hit like a freight train: “Shame and accountability can’t coexist.” They talk about learning to correct “spicy” kids without shaming them, apologizing to their own children for past patterns, and why some friendships don’t survive when accountability is met with blame instead of forgiveness. They also open up about what it looks like to forgive a parent who may never be able to own the harm they caused, all while trying to raise their kids differently than how they were raised in high-control religion. This conversation is for anyone who’s ready to communicate hurt without attacking character, make room for real apologies, and slowly rebuild trust with the people they love—starting with themselves.

In this episode, Layla shares her experience of being placed with Warren Jeffs at seventeen and what life inside his home was truly like. She opens up about the culture shock of entering his family, the manipulation she witnessed, and the emotional weight of his expectations. Layla also reflects on the loss of her baby sister and Warren’s chilling reaction — a moment that revealed far more about who he really was. This conversation offers an unfiltered look at the FLDS world, the dynamics within Warren’s household, and the journey that led to her eventual departure in 2013.

A craving for a road trip to Moab sparks a deeper reflection on independence, motherhood, and the kind of community that helps people rebuild. Ceci and Nikki share what it was like to live under control disguised as order inside the FLDS, from food restrictions to parenting expectations, and how life after has been about learning to trust, nurture, and provide in new ways. Through stories of the storehouse system, raising children, and finding humor in the chaos, this episode offers an honest look at resilience, self discovery, and the small ways healing happens every day.

Karli Lyman shares her story of walking away from the Mormon church and the emotional, spiritual, and financial unraveling that followed. She opens up about her husband’s mental health struggles, the rejection they faced from family, and the moment everything shifted—the day he finally acknowledged the pain between them. Through prayer, deliverance, and forgiveness, Karli found healing in places she didn’t think possible. Her story is a raw reminder that freedom starts when you forgive

Ceci and Nikki dives into the roots of perfectionism, where it starts, how it shows up, and what it costs. Ceci opens up about growing up in an environment built on constant correction and unreachable standards, and how that shaped the pressure she still feels to do everything just right before allowing herself to rest or connect. Nikki shares how being misdiagnosed with advanced lung cancer forced her to release control and see how easily life moves on, even when you stop holding it all together. Together, they talk about unlearning the belief that our worth is tied to productivity, redefining what it means to be “enough,” and creating homes and lives where peace matters more than perfection.

When Katie lost custody of her daughter in 2023, the world around her assumed she’d failed as a mother. What few understood is how often the system fails women who are simply trying to protect their children. In this powerful conversation, Katie opens up to Ceci and Nikki about the moment everything changed, how the court system stripped her of custody, how she fought to get her daughter back, and what it’s like to grieve a child who’s still alive. Through heartbreak, Katie found purpose. She built Mom’s Guide to Survive, a nonprofit helping mothers find stability, resources, and support through impossible circumstances. Together, they talk about the broken family court system, the courage it takes to keep showing up, and how one woman’s audacity can spark real change. Connect with our guest: 🤍 Katie, Founder of @amomsguidetosurvive 📊 Participate in the National Family Court Survey to support policy reform: Take the Survey Follow Her Audacity: Instagram Follow Ceci: Instagram Follow Nikki: Instagram