Jackie Faber: Inside My Journey

There are certain concepts in healing that used to infuriate me.“You have to love yourself first.”“Stop outsourcing your safety.”“Let them show you who they are.”At one point in my life, those ideas felt dismissive and invalidating. Not because they were wrong — but because I hadn’t experienced them yet.In this episode, I break down the difference between cognitive understanding and somatic experience — and why so much healing advice creates pushback when your nervous system is still oriented toward survival.We explore:Why intellectualizing healing can only take you so farThe shift from outward orientation (securing safety through others) to inward orientation (self-holding)Why “self-love” means something completely different depending on your nervous system stateHow the same advice can feel threatening in one stage — and peaceful in anotherYou cannot think your way into inward orientation.You regulate your way into it.And once it lands in your body, the same concepts that once felt invalidating finally make sense.www.findingauthenticity.ca/welcomeself love, nervous system regulation, trauma healing, somatic healing, emotional healing, healing journey, self healing, nervous system healing, emotional regulation, trauma recovery, self worth, personal growth, attachment healing, somatic therapy, mental health podcast, self trust, inner healing, embodiment, codependency healing, relationship healing

Love is one of the most talked about — and most misunderstood — concepts in spirituality.Many of us were raised believing love is something we earn, perform for, or receive from other people. Then, if we begin a healing or spiritual journey, we often swing to the opposite extreme and learn that love is something we source from within.But what if both perspectives are incomplete?In this episode, I explore the evolution of love through three stages:• Love as something we seek from others• Love as an internal state• Love as something that moves between peopleI share a personal relational experience that revealed how the concept of unconditional love can sometimes become abstract — and why spirituality often misses the lived, human experience of love inside relationships.We explore the idea of embodied love — where love is not just a state you hold internally, but something that becomes alive through mutuality, participation, responsibility, and shared relational presence.This conversation challenges the idea that love only exists as acceptance or detachment and invites a deeper understanding of how love actually lives, moves, and evolves between two people.If you've ever struggled to reconcile spiritual concepts of love with real human relationships, this episode is for you.Visit my work: www.findingauthenticity.caunconditional love, embodied love, conscious relationships, trauma and relationships, nervous system and relationships, spiritual bypassing in relationships, self sourced love, emotional healing, relationship patterns, mutuality in relationships, embodiment in relationships, love as participation

Loneliness isn’t always a sign that something is wrong.In this episode, I share a personal experience of moving through loneliness that wasn’t rooted in insecurity, dysregulation, or fear — but in embodiment.After a year of deep spiritual exploration, nervous system work, and identity shifts, I began to notice something unexpected: my human had been quietly overlooked. This episode explores how many spiritual and healing frameworks unintentionally bypass human emotion, reframing feelings like loneliness as ego, attachment, or something to transcend.I talk about the early stages of healing, when heightened awareness can feel isolating, the difference between protection and embodiment, and how loneliness can be information pointing toward a life that no longer matches your inner truth.If you’ve ever felt disconnected while doing “everything right” in your healing journey, this conversation offers a grounded reframe.Healing isn’t just about awakening the soul — it’s also about staying in relationship with the human.Explore my work: www.findingauthenticity.caembodiment, loneliness, healing journey, spiritual bypassing, nervous system regulation, authenticity, emotional healing, trauma healing, spiritual awakening, human and soul integration, self awareness, personal growth

Listener note: This episode discusses abuse, trauma identity, and victim consciousness. Please listen at your own pace.This episode explores a difficult and nuanced insight: how victim consciousness can quietly turn into self-righteous narcissism — even within healing spaces.Before diving in, I want to be clear: this conversation is not about denying abuse, minimizing harm, or blaming victims. Abuse is real. Harm is real. And every stage of healing is valid.In this episode, I share a lived experience that revealed how trauma identity, threat detection, and black-and-white thinking can subtly shape perception — and how moral superiority can emerge as a survival strategy when safety is still outsourced.We explore themes such as impact versus intent, projection, self-validation, narcissism as a survival state, and the challenge of holding duality without collapsing into judgment.This is not an easy episode — and it isn’t meant to be. It’s an invitation to reflect on where identity may still be organized around victimhood, and what becomes possible when self-authorship and inner validation begin to take root.If this episode feels activating, you’re not wrong and you’re not behind. Triggers often point to edges that are ready to be explored — when and if you choose.Thanks for listening.Explore my work: www.findingauthenticity.ca

I almost didn’t record this.Not because I didn’t have the outline or the plan — but because starting felt vulnerable in a way I couldn’t logic my way out of.In this first episode, I share why beginning this podcast was difficult, what finally moved me to press record, and the deeper purpose behind this series.This podcast explores healing, trauma, nervous system regulation, personal sovereignty, and spiritual alignment — not as concepts, but as lived experience.Season 1 follows my journey of moving beyond trauma identity, reclaiming self-authorship, understanding energy and perception, and learning how to stop performing healing in order to start living in alignment.This isn’t a polished teaching or a promise of answers.It’s the beginning of a walk — grounded in presence, honesty, and embodiment.Thanks for being here at the beginning.Learn more about my work at: www.findingauthenticity.ca