Lost the good things I had . I too like you had an amazing collection of some amazing things but they too died . I lost them . I lost faith in myself .... I lost it all . I lost faith in my capacity my capability and possibly what not . I feel sleepy all the time with this thought that what if I could stay awake . . Now that I can’t and I couldn’t . Seems this world is a boring place to see through . Let me go to heaven alone because all my life I have been friends with bad people they won’t be there . Assure pretty assure I am ... just the assure that my self confidence is no where to be seen is enough for them to be happy . I too was happy someday where I wouldn’t feel heaviness in my chest . Where I won’t feel something has got stuck in my throat . Now that things aren’t fine somebody tell my bad friends they made ‘ they won . I am shattered within .... somebody tell the people I used to be friends with . I am hollow .... I am hollow ....