An honest conversation about what 12 years of perimenopause has been like. Episode 8: Perimenopause & The Decade of Rage — a no-holds-barred, deeply personal and trauma-informed look at what really happens when women hit their 30s, 40s, and 50s. Host Amanda shares her raw, unfiltered experience navigating over a decade of perimenopause, busting medical myths, confronting historical misogyny in women’s healthcare, and spotlighting the overlooked emotional, hormonal, and spiritual impacts of this massive life transition. In this episode, you’ll hear: Why perimenopause often starts way earlier than you think The truth about the “decade of rage” nobody talks about How trauma, undiagnosed neurodivergence, and hormone shifts collide Why gaslighting by medical professionals makes it worse What every woman deserves to know—and why it’s never “just in your head” Amanda also shares insights from her training as a trauma-informed coach, how to find a therapist who actually listens, and why it’s okay to scream, shift, change, and reclaim your damn life. Trigger Warning: This episode contains adult language, mentions of substance use, and references to trauma, including medical gaslighting. Not medical advice. For mature audiences. Topics: perimenopause podcast, menopause symptoms, women’s rage, hormone imbalance, trauma-informed therapy, medical gaslighting, midlife awakening, ADHD in women, menopause mental health, neurodivergence and hormones, healing after trauma, dysregulation, nervous system support, therapy journey, aging women podcast, women's health
You thought a fist could make me stay, That fear could shape what I would say. But I took the hit and kept my spine, Now watch me rise, bitch got outta line. You slammed the door, thought you were king, But only cowards do that kind of thing. Your strength was fake, all bark, no bite— I packed my rage and lit the night. **Chorus** I got louder when you tried to hush, Stood taller in the silent crush. You broke the mirror, but not my mind— You lost control when I declined. You called me crazy, called me wild, But I’m not your pet, not your child. I walked away and that was fine— Bitch got free, bitch got outta line. You threw words like knives to skin, But my fire burned too bright to dim. You called it love, I saw the trap, Danced through the ashes, never looked back. **Chorus** I got louder when you tried to hush, Stood taller in the silent crush. You broke the mirror, but not my mind— You lost control when I declined. You called me crazy, called me wild, But I’m not your pet, not your child. I walked away and that was fine— Bitch got free, bitch got outta line. **Bridge** So here’s to every scream you feared, To every bruise that disappeared. I wear my scars like medals now— You lost me when you showed me how. **Final Chorus** I got louder when you tried to hush, Stood taller in the silent crush. You broke the mirror, but not my mind— You lost control when I declined. You thought you'd win by breaking me— But I was never yours to keep. I walked through fire and crossed that line— Bitch got brave, bitch got outta line. **Outro** So next time you raise that hand in pride, Just know who ran and who survived. I’m not the one who lost their spine— You’re the bitch who got outta line. Yeah you're the bitch, who got outta line (few chords of outro music)
A former insider exposes five years inside a toxic spiritual company using cult tactics, gaslighting, dark psychology, and claims of fake energy healing machines. From love bombing and manipulation to misogyny and the discard, this raw personal account reveals how trauma bonding, fake angels, and placebo-based services were marketed as salvation. This episode dives deep into spiritual abuse, narcissistic leadership, and the emotional toll of working inside a narcissistic organization disguised as healing. Perfect for listeners recovering from cults, MLMs, religious trauma, and New Age manipulation. ****** spiritual abuse, cult recovery, fake healing, gaslighting, narcissistic boss, trauma coach, energy scam, New Age cult, spiritual manipulation, workplace trauma, narcissistic abuse, emotional healing, toxic positivity, spiritual gaslighting, dark psychology, placebo effect, invisible energy, false gurus, healing podcast, survivor story
In this episode the conversation continues as Raven & Amanda discuss how difficult relationships affect women's physical health, and the weight changes often associated with marriage and love/limerence. 00:00:00 Content warning 00:00:10 Intro clip 00:01:09 Weight gain/weight loss and the correlation between health and happiness. 00:6:30 Partner rejection, and the transactional nature of how men often participate in relationships. 00:8:25 Codependency, and learning how to give and receive in a healthy way. 00:9:35 Marriage: The long con with negative ROI. 00:11:45 Women as property: Why do our fathers need to "give us away"? 00:15:00 The magical power of the beauty of women. The exhaustion of pleasing men with our appearance. 00:16:28 An awkward dolphin tangent. 00:20:45 Raven calls out middle aged white men. 00:21:40 What we do with our hair... is none of your business. 00:24:21 More on pink hair (from intro) The religious Republican right whining about pink hair/how to deter creeps from hitting on you.
In this episode, the conversation continues, as Raven and Amanda discuss the toxic culture we live in, women as agents of the patriarch, and how religious cultural expectations are leading to violence toward women. 00:00 Intro clip + explicit content warning. 00:44 Being controlled with the threat of losing your children and a message from Raven to those who resort to this type of control. 02:00 Codependents and addicts, "I believed I could change anyone." 04:00 Can we please talk about alcohol and our alcoholic society? 07:40 Losing friends when you heal and the challenge of setting new boundaries with old friends. 09:30 Who's bringing home the bacon? 12:25 Are you the narcissist's litmus test? Empowered women triggering men. 14:30 Women in entertainment, Women of Hip Hop Documentary 16:00 They stay closeted, we get beaten. The systems of oppression that lead to women being impoverished. 24:00 PTA moms and playground politics. 26:30 The gaslighting of Christian values. Who really benefits, and why are we so afraid of women who enjoy their bodies? 37:00 The big D flow state. 41:00 The conditions that lead to choosing a second violent partner. To request #traumacoaching by Amanda, please visit https://linktr.ee/bitchgotoutofline, or find the link on our various social media channels. Amanda's books can be found on Amazon, and several chapters of her books are available FREE on YouTube. Amanda has also published a nervous system management app, Somatics Workshop, available exclusively on iTunes. Please support our work by following, giving us a like or subscribe, where ever you listen, or, simply by tuning in. If you are experiencing domestic violence and need support, please call 800.799.SAFE (7233). This hotline is available 24/7 and provided by the National Domestic Violence Support Hotline. #domesticviolence #love #marriage #relationships #traumacoach #misogyny #feminisim #podcast #violenceagainstwomen #metoo #womensupportingwomen #truthaboutmarriage #womenssexuality #sexuality #humansexuality #stillstraightbook #bithgotoutofline #explicitcontent #explicit Bitch Got Out Of Line, copyright 2024. All rights reserved. Ad from the 80s song: Enjoli (Fragrance commercial) Documentary: Women of Hip Hop total duration 43:17
In this episode Raven & Amanda continue discussing the wildly unrealistic expectations women are held to, the emotional load misalignment in relationships, and the origins of our codependency. 00: Intro clip 1:00 All he needs is a beer, a sandwich and a piece of ass, so DO NOT feed him. 4:20 Cheating and intimidation: they can't please the woman they have so they go find others to disappoint. 7:30 Training the dog (me). How men can lead in a relationship. 9:30 Women supporting women and the culturally shared experience of carrying the emotional load of the family. 10:20 The angry daddy religions and their unrealistic expectations of women. 12:00 Why aren't you eating? The origins of our eating disorders and the value in our physical appearance. 16:30 Bitch gets out of line, at work. (funny) 19:10 Making ourselves smaller. 21:00 Witches, demons, and femicide. 28:00 Marriage changed us, but not the way we expected. 29:00 How codependency is embedded in our religions, culture, and belief systems. Thank you for listening to Bitch got out of line. You can find us on Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, Youtube, and your favorite podcast stations. If you like this content, please like subscribe, and share. To request Raven & Amanda as guests on your podcast, please contact us on any of our various social media channels, or through the contact email on your favorite podcast station. #domesticviolence #love #marriage #relationships #traumacoach #misogyny #feminisim #podcast #violenceagainstwomen #metoo #womensupportingwomen #truthaboutmarriage
In this episode Raven & Amanda discuss early marriage, and what it was like waking up inside of the biggest tale ever told. 00:45 Waking up to the oppression of the institution of marriage, we're done putting up with your sh*t. 2:05 Unromanticizing men. Film "This Changes Everything" 5:25 Raven discusses big D energy 7:45 Two sexless marriages 15:45 They don't know what they have until it's gone. 19:45 The foul temptresses failing at marriage 27:15 Video games & relationships 40:45 Where's my pizza (piece of...)? Media mentioned in this episode: Bunnie & Jelly Roll, podcast Lemonade, Beyonce, album This Changes Everything, film Thank you for listening to Bitch got out of line. You can find us on Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, Youtube, and your favorite podcast stations. If you like this content, please like subscribe, and share. To request Raven & Amanda as guests on your podcast, please contact us on any of our various social media channels, or through the contact email on your favorite podcast station. Correction: Tom Cruise is 5' 9" not 5' 7" :) #domesticviolence #love #marriage #relationships #traumacoach #misogyny #feminisim #podcast
In this episode, Amanda and Raven continue discussing modern dating, domestic violence and the state of relationships in 2024. :00 Disclaimer :09 Preview clip 1:02 Where are the good guys? Dating in 2024. 3:25 Learning about limerence. 5:50 The art of pursuit. 11:55 The journey to liking myself. 15:15 Gray hairs, distinguished men, and smart cookies. 22:50 The danger of getting out of an abusive relationship. 26:50 The abuse and how it escalates over time. 33:50 The history of the hysterectomy. 35:50 Needing vs. wanting men. #domesticviolence #love #marriage #relationships #traumacoach #misogyny #feminisim #podcast
Welcome to the premiere episode of Bitch Got Out of Line, hosts Amanda Bobbitt and Raven Lunatic share how Bitch Got Out Of Line was born, and some of their personal experiences with love, life, men and relationships. #domesticviolence #love #marriage #relationships #traumacoach #misogyny #feminisim #podcast Shownotes: :00 Content Warning :35 May the bridges we burn light our way. 3:10 Living outside the lines & the inspiration for "Bitch Got Out Of Line" 9:00 Relationship expectations, emotional labor, and the dynamics of domestic violence. 22:00 Is *orn making men better in bed? 34:00 Raven describes big-d energy.
In this great interview, Penelope Camarata shares how she went from being an EMS Dispatcher to now supporting EMS and First Responders in processing their trauma. Penelope has an upcoming book and is now working on continuing education programs for EMS and First Responders. Sensitive Content warning: this episode discusses suicide and other subjects that may be difficult for sensitive viewers. Viewer discretion is advised. #firstresponders #CPTSD #PTSD #mentalhealth #EMT #fireandrescue #HealingHeroes #ResilientMinds #PTSDWarriors #MentalWellnessMatters #TraumaRecovery #SupportingFirstResponders #MindBodyHealing #EmotionalResilience #BreakingTheStigma #MentalHealthAwareness #EMS #FirstResponders #MentalHealth #Trauma #traumainformedcare #traumainformed #mentalhealthmatters #ComplexPTSD You can find Penelope at: Find her at https://heal.me/ by searching Philadelphia PA, First Responder or by her name, Penelope Camarata. Facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/internalconsciousness by email: emsfitness323@gmail.com For speaking engagements: https://speakerhub.com/speaker/penelope-camarata Website: https://internal-consciousness.ueniweb.com/ Twitter: https://twitter.com/emsfitness323 0:00 Introduction & how Penelope got into this type of coaching. 4:00 Getting back to the root cause of trauma and Penelope's coaching methods. 11:00 Social co-regulation and the importance of being around safe people. 12:30 Dysregulating and unsafe therapy experiences. 14:30 Continuing Education for First Responders in PA. 17:00 Incorporating energy healing and creating safety for the coaching client. Training for leadership. 25:00 Stigmas around getting mental health care. Healing is possible but we should not be doing it alone. Codependency and hypervigilance/hyperindependence and the trap of our false beliefs without outside input. 38:00 The risk of suicide for EMS and First Responders, suffering in silence, and how suicide affects those who are left behind. 48:00 Penelope's upcoming projects and her new book for first responders. 52:00 This is all normal and it can get better! 55:00 Final thoughts, Penelope's contact info, and coaching programs. To reach Maria for Interview Requests, Podcast Appearances, etc. please visit https://mariacolomy.com/ or http://theymightbetoxic.com/.
In this episode, I have a conversation with powerhouse Jena Michelle, who experienced a kundalini awakening as a fundamentalist Christian. Jena Michelle was already trauma-informed when she was hospitalized against her will, by a healthcare system that is NOT trauma-informed. She's now navigating a new reality, and she's here to share her challenges, her hopes and dreams, and her post-traumatic growth. 0:00 Pointing out a problem means you become the problem, and how to simply walk among the problems, instead of trying to change and fix them. Jena Michelle's post-traumatic growth after being held in hospital against her will. Trauma, polyvagal theory, exploring consciousness. 4:30 non-duality, how the Course In Miracles changes your mindset, negative self-talk, failures in biohacking trauma. Original sin. 8:30 processing anger and rage during grief. 10:30 The truth of the nervous system: the nervous system does not lie. 13:30 Toxic positivity in the spiritual community, physical pain and depression, John Sarno's book the Divided Mind 23:30 blaming the neurodivergent instead of helping them. 36:30 religion can prevent us from experiencing god. 32:30 the psychosis of jesus, pysical violence, spankings, parental rage, 36:30 The shadow is as good as the gift. perimenopause and trauma, how women differ from men, neurologically, starting at puberty, normalizing the energy fluctuations, living outside off time. 43:30 People being "concerned" 46:30 Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*uck 47:30 Healing through telling your truth. Self-abandonment and choosing yourself. The strength of sensitivity. 51:30 Highly sensitive, autistic, ADHD or just trauma? 57:30 Using Human design in the healing process 59:30 Normalizing trauma and nervous system dysregulation and living with trauma within the context of our old belief systems. 01:15:30 Blaming demons, navigating losing relationships as you heal and grow. Deconstructing your own false beliefs, deconstructing religion. Our need for community and social co-regulation. 01:28:30 The mass exodus from religion, the real awakening. #metoo #ustoo 01:40:30 Barbie movie, feminism, our need for feminist men, and for safe men 01:45:30 God created everything, even the things you don't like. The strange fuckery that is in the bible, a few moments of blasphemy. 01:48:30 The broken system, not trauma-informed. 01:59:00 Jena Michelle's contact info - @iamjenamichelle @reallifewholelife on Tiktok
In this episode of Healing Matters I will share how I went from thinking therapy was total BS, to absolutely loving it, and loving my therapist, Dr. Camea Peca. See her here, Calming the Dragon: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WL-cjBacU9E :18 I'm never going to therapy! :35 I was barely functioning from a compound grief when I tried to begin therapy. 2:00 My first experience with therapy during a trauma response. 3:00 Why CBT did not work well for me. 4:35 Somatic experience. 6:40 Moving emotions through writing. 8:00 Trying again, taking the Trauma-Informed approach.
Life, death, healing, grace and everything in between. In this episode, Maria and guest Joey Ihly discuss spirituality, healing, forgiveness, grace, psychedelic experiences, ketamine therapy and more. #healingjourney #mentalhealth #wellness #biohacking #mediation 00: Introduction, guest Joey Ihly, 1:30 2:52 Healing the mind, body, and spirit 4:15 Productive stress vs. external stress, avoiding boredom 9:45 Ketamine therapy update 12:30 Joey's MDMA experience 20:30 Incorporating meditation and practices to support neuroplasticity 27:15 Hawkin's scale of consciousness 29:39 Choosing to be grateful even when things are not perfect. 31:30 Stuck in my story, minimizing my success, the impact we have on others even when we are not intending to. 34:30 Generational poverty consciousness. 40:30 Not enoughness, addiction to drama, comfort in familiarity, creating problems where they don't exist. 46:30 Law of attraction, the quantum universe, past lives, becoming more you. 53:00 The LSD God Experience, psychedelics in the healing journey, 1:08:45 Finding grace, trusting the process 1:13:45 True alchemy, transforming our pain into healing, radical forgiveness. 1:20:30 Prebirth contracts 1:25:00 Grief and grieving, the Audrey Hale Nashville school shooting, ascending levels of consciousness, choosing peace by trusting in a power greater than ourselves. 1:34:00 When to stop fixing yourself. The power of grace and acceptance. 144:10 Beginning of the end of the episode, with further discussion. 145:00 Protocol versus practice, somatic responses to emotional issues, hypervigilance 150:00 Joey attending Dr. Joe Dispenza's week-long retreat in Denver. 2:06:00 What if you're already there? 2:08:00 Enlightenment and not giving a f*ck. 2:10:30 The athiest TicTok debater's confidence (look him up), "I remember my first beer." 2:16:00 Forgetting who we are in the veiled human experience, god's insane sense of humor. 2:19:00 The importance of belly laughs and not taking it too seriously. 2:21:00 Actual belly laughs. 02:27:00 Keeping the faith, beleiving in this or better, turning off the news, true crime and how it relates to our trauma, the algorithm, waking up in the dream. Books, Resources and Tools Mentioned In This Episode Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*ck, Mark Manson https://amzn.to/46slmfP Healing Developmental Trauma, How Early Trauma Affects Self-Regulation, Self-Image, and the Capacity for Relationship by Laurence Heller, Tom Perkins, et al, https://amzn.to/3pm8lUE Huberman Labs Podcast Erasing Fears & Traumas Based on the Modern Neuroscience of Fear | Huberman Lab Podcast #49 Mel Robbins Podcast https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OAyVovOO3-c&ab_channel=MelRobbins Books by Dr. Joe Dispenza, https://amzn.to/44voqGp Timothy Schultz Lottery Winners Podcast: https://www.youtube.com/@TimothySchultz/ Joyous, legal Ketamine Microdosing: https://www.joyous.team/
First, I refer to Audrey as her, because she was a her when I knew her, and she only went by Audrey when I knew her, which was in 2017 for 2 semesters at Nossi College of Art. :27 Why was I called for Interviews in the Audrey Hale/Aiden Hale case. 2:00 How and how long I knew Audrey Hale. We had a strictly teacher/student relationship. 4:40 It wasn't demons, it was a mentally ill person did this. People who are in their right minds do not kill or harm others. 6:00 What I observed on her social media over the past year and what I saw of her in the short period she was in my classes. 9:30 Glorifying guns, taking 3 professional courses, she planned. 10:00 Why do we tell people that they're "an abomination"? 10:30 Why does a certain group of people believe A Course In Miracles is "evil" when it's really a lesson in forgiving the world (ps. #wwjd I think that's what Jesus did right?)? 11:00 Did god create murderers? Did god create people with mental health issues? 12:40 Witch hunts never solve anything, they create more hatefulness. We all need to do better. I really did not know a ton. If you have questions feel free to #AMA on Reddit. https://www.reddit.com/r/masskillers I will not be taking comments on YouTube.
This week on the podcast, Self Sabotage & Mindfulness Coach Jehan Sattaur of the Boundless Authenticity Podcast joins me to discuss managing the body and nervous system when healing trauma. Please visit Jehan Sattaur @jehansattaur for information on Jehan's Coaching programs. :30 Post-traumatic growth. Book: Antifragile: https://www.audible.com/pd/Antifragile-Audiobook/B009PRJ6BS The story we tell ourselves about what is happening. A Course In Miracles: I am never upset for the reason I think. 5:00 Childhood trauma showing up in adulthood. 11:12 Early mistakes in healing our adult selves, expecting immediate results. 14:00 "Having fun" as a trauma response, being the party girl. 15:00 Jehan presents a meditation to downregulate the nervous system. #narcissism #toxicrelationships #emotionalabuse #emotionalintelligence #podcast #relationships #spirituality #trauma #nervoussystem #cptst #complexptsd #codependency #healingjourney To learn more, or to buy the book, visit http://theymightbetoxic.com/ To connect with Jehan, please visit https://jehansattaur.com/ and find him on Instagram @jehansattaur.
This week on the podcast, Self Sabotage & Mindfulness Coach Jehan Sattaur of the Boundless Authenticity Podcast joins me to discuss managing the body and nervous system when healing trauma. Please visit Jehan Sattaur @jehansattaur for information on Jehan's Coaching programs. :35 When I hit the spirituality wall and forgot to address the nervous system and physical aspect of healing my trauma. Why spirituality can fail when it comes to healing trauma. Self-reflection during the pandemic, doing the work in solitude. Leveling the playing field through technology. Feminine and masculine energy. 13:00 Nervous system regulation, Oprah's book "What Happened To You" 18:40 What is a trauma? Adverse Childhood Experiences https://www.cdc.gov/violenceprevention/aces/index.html Repeating behaviors, self-sabotage, completion of patterns. 24:50 food additives and neurotoxicity, caffeine, sugar, etc. Please visit Jehan Sattaur @jehansattaur for information on Jehan's Coaching programs. 28:00 Fight, flight, freeze, fawn, numb, dysregulation, disassociation. Dealing with trauma. Rejection and resentment. Regulation tip: when you are triggered, just tell yourself "I'm having a response right now." Join us next week for part 2. #narcissism #toxicrelationships #emotionalabuse #emotionalintelligence #podcast #relationships #spirituality #trauma #nervoussystem #cptst #complexptsd #codependency #healingjourney To learn more, or to buy the book, visit http://theymightbetoxic.com/ To connect with Jehan, please visit https://jehansattaur.com/ and find him on Instagram @jehansattaur.
In this episode, we continue the conversation from last week. Special guest, Evie Marie joins They Might Be Toxic for some laughs about toxic relationships and dating horror stories. https://www.tiktok.com/@evmariexo?lang=en :00 Being too rigid, when we become the toxic party, and time we were toxic in relationships: overgeneralizations and avoidance patterns. 8:00 can we stop with the creepy texting, porn and ridiculous expectations? Explicit content, more hilarious horror stories. 21:00 Awkward caressing cringe. #narcissism #toxicrelationships #emotionalabuse #emotionalintelligence #podcast #relationships #dating #cptst #complexptsd #codependency To learn more, or to buy the book, visit http://theymightbetoxic.com/
In this episode, we continue the conversation from last week. :00 Dating nightmare #2 When he asks, "Would you rather be raped or murdered?" 5:00 Discerning our level of safety 8:00 Early communications, getting therapy. Maria's dating swipe nightmare #2 11:30 learning about trauma, and dealing with it before you date. How and why I wrote my book "You're not Triggered, You're Dysregulated" 16:05 Dating nightmare #3 - 5th date, a workout plan, "We can fix this", NEGging. 27:50 Non-negotiables in dating #narcissism #toxicrelationships #emotionalabuse #emotionalintelligence #podcast #relationships #dating #cptst #complexptsd #codependency To learn more, or to buy the book, visit http://theymightbetoxic.com/
Special guest, Evie Marie joins They Might Be Toxic for some laughs about toxic relationships and dating horror stories. https://www.tiktok.com/@evmariexo?lang=en :00 Introduction, turning 30, false expectations in relationships, RomCom expectations, who really created our toxic dating standards? 6:30 Tinder, hinge, cringe. Toxic dating profiles, the swipe. 11:30 Toxic dating stories: Unintentionally dating a married person. 22:00 Gaslighting, and gaslighting ourselves after a toxic relationship. Women's intuition and trusting our gut feelings. 24:00 A celebrity gaslight story and the bullets we dodge. Next week, we'll continue the discussion. This conversation is comprised of 3 episodes. #narcissism #toxicrelationships #emotionalabuse #emotionalintelligence #podcast #relationships #toxicdating #tinder #hinge #cringe #cptst #complexptsd #codependency #childhoodabuse To learn more, or to buy the book, They Might Be Toxic, by Maria Colomy visit http://theymightbetoxic.com/
:00 Slowing down and being present, calling ourselves lazy for taking a break, negative self-talk. 4:00 quick self-regulation technique - somatic experiencing 12:00 The false belief that we're in control. 20:00 Relativity: you were small when that happened. Forgiving yourself, and allowing yourself to heal and grow. #toxicrelationships #emotionalabuse #emotionalintelligence #podcast #relationships #narcissism #cptst #complexptsd #codependency #childhoodabuse To learn more, or to buy the book, visit http://theymightbetoxic.com/