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At Deeper Still, Freeing the Abortion Wounded Heart, we're going to be talking about one of the hardest things that so many people face, healing from a past abortion. You'll hear stories from those who have experienced abortion and how they found freedom and healing. You'll learn more about the statistics of abortion, the impact of abortion, the ripple effect of abortion, and more. Regardless if you've had an abortion, or know someone who has, you'll experience the life-changing hope that is available in each episode.
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Savanna got pregnant at age 17. Her boyfriend pressured her to have an abortion, and his parents paid for it. Her mother went with her to the abortion clinic, and so did her boyfriend. The only person who told her not to have an abortion was the woman outside the clinic who was yelling at her and calling her a murderer. She felt trapped and had the abortion. She was forever changed.
Carole's life began to spiral out more out of control with each abortion. Even though she went to counselors for her severe anxiety, alcohol abuse, marital conflict, and anger problems, they did not ask about the possibility of past abortions, and she did not volunteer the information. She felt safe to confide in her AA sponsor and began to get some healing. She got sober and started to develop a growing relationship with Jesus. After some time, she found profound healing through her Deeper Still retreat.
Carole grew up with alcoholic parents, and as an adult, she started following in their footsteps. Her first pregnancy ended in abortion after her boyfriend declined to marry her and wanted her to have an abortion. The relationship soon ended. Her second pregnancy also ended in abortion, but she eventually married the father of the baby and had more children with him. However, they also became pregnant with a son who was diagnosed with Down syndrome and some other anomalies. They followed the medical advice to abort the baby. Carole said after that she "felt like a total monster" and a "shell of a person". ***Trigger Warning***
Amanda's abortion at age 14 left her broken, but her brokenness led her to Jesus. She ended up married with five children, but she never forgot her baby lost to abortion. After joining a post-abortion Bible study and then joining the leadership, she knew it was her mission to bring awareness and healing opportunities for others. She attended a Deeper Still retreat and found even deeper healing and now serves on the Mississippi Deeper Still team.
Amanda got into the wrong crowd at school after leaving a Christian school and going to a public school after her parents divorced. At 12, she began dating a 15-year-old. At age 14, she was pregnant. She was taken to an abortion clinic when she was 17 weeks pregnant and was shown a grainy ultrasound picture. The clinic staff told her that it was "only a blob of tissue". She was taken to a late-term abortion clinic but ran from the building in an effort to avoid the abortion and save her baby. The adults around her convinced her to come back in to have the abortion. Her life was forever altered.
After his son's serious illness and ultimate recovery, Matthew couldn't stop thinking about the abortions in his past. A mentor gave him the book by Karen Ellison, "Healing the Hurt that Won't Heal," and Matthew began to intentionally seek healing for his past. He found deep healing for his abortion wounded father's heart at a Deeper Still retreat. What he thought he would always keep secret is now in the light.
At age 18, Matthew's miracle son, Noah, became seriously ill. Matthew and his family were in crisis. This experience created a deep well of grief for Matthew, and he realized he was feeling the tremendous weight of two abortions from his past before he was married to his wife. These memories came flooding back as he had a spiritual encounter before the throne of God.
Matthew and his wife thought they would never have children, but God had a different plan. After the birth of their miracle baby, Noah, Matthew experienced great love for his son, and his life was enriched more than he could ever have expected. He wrote letters to his son several times a year, and when Noah graduated from high school, Matthew gave him the letters- letters full of love and encouragement. Then, Matthew and his wife found out that Noah's health was at great risk. Matthew's journey with God was going to take a deep detour.
Annette went through addiction recovery, but her abortion wounded heart, still had her bound. Then she went to her Deeper Still retreat and received a deeper healing and freedom from her abortion wounded heart. She now serves as a Deeper Still team member, comforting others with the same comfort that she has received from God.
Annette's childhood sexual abuse changed her and made her anxious, depressed, and she began to act out sexually. This culminated in an abortion at age 14, and an abortion which only made things worse and more acting out sexually. This led to two more abortions before she was 16. The abuse and abortions led to years of loss of trust, anger, substance abuse, and parenting struggles. It took decades for her to heal.
Colette was involved with pro-life outreach for many years. As she researched how abortion impacted women, her heart changed from seeing abortion as primarily a political issue to seeing it as a heart issue. She realized all the damage that abortion can do to a woman's body and soul, and her heart was deeply grieved. After years of helping women through post-abortion bible studies, she felt led to help with Deeper Still retreats.
Marlene felt that God was punishing her for her abortion because of the difficulties in her life afterwards. She kept her abortion secret from almost everyone and carried shame and self-condemnation for many years until she started to commit her relationships to the Lord and later found healing through Deeper Still and the healing that continued after the retreat, and a special way that God showed her through His Word that she was redeemed and that she no longer needed to punish herself.
Marlene was a young, new Christian engaged to be married to a future pastor. Her marriage was not healthy, and she ended up leaving the marriage. She began to wander from God and ended up in a relationship, and discovered she was pregnant. She was told that she was probably miscarrying by her physician and had an abortion without confirmation of viability. The abortion led to feelings of worthlessness and secrecy.
After Kennie's abortion at age 18, she later got married and had a daughter, and then discovered she was pregnant with twin boys. She refused to consider abortion at the suggestion of her doctor when one of the twins experienced problems in utero. Although she had a fulfilling life, thoughts of her abortion plagued her. When a missionary told a story of child sacrifice in Africa, memories of her abortion came flooding back, and she knew she needed help. She went through a post-abortion healing study and then realized she needed deeper healing and went to a Deeper Still retreat. She now knows she is forgiven and is free of shame.
Kennie didn't feel safe after being sexually molested by a cousin. She didn't tell anyone. After her parents divorced when she was 13 years old, she was so emotionally shut down that she didn't even feel sad. She became very rebellious and her mother couldn't control her, so she lived with other relatives. She started partying later in high school, which led to clubbing after high school and a pregnancy. Though her boyfriend wanted to marry her, she felt her only way out was abortion. He found out about the abortion later, and she could see the hurt in his eyes. She also hemorrhaged after the abortion, but didn't feel safe going back to the clinic.
Randi had a very traumatic, broken life with three abortions when she attended a Christian Retreat, and she began to get some healing and freedom. She learned about Post-abortion Syndrome through volunteering at a Pregnancy Resource Center. She later went to a Deeper Still retreat and found deeper healing and even received physical healing.
A history of sexual abuse, a legalistic church background, and then her parents' divorce when she was 11 started a lot of trouble in Randi's life. She rebelled as a teenager, though she came back to the Lord as an older teen. A friend persuaded her that abortion was no big deal after Randi's marriage broke up. This led to a slippery slope of bad decisions and a hard heart, substance abuse, unhealthy relationships, and more abortions.
Barb's anger continued years after her abortion. Her children moved out of her house early because she was a self-described "horrible person". She drove off her second husband, which broke her and caused her to cry out to God. Later, she found out about a post-abortion Bible study at a PRC, which brought healing. After that, she found deeper healing at her Deeper Still Retreat.
Barb talks about her abortion at age 18 after she was newly married. She states, "Abortion broke my marriage". They regretted the abortion and tried to move on, but she developed alcoholism, and Barb became very angry. Their relationship became chaotic and violent, and eventually he left and died four years later. They never saw him again. Barb's life continued to be unstable. Even after years of therapy, she still struggled with a lot of anger and instability. She never told her therapist about her abortion.
Dr. Donna Harrison from the American Association of Pro-life Obstetricians and Gynecologists (AAPLOG) discusses the protection a full-term pregnancy (especially the first pregnancy) provides for the breast tissue. She explains the mechanism whereby abortion can leave the breast tissue in an abortion prone state and the importance of careful monitoring for early detection if you have had an abortion in your past.
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