Diary of a Mad Black Man

Cheers to 3 years of podcasting. This has been a journey that I feel so many emotions about ending. I found hope, lost hope and found it again over the past 3 years. In this moment, I still do not have it all together, and honestly, I am not sure if I ever will. However, I am glad that I was able to tell my story. I just hope someone else finds the ability to overcome and find a way to live with their mental health and wellness challenges. I may not be the change that makes a great impact on the world, but I hope to be the spark that ignites a flame of change. I'm tired, still challenged and I do not know what the future holds. I know the best thing for me to do is to end this and move on. Thank you for listening, -Blake

In this diary entry, I was able to have a conversation with my grandmother, my Dads mom to talk about her life, my Dad and family. Not much else I can say here, you just have to listen.

Just what the title says. No description needed. I love you Mom, xoxo

This episode/series was recorded back in July of 2020, during the pandemic. I was able to have my cousin join me to share his story about his life and upbringing. Little did I know when we sat down to record, I would learn so much more about him, his life and his mindset. These diary entries changed our relationship and made us much closer.

This episode/series was recorded back in July of 2020, during the pandemic. I was able to have my cousin join me to share his story about his life and upbringing. Little did I know when we sat down to record, I would learn so much more about him, his life and his mindset. These diary entries changed our relationship and made us much closer.

This episode/series was recorded back in July of 2020, during the pandemic. I was able to have my cousin join me to share his story about his life and upbringing. Little did I know when we sat down to record, I would learn so much more about him, his life and his mindset. These diary entries changed our relationship and made us much closer.

Me and my Auntie Edna have a bond that is similar to the one me and my grandmother had. She get's me. She understands me, and I feel true, unconditional love and support from her. Being able to have her here to share our story together is an honor. I hope this episode brings some healing to other families and relationships.

One of the first people I met was Queen Cole. We connected early in the pandemic while we were both trying to figure out this podcast thing. We have grown and evolved tremendously over past few years and I am very happy one of my final episodes features this dope creative, entrepreneur, and author - Queen Cole! I turned the tables and allowed her to interview me for this episode.

Around the time I wanted to end the podcast, I wanted to find a way to end with bringing a new perspective to my journey. I allowed a few people I met in the podcast space to interview me and Walt was one of the people who showed up! I am super thankful for Walt & I am very thankful I have crossed paths with him.  Wish you continued success bro - Keep that creative confidence thriving.

Latrice is someone who I connected with in Afros & Audio. We met during the pandemic and were finally able to meet in person last year at podcast movement. She is a licensed mental health therapist and I am glad to have her on the podcast. She started her career with counseling with the military and also had a private practice. I am thankful to have had her on the podcast to share space to raise awareness about mental health.

This episode features Chris Colbert, who I met at podcast movement last year. It was incredible to meet someone who was very humble and willing to talk about our experiences, mental health and more. Be sure to check out this website at the link below. .. DCP Entertainment Website Follow me on IG - @Diaryofambm

The first VIP Annual Member to The Black Podcast Club!!!! Jen is the host of Woke by Accident podcast and part of my PodFam -basically, THIS MY POD SISTERRR!!!!!  Since the podcast is coming to an end, I decided to allow some of my PodFam to interview me on the show, to provide more insight into me, my podcast journey, where I'm going and share some of my final episodes with my PODFAM! Be sure to check out Woke By Accident Podcast, streaming everywhere you listen to podcasts!

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Nearly at the midway mark of the final season, in this diary entry, I recognize that I've gained community, life-long friends, & the necessary support to start thriving. Diary of a Mad Black Man is coming to an end. This podcast and unexpected creative journey has been healing, therapeutic, and completely changed my life. I love myself unconditionally now and I also have to admit medication has helped. I am ready to focus on something new, something different.  I'm glad that I am starting to live life on my own terms. Yes an end to a chapter is here, but a new chapter is beginning. Learn more: diaryofamadblackman.com

This diary entry is a deep reflection on the idea of "Letting go of the pain" I recorded on February 7th 2022. So this episode is really a reflection on my life from October/November 2021 - February 2022.   In this vulnerable, raw diary entry, I was realizing I need to truly let go of the pain from my past, the pain that I carry and accept what is. The pain of my grandmother no loner being here... I reflected on this idea of letting go of who I thought I was supposed to be and accepted who I am. Letting go of the need to control the world around me and focusing on a controlled environment. More Info: diaryofamadblackman.com 

Hey what’s good! Hope this podcast finds you well. I just wanted to do something different, especially because I’m off schedule! I recorded this podcast directly from my phone, for the first time ever! A quick update on my world and how things are unfolding. Hope you find some encouragement and motivation through me story.

The first birthday without tears where I did not cry because I missed my grandmother. Its a weird feeling because I am questioning myself, why I didn't cry.  I believe the pain of her death and absence on earth is not as severe as it once was. I still miss her a lot and its crazy its been 6 years and I finally feel ok talking about. I can finally have vivid thoughts & conversations about her without getting extremely emotional. This process took over half a decade, and the grieving process isn't linear. ITs been one helluva journey and Im glad to have healed to this point.

Season 7 is Finally HERE! I am excited to get back to podcasting again with my new season. Just like every season before, i get more honest, transparent and vulnerable than before. Being that this is potentially my final season of the podcast, I am not holding back anything and my story is going to be told. I have been challenged with so much mental anguish due to the mental health and wellness challenges I have faced in life that I feel this is my time to really dig deeper into my story, my healing and become more intentional with creating the lifestyle I want to live.

What's up! In today's diary entry, I give you all an update on my mental health journey with medication after 9 weeks of taking Lexapro; a daily medication for depression and anxiety. After listening, you'll have a better understanding of why its important to put yourself first and believe in you; trusting and believe that everything will be alright. It can be tough to make decisions in life that you NEED to do, especially when they are not what you WANT to do.  Recently I have had to make decisions that are best for my mental health, although I did not want to make them deep down inside. As important as money is to my life and mental wellness, my mental wellness still takes a priority over money and anything else. It's literarily a matter of life or death for me if I don't. Its the end of 2021 and I feel like I'm still processing 2020 in many ways but if you listen to this episode, you will know why this is the final episode for season 6 and I will be taking hard break from podcasting for some time.  All I can say now is I will be back with new episodes sometime in the future.  I hope you would follow/subscribe to my podcast here to know when I return.  Be blessed, be kind, and remember, love involves action... especially self love. diaryofamadblackman.com

Hey Everyone! Welcome back to another great diary entry. A few major developments have happened since I recorded and released the previous episode. This has caused me to change a few things around in the production schedule however, we are not stopping!  I just wanted to tap in with you all briefly as I continue to change and develop things moving forward. More importantly I have been healing in a different space, which has been very refreshing lately. I am entering a new chapter, and it is being further solidified, it's all about me. Until the next diary entry, be blessed, be safe and spread love. -- Check out my website below for more information on where to find me and my podcast in the social media world. www.diaryofamadblackman.com Email: blake@theblackpodcastclub.com