FREE YOURSELF...MY JOURNEY

  Maybe, they don't tell you about what to expect on your personal journey with cancer. All because in actuality... it is a very unique and extremely personal journey. We never could get the extreme fatigue under control. Cancer fatigue isn't like normal fatigue. There isn't a pill or quick fix. There isn't a fix at all.  You just continue to sleep more and more often. There was never a miracle pill or food to gain weight. Or keep your current weight under control. Cancer will always take center chair at the table. People will always fear death, when it's not their death. Don't expect otherwise. I wish, I knew the half of what to anticipate or expect. The longer you push a tired body. The harder it becomes to continue fighting. Sleep isn't an option anymore. It is a requirement and that is where... I have pretty much been over the past few weeks. Sleeping.  Thank you for all the birthday sentiments, gifts and even just to say, "Hi!" Halloween was a blur as I slept right through it. Only a mere security cam video with the laughter of children in the distance. I was however, able to enjoy a very nice birthday. Making up for years of what birthdays should be... memorable. God must had been listening this year. Because all I asked for was some snow.  I will catch up on the rest later... after I get some rest. 🎈🎂🐶🐶🙋‍♀️🙋🎃 Free Yourself...My Journey freeyourselfmyjourney@yahoo.com  

  Is this the 3rd Halloween in a row where it has been incredibly rainy, wet and blah for the kiddies? I'm still ALL FOR welcoming an Adult Trick or Treat holiday in October! Candy, candles, clothing, office supplies... you name it! Adulting in my opinion, requires some fun to still be part of one's life. The big kid's version of Halloween at it's finest! I've been working on new recipes for T, and his daughter's food truck. Possibly... also a new theme! However, for now here are a few newbie creations during my own cancer/ORS cravings. Smoreos👇 FT Toasted PB Sandwich👇 They were WELL received! M🍫😋🌶🥵🌮 Free Yourself...My Journey freeyourselfmyjourney@yahoo.com  

  Last night it was the traditional... "It's The Great Pumpkin🎃Charlie Brown!" Tonight will be carving and decorating pumpkins. Or... Maybe even instead, this rainy morning? You just go with how you feel and make sure it's FUN during ALL the upcoming holidays☺️ 🎃🎃👻🎃🎃 Free Yourself...My Journey freeyourselfmyjourney@yahoo.com   

  When you have those who walk beside you during the journey... The suffering becomes something that you endure, together.  They quickly scrambled to get all my prescriptions maxed out, if all possible. I still have no word or letter as promised on insurance. I assume next month, we find out the hard way. The individual who started all the false rumors. Then had others attempting to run with it over the years, causing me a great deal of problems. Not to mention, an overwhelming amount of stress. I had that conversation of the inevitable, face-to-face. They couldn't run from the truth, a diagnosis looking straight at them. Rule of life? Never listen to one-sided stories... without knowing the other side. Especially when there is truth to be had, that you have yet to see or understand. *** Free Yourself...My Journey freeyourselfmyjourney@yahoo.com  

  Narcissistic repetition behavior from the narc often focuses on the cyclical nature of the abuse. The narcissist's lack of accountability, and the victim's struggle to escape. A common theme is the expectation that past hurts should be forgotten without change, leading to the repetition of painful patterns, as seen in quotes like, "Narcissists expect everything to go back to normal, as if their actions left no scars" and "They want peace without accountability. Forgiveness without change. 🗣😵🥶🤯 Free Yourself...My Journey freeyourselfmyjourney@yahoo.com  

  *Podcast correction-Pessimistic, not Optimistic *** Even while not feeling well. Still try to incorporate the things that make you happy. On your good days, enjoy them to the best of your ability! Cancer will make you fight like never before... doing everything to help get you through the toughest of days. Yet, I remember when the good days...lasted more than 24 or even 48-hours. Cancer pain is the toughest pain to treat. That constant pain goes absolutely nowhere, but worse. I used my time over the years, during my good days, to create memories. Even if you realize some times it means pushing yourself. For me, it was always worth embracing those good, positive moments. The path of progression with cancer is as real as it gets. However, no one wants to be in pain either. The crazy sleep or lack of. Not being able to eat the things that once you used to crave. It really puts life into perspective. As well being aware of who is or isn't around you. THAT is MOST IMPORTANT. Life truly goes by in an instant! What really matters most is all that happiness you created for yourself and your own family of your choosing. It will help you in remembering how hard you fought.. for so long. Amen. 👏❤️🙂 Free Yourself...My Journey freeyourselfmyjourney@yahoo.com  

  You can't go back. You can only go forward. It's strange how death, can make you realize that what is behind you... Will never be again. Sad reality, isn't it?. 🌻❤️🌻❤️🌻❤️🌻 Free Yourself...My Journey freeyourselfmyjourney@yahoo.com   

  Undoing the lies... for the liars. Be thankful, if you were not one who got fooled... by the fools. 🔎💡🔍 Free Yourself...My Journey freeyourselfmyjourney@yahoo.com  

  Finally! Over 3 more hours on the phone this morning, making sure the rest of the mess is cleared up. The not-so-great, lack of "United" States was already a mess... now the continued government shutdown, has only made things a far BIGGER mess. Get ready for housing in 2026 to be split between 50/50... *Residential housing *Residential vehicle/house on 4 wheels #Sad Reality 🏠🦧🚗 Free Yourself...My Journey freeyourselfmyjourney@yahoo.com  

  Truth. 🔎💡🔍 Free Yourself...My Journey freeyourselfmyjourney@yahoo.com  

  In some parts... aspects are true. In others... I don't think anyone would understand, unless running a marathon in my shoes for a lifetime. I'm thankful to still get out and enjoy life. The best of my abilities.  I'm glad to have lived life as my younger self... to the absolute FULLEST. 🍂🍁🍂🍁 Free Yourself...My Journey freeyourselfmyjourney@yahoo.com  

  Maybe getting the last of emotions out now... Will make for a better upcoming holiday season? Why, anger? As the last emotion?... 🤔🎄🍜 Free Yourself...My Journey freeyourselfmyjourney@yahoo.com  

  In order to know how to address your parents who want to continue watching, caring for their grandchild, grandchildren can be a tricky task. A challenge or sometimes a great feat! Especially when met with feelings of hurt by the grandparent, grandparents. All because it's time for the child or children to come home. You must set clear boundaries by first expressing your wants, needs and most importantly, your feelings when it comes to your child or children. You must also express to the grandparents that a child or children's stay is not a permanent one. You should as well address their feelings and insecurities, and work on a plan for future visits that satisfies everyone.  Many adults, don't do well when it comes to aging. It's far better to blend in with the younger counterparts... than to be the older, odd ones out. Over-stepping boundaries as a grandparent or grandparents, can end up causing It's own host of family problems. Dysfunction. 🤷‍♂️***🧓👵 Free Yourself...My Journey freeyourselfmyjourney@yahoo.com  

  Finally... Watching years, when there was a bit of some normalcy around the holidays. When home... Felt like, home. The love that welcomed you. Having that taken away by both of you is a feeling that honestly... never leaves you. There will always be triggers, and that is your right, and time to feel. The same holiday decorations and trees that every year... I looked forward to decorating. Are now still sitting in boxes, because that same feeling is no longer. Etched forever in time, found among VHS tapes. 🎄💔🎄😞🎄 Free Yourself...My Journey freeyourselfmyjourney@yahoo.com  

  How can you go into foreclosure on a 0 balance?👇 Only in this crazy place that seems fitting for mere zombies!. I remember almost 2 decades ago.. when my birth parents would stop by during the first of autumn with a huge pot of mums. Those were the days, last of days... I remember of normalcy. Finding these during the week brought back those days. If you don't understand, what I am... or had went through. Then it's easy, don't judge. I have every right to feel every emotion from going on 17 years of blank memories. Happy memories. 👏👏👏👏 Free Yourself...My Journey freeyourselfmyjourney@yahoo.com  

  Veterinarian Groups/Hospitals/Specialized Care *** Invoices contain information about procedures, treatments, and costs, which are part of your pet's medical record. Therefore, they fall under the same rules of confidentiality as other patient information.  Get consent first and foremost! 👏✔️👏 Free Yourself...My Journey freeyourselfmyjourney@yahoo.com  

  Christmas in December🎄? I'm just getting around to enjoying all the colorful fall leaves before they are gone. I remember when the wildflowers/deer foliage was just underway... a mere 'small' area of the backyard. Now it's been a yearly feeding ground for all the deer and plenty of beautiful butterflies. 🦋💜🦋💛🦋 Free Yourself...My Journey freeyourselfmyjourney@yahoo.com  

  Empaths often face a painful recovery period when they recognize the toll that it has taken on their psyche. It is often even more painful when an empath recognizes that they have been played by someone, whether it is a well-meaning friend or someone else who has taken advantage of them, regardless of intent. 🗣🤔💡 Free Yourself...My Journey freeyourselfmyjourney@yahoo.com  

  Confronting Holiday Trauma Triggers: Time spent with friends or family you rarely see, or visiting locations tied to trauma may evoke challenging memories from the past. Additionally, Some holiday environments, with festive decorations and specific rituals, can act as triggers for traumatic memories. The photo I drew back in May... regarding the woman, with a message👇 🎄🎄🎄 Free Yourself...My Journey freeyourselfmyjourney@yahoo.com  

  It's incredibly important in this time, era to know the difference between... *NEED help *Getting by *Scamming/Conning *** Free Yourself...My Journey freeyourselfmyjourney@yahoo.com