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Welcome to Healed-ish! A podcast about the messy, beautiful, and sometimes insane process of healing. Each week, host Jubilee Dawn (@jubileedawns) sits down with survivors of betrayal, religious trauma, catfishing, toxic relationships, and more to unpack the chaos and growth that comes with starting over. These are the stories people don’t always tell — honest, raw, a little funny, and fully human.
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In this episode of Healed-ish, Cherie talks about growing up in an ultra-strict Christian home where she was homeschooled with curriculum that rewrote history, promoted strict creationism, and even framed Barack Obama as the anti-Christ. From childhood, Cherie was taught that her primary purpose was to become a wife and mother within the ideals of complementarianism. At her Christian college, men and women were not allowed to spend time together off campus, and girls were even prohibited from wearing their hair wet because it was considered tempting.Cherie shares what sparked her deconstruction, being in an interfaith marriage, and why she is now raising awareness about Project 2025, something she recognizes deeply because she was essentially raised inside its ideology. This conversation is about indoctrination, awakening, and speaking out before history repeats itself.-Cherie’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@canceledchristian-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Joshua Harris, author of the bestselling and culture-defining book I Kissed Dating Goodbye, joins Healed-ish for a conversation I’m sure neither of us saw coming. In this episode, we talk about his upbringing, what led him to embrace purity culture as a teenager, writing his book at just 21 years old, and watching it explode across evangelical spaces in ways he never imagined.Josh opens up about what later caused him to question everything he once believed, how listening to the stories of people harmed by purity culture changed him, and why he ultimately chose to publicly renounce his own book and apologize for the damage it caused. Together, we explore accountability, deconstruction, and what it really looks like to rebuild your life when your faith, identity, and certainty fall apart.-Josh’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/harrisjosh/Josh Harris’s Website: https://joshharris.comSurviving I Kissed Dating Goodbye Documentary: https://streamable.com/1ldz9c?utm_source=ig&utm_medium=social&utm_content=link_in_bio&fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAc3J0YwZhcHBfaWQMMjU2MjgxMDQwNTU4AAGnwVL6rB615JLPYmBioQFG75ATVnZuQ1OS8VWvve_EKhvfII63IhpIEnveJQM_aem_vmFb_Hm5AvMLmCul_tdSjA-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Toni grew up Southern Baptist in a rule-heavy home marked by emotional and physical abuse. After ministry school and getting married, she and her husband joined the World Race - 11 countries in 11 months, raising nearly $31,000 to serve overseas. But what was marketed as a life changing missions journey quickly revealed a darker side. In this episode, Toni shares how leadership pressured her to minister through debilitating migraines, blamed her for lacking faith, and how the entire experience unraveled her beliefs about short-term missions.-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Toni grew up Southern Baptist in a rule-heavy home marked by emotional and physical abuse. After ministry school and getting married, she and her husband joined the World Race - 11 countries in 11 months, raising nearly $31,000 to serve overseas. But what was marketed as a life changing missions journey quickly revealed a darker side. In this episode, Toni shares how leadership pressured her to minister through debilitating migraines, blamed her for lacking faith, and how the entire experience unraveled her beliefs about short-term missions.-Krystina’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@lifebeyondbeliefKrystina’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/krysandken/https://open.spotify.com/show/5jSEc2KnDIifE3ATcMf0br?si=0953232c76c64ccb-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Krystina grew up Southern Baptist, in a world where women stayed silent on stage and drums were considered sinful. Later, in a charismatic church, she received unsettling prophetic words that painted her future as “anointed, but lonely.” She pursued worship ministry at Liberty University, only to face racism, tokenization, and microaggressions from the very people who claimed to love her. Behind the scenes, she discovered how worship was intentionally designed to manipulate emotions.... something she once believed was purely spiritual.Everything shifted when she became a mother. Wanting to raise her child with honesty and clarity, Krystina began revisiting her faith with fresh eyes. Instead of the certainty she hoped for, she found herself wrestling with questions she had never allowed herself to ask. Over time, this led her into a season of deep reevaluation and eventually toward a new journey outside of Christianity. Today, she and her husband share their story on Life Beyond Belief, offering a space for people navigating doubt, change, and rebuilding after leaving a faith tradition. In this episode, Krystina opens up about the moments that shaped her, the questions that transformed her, and what it looks like to find peace on the other side of certainty.-Krystina’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@lifebeyondbeliefKrystina’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/krysandken/Life Beyond Belief Podcast: https://open.spotify.com/show/5jSEc2KnDIifE3ATcMf0br?si=0953232c76c64ccb-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Part 2 of 2From praying to cast out demons to trying to resurrect her guinea pig, Anna Stone was all in on her charismatic faith. She believed she’d one day be a missionary in Mozambique and dedicated her entire life to spreading the gospel.But at seventeen, an inappropriate encounter and the fallout that followed began to reveal the darker side of the church. Later, her curiosity about Mormonism pushed her to reevaluate everything she’d been taught. In this episode, Anna shares how education, curiosity, and heartbreak led her from dreaming of being a missionary to dreaming of a simple, beautiful life rooted in peace instead of fear.-Anna’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@awna1997?lang=enAnna’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/awna_stone/-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Part 1 of 2From praying to cast out demons to trying to resurrect her guinea pig, Anna Stone was all in on her charismatic faith. She believed she’d one day be a missionary in Mozambique and dedicated her entire life to spreading the gospel.But at seventeen, an inappropriate encounter and the fallout that followed began to reveal the darker side of the church. Later, her curiosity about Mormonism pushed her to reevaluate everything she’d been taught. In this episode, Anna shares how education, curiosity, and heartbreak led her from dreaming of being a missionary to dreaming of a simple, beautiful life rooted in peace instead of fear.-Anna’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@awna1997?lang=enAnna’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/awna_stone/-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Were we lied to about hell?This week, I am joined by Brian Recker, a pastor's kid, former minister, and author of Hell Bent. Brian asked the question most of us were taught to fear: Is the hell we grew up with actually biblical?Brian shares how studying Scripture and church history unraveled fear-based theology and led him into a deeper and more loving experience of God. We talk about the harm of "turn or burn" messaging, what Jesus really taught, and how letting go of hell did not destroy Brian's faith, it healed it.If you grew up terrified of eternal punishment, this conversation offers clarity, freedom, and hope.-Brian Recker’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/berecker/Brian Recker’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@brianrecker5Hell Bent: https://www.penguinrandomhouse.com/books/771172/hell-bent-by-brian-recker/-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Maddie Zahm grew up in a Christian home where she took her purity seriously and poured her heart into worship leading. Years later, after auditioning for American Idol, she began writing the kind of songs that reach straight into the stories of those deconstructing their faith and identity.Her song “You Might Not Like Her” became an anthem for anyone learning to love themselves after leaving shame based systems (including me). In this conversation, Maddie opens up about coming out to her family, finding her community, and the beautiful, messy process of discovering who you truly are.-Maddie Zahm’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/maddiezahm/Maddie Zahm’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maddiezahm-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Monte was raised in rural Wyoming to believe she might have to die for her faith.Growing up under alt-right Christian nationalism, her family prepared for war, built a bunker, and warned her that Democrats would come to kill them. She was taught to shoot at a young age and to see obedience as holiness.Seen as her father’s “chosen one,” she was encouraged to get an education so she could “change the world for God.” She signed a purity contract and learned that her worth was tied to submission and control. Years later, after escaping the abuse and fear that defined her childhood, Monte began rebuilding her life, teaching others what the Bible actually says, and using her voice to fight Christian nationalism.-Monte’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/montemader/Monte’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@montemader-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Part 2 of 2Victoria joined Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry at a pivotal time in her life, hoping to grow in her faith and purpose. During her time there, she began an internship with Nick and Jess, a couple who led a group of students through life coaching and emotional healing practices. What started as mentorship quickly shifted into something harmful, as Victoria found herself leading unlicensed “therapy” sessions, participating in anxiety inducing trust exercises, and watching leaders blur the lines between spiritual growth and manipulation.In this episode, Victoria opens up about how a program built on transformation and vulnerability became a system of control. She shares how the pressure to perform, obey, and protect her leaders led to emotional and spiritual harm, and what it took to reclaim her voice after being coached into silence.-Victoria’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/victoriagreerhathaway/Victoria’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@victoriagreerhathaway-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Part 1 of 2Victoria joined Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry at a pivotal time in her life, hoping to grow in her faith and purpose. During her time there, she began an internship with Nick and Jess, a couple who led a group of students through life coaching and emotional healing practices. What started as mentorship quickly shifted into something harmful, as Victoria found herself leading unlicensed “therapy” sessions, participating in anxiety inducing trust exercises, and watching leaders blur the lines between spiritual growth and manipulation.In this episode, Victoria opens up about how a program built on transformation and vulnerability became a system of control. She shares how the pressure to perform, obey, and protect her leaders led to emotional and spiritual harm, and what it took to reclaim her voice after being coached into silence.-Victoria’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/victoriagreerhathaway/Victoria’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@victoriagreerhathaway-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Azriél Crews, actor, writer, and daughter of Terry Crews, grew up in front of the cameras on her family’s reality show The Family Crews. As a teenager, she signed a purity pledge on national TV, turning her private coming-of-age into a public spectacle.In this episode, Azriél opens up about navigating faith, fame, and identity in the spotlight. She shares how college gave her the space to embrace who she truly is, her journey of deconstruction, and how she now uses humor (and a touch of “nepo baby” honesty) to tell stories about healing, queerness, and self-acceptance.-Azriel’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/azrielpatricia/Azriel’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@azrielpatricia-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
I’ve known Jade since middle school, and I’ve watched her story unfold over the years. After college, she married her wife in what seemed like a dream come true. They even won a free elopement in a contest, creating memories that felt magical in so many ways.But after seven years together, everything unraveled in a matter of days. A series of accusations and bizarre circumstances ended the marriage suddenly, and the two never spoke again. Jade first shared pieces of her story on TikTok, where her series caught attention, and now she is here to share the full journey.From fairytale beginnings to an abrupt and painful ending, Jade opens up about how she picked up the pieces, rebuilt her life, and is now chasing her passions with resilience and strength.-Jade’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jade.nyasia/Jade’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jade.nyasiaSixth Seat: https://www.instagram.com/sixth.seat/-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Part 1 of 1Colten grew up in the Holiness movement, a Pentecostal tradition with even stricter rules than most. In his church, women were not allowed to cut their hair, wear jewelry, or even wear pants. Baptism had to be done in a very specific way, or else your eternity was on the line. His dad was the pastor, and Colten took those rules to heart, believing his salvation depended on them.In this episode, Colten shares vivid memories of his upbringing, including the moment he broke down sobbing after seeing his mom wear pants for the first time because he believed she was going to hell. He talks about what it was like to go to seminary, to begin evaluating what he had been taught, and how he has turned those experiences into knowledge he now shares with thousands of people on TikTok.-Colten’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/coltenbarnaby/Colten’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@coltenbarnaby-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Part 1 of 1CW: mentions of suicideYou may know Gabrielle Stone as the bestselling author of Eat, Pray, #FML, where she chronicles the wildest year of her life: discovering her husband’s affair with a 19-year-old, falling into a whirlwind romance, and then getting dumped just before a month-long trip to Europe. But her story doesn’t begin or end there.In this conversation, Gabrielle opens up about the layers of loss and heartbreak that shaped her. She shares about losing her father at a young age, grieving the death of a boyfriend, and living with the belief that everyone she loved would eventually die. We talk about the pain that inspired her to write, the healing she’s done since, and the vibrant life and community she has built today.This episode is about love, grief, resilience, and rewriting your story even when the plot twists are unthinkable.-Gabrielle’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/gabriellestone/Gabrielle’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@gabrielle_stone-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Part 2 or 2Corey’s story pulls back the curtain on what it was really like inside Teen Mania’s Honor Academy, the infamous discipleship program featured in Amazon’s Shiny Happy People. From grueling workouts to “Unreached People Group Week,” where students were forced to cosplay as missionaries, Corey was subjected to bizarre exercises in control and spiritual manipulation. During his time with Teen Mania, he toured with Acquire the Fire, lived on just $5 a day, telemarketed for Jesus, and was pushed into purity culture teachings that took years to unpack.In this episode, Corey shares what it meant to grow up in a world of extreme legalism disguised as discipleship, as well as how he is finding freedom and healing after leaving.-Corey’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/coreylwright/Corey’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@coreylwright-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
Part 1 of 2Corey’s story pulls back the curtain on what it was really like inside Teen Mania’s Honor Academy, the infamous discipleship program featured in Amazon’s Shiny Happy People. From grueling workouts to “Unreached People Group Week,” where students were forced to cosplay as missionaries, Corey was subjected to bizarre exercises in control and spiritual manipulation. During his time with Teen Mania, he toured with Acquire the Fire, lived on just $5 a day, telemarketed for Jesus, and was pushed into purity culture teachings that took years to unpack.In this episode, Corey shares what it meant to grow up in a world of extreme legalism disguised as discipleship, as well as how he is finding freedom and healing after leaving.-Corey’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/coreylwright/Corey’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@coreylwright-Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8
This is a special crossover episode with my other podcast, The Overshare Hour, where we read listener submissions and respond in advice-column style. We’re diving into a topic close to both of our hearts: religious trauma and the journey of deconstruction. From purity culture and church guilt to untangling fear and finding freedom, we share our experiences and open up space for healing conversations.- The Overshare Hour Podcast: https://open.spotify.com/show/4rhjrn5AYvOKJnN0gIeSLm?si=djs7yJarRSW56PO2jP9gTQThe Overshare Hour IG: https://www.instagram.com/oversharehour/Kenzie’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/itsmakenziejene/Kenzie’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@itsmakenziejeneJubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns
Part 2 of 2We’re bringing it close to home this week with someone you’ve heard me mention before — my ex–sister-in-law, Kenzie. We first met as teenagers in youth group, navigating the pressures of purity pledges, religious guilt, and the rollercoaster of charismatic Christianity. While we shared plenty of fun moments during those years, we were also shaped by environments that demanded conformity and obedience.Kenzie went on to join the International House of Prayer (IHOP), a high-control religious group where the spiritual abuse ran deep. While newly pregnant, she was forced to stay awake in prayer through the night, and when she expressed doubts, men laid hands on her belly and prayed her child would become a martyr. That moment marked one of many in which her humanity and dignity were disregarded in the name of faith.Her story didn’t end there. Kenzie eventually left IHOP, got divorced, and began the long process of deconstruction. Today, she identifies as queer, continues to navigate hard conversations with friends and family, and is writing a new chapter in her healing journey. She and I now co-host The Overshare Hour, where our shared history adds both depth and laughter to every conversation. This episode explores purity culture, spiritual abuse, queerness, and what it means to reclaim joy and belonging after religious disillusionment.—Kenzie’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/itsmakenziejene/Kenzie’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@itsmakenziejenePatreon:https://www.patreon.com/HealedishFollow for more: Jubilee’s TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns Jubilee’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns Healed-ish TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast Healed-ish IG: https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast Apply To Share Your Story: https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8




