Introvert This

February is the month of love. If it wasn’t enough that we have to end the year with Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year’s Eve, we only get a short break before we have to start thinking about Valentine’s Day. Instead of love though, I’m going to spend the month talking about introverts and relationships.

All this month we’ve been talking about resolutions and this last week of January I want to talk about a resolution that many of us have made before. How many of us have heard people tell us that we have to live a little. We overthink. Gotta loosen up. You can’t plan everything. I have heard all of that over the years. And that’s why the last resolution I’m tackling this year is the ‘I’m going to be more spontaneous’ resolution.

All this month we’re talking about resolutions and this week I want to talk about a resolution that I’ve made a lot over the years but never followed thru. I have to say that I didn’t even try. And at the time I made those resolutions I wasn’t even really familiar with the term introvert as it related to me. But it’s a resolution that I’ve heard many introverts make. And that resolution is...to go out more. If you’re an introvert, then I bet that one sounds pretty familiar.

All this month we’re talking about resolutions and this week I want to hit up my favorite one. I hope you catched the sarcasm there. A lot of misguided introverts resolve to speak up more. We’ve been programmed from a young age to be led to believe that we don’t speak up enough and I believed it. But an interaction I had with my auntie almost 20 years ago made me start to question it.

In my last episode Change vs. Growth, I asked if your goals for the coming year were a little extreme and maybe even geared toward trying to become another person instead of the beautiful introvert you are. Extroverts can be tricky and sometimes like to tell us to be more like them when their insecurities start to surface.

Welcome to Introvert This. I’m your host Hudson wanting to remind you that we are the true silent majority in this country.Most of us are told from birth to just “be yourself.” But for an introvert, folks only want you to be yourself to a certain extent. As introverts we are constantly criticized for not doing extrovert stuff. So the theme of this episode is Change vs. Growth.

What’s up yall.  This is Hudson and I’m with you for another episode of “Introvert This.”  In case you don’t know, we are the real silent majority.  A little introvert humor.If you heard the first episode, then you know that I didn’t always know that I was an introvert.  It wasn’t until I got in school, and started hearing about what other kids were doing around the holidays, that I began to realize that my situation was a bit different.I didn’t know how it was different but I knew it was and one of the areas where I struggle to this day is ordering food.  But the funny part is that every situation is different.Fast food restaurants.  I hate them.  Early memories with dad putting me on the spot.A sit down restaurant used to be more of a problem but I believe that was because I was shy and not because of being an introvert.Being an introvert and being shy are 2 different things.  (Explain)Back to restaurants…as soon as I got my license and a car, boom it was nothing but driver thru.  Other places started getting driver thru’s as well.  Some DMV locations have a drive thru to renew your registration, banks have drive thru’s, you can order items at Walmart and have them taken to your car.  Oh I was a drive thru champion.As far as fast food restaurants go, I spent years not setting foot inside of those establishments.What changed?  Girlfriends.Girlfriends don’t accept a lot of stuff that I had to in order to stay out of fast food restaurants.  For a long time I accepted getting the wrong order.  This seems crazy but if they forgot the cheese, oh well.  They put mayo on it, whatever.  Sometimes I got a burger when I ordered a chicken sandwich…I ate the burger.But any girlfriend all the way up to my beautiful wife right now, don’t play that.  want their order right.  I used to pulling up to the little speaker box, telling them what I want, pay, snatch the bag and zoom out of there.  By the time I look in the bag, I’m long gone.Now see, the only thing worse than having to interact with folk about getting my order right, is having to hear my wife complain for 25 minutes about how her food is not what she asked for.  And she doesn’t just say it strongly and it’s done.  She softly says it multiple times, in different ways for the bulk of the meal. So I got 2 choices and this just happened to me a few days ago.  I go to the drive thru…do I check while at the window or do I pull to the side and check?  If you check at the window, you got the person in the window staring a hole through your head, holding up their line.  If you pull off to the side, then you have to go in if it’s wrong.I decided a while back I’ll pull off to the side.  My wife’s order is right most of the time but if I check at the window, i’ll have the drive thru person staring at me every time and I don’t want the people fixing my food to start getting upset with me and saying, “oh it’s that guy again.”  There are only so many places to go in my area and I order the same stuff from each of them so the folks get to know you.Anyway I ordered my wife a sandwich with cheese and there was no cheese when I checked.  Now i’m mad.  I’m blowing out my mouth like a little kid.  I start getting myself together to go in.  I start thinking, they’re going to make this a big thing when all I need is a slice of cheese on it.  I go in, there’s tons of people in there and they are all staring at me.  I got everyone’s attention for a piece of cheese.Now by anyone’s account, it was not a big deal.  Gentleman came over, asked if there was something wrong with

Welcome to Introverts!  We are the true silent majority.  I feel like the time is right now to do this because the truth about the power of introverts is starting to come out.Books, articles, several publications are starting to report data suggesting that the majority of the world are introverts.  But we’ve always been made to feel that being an introvert was wrong.  And for those who don’t understand this, I grew up in a time where some folks thought that writing with your left hand was wrong.  They would try to get you to go with your right one.  I’m left handed.  My dad had to make many trips up to the school to stop teachers from trying to force me right handed.What those teachers tried to do to me is exactly what society tries to do with introverts.  Everywhere you go, you’re forced into these social situations.  And the moment you try to take a step back from those situations, not only do extroverts look at you like something is wrong with you but other introverts do too.It’s like man…my own people.But slowly, I’m starting to see a change.  But a change like this doesn’t come easy.  It’s going to take a push and I’m stepping a little bit out of my comfort zone to help it along.  And the best way I know how to push right now is to tackle what I believe is the biggest issue for introverts like myself.  And that is leaving behind this feeling that there is something wrong with me.  So let’s jump right in.It seemed like the perfect time to start this platform because this, in my opinion, is one of the toughest stretches of time for introverts.  The holiday season is just not an easy one.  And it doesn’t matter what you celebrate, the problem is the obligations that come with the holiday season.So let’s go back in time for me:Growing up it was just my dad and me.School was always a problem.  Class of 30 students for 6+ hours.High School, I started reaching my breaking point.  Little relief when I switched schools.College: I craved the moments when my roommate was away.So in each of those stages, how the holidays hit me was a little different but manageable.Everything changed when I left college, and more specifically, whenever I would have serious relationships.The FamilyProblems with the Family around the holidaysYou have to go.You have to stay.You have to talk.The elder’s table.My Wife’s family is awesome.So what do I do when these holidays come around?I don’t get much rest the night before.  Not by choice, kids.  But it works to my advantage.I’m always willing to run the errands.My kids act as a buffer.I strategically move around.I interact with them on social media.Recharge time.Look, I don’t think the holidays will ever not be a tough time for me.  Feeling that pressure from the beginning of October on thru the New Year takes a lot out of me.  And the guilt to go along with it.  Like i’ve said, it’s hard not to feel like something is wrong with you because you don’t want to be around people during the holidays.  And you don’t want to hurt your loved ones because a lot of people could easily take that in the wrong way.Like anything else there’s levels to this.  I think i’m on the extreme end of the introvert spectrum but who really knows.  But at some point in time I suspect every introvert out there has thought they were extreme.  But what I do know is that we are introverts and we are the true silent majority in this county.Until next time, this is Hudson going to lay down and recharge my batteries.vxLVyWmkuCruXuuw61VE