It's All My Fault

<p>Hello universe! </p><p>As always, my greatest hope in this lifetime is to somehow, some way, get the chance to see you performing at your absolute best. </p><p>That day may not be today... I get it. The seas have been a little choppy lately. Best to appreciate today in whatever ways you can because we haven't bottomed out yet. Worse is coming. </p><p>Plainly stated it's become a flustercuck. One that's emerging right now in full cluster. The worst part is that I saw it happening in real time and did nothing to stop it. The blame falls directly on me. </p><p>And quite fairly. </p><p>For most of my existence I ignored the signs of collapse as they begged to be seen. I pretended the chicanery running rampant across reality would somehow fix itself without intervention. </p><p>I watched as truth become maleable, destroying facts in the process. Personal integrity was now a sign of weakness. Reach across the aisle? For what? Only losers compromise. </p><p>Winners take all. </p><p>Societal accountability? Never heard of it. </p><p>I'm clearly at fault for letting things deteriorate the way they did through my decisive inaction. Agree on that we do. However, all of us are now permitting the beat down 21st century life has become. </p><p>We aren't winning. Not even a little bit. </p><p>We're all bruised. We're all bewildered. We're all rudderless. We're all living as diminished versions of the true selves we arrived here to become. We all know this isn't how it's supposed to be. </p><p>Are we ufulfilled fundamentally? </p><p>Yep. Sure thing. In fact absolutely positively. </p><p><strong>But not broken. </strong></p><p><em>Because</em> <em>never, will I ever, come to a point where I lose my faith in you. </em></p><p>What we are capable of accomplishing by working alongside each other is mind-blowing. Our creative potential knows no limits in this universe! None. </p><p>In fact today, <strong><em>together</em></strong>, let's embrace our best selves and bask in the fulfillment that inspires. My humanity is ready to ascend. </p><p>I hope yours is too! </p>

There's tons of other $#!% to get to anyway.

What's it called when the only reliable thing about you is how unreliable you are? Well whatever word that is, lately... I have to admit, I qualify. That doesn't leave me in a disappointed frame of mind per se, in fact it's quite the opposite. Consider the potential I have for improvement! Lots and lots and lots and lots...At a minimum.And don't even get me started on you.TensHUnsRye.ziNg Episode 35 of 53

10-30
28:12

I'm really that stupidly simple. Honestly!

You'd think an episode that has me accepting an award that I decide to give myself recognizing my initial 24:44 of recorded material as the most authentic representation of "me me me me me me" content that I can conceive of creating .... well that epidode must have finally reached the point of all this. You'd think...But if that were the case you'd just be thinking the way I was coercing you to think.Amirite?Of.course.I.am. And if there's one thing we know this podcast is NOT HERE TO DO - it's not here to tell you what you should be thinking. Nope. Not gonna do it. That is not my job because it's 100% yours. The fact that you'd act like any other arrangement is acceptable is on you buddy. Because never have I demonstrated a desire to tell you how to think. That's Google's job. And in your case, the job's just about complete. Which is too bad because I, for one, long to interact with the real you that unintentionally got replaced as you realigned yourself to fit 21st century ways. Maybe some day... amirite? Let's hope so.TensHUnsRye.ziNg Episode 34 of 53

10-21
30:58

Never give up on yourself.

Never give up on yourself. Of all the phrases that, to me, shouldn't exist in this universe, "never give up on yourself" might be top of the list. I suppose that's why I'm so fascinated by its prolific use in 21st century American life. Even those who claim to be fully aligned with its truth in existence regularly demonstrate that they aren't quite there yet. As for me? I know with conviction that I will never give up on myself. Do you? Whatever encounters the future has in store for me, those that test my inner resolve will be met by me in my fullest expression, confident I will overcome these circumstances like I have all others. In so doing, I will consciously reinforce that I am robustly empowered exactly as I am. Completely fulfilled by each new encounter. Always excited to see what comes next. Want to know something even better than that? I believe exactly the same things about you! Even though you don't believe in them yourself. And I will never give up on helping you discover the true you. I can't imagine anything better to do with my life than that! TensHUnsRye.ziNg Episode 33 of 53

10-02
24:30

If you ask the universe how you can help, the universe will respond.

Hello universe!Anything new with you?I only ask because these past few months I've been so consumed investigating the knot that humanity has tied itself into that I lost track of everything else - including you!Which I do feel bad about since I know how disjointed you've been lately putting up with all the chaos currently overwhelming our reality.Abandoning you like that was not cool on my part. Not cool at all.Which is why you might notice some changes being made around here - particularly in regards to the experience I'm creating for you. As such (and I believe for the first time ever), I'm recommending that you actually listen to this episode in its entirety. I know right?Totally shocking to me as well.Whether or not you agree... well, I'm sure you'll let me know. TensHUnsRye.ziNg Episode 32 of 53

09-28
19:46

I sure do have some crazy ass thoughts!

More recording myself on multiple hits of acid. As expected, this one turns out for the unexpected. And not in a good way.Not in a baaad way either.Just in its own way.The way I can turn an attempt to apologize for regularly derailing my thought trains so much that circuitous tail chasing of non-sequitor conclusions is what most listeners suffer - I turn that moment of self-reflection into another derailment that so completely wrecks the train you'll feel pain from the incident. Especially for any GenZeez among us.Ha!As if!As for the Boomers, the X-ers and even any Millennials... proceed only if disappointment is your goal. Otherwise you have to be able to find something better to do with your time than spend any of it messing around with this episode. Right?Yes. Right.Again, you've been warned.AGAIN.It's you I'm talking to here...TensHUnsRye.ziNgEpisode 31 of 53

02-09
44:41

That's when the world starts to make sense.

Over 70 minutes of me diatribing in this one and it's only now, as I craft my description, that I realized I never even discussed the topic on which I planned to focus. It was to be the bulk of the episode and I forgot all about it. I wish I could say I'm in a state of disbelief that such a disconnect could even happen... but we all know better. Even you, new face that you are around here. You should know that 65.126% of the 506 episodes recorded prior to today's suffered the same fate. Am I surprised? Nope. Not at all. These stumblenbumblen efforts of mediocre thought tangenting get so snarled and disjointed by WtF distraction after WtF distraction that any conclusions I reach rarely apply to the point of interest I raised originally. So much so that you might think never finishing a thought is in fact a feature. Not a bug. Which should be enough for you to abandon this ship asap. Forget you let it get this far. It's the best decision you can make for yourself given your overall frailty as a homo sapien sapien. You know I'm right... right? Yet here you are, still reading this useless, unrelated-to-the-episode description hoping to figure out if a listen is in order... right? Nope. Not at all. Less than 15 minutes into it you won't be able to deny you're wasting your time. Get to the half-hour mark and you'll be forced to admit that I still haven't made a point of any value or framed an issue in a way that resonated with you.. Trust me.Or don't. I'm not one to tell you how to live your life. Listen to all of it on repeat, forever, if your superior constitution wants a challenge. I'm not your mother. You owe me zero respect whatsoever. Your respect is not why I'm here.Nope. Not at all. For this particular lifetime, I'm only here to help. Simple. While being as kind and understanding as I can possibly be in every action I initiate, whether meticulously planned or completely spontaneous. Still simple. Outcomes on Earth v867.5309 are chaotic and random by design, so forgiving myself, as well as you, the CIA, Catholic priests, whoever turned in Luigi Mangione, Jeffrey Epstein, the YouTube censors, Wall Street bankers, the Royal Family, dirty cops, Anthony Fauci and any other homo sapien sapien whose results were so heinous they threatened to permanently stain humanity's soul... that is also part of the deal. Still simple. Whether done purposefully, magnanimously, unthinkingly, maliciously, naively, faithfully, recklessly, legally, passively, underhandedly, disrespectfully, repeatedly, valiantly, responsively, defensively, ineptly, unawaredly or even accidentally - matters not at all to me - my response is the same: find a path to forgiveness in all situations. No exceptions. Have I killed your momentum to proceed here? ...? ...???!! You did say yes didn't you?!?? ?!?!?!!??! TensHUnsRye.ziNgEpisode 30 of 53

01-30
01:10:47

Maybe you're the main character!

This weekend has been on my radar since the beginning of November. In December it grew even more ominous with my father's passing.Then, over the past 3 weeks, this weekend's disruptive potential escalated into the mythical.For me.And just for me.Not for you.I shouldn't think.Other people, you for instance, are getting through this weekend without a second thought about humanity's destiny and the meaning derived from overcoming the obstacles suddenly thrust into our collective lives this century. In fact the angst I work through in this recording is uniquely mine. Mostly because I'm the only knucklehead capable of tripping into this particular mud puddle of misinterpretation... but for other reasons too.As such, it's time you found something better to do with your life than listening to this episode don't ya think?If you, mistakenly, decide to proceed, well... your opinion of me will surely diminish.And likely of yourself as well. Do you really want to take that chance? TensHUnsRye.ziNgEpisode 29 of 53

01-27
43:06

Those aren't women they're #&%@! actresses!

Yeah, I'm back. And yeah I'm pissed. And yeah life has dipsy-doodled my flighty ass all over the place... and yeah that doesn't feel so good. But that's nothing compared to the bad behavior the boys are up to... oy vey! TensHUnsRye.ziNg Episode 28 of 53

01-15
49:01

Let's do the next one together. Okay? Bye.

Let's get one thing straight here... this recording is mediocre. Undeniably. Totally my fault. But there it is. Got it? Okay. Of course, if that's your thing, and if you're an American I expect it likely is... feel free to proceed. For anyone else - you've been warned. TensHUnsRye.ziNg Episode 27 of 53

11-04
37:26

We'll see how far off the rails that one goes.

I'm back in solo form here. Reluctantly. All thanks to... my stupid Android phone. I hate to admit this publicly, but I don't know if this droid is the droid I'm looking for. I know society thinks we're perfect together. Building forever's foundation hand in hand 60/60/24/7/365/9.2. I hear the encouragement from all you happily connected phoners. I hear how well it's working out for everyone around me, Well, mostly when you decide to look up and talk to me. So yeah... I'll be over there waiting... Still... I've got serious doubts. I'm sure now that this is not the partner I want in life. In fact, I may be done with wireless phones entirely. I know I'm close. And yes. I'm being serious. For once. The "reach out and touch someone" relationship just ain't what it used to be. Amirite AT&T? Hell yeah I am. AT&T knows I'm right And you know it too. So quit pretending you don't! TensHUnsRye.ziNgEpisode 26 of 53

10-30
25:13

...you feeling good about this? Yeah. Yeah.

Finally! AMiRite? OhYesiAm.Not that things didn't happen exactly when they were supposed to - I get all that and don't want to seem unclear about how life's meandering meanings are built from within.But, to say I've been hotly anticipating this one is truly the understatement of the year. And it's been one surreal year. AMiRite? OhYesiAm.So it is with the untethered zest of someone who should watch out for all the overtalking they did in this recording that I welcome you to hear from the only person I know on this planet willing to call me her friend.As allies go, this one's a rising sun.AMiRite? OhYesiAm. Oh. Yes. I. Am.TensHUnsRye.ziNgEpisode 25 of 53

10-21
01:12:16

I guess that was ironic. Pause!

All right, awl right, all write. (No coypright infringement intended, even if implied). Hello universe! How are we doing? Outstandingly? Booyah. It must be the weather. Fall is so awesome. I all but forget about October's grandeur, its spectacle of transitions through the pallette of Earth tones we're all treated to once a year... until it's here. Like right now. Again. Booyah. And let's not forget to wish everyone a happy 501! Me included!! In celebration of starting a new half-millenium here at It's All My Fault, I'm going to go find a pair of old Levi's 501 jeans that, even though I still love enough to wear, should have been turned into shorts a long time ago. And go agead and just get that done. Because 85 degrees on October 5 is about as good as life gets! And OBVIOUSLY that kind of harmony demands a new pair of shorts! Boo. Yah. TensHUnsRye.ziNg Episode 24 of 53

10-05
32:47

Feel better. Ok? Alright bye. Bye.

I must admit the persistence of my absence was a bit disconcerting ...toward the end.For I was convinced that a recording would emerge as the "by default" choice to rise to the lofty perch of episode 500 of this project I've dubbed It's All My Fault. At least mostly convinced... mostly.And obviously that took a while. Seriously. A while...At least a helluva lot longer than I would have guessed. But I've never been good with the time. As everyone Every One Who knows me will attest. That my faith paid off here helps explain all my failed attempts at forcing episode 500. Waaay too much to get into now, but don't worry... do not you worry... worrynotyoudo.... k?Because, as it turns out, it was going to take as long as it took to arrive at this point of the simulation. Can't rush destiny amirite? Fukcyesiam.So so so much more to say, but I'll save it for episode 501 while avoiding the onslaught of Levi's puns my brain keeps cycling through. As always, I appreciate you all.But in this one, I have an extra scoop of appreciation for:Emmo the Bemmo My one and only little sister. TensHUnsRye.ziNg Episode 23 of 53

10-01
40:24

Now go do something better with your life.

Chop suey again? Is this really the new routine?Um... maybe? I mean it has been a while.Not that you care. We're both aware that you have innumerable better things you could be doing with your life instead of listening to me butcher the english language while losing my train of thought in a conversation I'm having only with myself.Repeatedly. Don't you? Of course you do.Which has me curiousWhat are you doing finishing this????TensHUnsRye.ziNgEpisode 22 of 53

08-15
34:28

I say why?

Hello universe. Happy day-after-Bastille-day. I hope this finds you well. In fact I hope this finds you exuberant about the upside of manifesting into the human experience. Because if you're not already in that space, I cannot see this recording moving you into that space. I feel like I should let you know that before we get too far into things and I start sleeping with your sister. Ya know? TensHUnsRye.ziNg Episode 21 of 53

07-15
51:40

I love my life. I love it.

I'm still so spent from my birthday fortnight, not to mention the 6-pack that just ended yesterday... wow what a life I'm having.Anyhow, given how blown away living in the moment has been, I hope you can forgive me for not being composed enough to attach something useful here. What else is new? Amirite?As always, you have much better things to be doing with your life than listening to me.So get on with it. Right?TensHUnsRye.ziNg Episode 20 of 53

07-01
53:09

Up to the challenge I am.

This one felt a lot like the lull before the episode 500 storm. Just call me Edmonton - not quite up to the challenge but more than willing to make it look closer than it really was. Or... or call me Florida. No wait. Never call me Florida. Ever. Please. I beg of you. Edmonton sure. But Florida? Never. TensHUnsRye.ziNg Episode 19 of 53

06-26
25:03

I don't know... you lose something in there don't ya?

Blah blah blah. Enough already about the comic book universe am I write Wolvie? Okay. Yeah you are. But at the same time. A little framing to help make that stupidity sensible wouldn't be the worst thing you've done lately so... let's just say if that's what you're up to here, we might just have to give it a listen. Or not. I mean not, as always, NOT remains the better option. TenHUnsRye.ziNgEpisode 18 of 53

06-22
35:21

I love you Em. Happy birthday!

Happy Birthday Happy Birthday Happy Birthday Emily! Tis the day ye came to life herea all those years back in history! If I wered to take this one more verse I'd for surely say. That this day is one I hope meets all your dreams in every way. Happy Birthday Little Sis! TensHUnsRye.ziNg Episode 17 of 53

06-21
30:27

Oooh do I like getting breakfast made for me.

Alright alright right on. I agree. After all the time I took away from corporate american life, I owe you the story of what roped me back in. So, here you go. TensHUnsRye.ziNg Episode 16 of 53

06-19
30:02

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