Jabari’s Wisdom

Yeah, things are just starting to make sense lately. Like not in a "wow he is so wise and smart" but in a... wow he is nihilistic and depressive af. Like nothing seems to matter or have reason. Like I know I’m in a current slump and of course I will have these types of thoughts, but it’s hard to not see it as just that. Like friends and family are revealing that people are only close when they are happy or when they are gaining something from you. Not all the time it’s a bad thing but people aren’t usually just nice for nice sake. Some are, but most aren’t.I can even argue even D'Ante', the reason we are still cool is because we are both in a similar situation. If that fine balance was different during this period, I probably would've dropped him too.Say a loving marriage, a lot of the time I'd argue that if the husband/wife was in a slump, lost job, or aged poorly, was less "fun" than before even though same personality, etc., then a divorce would be soon to come if the other person wasn't sticking around only because they couldn’t find anyone else.The government revealed it never gave af about its people and this whole constitution blah blah experiement bs was all just a sham to get people to ignore the numerous and obvious bads and be hypnotized into blind faith in the system. The world caters to the rich and the lowly lower middle to low class are only there to be machines. That’s why when AI started showing its head of usefulness with LLMs, the CEOs and business people were so quick to screw over entry workers. Like this world is a mess. If there is a god, the god sucks at what it does ngl. Literally threw garbage at the wall, it sorta stuck but is drooping down leaving stinky grease stains, and it went "eh I’m tired that’s good enough".I could do a better job ngl.

So this day they put me on the trucks....little did I know 1 truck is quite literally playing on easy mode.... It was just the tutorial.... Just a little test to make sure the controller was working correctly...The next day was a difficulty spike akin to Dark Souls...

I basically already made this podcast a while back, but nothing wrong with repeating topics if there’s been a long gap between. And also this time it’s with another person listening, so idk gives a different vibe.

It’s crazy how in 4 years so many stories and nostalgia can occur. Like when you think about it, high school really isn’t that long, but it makes a harder impact for people than college. Like yeah, you can argue there are people who have crazy college stories, but there’s something about high school that makes people continue to look at it in a more nostalgic way than any other schooling portion in life. More than elementary, middle, or university. Like it’s not a universal feeling of course, but on average, it’s pretty common.In some ways, it’s akin to how I feel about Hong Kong. Technically, I've only been there about 1.9 years, I guess (?), but so many stories and so much of that city I explored in such a short time. I could have stories for at least a 30-hour-long podcast, and it was such a short period of time... just interesting how time works.

Another friendship ended. Preventable, but what can you do? Some people just don't deserve to be in my life, I guess. It’s crazy to me; all it takes is one thing, and a long-standing friendship can end in a blip. It's probably for the better, though... toxic friendships can rot your life slowly. Ironically, if I never met this person, I’d probably still be in Hong Kong right now with a progressing career. It’s wild how certain people can lead you astray subtly without you even realizing. Like the blame is on me for that part, but it’s still wild how it most likely never would have happened if not for these certain people coming and going out of your life. But then again, that can be said for many things. Even, say, the reason I had an interest in China could be argued due to people coming and going in life. So there’s a duality in that, I guess.

What’s it like downgrading your potential to work at a modern-day American sweat shop... slave labor which not only is humiliating to admit you do, but is unironically the only option you had...What is it like knowing that the setting sun of America hit right when you are in your most vulnerable time... and during this vulnerable time all friends and family around you revealed they didn't actually have any empathy at all and see you as a loser failure who surely just doesn’t want to work and isn’t trying hard enough....Whats it like? Well imagine this. Imagine being in a glass dome. You know there’s more to outside your glass dome and you know you can break the glass if you had the right tools but you don't have them. You could crash through the glass dome head first but you know the shards of broken glass can and will slit your body open if you do (which will surely kill you if you don’t receive medical attention; attention you know you won’t receive since no one is letting you out the dome in the first place.).So all you can do is dig down. Dig down and hope at some point the dome walls stop. Remember, you can’t destroy the walls or the glass dome collapses and all the glass shards fall onto you (even if you dig down there’s still open sky. And if you cover yourself with dirt...well now you have 5 tons of broken glass you are trapped under. So your only hope is to hope the walls stop at some level down underground or you hit the "floor" of the dome and can break the floor since it’s not the walls so the dome won’t collapse.....But you have no tools so you dig with hands. It hurts but what else can you do. And you see your daily visitors laugh or call you stupid for digging. They have no clue why you dig and not just crash through the walls. "He obviously doesn’t want to escape."

Family...Nation...Faith....All have tumbled. I'm fully disillusioned from this world and I wonder what the point of anything. What the point of loyalty. You really know who are the people worthy of keeping around during times like this. People love to be around you if you are doing well, but if you are in a struggle, suddenly everyone is rude, harsh, and impatient with you. Everything is fake. There's literally no point caring. Like seriously, its all a big bait. The only thing you should care about at this point is not being sent to prison. Beyond that, everything is free game and the rules dont exist. Those same people who seem to care or orbit around you would sell you to the rive the second the fire got hot. If there was one thing I learned from this experience is that I should only care about myself. Don't fear god, don't fear shame, don't fear anything.

I truly wonder how life would be if I were born just a year earlier or later. Literally one year makes such a difference, and it’s sad. Or I guess if I graduated college a year earlier or a year later. I would have either just barely missed the COVID pandemic by graduating in 2019 or I would've graduated during the 2021 job burst. But no, I graduated in 2020, so I went into the workforce at the literal worst possible time. Everything rippled from that moment. And I still have yet to recover.And now, me with no experience not only has to compete with outsourced workers and H1B's, but I also have to compete with AI. It might be hard for fresh graduates and people like me to hear, but there is literally no point caring anymore. Just embrace the new technology. Don't get baited by people who already made it to not use AI for code. You are literally taking a handicap for the free by doing that. Like it or not, but the people who use AI will be the equivalent of the internet tech company bros soon.

This is why I never take the "high ground" argument about suicidal people or people who committed it. This stuff isn’t some easy solution. Like you can still try to, of course, make them less sociopathic, but you have to realize if they quite literally are at the point where they are thinking of breaking that barrier of fear of dying, then you need to know this is not some simple solution type option. And sometimes, I think you shouldn't feel guilty realizing there’s nothing much you can do. You tried your best. And in some ways, they know you did. I don’t know, it’s a hard topic and subject since hard truths are hard.However, I must say and make clear, those frekaing filthy pathetic losers who go "well if I’m gonna die, I’mma take others with me" because they’re afraid to do it their own freaking self need to just be deleted and deserve the worst, most fearful execution. Because that’s a whole different level of pathetic. “Muhmuh I’m scared of the infinite death and consequences of ending life so I’m instead going to kill a bunch of people and hope I get suicide by cop in a quick surprise." No, no, if I had it my way, I’d bring you back tf to life and go Batman on your ah. Show you what true sadism is like. Don't bring other completely disconnected people into your own drama.People lucky this isn't the United Jabari Republics. I'd get that mess knipped in the bud REAL QUICK. There would be two fears in this world: Death, and a selfish attempt at quick death.

No, but seriously, what’s up with the screenwriters of these shows and movies? Like they just can't help themselves. Like wtf are they thinking about every day? And they justify this mess by going "all artists are crazy". No, no, nice try you freaking cringe lords. You are just busted and you, your family, and your parents need to be investigated.Like wtf happened in your early years where you have this level of obsession? I swear every other Rick and Morty episode has something incest adjacent. Like what did your siblings/parents do to you....and futurama writers with Amy...um please get over the yellow fever…it’s unbecoming. Take a year trip to Thailand and get over it please.And you cringers who defend this mess… please consider moving to a third world country or something where your money can go a bit further so you can get your own girlfriend and de-horndog yourself. Like it wouldn’t solve it, but it would be a good first step perhaps. Idk. Gotta do something while I wait for them AI relationships to knip this in the bud.

Its wild how we are being told like these engineers and ceos are geniuses and can rule the whole world and blah blah blah, when this tech isnt even that crazy. Its literally just compute power, and even then, more compute doesnt really make that huge a difference, just guides the model slightly more. At this point people are just bored and are hoping for a new "next big thing". Crypto is sleep, Metaverse is sleep, and now LLMs is sleep. Hmmm I guess maybe the AR glasses is the next thing we move to.Surely by doing all these things mutally exclusively we will make a BIG BIG next big thing....yeah....thats what happened with iphone right?

Yeah, at any moment, one person who is motivated enough can completely collapse the entire world after learning just a bit more. Like, legit. If certain governments wanted to, they could collapse a country in the day. It’s just that they know there will be repercussions that negatively affect them...but they could if they wanted to.Now, imagine a destructive genius....who literally doesn’t care about anything anymore.....they could if they wanted to....

Yep, the ultimate red pill. We are forcing ourselves to care about a mess that literally doesn't matter. It never did. We can never actually change anything. The hive mind is a bait. Break out. We are just manipulated to do crowd dynamics for people who already figured out nothing matters. Yep, even the random celeb canceling and controversy. They are chilling. They already made their money. As long as they weren’t sent to prison, they are chilling. And even when sent to prison, a lot of the time they are chillin’. They already made their money and had their fun.Once you realize this...things are simpler and you can focus on crap that actually improves your life. Then afterwards, maybe it will be worth actually caring about random bs that literally doesn’t affect you or anyone you know.

Just a quick little podcast on crap that annoys me about story writers. It seems quite universal how cringe these writers can be when writing stories. Rather it’s movies, books, games, tv shows….doesn’t matter. And this isn’t even half of the stuff that I find troll.I can tell though, if I ever write my book...and I troll myself... I'll never hear the end of it. So more pressure to make a groundbreaking book...

What’s crazy is there are quite literally dozens of more stories from my 2 years in Hong Kong to talk about. It's just hard to talk about them because one, sometimes paranoid, the people I talk about might end up listening years later and get embarrassed. Or two, I say something and then Hong Kong, like, bruh...we hate Jabari now. But ever so often I'll slip out some (not in full detail) stories, I guess. The full detail of the story I refuse to give.... but just know... it’s crazier than you even expect.

Yep, it’s a major cope, but I don't give af. As long as they are famous or multi-millionaire type salary or more, I can comfortably say I do not feel threatened. That means they are normal citizens just like me. They have no hard impact on the state of the world with their world or actions. So no envy from me. That’s just how it is. Who gives af they have a random cattle citizen but with a slightly higher digit on salary? They are still in the same barn kiddoe.

Well, at least attempting to bounce back... Who knows how that will end up, but hey, at least, um... there are fallback plans.... I guess.... Who knows.Its just so sad this is how everything ended up. But then again, I wouldn't have wanted to work under this administration anyway. Like of all administrations to have on your record...not sure this is the one I’d want to have.

Yes you got it right, its the democratic party. How did you know right when you read the title that would be it. Crazy how that works. Don't cope. You knew I was talking about them. Useless party. The citizens only have three options. By pointing out mess we already see and going "look we are one of you haha, right?" while seeing stuff fall apart slowly takes away one of the options from the more....passionate of citizens. Like so freaking useless. Like go ahead and do it. Look up what these senators and representatives do on a daily basis and you'll be in shock. They are useless. No wonder they wanna stay in office forever and be in their freaking 90s still running. Its the easiest job in the world. Just sit, talk, go to events, make money. I shall vote third party anytime I vote now. I dont give af anymore.And no, I personally will not being doing those other citizen options... aint no way. I'll come back ones the fires finish burning though.

Ragnarok has come for America, and we have only ourselves to blame. The upside of this is that with Ragnarok comes change. With Ragnarok’s ashes comes the birth of something new. Rather that be for the whole world shifts of power, or even just domestically. Welcome the Phoenix's death and rebirth, everyone. Though the fire steadily is being blown out, what will rise will alight in a much more warm and powerful way. A way that will be nostalgic for those who know their history of the rise and fall. Experience and bask in the glow....Ragnarok is your friend...

Just a bit of rambling of me realizing that this country will never be able to have a long-term strategy for anything. There was a time when we once did, but that was when the politicians were all practically of the same viewpoint and just subtly different. Now they are so divided and dissimilar in a competitive fashion that we can never have a strategy that isn’t canceled by the next party in power. Now due to this inability for long-term thinking, other countries who have a more centralized political structure will forever be able to strategize in a more beneficial way for their country and take advantage of our failures.