Love, Lies, and Life.

Today is 5/26/20 at 4:03 pm I was about to turn 50 in a few months and soon to become an empty nester.  I would finally be able to live a little find a man that would fall madly in love with me and I would fall madly in love with him. We would make a lot of money together and travel all around the world. He would be interested in cryptocurrency, Blockchain, and the stock market just like I was.  It could happen, right? 

Love is out there! I know it is. But, he hasn’t bumped into me yet! This particular guy I’m referring to woke me up out of my sleep at 4am to ask me who this is? What? Ohhhhh no! I can’t deal with this. You are the reason I’m single Sir! Couldn’t you have waited until a Reasonable time to call someone to ask them who this is?

Am I being understanding or am I being a fool? Should I let it slide or get out while I can? Am I allowing him to treat me right or to mistreat me? Tune in for these answers on Love Lies and Life.

It’s August 1 and it is new beginnings the eighth month of the year in 2020.,I’ll be making 50 years young on August 4. Th. to him listen and enjoy love lies and life.

Well tonight I gave my number to someone and he was very persistent and it actually got on my damn nerves. Oh yeah then I talk about a whole bunch of other things so tune in and listen. It’s very entertaining to say the least.

I begin to ask myself if I could actually be in a committed? Tune in to find out the answer on love lies in life.

I did something really immature. It’s only because I like him. Listen in to find out what my dirty little secret is.

I’m talking about my day which was July 29, 2020. I am also speaking about the young man that I am interested in. Correction we are interested in each other. I saw him in the third grade and thought he was cute and I still think he’s cute to this very day. I’m also doing a lot of rambling in between. Tune in!

I was posed this question by The woman I call my fairy god sister. Remember I tell you is melanin people love giving people nicknames. I started this dating journey reading a book in titled channeling Becky and I was supposed to document my dating experience and I fell off. However, while reading the book I was asked the question why didn’t your married friends introduce you to their single friends? So I asked them and this is the response I was given....

Diamonds are to be searched for but I guess I shine so bright it's blinding? You can call it women’s intuition... I call it the moment I messed up! I thought he liked me. I thought he was interested in me. Hell, I can't tell and I can't blame no one but myself. I thought I knew what I had to do but my loving, goody to shoes, kind hearted, keep on ya gonna get your feelings hurt, ways took control. I had a moment where I knew the ball was no longer in my court. I felt the wind slowly seep out of the possible of a romantic relationship. I didn’t follow the rules. THIS DATING SHIT SUCKS! Be busy... ok! Don’t text.... ok! Don’t call first... Ok! I broke all the rules. I hate rules!!!! I (think) I COULD REALLY LIKED HIM and that's where I messed up. I lead with my blind, loving, kind, heart and not with the rules! I became a fixer. I became a listener. I became a problem solver. I became a motherly. It may have costed me suitable man or It may have saved me from a heartbreak. Ok! Well, I have to get back out there and try again. I can imagine a drill sergeant yelling "Get Up Soldier!" "DATING IS A WAR!" MOVE IT! MOVE IT! Thank you for the lessons King! I had fun one that one date (LOL). You are a great man and father! I wish you well KING. I wish there was some way this could have been easier. I take that back. I realize there is no easy to learn how to love and how to be loved. This is all apart of something I have to grow through. My name is Rahsaana and this is not the end of my STORY!  I'm a Diamond!

What would you have done if a white cop showed up with gun drawn at a children’s party? That is the question that I had to answer last night. I encountered a racist cop That said he was responding to gunfire. There were no guns at the party besides his. I asked the cop without a drawn gun what was going on? He responded but the cop with the gun wanted to answer. Things got a little ugly!

This is my personal journey through dating. I wasn't ready for years but now I am going forth. I want you to come along with me as I travel down some uncharted waters. I have paid for my subscriptions and they are coming. Wow, I am in training to get what I deserve from one man. Honey, I an Channeling Becky. That's right you heard me correctly. Becky... yes that what I said! I am discovering my feminine energy and it feels good to be soft and sexy. Let's go! I 'm ready to be loved!

I joined Plenty Of Fish! I really did it. It’s a requirement for this transformation that I’m taking. Channeling Becky is my text for this podcast.

Are you waiting on Jesus to come? LOL You look all holy on that picture. You look like you waiting for Jesus! I was laughing at myself. Well, that’s what the hell you look like. I told you I was going to be transparent about my journey! I did sign up for this!!!! I need this!

I have the biggest crush on DNice. I didn’t think it was possible to have a crush at my age. Houston we have a problem!

This is Rahsaana Ison your host of Love Lies and Life! So tonight I want you to take this journey with me as I give a personal account of channeling Becky written by Tracy Twinkie Byrd. Got the Book Yet? Let’s talk about it!

So chapter 1 Tracy Twinkie Byrd book. You were taking this journey along with me as I read this book and discover some things that I have to come to terms with. Did you get the book yet? You should.

Becky where are you when our black and brown babies, boys, and men are being slaughtered, lynched, murdered, dragged, shot down, beaten locked up and thrown away?

I was taken a back when I first heard someone call me auntie. I was very insulted at first but now I embrace it! How did you feel the first to someone called you Moms, Aunty, Unc,. I was like were the same age. No, as a mater of a fact ma’am I see your grey hair coming out the back of your wig. The Audacity of you to think I’m old because of the color of my hair....I know some gray haired women that could put any some 20 year olds to shame. Hello 50! Here I come!