Point C

As always working through some ideas I’ve been understanding the relationships of colour and trying to understand the dynamics that are happening outside of technical mixing of paint Had the urge to drive to tobermory and left late while stopping along the way to paint.  Looking forward to revisit this in an article on the website or even another podcast 

SO the last one of the ghosts  it was a strange one  couldn‘t get the fire started it was cold I hope it makes sense I really struggled to get it together  not sure if it was the cold or being tired I really didn’t want to go out and felt pretty unmotivated  I’ve been really trying to keep promises to my self 

Highway was shut down Such a strange week Today was no different Normally I would be feeling sad about the events that have passed I actually feel pretty dang good Hope this helps with Christmas day Tonight the ghost of Christmas future is visiting 

I’m Back Thanks for being patient  Started to feel a bit derivative and the few I’ve recorded I just don’t wanna release  The first of a two parter the second to be released on Christmas day This one is on the way to the spot. A mission of sorts Listening to the universe  A vessel  Emotional as always I hope in a good way.  Going through the love wringer currently so it feels cathartic to record this and bring up aspects of myself and be mindful of where they come from. The events that shaped me  the events that are still shaping me 

Driving to Stratford early in the morning On a mission to really get to the foundational reasons on why I am painting, where I am going with it, and how best to move forward Informative and like always the universe gives me the direction and answers I need.  Using the outside world as a mirror to what is really going on. 

On the way to Chatham to talk Yoga and connect.  First time recording while driving.  Felt very clear and concise in my thoughts.  One of my favourites to date Dealing with the difference between the dreams of the ego and direction of the Heart

Out in the field At the secret spot I had gone early in the afternoon after visiting Rita and Frank. They gave me a bunch of cookies I didn’t bring food and ended up waiting 6 Guess what the had cannabis in them I went deep Some amazing painting and ideas  I am so grateful that I am living this life  I hope you feel the same

Hanging out in Alton Such a clear head It felt nice to talk about stuff and not have it be so emotional Just a great night skateboarding and talking in the rain

Accosted at the silent retreat centre I wanted to drop this mini.  The light has been insane and I haven’t been talking into the mic Just throwing  paint around 

Just me being a grumpy asshole I’m working through it If you are still listening thank you for joining me We are a process, we are never finished, we are never done I hope you know that at any point along the way of our process we are amazing we are out here

Felt out of it  SO much of the podcast is about what I do when faced with adversary and that is all the podcast had in it  Pretty funny

Coming back after a two week break of recording feeling rusty but it felt good Such a secret spot and new. The moon and a couple coyotes make the guest appearance

The night of the tornado  Out in the field  totally broken open  Some times I feel like I don’t want to share what’s going on inside of me, or how I feel, on line But I‘m realizing I am tired of holding on to this stuff and I really want it out In the end is what I want is for connection and to be understood?  Maybe.  The idea of relationships seems so foreign to me which feels weird to say. Cuz I don’t know how it happened  and even though this doesn’t fill the void of that at least I am getting it out

Recorded raw and unedited Decided to turn the corner on the funk I have been in for the last little bit and went to the snake run an hour out of Guelph Had some interesting conversations with some artists and amazing people from instagram  This is a bit scattered, the ideas are there but the delivery seems a bit shaky  I blame the skateboarding and rain I’m gonna come back to this next week for sure 

A bit disoriented on this episode Recorded at the secret spot after the storm The best light is after the storm Funny how that works out I hope I’m not setting myself up to always wanting to be in a storm

Recorded Live unedited  From the back of the River Run Centre Along the banks of the speed river I had deleted this cuz I wasn’t sure if it was a good idea to release I think it is Enjoy

Recorded Live unedited  From the dead end gravel lane in the Guelph Arbouretum  Misty and overcast  rain threatened Based off a journal entry on looking at the path I travelled to get to my current state.  Ripe with emotion and quotes from St Mathew…. McConahaey that is

Recorded Live unedited on the east beach of point pelee national park Kayaked 40 minutes from the marsh Boardwalk It was couples beach party when I arrived but then they quickly left I was alone and fell asleep under some drift wood When I awoke I recorded this On rewatching it I realize the stress I was under, not sure if I’ve figured out what it was about that week. The power of Erie doesn’t mess around this feels like a deserted island

Recorded live unedited from east beach the first night in point pelee during my week long Artist residency  The power and the history of that place was indeed a rough one I found myself in a strange mood the entire time  Plagued or haunted by gloominess and tedious thoughts with the rare reprieve Looking back it was a huge lesson being there. I’m not sure I have fully understood I hadn’t smoked point in like 3 weeks and I smoked two joints as well  I need to go back and figure it out. 

Filmed Live unedited one evening at Marden Pond in Marden.  Tears of a clown by Smokey Robinson had it right Lots of lessons on how relationships are formed. Whether what we want is taken into consideration  How wishing for a connection can leave us open for people who have a predatory nature. Re-enforcing the gender neutral qualities of Dude