Psyche

In this episode, I have a conversation with Justin Perry. Justin is a Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist - Associate (LMFT-A). Justin is the Couples Therapist, Marriage Counselor, and Family Therapist at Katy Counseling For Men.  https://www.katycounselingformen.com In this conversation, we discuss Justin's background and his journey becoming a therapist. We also explore his passion for working with men and his distinctive approach to therapy. 

In this episode of the podcast, I speak with Eliot Rosenstock. Eliot is a psychotherapist and author. In this episode, we discuss ideas from his two books, Zizek in the Clinic and The Ego and Its Hyperspace. In the end, the therapist does not tell the client what to think or how to live. The therapist works with the client, helping them to learn how to think and construct their own identity in the world.  Books:  https://www.johnhuntpublishing.com/zer0-books/authors/eliot-rosenstock Social Media: https://twitter.com/CtrlRetrnRpresd?ref_src=twsrc%5Egoogle%7Ctwcamp%5Eserp%7Ctwgr%5Eauthor https://www.facebook.com/Eliot-Rosenstock-Clinical-Psychology-MA-RAMFT-375670716175350/

In this episode, I speak with J.F. Martel. J.F. is a writer on art, culture, religion, and philosophy. We discuss James Hillman's book "A Terrible Love of War." His essays have appeared in online journals such as Canadian Notes & Queries, Reality Sandwich, The Finch, and Metapsychosis, as well as in print anthologies from Penguin-Tarcher, North Atlantic Books, and Intellect Books. He is the author of Reclaiming Art in the Age of Artifice, published in 2015 by Evolver Editions. Ediciones Atalanta released a Spanish translation of the work in 2017. His long-form essay, “Reality is Analog: Philosophizing with Stranger Things,” is available in e-book format from Untimely Books. http://www.reclaimingart.com With Prof. Phil Ford of Indiana University Bloomington, J.F. co-hosts the Weird Studies podcast, a series of conversations on the intersections of philosophy, the arts, and the weird. https://www.weirdstudies.com

In this episode, I explore whether Georges Bataille can be read as a radical theologian precisely because he refuses to save God.Drawing from Allan Stoekl’s essay “Bataille, Teilhard de Chardin, and the Death of God,” I contrast Teilhard’s vision of convergence and Omega with Bataille’s insistence that completion ends in rupture — that absolute knowledge collapses into nonknowledge.Although I no longer identify as a Christian, I remain drawn to radical theology. Here, I wrestle with a tension I feel even within progressive theology: after rejecting a literal deity, do we still preserve a highest ground — a metaphysical guarantor — under another name?Bataille’s atheism forces me to ask whether a truly radical theology must relinquish even that.Not comfort.But courage.

In this episode, I explore Georges Bataille’s account of religion through Zeynep Direk’s reading — not as belief in a divine being, but as the acknowledgment of the movement where life and death pass into each other.I reflect on my own shift beyond doctrinal Christianity and how I’m developing what I call ethical hedonism — a way of honoring pleasure, eros, and vitality without abandoning structure or responsibility.We’ll talk about ego, excess, abjection, and the festival as a necessary interruption of productivity — and why building small “festivals” into our lives may be essential for psychological health.

What if transcendence isn’t a ladder we climb but a descent we resist?In this solo episode, I explore an intuition that first confronted me in my own therapy — especially when I began taking my dreams seriously. The symbols that unsettled me most were the ones that betrayed my conscious morality and stirred disgust or erotic charge. And yet, those very images carried psychic energy that felt unmistakably sacred.Bringing together Bataille’s claim that the sacred can be entered through the latrine, Philip K. Dick’s idea of the “trash stratum,” alchemical transformation, Lacan’s notion of jouissance, and Kristeva’s theory of abjection, I challenge the spiritual-material dualism that elevates prayer above orgasm and transcendence above embodiment.If the sacred erupts precisely where identity destabilizes — in what we expel, repress, or deem impure — then the places we most want to reject may not be obstacles to depth. They may be its doorway.

In this solo episode, I explore what Jeffrey Kripal calls the traumatic secret — the uneasy coordination between trauma and transcendence in mystical literature — through the philosophy of Georges Bataille.I reflect on how Kripal shaped my own intellectual and spiritual development during a season of deconstruction, teaching me how to remain open to mystery while staying critically grounded. From Bataille’s ideas about eroticism, death, and transgression to Huxley’s filter theory and the destabilization of the ego, I examine the possibility that rupture does not “cause” mystical experience but may sometimes allow it to appear.This is not a romanticizing of trauma or a defense of supernaturalism. It’s an inquiry into thresholds — those moments when the structures of the self tremble and something larger presses in.The shell must be broken.What emerges remains a mystery.

I don’t believe in astrology.But while reading I Don’t Believe in Astrology by Deborah Silverman, I found myself unexpectedly confronted — especially by the fact that Capricorn is traditionally associated with The Devil card in the tarot.Not evil. Attachment.In this solo reflection, I explore ambition, purpose, materialism, and the subtle chains we don’t realize we’re wearing. I talk about being a terrible boss but deeply driven, about the difficulty of being still, about the constant hum of productivity in my nervous system, and about Freud’s death drive and the superego’s demand to produce.This isn’t a book review. It’s a meditation on compulsion, freedom, and what it might mean to loosen the chains without abandoning ambition.I don’t take the symbols literally.But I do take what they reveal seriously.

I’ve been using the phrase ethical hedonism in recent episodes, but I realized I hadn’t slowed down enough to ask a foundational question: what do I mean by pleasure?In this solo reflection, I think out loud about pleasure as subjective, embodied, relational, and psychologically complex. I explore the neuroscience of dopamine, the difference between craving and deep presence, and how culture shapes what we’re allowed to enjoy.This episode isn’t definitive. It’s a work in progress. A serious attempt to ask whether pleasure — when it enhances vitality, connection, and coherence — might actually be an ethical guide rather than something to mistrust.

In this solo episode, I explore a tension that I’ve encountered both personally and clinically—the way some high-control religious communities can feel deeply warm, relational, and inviting at first, and yet over time reveal a much more rigid and exclusionary structure underneath.I begin with a personal reflection on being re-exposed to Douglas Wilson while listening to conversations about Christian nationalism, and how his winsome, calm, and disarming tone stands in stark contrast to what I see as deeply dangerous ideas—especially when it comes to democracy, pluralism, and the ability for real difference to exist.From there, I unpack what I’m calling aesthetic hospitality—the way warmth, attentiveness, and belonging can function as a kind of soft power that draws people in before they’ve had the chance to fully discern what they’re stepping into.Drawing on psychoanalytic insights, including Todd McGowan’s critique of community and James Hollis’ distinction between internal and external authority, I explore how belonging in these systems is often conditional, particularly for LGBTQ+ individuals, and how exclusion is frequently reframed as truth, morality, or righteousness.This episode is ultimately an invitation to develop a deeper kind of discernment—not just asking whether a community is kind or welcoming, but whether it can actually tolerate your full existence without requiring you to become someone else in order to belong.

What if suffering isn’t the clearest sign I’m on the right path?In this episode, I explore the legacy of high-control Christianity and its elevation of pain as virtue, contrasted with a different ethical vision rooted in aliveness, pleasure, and embodied experience. Drawing on David Congdon, Linn Tonstad’s resurrection-centered theology, and Carrie Jenkins’ work on love, I begin to reframe pleasure as something deeper than indulgence—as a guide toward a more fully lived life.This is an exploration of ethical hedonism, not as an escape from suffering, but as a way of no longer centering it.

I’ve been reading Pleasure Activism by adrienne maree brown as a way of making sense of what I’ve been calling my own ethical hedonism — not indulgence, not impulsivity, but the question of whether pleasure might actually function as guidance.Included in that book is Audre Lorde’s classic essay The Uses of the Erotic, which I recently told a group chat might be one of the best essays I’ve ever read. In this solo episode, I unpack why.Lorde reframes the erotic not as performance or spectacle, but as a form of embodied knowledge — a deep connection to our capacity for joy that becomes a lens through which we evaluate our lives. When we reconnect with that internal hum of aliveness, she argues, we can no longer settle for what is merely safe, conventional, or externally approved.Along the way, I explore a resonance I can’t ignore — the connection between what Lorde calls erotic knowledge and what James Hollis describes as inner authority. They are not saying the same thing. They are not operating in the same tradition. And yet both point toward an internal guidance system that asks us to live from alignment rather than expectation.This episode weaves together ethical hedonism, embodied joy, clinical reflections, and the responsibility that comes with knowing your own capacity for depth.Once you know your capacity for joy, you are responsible to it

In this solo episode, I return to James Hillman’s chapter on the puer aeternus and pothos from Loose Ends — and explore how longing may not be a problem to solve, but the very engine of being alive.Building on Jung’s reflections on the wanderer while moving beyond a mother-centered interpretation of desire, Hillman reframes longing as structural to consciousness itself. I weave his insights together with Lacan’s notion of lack, Jaak Panksepp’s SEEKING system in affective neuroscience, Emmanuel Coccia’s reflections on fear as the death of desire, and even a Rumi quote I strongly disagree with.This episode is also deeply personal. I reflect on my own journey in therapy, the suspicion of desire within Christian spaces, the demonization of the puer archetype, and why I’m learning to trust longing again — including how erotic pursuit can become a conscious participation in that blue flame rather than a distraction from it.What if wandering isn’t immaturity?What if desire isn’t deception?What if depression is, at least sometimes, the extinguishing of the flame that keeps us reaching?Not all who wander are lost.

Esther Perel has named Jack Morin as a major influence on her thinking about desire — so I returned to The Erotic Mind. What emerged was a theory of passion that feels even more relevant now.In this episode, I explore Morin’s Erotic Equation — attraction plus obstacles equals excitement — and connect it to psychoanalytic reflections on lack, resistance, and the structure of desire. Drawing on Todd McGowan and Fichte’s concept of Anstoß, the obstacle that functions as both barrier and propulsion, I examine why desire often thrives in tension rather than total security.This is a deep dive into longing, ambivalence, power, and the paradox that keeps erotic life alive.

When Bella Freud—great-granddaughter of Sigmund Freud—sat down with Esther Perel on Fashion Neurosis, I knew I had to listen. What unfolds is not a conversation about trends or aesthetics, but about identity, masculinity, desire, and the psychology of being seen.In this solo reflection, I explore clothing as a kind of “second skin”—a psychological boundary between self and world. Drawing from Perel’s thinking on Eros in Mating in Captivity, Valerie Steele’s idea of fashion as skin ego, and even a touch of Jack Morin’s erotic equation, I reflect on why what we wear is never neutral.I share a story from my therapy room about helping an autistic client build confidence through intentional style, what it’s like to shop for clothes with my 16-year-old son, and why paying attention to how people craft themselves might be one of the most countercultural practices available to us right now.Fashion isn’t superficial. It’s relational. It’s embodied. And in a world where we rarely look up from our screens, noticing what someone is wearing might be one small way of saying: I see you.

More and more men are showing up in therapy convinced that desire is a technical problem—something that can be solved through optimization, symmetry, and self-correction. Jawlines, ratios, bodies, images. Looksmaxxing promises certainty, control, and relief from rejection, but what it actually delivers is anxiety, perfectionism, and a dead end.In this episode, I bring together several threads that have been colliding for me lately: re-watching Mad Men, clinical conversations with men struggling under the pressure to optimize themselves, and Jacques Lacan’s unsettling idea of objet petit a—the object-cause of desire that can never be perfected, possessed, or secured.Along the way, I draw on Slavoj Žižek’s famous example of Cindy Crawford’s mole, and on Jessica Paré’s portrayal of Megan Draper, whose gap-toothed beauty in Mad Men illustrates a simple but uncomfortable truth: desire doesn’t emerge from flawlessness, but from the excess, the gap, and the imperfection that refuses to be optimized away.This episode is a critique of looksmaxxing culture, perfectionism, and the fantasy that being desirable means becoming complete—and an invitation to think about desire as something far less controllable, far less marketable, and far more human.

In this solo episode, I reflect on Bad Bunny’s Super Bowl halftime performance as more than a cultural moment—it becomes a doorway into memory, migration, colonial history, and the psychology of diaspora.Born in Puerto Rico to a Puerto Rican mother and an American father, I weave my own family story into a broader reflection on what it means to live between worlds, shaped by love, economic precarity, mental health struggle, and displacement. Drawing on a formative course I took on Puerto Rican history, I explore the unfinished colonial relationship between Puerto Rico and the United States and how colonialism doesn’t just extract resources—it fractures continuity and reorganizes psychic life.I also spend time with one of Bad Bunny’s most powerful songs, Lo Que Le Pasó a Hawái, reading it through the lens of diaspora psychology: anticipatory grief, forced migration, split belonging, and the quiet violence of watching home become uninhabitable while still loving it deeply.At the center of the episode is a concept that has stayed with me for years: sacred hospitality. I argue that Puerto Rican love—expressed through exuberant joy, warmth, rhythm, and generosity—is not naïve optimism but an ethical and spiritual response to colonial harm. Joy, here, becomes resistance. Hospitality becomes strength.In a moment when fear and hatred feel increasingly normalized, this episode is an invitation to remember that the United States is irreducibly complex—and that the only thing stronger than hate is love, lived as sacred hospitality.

In Part Three of this Heated Rivalry series, I turn my attention to Ilya and the moment in Episode Five that changed how I understood his character entirely. When Shane lets Ilya speak in Russian — without translation, without explanation — the series opens into a deeper story about borders, belonging, and the cost of building a life far from home.This episode explores Ilya not just as a romantic lead, but as a figure shaped by immigration, queerness, and the constant negotiation between safety and authenticity. From a therapeutic lens, I reflect on what it means to live at the intersection of national, legal, and relational borders, and why being allowed to speak from one’s deepest interior world — even when it cannot be fully understood — can be a profoundly human form of connection.This is one angle on Heated Rivalry, and part of a larger ongoing conversation. There is much more still to explore, but here I stay with Ilya, Episode Five, and the quiet devastation — and courage — of being foreign everywhere.

In this episode, I’m joined by Elisabeth Schilling for a slow, careful conversation about Eros—not as romance or scandal, but as a force that shaped the early history of psychoanalysis itself.Using A Dangerous Method as a starting point, we explore Carl Jung’s relationships with Sabina Spielrein and Toni Wolff, and the ethical, psychological, and relational tensions that emerge when desire enters spaces meant for healing, learning, and transformation. We talk about transference and countertransference before they were fully theorized, about intimacy before professional boundaries were clearly named, and about how early analysts struggled to hold erotic energy without being overtaken by it.This is not an episode offering verdicts or moral simplifications. Instead, it’s an attempt to sit with paradox: how Eros animates creativity and depth, how it destabilizes certainty, and why the frame—in therapy, academia, and relationships—matters precisely because Eros is real.Along the way, we reflect on monogamy and polyamory as relational architectures, the danger of spiritualizing desire, the cost of boundary violations, and what Jung’s unfinished struggles still teach us about intimacy, responsibility, and human limitation.This conversation is for listeners interested in depth psychology, ethics, and the complex terrain where desire, care, and power intersect.

In Part Two of this ongoing reflection on Heated Rivalry, I slow down and focus on the interior life of Shane Hollander and why his character has resonated so deeply with autistic and neurodivergent viewers, even without the show ever naming him as such.Rather than treating this as a question of diagnosis, I explore Shane as a way of being in the world — his pacing, his relationship to regulation, structure, intimacy, and safety — and why that portrayal feels so recognizably human to so many people. From a therapeutic lens, I reflect on representation beyond stereotypes, the cost of masking, and what it means to be in relationships that adapt to a nervous system rather than demand performance from it.This episode is one thread in a much larger conversation. There are many other angles still to explore in Heated Rivalry— cultural, relational, clinical, and symbolic — and this reflection is meant as a continuation, not a conclusion