She Stay Beautiful 🦋

Skip to 6:00 for 50 affirmations of self love. I said, read, and sang these words to myself everyday for the last few months. It has helped me in tremendous ways. I love carrying out God’s purpose and using my voice to share my story. I’m at a place of stillness, calmness, peace and prosperity. I have walked away from those who made me feel less than I am and so remind myself everyday. In doing so, many aspects of my life have effortlessly elevated. I hope it does the same for you.

“The tongue has the power of life and death” (Proverbs 18:21) I am in a place of healing and happiness!! Praise God. I cannot express to you how great it feels to finally be freed from the chains of delusion I was trapped in. I pray to God that He opens my eyes to NEVER tolerate anything less than a God given love. To my future husband: I thank you in advance for loving me the way I love, for accepting my son, and I’m so excited to build a legacy and family with you!!! Thank you for being a man’s man. Ooooo.. Baby boy I’m waiting and ready for you and I’m preparing myself to be the WIFE and MOTHER you need me to be. I can’t wait to give you the love I was giving to the wrong person, and just because I KNOW you’ll love me the same….I’ll multiply the love times TEN! In Jesus name 🤍 oops, i forgot to mention-a man who would NEVER let me go to sleep upset/crying.

June 24 … 56 days, 8 weeks, 2 months. I fumbled. I can’t even blame him, it was all on me. I shouldn’t have expected anything less than disappointment from this man. His reason behind not communicating with me is heartbreaking and truly a smack in the face. He lied again & said he loved me. Made it seem like he still wanted me, used me, then blocked me. How can you be crazy in love with me but let another female get in the way, what happened to your promise of reassurance? Guess I’m either not worth it or it was never real. I gotta learn to accept people for who they are and what they show me. Lord knows I’m big on actions. Can anyone tell me how to stop loving someone who doesn’t love me? Someone who hurts me intentionally over and over? Cause I know he knows blocking me hurt, yet he did it anyway. When he was down and sad I gave him all my love. Now he is the cause of my sadness and instead of giving me love, he gave me distance. I thought I was your world? Wow.

⚠️TRIGGER WARNING: talks of when i wanted to end my life, drug use, and heavy profanity⚠️ Still being real, raw, and vulnerable with my listeners this episode is about my current feelings/fears 30 days into no communication with army man. I didn’t think I would get this emotional and honestly this episode was me winging it. Normally I outline my thoughts but I truly spoke from the heart. I hate myself for still loving him. How do you stop loving someone, who you know never really even loved you? Time heals all, well I need time to speed up or just stop. You ever feel this defeated?

May 12 is the anniversary of me becoming an official registered nurse after passing my NCLEX. I want to share my testimony on how I made it. I want to inspire anyone who is going after a very hard goal, that it is possible despite what obstacles may present itself. I went through pregnancy, betrayal, depression, homelessness, and worked several jobs. I still managed to graduate top of my class! Do not let ANYONE tell you that something is not possible! As long as you have hard work and Gods grace on your side, anything is possible. Amen to that!

Making a comeback since October 22, all I can say is thank you for the genuine support, literally worldwide! Let me catch y’all up on how my goals for 2022 came about and the lessons I’ve learned that’s impacted my 2023 goals. The last you heard from me, I was heartbroken… Let’s get into it!

I feel as if we ask ourselves this question several times a day. From problems as minor a flat tire to as major as losing your job. Especially as believers, I feel as if we feel like God should always have our backs and nothing bad should ever happen to us. But deep down, we know this is not the true reality of what life is. Life is good, bad, great, and terrible ~ there’s a purpose behind it all. We dive into this parable in 2 Corinthians as an example of the type of faith and attitude we should have when it comes to trusting in Gods will and purpose. Instead of asking, “Why is this happening?” Let’s Ask “What is it that you want me to learn?”

Worship is essential, it is powerful. Wounded worship is a worship that forces you to your knees and allows you to pour out your heart. Wounded worship reminds you that there is no other answer than God, the road starts and stops with Him.

As we look into the story of Joshua, we learn some key steps in embracing our Greatness. Step into the line of greatness that God has in his plan for you!

The story of Saul describes how a lot of us may feel when we are unexpectedly being called to greatness. If you are a spirit filled believer, you have the potential to be great! God only creates great things!

Thank you all for being so supportive & patient with me. This episode is about prenatal purpose. Know that you are not a mistake, that you do have a purpose. There is a reason why you are here. It was given to you before you were even a thought. Pray about it and find yours ❤️‍🔥

I am posting these way after their moments, and I thought I wasn’t in this space anymore, but unfortunately I am still in the season of heartbreak. I was going to post these when I no longer felt like this but I still do, and I have to keep it real with y’all. Thank you for listening & if a man or woman ever made you feel like this, I hope that this episode reminds you that you are human, you feelings are valid, and you will heal eventually. Take your time. Fuck people who tell you to let it go. Go at your own pace.

Let's get into the background story that lead to my wanting to be transformed. I believe this story is necessary so that one can truly grasp what lead me to this point in my life right now. Part One is how this man broke me before leaving for Training (yes, he broke my heart again after). I want to give you all the real and raw emotion this heartbreak makes me feel, as ugly as it is... On this podcast, I will always be as genuine as possible! I know we all have our own disappointments, and this is the background story on mine. However, this is not the heartbreak that lead me to want to get up and be transformed. We will get into that in Part Two. I want to make it very clear, it is not solely the heartbreak that lead me to this point in my life. I have been through a lot and this was just the straw that broke the camel's back. In a way, I'm glad it was.

Lately there have been a few instances that have lead to me mom guilt. I feel like I’m doing everything that I can, but how can a 4 year old toddler really understand what I’m really working to accomplish ? Just a disclaimer, towards the end i say 4 months but baby don’t get it twisted, we are 4 weeks away from graduation! Any professionals or moms who know something I don’t, please reach out to me on my IG: shestaybeautiful ✨ even moms who are feeling the same thing and want to share their story! It can be incorporated into my live discussions when I start video recording 🤍

Had to take a short break and evaluate myself, my past, my present, etc. I came to an important realization of myself and why I react the way I do. Abandonment/neglect syndrome is very much real. How do we treat it? Well google says self love. Let’s get into the back stories that, in my opinion, confirm this diagnosis for ME. ✨

What about when things are broken beyond repair? Dust doesn’t have to signify the end. Dust is often what must be present for the new beginning. Let’s get into it!

I have been reading this book “It’s Not Supposed To Be This Way” by Lysa Terkeurst. It is such a great book, I stopped midway to restart it and start taking notes. I love how everything she speaks on is surrounded by God. In this episode we speak on how disappointment isn’t always the devil, it sometimes just might be God leading us home. “Disappointment is not proof that God is withholding good things from us. Sometimes it’s His way of leading us home.”

Introduction of myself and my purpose for the podcast. Follow me in my path and road of complete transformation.