Soft Rebellion

My friend says I do vulnerability very well, but honestly, I only do it once I’ve survived the storm. In the moment, I still disappear and try to fix myself alone. As I get older, I’m realising that the isolation feels like double punishment.As a result, I’m learning to let my people in even when I don’t feel like my best self, trusting that I’m not a burden and that they don’t only love me when I’m rainbows and sunshine. If, like me, you’re always the strong friend, sister, daughter or partner, this episode is for you. I hope you’ll start to allow others to hold when you hurt.

I think that sometimes we mistake fear for a stop sign or a warning that something is wrong. That we aren’t ready. But I think fear is a signal that something really matters to us. It’s the tension that comes with wanting something deeply enough that the thought of failing feels unbearable. In this episode, I hope to remind you that fear isn’t always a reason to stop. Sometimes, we must see it as an invitation to push forward and do the thing anyway.

It’s so important for me that we become active participants in creating the type of relationships we want. Often times, we place the blame on others while failing to see our shortcomings. I hope this episode helps you reflect in how you’ve been showing up for the people around you, and see if there’s any areas of improvement.

I hadn’t planned for the first few episodes to be a reflection of starting this podcast but I found it fitting to be transparent about it. The lessons are applicable in various situations I hope will inspire you to start your journeys too! Let this be your evidence that where you are today is enough. You’ll refine the vision with time as long as you keep showing consistently.

I feel very unqualified to do this despite receiving encouragement from many friends and strangers. I suppose I feel anxious to share random thoughts and feelings on a “serious” platform like this unlike IG stories and TikTok where things only last for 24 hours. Still, I choose to continue despite my own feelings of inadequacy right now. Even though things aren’t perfect.

Soft Rebellion is my way of mending the divide between the extremes that make it difficult to coexist. It is meant to shine a light on those left in the middle, to know that their lives and ways of being, matter too.