I literally have nothing to update you all about except for the news that half of my country is in total lockdown, our total cases have exceeded 40k within 3 months, after 2 years of being barely in the 2000s. The harsh restrictions still affect my mental health (and not only mine, right?), so I will continue being rather inconsistent with updates until there's really some actual progress that I can share with you. Stay safe <3
As the title suggests, this episode is an update on my mental health status after having an appointment with the psychiatrist. I never thought that my previous "fails" in keeping up with hobbies for longer than a week would be related to the chemicals in my brain and not just my laziness. In the meantime, I'm accepting donations to pay off my visits to the said psychiatrist and prescribed medicines as I still haven't stabilized my freelancing career. Please visit my Buy Me a Coffee page for a monthly subscription ($5/month) or a one-time donation: https://www.buymeacoffee.com/therinajournal
Two weeks passed since the last entry in my journal, and guess what? I am struggling to get by as the days go on. I'm still firm about being a freelancer, but when you have undeniable symptoms of ADHD and GAD, it gets almost impossible to even get out of bed. So I opened a Buy Me A Coffee page for one-time donations and monthly subscriptions, and I'll be glad if you could help me cover the much-needed expenses for a few sessions at the psychiatrist, possibly prescribed medicine, and other therapy expenses that will require additional investment. The goal is $1000 for a start, link to the page: https://www.buymeacoffee.com/therinajournal (choose to either subscribe for $5/month or make a one-time donation). Thank you!
It's official - I have no idea what to write in the description of this episode. Yeah, I talk about what happened in the past week, but there's nothing much of a significance to be highlighted here. I guess this is a good filler to my life resume - setting end and mid-goals.
Nowadays I try to remind myself to not always focus on bigger goals but enjoy small wins as well. It's the journey that matters, isn't it? So I try to praise myself even for the smallest things I do throughout my day, be it vacuuming the room or noticing the ripe breadfruits outside my window (damn, I want some fried breadfruit chips!). It's important for me to not forget about what makes me, me.
I got so used to routine work that I never got to think about what would happen if and when I suddenly become jobless. Should I look for another office trap to lock myself in, or should I finally take the courage to be free in whatever I want to do? During the pandemic, it's scary to start off a freelance journey since the competition is extremely high, with everyone also going into remote jobs and side gigs that can earn them another buck to get by. But nonetheless, this is the month I claim as the start of my brand new journey, and may the Universe guide me through this to happiness I deserve.
It's not really cool when one day you're all productive and full of energy, and then the next day you can't even bring yourself out of bed. I'm not here to tell people how to stop feeling lethargic. I just want to know where my calling lies, and how to get there when the thing I'm most lacking is the motivation.
I was hanging out with my best friend the other night after I had a mental breakdown, and out of nowhere I started talking about subtle things I miss about Russia, and it turned into a full nostalgic storyline. Sharing it here because I want to someday keep my promise of taking the said best friend to Russia and let her experience things I loved about my first hometown.
I lost my job at the end of 2020. I thought that I would just rest up for 2 months while receiving unemployment relief checks and then look up a new vacancy, but it's now March, and my documents are still not submitted due to various issues. Relief over finally having a break after 7 years of non-stop grinding for money now turned into anxiety, frustration, and utter disappointment at my own self. And obviously, I'm the only solution to all of this, but it's not that easy to overcome low self-esteem.
I thought that I should somehow introduce myself to the listener, but without going through the obvious routine of resume-like introductions. This is also to prepare you for the tone and the kind of content to expect from this podcast in future episodes. New episodes will be out every Friday 10PM Vietnam time (10AM EST/ 7AM PST / 7PM GST). Blog: https://therinajournal.com
The official trailer to my brand new personal growth podcast. One of many personal diaries out here in the podcast sphere, I hope that my little yellow journal finds its loyal and understanding listener.