Tranos & the Lived Experience

In slightly more than ONE WEEK, Kamryn goes under the knife. TODAY, she talks about how this process is so freeing in the way it’s going to cut away some of the damage she’s done to herself in service of people who didn’t want her to be the person she actually is and how it’s opening up space in her life she was too cramped to move around in.This episode is musically inspired by “Contortionist” by Arankai This episode’s strain is Cherry GorillaMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

On the extended eve of her facial feminization surgery, after many setbacks, Kamryn explains what it means to her to transform her body to match what she carries around inside everyday.She explains what the content output will look like after her face has been peeled like a grape and her skull passes through the femininity forge and why she’s choosing to undergo this ordeal. And, this is Bee editorializing, I’m so proud of her. This episode is musically inspired by “Shapeshifter” by DownswingThis episode’s strain is Shape ShifterMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Tranos & The Lived Experience is back for 2024 with a very special episode! This week, Kamryn is joined by John “JC Money” Cimino, a long-time locker room colleague, a long-time friend and sometime foe. They plumb their shared history for tender memories and interrogate the moments in their lives where they couldn’t truly see each other through the filter of beef.This episode is musically inspired by “What’s Beef” by The Notorious B.I.G.This episode's strain is Apple FritterMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn@TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter,@TranosLives on Instagram

In this episode of Tranos & The Lived Experience, Kamryn reflects on the time she shared with her mother at the end of her life and how generational trauma made those times complicated even while each moment is so precious in retrospect.This episode is musically inspired by “Needles and Pins” by DeftonesThis episode’s strain is Mother’s FinestMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Kamryn returns from a hiatus not totally, entirely rested. She shares the pain she's experienced around her career with UPW and how she plans to manage it with her impending retirement. This episode was not musically inspired and isn't paired with a strain.Our theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

This week, Kamryn reflects on the sense of betrayal she feels when people who build a brand around trans advocacy only ever seem to advocate for white trans people. She relates it to her local community building events by and for the white segment of the community and talks about what’s lost by this exclusion.This episode is musically inspired by “One Of Us Is The Killer” by Dillinger Escape PlanThis episode’s strain is Planet of the Grapes.Our theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Happy yesterday! Kamryn returns on a recalibrated schedule to share her nostalgia for the Sundays of her youth, how life intervened to take those away from her and how being a Sunday adult feels so remote to her childhood Sundays.This episode is musically inspired by “Easy Like Sunday Morning” by the CommodoresThis episode’s strain is Sunday Driver Our theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Tranos watches the watchpeople this week! Kamryn has tales to tell about activism and the ways in which internal politics prevent activists from fulfilling their mission because their path is blocked by high-school-style social hurdles.This episode’s strain is Modified BananasThis episode is musically inspired by “Plugged In” by Pete & BasOur theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

This week, Tranos fails to keep it light. Bee joins Kamryn to have a fun, chill conversation but they ended up talking about how illiteracy around intersectionality causes trouble in the queer community. Oops! They’re still funny with it.This episode’s strain is Lou’s Legacy. This episode is musically inspired by “Shout” by Tears for FearsOur theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Bee is back from New York, and Tranos is back with some facts for that ass. Kamryn examines the social dynamics behind the response to the Montgomery dock melee and finds similar factors at play in every situation where marginalized people match energy where only subservience is expected.This episode’s strain is Bio-JesusThis episode is musically inspired by “Holy Roller” by SpiritboxOur theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

This week, Tranos delivers a piping hot anthology of transgressions. A person in Kamryn’s life has, over years, exemplified some of the most toxic behavior allies get up to, so she’s washing her hands of this person and collecting the runoff for the reference of other marginalized people who might have some false allies in their midst.This episode’s strain is Memory LossThis episode is musically inspired by "My Will Be A Dead Man" by Project 86Our theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Tranos has been journeying far and wide and didn't have time to record an episode this week, so Tranos & The Lived Experience will revisit an arc in the Neglectecon Saga! ---Kamryn, Andrew and Tracy convene to tell us all about growing up with a total lack of adult supervision. Together, they are The Neglectacons!The Neglectacons play Knifey-Spooney, teach us nasty Rochester geography and recount Kamryn’s teenage fashion choices.This episode’s strain is Blueberry GelatoThis episode was musically inspired by “Do Right” by Jimmie’s Chicken Shack

This week on Tranos & The Lived Experience, Kamryn talks about her shared life with Gabreal Saint. Kamryn explains how Gabreal developed into a substantial-enough person to pilot their shared life for years and how she eventually took control back by committing to becoming the woman we know and love today.This episode’s strain is GranimalsThis episode is musically inspired by “Just Pretend” by Bad OmensOur theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Tranos guides us through the maturation of her reaction to Rosa Montoya’s toplessness at the White House. Kamryn examines the ways respectability politics especially binds trans women of color.This episode is musically inspired by “Israel’s Son” by SilverchairThis episode’s strain is Sugar Black RoseDon’t forget to check out Remedial Mixtape, Kamryn and Bee's exploration of music and it's emergent cultures. Our theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Today, Tranos shares an intimate tale of Trans vs Machine. She details the embarrassing ordeal she worked through when she accidentally killed her sex toy, including several neighborly intrusions, an act of god and an electrical fire. This episode is musically inspired by “Stinkfist” by ToolThis episode’s strain is Forbidden FruitDon’t forget to check out Remedial Mixtape, Kamryn and Bee's exploration of music and it's emergent cultures. Our theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Tranos is back exploring the legend of transness. All over the United States, lawmakers spend their days arguing about if trans people are real. But here we are. Many of them have had close encounters with a trans person. Kamryn explores the relationship between trans people and other spectacular creatures whose existence is in doubt. This episode is musically inspired by “Sun Doesn’t Rise” by Mushroomhead.This episode’s strain is White Truffle.Don’t forget to check out Remedial Mixtape, Kamryn and Bee's exploration of music and it's emergent cultures. Our theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

Tranos has to take a break this week, but don''t fret! Tranos & the Lived Experience presents the first episode of Kamryn's new podcast with producer Bee. Remedial Mixtape is a guided tour of curated mixtapes where queer people discover the depths of the music they share with each other. Tranos will return at its regular time after this.

This episode of Tranos is a reflection on Kamryn’s history with addiction. She revisits how painful it was to live in the closet and how that led her into the care of a therapist who put her on the 50s housewife treatment plan of 24/7 Valium. Instead of healing, she spend a long time chemically dissociating, but she was able to free herself from that toxic cycle and talk about it with clarity here today.This episode is musically inspired by “Strung Out” by 3rd StrikeThis episode’s strain is Lilac DieselOur theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

This week, Tranos addresses some barriers to her piece. Though Tranos & the Lived Experience is striving to generate more positivity and comfort, certain people in the world are making it hard to focus on that. This episode examines the fake outrage on the right about Dylan Mulvaney’s brand deals with Bud Light and Nike. She’s an unobjectionable, white trans woman, and June’s coming up. It’s the most usual thing in the world, but conservatives and their figureheads are mobilizing boycotts where they buy a bunch of product and destroy it- which is not what a boycott is. But this misguided, flailing, ineffective outrage is drowning out important discussion about actual serious stuff like Tennessee lawmakers illegally attacking democracy in their state. There are layers of distraction that need to be peeled away before Kamryn can find room to focus on herself, but she’s still working to find that balance.This episode is musically inspired by “Like A Villain” by Bad OmensThis episode’s strain is Han Solo BurgerOur theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram

This week, Kamryn talks about a recent breakthrough: She went out in public at night. She’s struggled for a long time with feeling safe enough to venture into the dark, and she finds herself in a place where that can be an option now. She outlines the ways her trauma contributes to her agoraphobia and how her agoraphobia hampers her mental health, and she talks about how she’s working to care for herself though this cycle-breaking process.“Point #1” by ChevelleThis episode’s strain is Kosher KushOur theme music is “Supernova” by Arthur Vyncke | https://soundcloud.com/arthurvostMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC BY-SA 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/deed.en_USFollow Kamryn @TranosPod on TikTok@TheTranos on Twitter, @TranosLives on Instagram