UnMuted: the TransMuted Podcast

I know I just posted a long letter to subscribers about how I need to step away from Substack this summer in order to work on my presentation for Genspect, but Pamela Garfield-Jaeger published this charming new children’s book “Froggy Girl,” and because I enjoyed our first conversation so much, I decided to make time for this one.Pamela is a Licensed Clinical Social Worker who describes herself as ‘awake, but not woke.’ She earned a Masters in Social Work from New York University in 1999 before moving to the San Francisco Bay Area to work with teens in school and outpatient settings. Today she’s an author, speaker and consultant specializing in youth gender issues. If aren’t familiar with Pamela’s story, you can hear how she came by her unique “Rip Van Therapist” perspective on gender ideology in the episode we recorded last January.Other links:Order your copy of Froggy Girl Order A Practical Guide to Gender Distress: Tips and Tools for FamiliesWatch Pamela read Froggy Girl on YouTubeSubscribe to The Truthful Therapist on SubstackBe Pamela’s 10,376th follower on X!Be my 89th follower on X! Pamela’s websites:www.froggygirlbook.com and www.thetruthfultherapist.orgCredits:Theme music by William A. FergusonUnMuted logo art by Anne Gibbons This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit jennypoyerackerman.substack.com

This episode’s opening music is (presumably) the first and will be the last song ever written about Judith Butler, the grande dame of academic queer misanthropy, composed by who else but our William A Ferguson. Listen to the whole song without me talking over it at the end of the episode — it’s a masterpiece.Following that, I’m proud to say I got Glenna Goldis to take a break from rage-tweeting about the New York Times podcast ‘The Protocol’ long enough to give it a proper critical analysis here with me. We’re not the only ones talking about it, but we might be the only ones who had fun talking about it.Comments? Lotsa links:The Protocol 6-part podcastSarah Barker on the doped East German athletes in The Female Category “Doped Then, Transitioned Now”Jamie Reed’s affidavitThe Informed Dissent crew takes up episodes 1 and 2Jamie Reed’s Informed Dissent follow-up Glenna’s UnMuted debut episode, which goes into detail on Laura Edwards Leeper and the ‘Assessment Scam’ML’s post, ‘Marci Bowers, evangelist’Glenna’s articles: The Assessment Sham, The Trans Teen Illusion, Dr. Robert Garofalo treating teens in the 90sLeave a generous tip for William A Ferguson hereSubscribe to William’s SubstackSubscribe to Glenna’s Substack Bad FactsBe Glenna’s 4,393rd follower on X!Be my 81st follower on X!Credits:Original music by William A. FergusonUnMuted logo art by Anne Gibbons This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit jennypoyerackerman.substack.com

Miriam Grossman is a medical doctor board certified in child, adolescent and adult psychiatry. She is a senior fellow at Do No Harm and the author of five books. If you’ve read her most recent book, Lost in Trans Nation, you’ll know why I call it the definitive work on the subject that brings us here: readers who feel ‘lost’ as per the title before reading it will feel not just informed but empowered on the other side. Maybe more important: parents will feel, perhaps for the first time, that someone in the world of experts and professionals on “gender” understands what we are going through and how it’s impacting us. Dr Grossman’s books have been translated into eleven languages. She has testified in Congress and lectured at the British House of Lords and the United Nations. I’m truly honored to welcome her here. Note to grandparents and siblings of trans-identifying young people: Dr. Grossman would like to you hear from you. You can contact her via her website linked below. Links:​Miriam Grossman’s websiteBuy or listen to Lost in Trans Nation, A Child Psychiatrist’s Guide Out of the MadnessOrder You’re Teaching My Child WHAT?Dr. Grossman’s April 30 PITT article and book excerpt: My Colleagues Have Failed YouThe 2023 Congressional testimony we discussedBe Dr. Grossman’s 50,390th follower on X!Be my 76th follower on X!Credits:Theme music by William A. FergusonUnMuted logo art by Anne Gibbons This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit jennypoyerackerman.substack.com

I’ve been a fan of Vaishnavi Sundar for over five years, and it was amazing to interview her for this episode. Our mutual friend Sacha Jones of Terf Vibes introduced me to Vaishnavi after hearing me gush about her two gender-critical films, ‘Dysphoric' and 'Behind the Looking Glass.’ I binged all four episodes of ‘Dysphoric’ the minute I heard the film existed. By that time, 2019, I’d been living with an ROGD daughter for three years and felt quite alone and dismayed by the lack of objective information about the problem. ‘Dysphoric’ filled that void in a way that felt incredibly reassuring, plus it was a highly engaging a piece of art.Vaishnavi’s most recent film, 'Behind the Looking Glass,’ is the first-ever documentary about the wives and children of trans-identified men. It’s been widely celebrated for its artistry and also for the dignity and respect it shows its trans-widow subjects.We discuss le fléau sans frontières (the plague without borders) and the way it finds the peculiar vulnerabilities of disparate cultures in order to barge in and make itself at home, sporting the entitlement of the most opportunistic virus. Maybe the best antidote will prove to be the intelligent, creative expressions of truth in works of art like Vaishnavi’s.Links:More about Vaishnavi SundarWatch the 4-part series, DysphoricWatch the documentary, Behind the Looking GlassCredits:Theme music by William A. FergusonUnMuted logo art by Anne Gibbons This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit jennypoyerackerman.substack.com

Lisa Duval, PhD, is a licensed clinical psychologist based in Charlottesville, Virginia. She works with patients of all ages, backgrounds, and presenting issues but specializes in adolescence and personality disorders. She did her undergrad studies in English and Psychology at Yale, then earned a masters and a Ph.D. in Clinical Psychology from two Bay Area institutions. I will admit to feeling unequal and even intimidated by such an academic résumé, but there’s something profoundly relatable in the last sentence of her bio, which reads: “Lisa involuntarily began her education on the topic of gender ideology in 2017 and has not succeeded in thinking about much else ever since.” Just one link, but it’s a good one:Lisa’s memorable June 2022 interview on Gender: A Wider Lens episode 75Credits:Theme music by William A. FergusonUnMuted logo art by Anne Gibbons This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit jennypoyerackerman.substack.com

On April 5, I drove to Berkeley to join a peaceful protest outside the downtown YMCA in support of single-sex locker rooms. We stood alongside Elizabeth Kenney, a mother and grandmother who had recently confronted a large naked man in the women’s locker room of that same facility. I later recorded an interview with Elizabeth which you’ll hear in the second half of this episode. First, I’m excited to speak with the woman who organized that protest. She’s a teacher and art enthusiast who has also figured out how to organize and lead safe, effective protest events, and I’m hoping this conversation will provide something like an instruction manual that can be replicated everywhere.Elizabeth was the woman of the hour at the YMCA action. The courage she showed in the women’s locker room on March 26th is something that could also stand to be replicated everywhere. It wasn’t even her first rodeo, as you’ll hear!Stay tuned for an encore William A. Ferguson joint at the end!Links:Contact Jane Berns for advice on organizing and socializing: info@femalesmatter.orgBe WomenAreReal’s 30,229th follower on X Be my 70th follower on X!Subscribe to William A. Ferguson’s Substack for great original songs and writingCredits:Original music by William A. FergusonUnMuted logo art by Anne Gibbons This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit jennypoyerackerman.substack.com

Today’s guest is a woman I first met when we both attended the Genspect conference in Denver a year and a half ago. She introduced herself as a subscriber to this Substack, so I liked her immediately! I’ve had the pleasure of getting to know her fairly well since then.Her story is that of a stable, loving and high-functioning family in which two out of three kids — all smart and well-educated — announce ‘transgender’ identities during their college years. I wish I could say it’s an unusual story, but of course it isn’t. One thing I’ll note is that she and I have both noticed a strong ‘trans’ incubator quality in both inpatient and outpatient adolescent mental health programs. If you’ve noticed it too, please leave a comment, as this a problem that I think needs a lot more attention.Credits:Theme music by William A. FergusonUnMuted logo art by Anne Gibbons This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit jennypoyerackerman.substack.com

Plus: another great new terfy tune by friend-of-the-pod William A Ferguson takes us out, so stick around!“Terf Vibes” is the Substack handle of an Australian writer and feminist academic who currently lives in Auckland, NZ, where she fights for the sex-based rights of women and girls —and!— performs stand-up comedy using her stage name, Sacha Jones.This is how she describes her Substack publication, ‘Til Sex Do Us Part:’My personal/political 'battle of the sexes' as the XX author of a PhD in feminist politics and two tragicomic memoirs, one on my dancing girlhood, the other a feminist critique of the 'body positivity' movement. Also, men aren't women.Our conversation covers all the important topics of the day: politics, gender ideology, and comedy. Enjoy!Links:Sacha’s Substack, Till Sex Do Us PartHer two books published in 2024:The Fatter Sex: A Battle Plan for Women's Weight Health and HumourDon't Laugh: Keeping the Joneses Up (childhood memoir)Her (hilarious!) standup performance discussed in the conversationWilliam A Ferguson’s Substack, with his complete music catalog including “A Woman’s Work,” heard here.Credits:All music by William A. FergusonUnMuted logo art by Anne Gibbons This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit jennypoyerackerman.substack.com

This is the only photo I have of me with Jennifer Lahl. Riley Gaines’s presence in the middle doesn’t lessen its appeal, in my opinion! Taken at the Center for Bioethics and Culture benefit dinner, Diablo, CA, 2024.Jennifer Lahl began her career as a pediatric critical care nurse in the 1990s, then went on to earn a master’s degree in medical ethics before founding the nonprofit Center for Bioethics and Culture in 2000. While doing critical nursing care, conducting scientific research and raising four children, she somehow managed to also become an award-winning filmmaker —as one does, right? Jennifer has 11 documentaries to her credit, including three that are specific to gender ideology (find links below).Quoting Genspect: “Jennifer is uniquely positioned to navigate the complex interplay of science, technology, and medicine at the heart of the contemporary issues of sex and gender.” View Jennifer Lahl’s gender-related documentary films: Trans Mission: What’s the Rush to Reassign Gender? The Detransition Diaries: Saving Our Sisters The Lost Boys: Searching for Manhood, which focuses on male detransitioners.Visit Genspect.orgBecome Jennifer’s 12,576th follower on XBecome my 58th follower on X!Credits:Theme music by William A. FergusonUnMuted logo art by Anne Gibbons This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit jennypoyerackerman.substack.com

My guest, Maya, is the young author of an essay I read on the PITT [Parents with Inconvenient Truths about Trans] Substack last week titled “Breaking Free: My Journey Through and Out Of Trans Ideology.” I was delighted when she agreed to be interviewed here, and I think the conversation has a lot to offer parents with questions about online indoctrination. You’ll find Maya to be uncommonly honest and self aware, especially for someone who is only eighteen. In case you find the audio quality frustrating, I spent some time editing the transcript this week and have copied the resulting version here on my Substack home page, so there’s a way everyone can absorb the information contained in this episode. Links:Maya’s PITT essay, ‘Breaking Free: My Journey Through and Out Of Trans Ideology,’ published March 11, 2025Maya’s first PITT essay, ‘The Cult of Gender Ideology: Psychological Manipulation and Social Control,’ published March 6, 2025Credits:Theme music by William A. FergusonUnMuted logo art by Anne Gibbons[TRANSCRIPT BEGINS]:(00:00:00):Maya: Growing up Gen Z, I knew about trans people and what it was for some time so I had friends even in elementary school that identified as trans, but I always knew about it. I saw YouTube videos about it, I had a friend so I always kind of knew what it was. I didn't really think of myself to be transgender until… well I didn’t consider it until I was around 12 because like in middle school late elementary school or middle school I had mental health issues and when I was probably in middle school, I realized I was gay, or came to the conclusion that I was gay.So I joined, I contacted a mental health line for gay teenagers called Trevor Project. It was like a crisis hotline. And they recommended this website to me called ‘Trevor Space’ for 13 to 25 year old LGBTQ people, kids, whatever. So I joined that.Actually, I was 12. I was technically too young, but I said I was a year older than I was to join the site. So I joined the site essentially talking about my story, who I was, and, you know, people were very nice to me initially.And so, yeah, I became kind of attached to the site, kind of chasing that validation from people. So a lot of people on the site obviously were transgender or non binary. And they were telling their stories about gender dysphoria or why they thought they were transgender, and I related to a lot of it, actually.And they proposed, like, oh, if you think you're transgender, there's all these questions and more things like that on the site and off the site, like articles and stuff or quizzes. So after a while of questioning, I came to initially first come to the conclusion that I was non-binary, but then later identifying as transgender.(00:01:50):Jenny: Do you remember how you found out about Trevor Spaces?Maya: The Trevor Project?Jenny: Yeah.(00:02:00):Maya: Uh, I guess I had contacted, like, hotlines before, like, crisis hotlines, but I was just, that was one of the ones that was, like, recommended, specifying themselves as an LGBTQ hotline. Since I already knew I was gay at the time, I identified myself as LGBTQ, even before identifying as trans.Jenny: Okay.Maya: That's how I found about that. Just quickly search, like, the LGBT hotline, whatever, it'll pop up. So the site, after coming out, the site, after I told the site,yeah, I might be trans, of course, the validation continues. They really like this. They're saying, this is your true self. They were very affirming, which feels good at the time, because at the time, I didn't like my body. I didn't like being a girl. So it was, made me happy and comfortable for people to say, to validate that transgender identity.And so they thought, they're saying, oh yeah, this is the norm. You should be affirmed. essentially, and you should come out in person, too. Because if people… And I would say that people in person, if they're not affirming, that's abusive. So…because I've experienced that first initial affirmation, it made me agree, like, yeah, this is how I should be treated.So when I came out to my mom and she didn't react positively to that, I thought of that as her abusing me, and saw that as only possibly coming from a place of hatred for trans people and due to that, hatred for me.(00:03:38):Jenny: Can I just ask, what was your relationship with your mom just prior to all this?Maya: It really wasn't that bad. I mean, we weren't the closest at the time, but we weren't, like, fighting or anything. It was just, I think, a normal preteen teenager relationship.Jenny: Did you trust her?Maya: For the most part I mean I wasn't telling her everything about my personal life but I wasn't I didn't distrust her.Jenny: Yeah, it's a rare adolescent who tells her mother everything about her personal life but did you think of her as somebody who would be likely to be, you know, bigoted or prejudiced against a group of people like ‘trans’ people?Maya: I did for a while because she would say things about trans people she is pretty open that she's not — at the time, she was pretty open about it. So I kind of knew, but I still came out to her anyway, expecting her to be different if it's her child.Because again, at the time, people on the site would say that the only reason you would hate trans people is just out of hatred. There's no real reason for questioning them. Because this is the truth. They say it's medically proven. They say it's biological. So for them, there's no rational reason as to why someone would hate them other than just pure bigotry and hatred.Jenny: Yeah.(00:05:01):Maya: So after she didn't ‘affirm’ me, I was seeing some of the stories that they had on the site, and some of their parents, based on their stories, were actually abusive to them. So I was actually worried that she would, in turn, become abusive to me if I kept going, so I decided to kind of back out of it— to her.So I essentially told her, like, I'm not identifying that way anymore, but I actually was. And so I was kind of doing it like stealth. Like I would socially transition and do whatever I can to physically transition without it being too noticeable. But I didn't, I was trying to pretend like I wasn't identifying that way when I was.So at school, I told my friends and my teachers I was going by a different name. And to use he/him pronouns, I, um, would dress in male clothing. It was a mix, but largely male clothing. And I would, um, quote-unquote ‘bind’ with two sports bras — it wasn't really binding but it was what I had um so I kept ruminating about that and my dysphoria (quote-unquote ‘dysphoria’) worsened because you're thinking about it so much it's never gonna go away. It's essentially like insecurity: you gotta keep thinking about it and it's reinforcing the idea that your body is wrong because typically when you're insecure as a teenager you'll be like oh I'm fat, but everyone else will be like ‘no you're not’ so that you don't feel bad about that but when you're trans and you're like, ‘oh, I hate my breasts’ or whatever, they'll be like, ‘yeah, that's because your body's wrong. You should get rid of them because you're actually a boy.’So that is very affirming of the insecurity. And so I would be very uncomfortable looking at myself. For being a girl, anything female-related made me so uncomfortable.And then on the site, there were, I guess I'm trying to figure out how to word this properly… On the site, they were a little bit controlling in a way. There were, like, standards of thoughts you had to live up to or act or say that were limited on what you could and could not say or think on the site because they didn't want to associate with people who they thought to be ‘bigoted,’ quote-unquote. And so, but the most random thing would make you bigoted, like, honestly.I'll give a few examples.Like, they would have, the trigger warnings where you had to, like, say beforehand, ‘oh, I'm going to talk about suicide,’ or whatever. And then there was a feature where you could hide the text that you were about to say.And so if you did that incorrectly or didn't do that at all and made a post about something that they'd give you a strict warning for, they would get really upset.And also the belief that you didn't need gender dysphoria to be trans, they believed for some reason. And if you said otherwise, you were labeled, I think the term is TruScum, or whatever the heck. And they didn't want to associate with you. If you didn't believe in it, so.And when you're a teenager, first of all, you're seeking that validation from peers especially at that age it's also just a human thing to seek validation from other people we don't want to be alone as social creatures and when you and first and second of all the sight of kind of love bombed me or affirmed me at first so I saw them as true friends and people in person as not because my mom didn't quote unquote ‘affirm’ or support me with this and I struggled with making friends in person. So to them, they were my only friends. So if I do not conform to them, I will have no friends, which no teenager or person at all wants.So I gotta keep my mouth shut and conform to their standards.(00:08:49):Jenny: Were these like video chat rooms or was it all just, it was like a forum.Maya: So it was just like text, make a topic. Kind of like Reddit, or any forum okay so nobody's in that way no one was videoing or seeing their face it was never like in person live. And it wasn't also like Instagram or something where people's faces public it was always like a profile a stage name or a profile picture has nothing to do with your face just an identity but not a person on the site.Jenny: yeah so um were these like scheduled forums where you'd log on you know every night at seven or at some specified time or did you just sort of post a comment whenever and then get, you know, feedback whenever?Maya: yeah it was post whenever get feedback whenever. It was live all the time. So I basically because of the affirm

Our friend Karen, aka ‘Hippiesq’, returned for a casual kvetch-sesh which we recorded about three weeks ago since I knew I’d be in Washington this week for Detrans Awareness Day. Karen had shared a draft of an essay she’d written that I really liked, and I asked if she might like to record an audio version of it. This episode thus begins in lofty fashion with her reading that eloquent piece, then moves on to more of a sea-level discourse about the American morning TV show ‘The View,’ the Oscar-nominated not-a-’film’ Emilia Perez, Trump derangement, the still-galling capture of The New Yorker (it’s time for me to move on from this, I know); murder-onset gender dysphoria; a brief Old Testament bit; the Netflix series Crazy Ex-Girlfriend; and the Substack Socrates known as Gurwinder. Also noted: ‘Memory Hole’, the acclaimed podcast produced by a new friend of TransMuted which will soon release Season 2, so you’ll want to binge season 1 now if you haven’t already.And last but not least: there’s a truly fabulous treat waiting for you at the end of the episode courtesy of William A Ferguson, the composer of all the music ever used on this podcast, including the brand new gem you’ll hear at the end! Enjoy.Credits:Theme music by William A. FergusonUnMuted logo art by Anne Gibbons This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit jennypoyerackerman.substack.com

This episode is the third in a series that seeks to ‘unmute’ voices from deep in the trenches of gender ideology, and it’s the first to include a call to action that could conceivably help change something for the better.You can help Washington become the first so-called blue state to recognize the rights, safety and dignity of girls and women in sports by sharing this episode with everyone you know in the state of Washington and reposting it on social media. Just one link from the show:https://www.savegirlsportswa.com/Credits:Theme music by William A. FergusonUnMuted logo art by Anne Gibbons This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit jennypoyerackerman.substack.com

I’ve invited ML, a previous guest on the podcast and the author of two guest essays, to come back and talk about his experience with his adult son, who’s been identifying as trans for about 5 years now. Too many people, especially parents dealing with this uniquely totalizing pressure that’s often felt both inside and outside the home, also suffer from being either silenced or voluntarily silent for fear of some harsh consequence. So in this series I want to let my guests do almost all the talking. A day after ML and I finished this recording I noticed the following passage in an email from the coaching professional known on Substack as Stoic Mom. It makes for a fitting epilogue to this episode, if you remember to come back to it:“What changes for you if you allow yourself to just be human? To recognize that you’ll do your best, of course you will! And so often our best doesn’t change the external circumstances.”ML wrote these guest posts for TransMuted: This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit jennypoyerackerman.substack.com

Simon Amaya Price is a musically and academically gifted young man who was raised in Boston, America’s ground zero for pediatric sex-trait medical malpractice. In a courageously public manner, Simon has been candid and outspoken about his experience with a trans identification, a phase that began for him at age 14 and lasted for three years but thankfully steered clear of medical interventions. The person Simon credits most for his protection from medical harm is his ‘non-affirming,’ highly supportive father. I’ll leave it to Simon to tell his story, but I’ll just say that I’m delighted to have him on the podcast because he’s an extremely engaging narrator, as you’re about to hear. This episode is the first of a series that will seek to describe the first-person experiences of some of the eye witnesses to an epic scandal. Thanks to Lisa Black of @ma4women for introducing me to Simon’s work on this issue. Wherever you live, but especially if it’s New England, you should subscribe to ma4women’s Substack.One technical note: the front end of this recording has a few sound bugs for which I apologize. At about the 29 minute mark, these are vanquished and the sound quality improves noticeably. Stick around and you’ll be rewarded!Links:View Simon giving his speech, “Born in the Right Body,” which was cancelled by Berklee College of Music and later delivered at MIT.Read Simon’s recent essay on ma4Women Substack (originally published by Parental Rights Natick.): School Influenced My Trans Delusion. My Father Saved Me From It.Be Simon’s 811th follower on X!Be my 42nd follower on X!Credits:Theme music by William A. FergusonUnMuted logo art by Anne Gibbons This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit jennypoyerackerman.substack.com

It’s an honor I saved for my 25th episode to welcome Kara Dansky, the woman I wrote in as my candidate for President in both the general election and the primary! I’ll just quote the bio from Kara’s Substack since there’s no improving on her direct and straight-to-the-point prose:“Kara Dansky is a lawyer and a feminist. She is the author of The Reckoning: How the Democrats and the Left Betrayed Women and Girls and The Abolition of Sex: How the 'Transgender' Agenda Harms Women and Girls. She served on the board of the Women's Liberation Front from 2016 to 2020 and as president of Women's Declaration International USA from 2021 to 2024. Before she TERF’d herself out of a career, she was widely considered an expert in U.S. criminal law and justice, and served as the ACLU's senior counsel on criminal justice policy from 2012 to 2014. She has a BA from Johns Hopkins University and a JD from the University of Pennsylvania Law School.”We talk about the watershed Executive Orders; the loneliness of being a reality-based Democrat these days; ‘Orange is the New Black;’ adventures in co-ed sorority life; and of course, the Vietnam War. Enjoy, then comment glowingly about how much you enjoyed!Links:Kara’s Jan 29 article in The Liberal PatriotKara’s Jan 31 podcast with Glenna Goldis, The Woman’s Hour PodcastEliza Mondegreen’s Feb 2 article Radicalization Problems, Gender:HackedBernard Lane’s Feb 2 article ‘Take Cover,’ Gender Clinic NewsUnMuted’s episode 6, with KKG’s Cheryl Tuck SmithBuy Kara’s books: The Reckoning: How Democrats and the Left Betrayed Women and Girls, 2023 (JK Rowling and I loved it; you will too)The Abolition of Sex: How the “Transgender” Agenda Harms Women and Girls, 2021Be Kara’s 69,034th follower on X!Be my 39th follower on X!Credits:Theme music by William A. FergusonUnMuted logo art by Anne Gibbons This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit jennypoyerackerman.substack.com