Unyarned

Probably going to delete this later. I ghosted my therapist, but thought you should know.  -- TW -This podcast contains sensitive topics (most times) please read the trigger warning list for this episode before listening:this episode is listener friendly--  Unyarned Episode Guide incase you forget who is who, or what happened when.--Join The List get each week's journal prompts, more insights, and secret stories.

My laptop had spyware which freaked me out. I quit a job that I should have left awhile ago, but you know, "abandonment issues". This led to a conversation around my money mentality where I learned the 7 money personalities.  I use to be a compulsive saver and am now the compulsive money maker.   -- TW -This podcast contains sensitive topics (most times) please read the trigger warning list for this episode before listening:this episode is listener friendly--  Unyarned Episode Guide incase you forget who is who, or what happened when.--Join The List get each week's journal prompts, more insights, and secret stories.

I was followed by a man in the park which brings up a lot of other abuse scenarios. This was a hard episode to share. -- TW -This podcast contains sensitive topics (most times) please read the trigger warning list for this episode before listening:this episode contains physical and sexual abuse scenarios.--  Unyarned Episode Guide incase you forget who is who, or what happened when.--Join The List get each week's journal prompts, more insights, and secret stories.

I have a man in my life who texts me every single time I am about to experience a breakup.  It's a sign.  Which led me to believe breaking up with Teja was the right decision and not actually rooted in trauma.  My therapist asks me to take a step-back and reflect on my break-up with Ithan which led to a wild weekend in Chicago and purchasing a break-up puppy.  We also talk about what a healthy breakup may look like in the future. -- TW -This podcast contains sensitive topics (most times) please read the trigger warning list for this episode before listening:this episode is listener friendly--  Unyarned Episode Guide incase you forget who is who, or what happened when.--Join The List get each week's journal prompts, more insights, and secret stories.

I was a little hesitant to tell my therapist about my mushroom trips I mean, I talked to my dog, a purple circle of intelligence, and my dead grandma, but he was open to the discussion, so I did. We also discuss how I went from being strictly against marijuana to relying on it. My therapist tells me about a novel, Untethered Soul by Michael Singer and how it relates to my mushroom trip experience. We dig a little into my childhood adderall addiction that followed me into adulthood. And I realize my mind has not yet caught up to my current reality.-- If you are experimenting with psychedelics, please do so in a safe environment with people you trust. -- TW -This podcast contains sensitive topics (most times) please read the trigger warning list for this episode before listening:this episode contains drug use--  Unyarned Episode Guide incase you forget who is who, or what happened when.--Join The List get each week's journal prompts, more insights, and secret stories.

I reflect on a long-time partner coming out to me after I had a dream about him hooking up with his best friend.  At the time, we discussed a mixed-orientation relationship, and living together for financial purposes. I explain how my best friend found him on grinder. And how obsessed with him my mom was. Me and my therapist also look at why it was a fear for Liam's, including his homophobic father. -- TW -This podcast contains sensitive topics (most times) please read the trigger warning list for this episode before listening:this episode contains discussions and situations involving homophobia--  Unyarned Episode Guide incase you forget who is who, or what happened when.--Join The List get each week's journal prompts, more insights, and secret stories.

A man from my past that my psychic warned me about comes back, so of course, I tell my therapist. My therapist picks up on the fact that I often take on a mother role in life, we dig into my mother issues, how it impacts my  relationships today, and what I can do about it. -- TW -This podcast contains sensitive topics (most times) please read the trigger warning list for this episode before listening:this episode is listener-friendly --  Unyarned Episode Guide incase you forget who is who, or what happened when.--Join The List get each week's journal prompts, more insights, and secret stories.

When I am interested in someone, it's likely because they have taught me something. My therapist and me discuss sapiosexuality, and if it should be labelled as an orientation.  I explain what I think the difference is between intelligent and genius. My therapist asks me to imagine a tree and then explains what my tree represents. -- TW -This podcast contains sensitive topics (most times) please read the trigger warning list for this episode before listening:this episode is listener-friendly--  Unyarned Episode Guide incase you forget who is who, or what happened when.--Join The List get each week's journal prompts, more insights, and secret stories.

I started driving again which leads to me telling my therapist about two serious car accidents I have been in.  I also detail how Teja met my parents. We take a look at my ex's old text messages which makes me realize that the only reason I even thought of going back was because I hit my head really hard. -- TW -This podcast contains sensitive topics (most times) please read the trigger warning list for this episode before listening:vehicle accidentslow detail suicide discussion--  Unyarned Episode Guide incase you forget who is who, or what happened when.--Join The List get each week's journal prompts, more insights, and secret stories.

An allergic reaction led to my biggest binging session in years. We discuss why I like to keep it semi-secretive. My relationship with food.  And action items to start healing.-- TW -This podcast contains sensitive topics (most times) please read the trigger warning list for this episode before listening:eating disorders--  Unyarned Episode Guide incase you forget who is who, or what happened when.--Join The List get each week's journal prompts, more insights, and secret stories.

I put my instagram on private and then saw that I had a hometown follower, a horror, so I told my therapist. Somehow that leads to me exposing my sugaring experiences. How it started, who knew I was doing it, and the different relationships I had with some of the fathers.  We also look into research that explains the different types of sugaring relationships as well as potential reasons why my sugar fathers participated in arrangements in the first place. -- TW -This podcast contains sensitive topics (most times) please read the trigger warning list for this episode before listening:paid arrangementssexual experiences--  Unyarned Episode Guide incase you forget who is who, or what happened when.--Join The List get each week's journal prompts, more insights, and secret stories.

My therapist let me know that he thinks emotion is energy in motion. I told him how I try to see emotion as colour, and he let me know we can take it further. So now, I'm learning how to identify emotions using Plutchik's model, and it turns out my lack of emotional regulation could be related to a lack of development, due to childhood trauma. I also discuss the things i find funniest in this world and how Teja's thinking annoys me to my core. --LinksInteractive version of Plutchick's Wheel Of EmotionsYouTube - Save Ralph -- TW -This podcast contains sensitive topics (most times) please read the trigger warning list for this episode before listening:this episode is listener friendly --  Unyarned Episode Guide incase you forget who is who, or what happened when.--Join The List get each week's journal prompts, more insights, and secret stories.

I start by mentioning to my therapist that I have requested (but have not yet received) my foster care file, and that phone calls freak me out. I also let him know that I broke into my parents unlocked safe once. I raise my concerns with the foster care process, and issues I have with science, and adoption. My therapist tells me about CPTSD (complex-post-traumatic-stress-disorder). We discuss the lessons I learned prior to turning six, including roots of my competitive and independent nature. We also take a quick look at Maslow's hierarchy of needs. -- TW -This podcast contains sensitive topics (most times) please read the trigger warning list for this episode before listening:foster carepsychical abuseparental neglect abandonment --  Unyarned Episode Guide incase you forget who is who, or what happened when.--Join The List get each week's journal prompts, more insights, and secret stories.

I ask my therapist if he believes in monogamy.  We examine how my first relationship started as fully monogamous until one of us needed a way to explore our sexuality....Which led to my next monogamous relationship with Ithan, that is... until he cheated. My therapist also explains to me that sexual fantasies can have meaning, and I discover why group sex turns me on.-- TW -This podcast contains sensitive topics (most times) please read the trigger warning list for this episode before listening:sexual fantasies of all types infidelity --  Unyarned Episode Guide incase you forget who is who, or what happened when.--Join The List get each week's journal prompts, more insights, and secret stories.

I had to find out what the plan for this therapy thing was, I mean, I live by spreadsheets so it's only natural.  Also in this session, I tell my therapist about the time my friend caught me in a weird act, I vent about how my ex boyfriend was always late, and how crying became part of my skin care routine. My therapist told me that this was because I need to feel safe, have control, and attempt to avoid chaos based on , you guessed it, my childhood. So, now,  I am attempting to become responsive not reactive to stressful situations. -- TW - This podcast contains sensitive topics (most times) please read the trigger warning list for this episode before listening:graphic description of the thoughts and feelings I have during stress--  Unyarned Episode Guide incase you forget who is who, or what happened when.--Join The List get each week's journal prompts, more insights, and secret stories.

I had to complete a pretty intensive "intake form" before starting my therapy "sessions".  --TW - This podcast contains sensitive topics (most times) please read the trigger warning list for this episode before listening:very low detail - biological family separation --Unyarned Episode Guide incase you forget who is who, or what happened when.--Join The List get each week's journal prompts, more insights, and secret stories.

I read that therapy is like dating, so I went online, and found the hottest therapist I could find. I'm kidding, humour is just something I use to control conversations.--TW - This podcast contains sensitive topics (most times) please read the trigger warning list for this episode before listening:this episode is listener-friendly--Unyarned Episode Guide incase you forget who is who, or what happened when.--Join The List get each week's journal prompts, more insights, and secret stories.