Vital Signs by Humar

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How to have a good day as a pessimist

2022-09-1112:41

How indeed! It's election day in Sweden and I just voted for the first ever time in my life! I have a lot of things to rant about this election and politics in general... Also I mentioned SD without introducing them, it's currently the third largest party in Sweden, believed soon to be the second largest, their main agenda is immigrants bad, and they are Nazis. How fun!

I'm doing surprisingly okay.

2022-06-2331:01

A midsommar update :) Also talked about my recent realization on not pretending to be your peer anymore.

To become part of a thing, to practice empathy.

2022-04-2237:12

I try to build connections with others just to make it less likely that I end up falling into a void. Because every link, strong or not so strong, would help holding me in place, like a spider web without a spider waiting to eat you, which is nice. Mentioned in the episode: Outcry and Whisper: https://www.chinaindiefilm.org/films/outcry-and-whisper/ Strangers I know: https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/59043356-strangers-i-know

Very not a default human being.

2022-04-1629:54

My brain was only 50% capacity while recording, turns out it's one of those meh days before I get my period. It's hilariously noticeable, please enjoy an authentic recording of me navigating through my brain fog.

I can't keep habits or hobbies, my brain keeps glitching them away.

2022-04-0732:37

Sorry for disappearing for three weeks! I'm super excited to tell you about why :)

Some problems can't be therapied away

2022-03-1942:20

I encourage everyone to seek professional mental health support if possible, but I also believe there's something more to be done. At a point, it stops being about mental health, but about politics.

Maybe we face the pain, instead of trying to avoid it at all cost

2022-03-1230:36

Painkillers don't really kill the pain, they just make it easier for us to stay ignorant and avoid addressing the problem. This can't last forever, maybe next time we choose to take the pain, instead of painkillers.

Staying alive as a full-time job

2022-02-2528:55

And here's what I learned.

Things that make me happy, also I'm clinically smart

2022-02-1827:51

This week has been good enough and we now have this happy bubbly episode :)

I don't need to feel hopeful anymore and it's liberating.

2022-02-1138:48

I got kicked out of "normalcy" and I find it nice out here. And if you have the means and won't mind helping me stay warm, here's my Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/humar

Some days I wake up and I can't English.

2022-02-0430:29

...this one is still in English tho. I speak baby Uyghurche, heavily self censored Mandarin, functional English and barely started Swedish. They all work differently in my brain, and I often lose one or two of them when I'm low.

How my ADHD helped me thrive under Chinese education system, for a little while

2022-02-0128:55

...and also got me traumatized for life 🙄️ Thanks for listening to another episode of Humar talking to an imaginary friend for half an hour.

Living in Sweden as a refugee.

2022-01-3025:30

In this episode, I check on my mental health vital signs as usual, and then talk about being a refugee in Sweden, while walking around looking like an exchange student.

And let's talk survivor's guilt.

2022-01-2529:01

I left China in 2017, almost the latest possible time for an Uighur person to do so. I am, unfortunately, lucky, and let's talk about it. CW: Nothing specific but painfully emotional.

Introducing Vital Signs, or answering "How is Humar still here?"

2022-01-2241:22

How does one survive all these? By being a human, I believe. CW: Mentioning of body image issues.

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