wandering into the void

In this raw, unfiltered solo episode, I dive deep into the exhausting cycle of dealing with toxic people while mentally struggling to keep it together. If you've ever felt gaslit, emotionally drained, or like your mind is your worst enemy, this one’s for you. I unpack the subtle manipulation tactics used by energy vampires, the guilt spiral of overthinking, and the brutal truth about healing, especially when it means being alone.This stream-of-consciousness-style rant explores how toxic behavior sticks in your brain, how it intertwines with mental health issues like dissociation, depression, self-harm urges, and paranoia, and the internal war of trying not to become what hurt you. It’s messy, painful, brutally honest—and 100% relatable for anyone feeling like they’re barely surviving in a world full of fake smiles and passive-aggressive texts.Topics Covered (for SEO + content indexing):Signs of toxic people in daily lifeMental health and toxic relationshipsGaslighting in friendships and online spaces (like Discord)How toxic behavior affects self-perception and identityOverthinking, self-blame, and spiralingEmotional manipulation and passive-aggressive behaviorThe loneliness of healing and setting boundariesStruggling with routines and dissociationIntrusive thoughts and negative self-talkCoping with emotional exhaustion and brain fogSelf-harm as a response to emotional painThe fake confidence of toxic peopleThe fear of becoming toxic yourselfTrying to stay kind without being a doormatThe curse of introspection and emotional sensitivityHumor and childhood coping mechanismsInternalized abuse and broken self-trustDiscord drama, group chat trauma, and social anxiety

Diving headfirst into the chaos: therapy, antidepressants, psych ward stories, existential dread, and why Captain America: Brave New World wasn’t it. Plus, deep thoughts on Invincible, Harley Quinn, Fleabag, and the eternal question—does anything actually get better? Strap in for a raw, unfiltered rant session where self-improvement meets nihilism.Topics Covered: Therapy & medication: Does it actually work? My psych ward experience (not as bad as TikTok says), Movie & TV rants: Captain America: Brave New World, Invincible, Harley Quinn, Fleabag & more, Student loans: The modern curse, Existential spirals & why I feel like a ghost, Wanting to escape but being too broke to do it

Think life’s got an emergency exit? Think again. In this episode, we’re crash-landing into the chaos of modern existence—why hustle culture is a scam, why "balance" is a lie, and why we can’t all be like A$AP Rocky (no matter how much we manifest). If you’re tired of self-help gurus peddling productivity like it’s salvation, buckle up. This is the anti-motivational pep talk you didn’t know you needed.Topics Covered: The myth of balance (aka, why I’d rather burn out than fade away), Hustle culture and why it’s just capitalism with a wellness filter, A$AP Rocky vs. the rest of us mere mortals, Emotional plane crashes (and why I refuse to brace for impact), Passion vs. practicality—why chasing stability feels like slow death, Why feeling everything is better than feeling nothing at all, The fear of mediocrity and why comfort is the real villain, Why playing it safe is just another way of dying early

Ever stared at a wall for so long you start beefing with it? Wondered if boredom is just a symptom of late-stage capitalism or if you’re actually just built wrong? Yeah, same. In this episode of Wandering Into the Void: A Rantcast, we dive headfirst into: The existential horror of boredom, Why scrolling is a psychological graveyard, Making bad decisions for funsies (cut your own bangs, text your ex in Morse code, etc.), Anhedonia and the art of feeling absolutely nothing, Meds that fix the symptoms but steal your soul (shoutout Risperidone), Peripheral ghosts and hallucination hangovers, The guilt of existing when you were raised to be useful, not loved, Mothers who see you as a servant instead of a person, Why forgiveness feels fake and overrated, The weird limbo of still being here but not really living, The absolute fraudulence of “just find a hobby”, Creating terrible, ugly art as an act of rebellion, Disappearing for a day just to prove you can, The desperate need to just exist without expectationFollow, rate, comment, or share—because if you vibed with this, you’re probably a fellow ghost wandering the algorithmic abyss.

feel like nothing helps? i ran out of meds, money, and motivation... and somehow didn’t fall apart. or maybe i did—and just started liking the view. this one broke me. but it made sense after.in this raw, unfiltered spiral, i talk about life after antidepressants, what happens when the system drops you, and the strange peace that comes from stopping the fight. this episode isn’t medical advice. it’s a voice note from the edge. for the non-compliant, the misdiagnosed, the ones detoxing from pills, people, and expectations.if you’ve ever felt punished for choosing your own path, shamed for trying to feel again, or just tired of being “fixed” into someone you’re not—this one’s yours.👇 carrd for support/donations/resources:erelyt.carrd.co#wanderingintothevoid #selfhealing #spiritualawakening #antipsychiatry #mentalhealthtruth #naturalhealing #deprescribing #rawpodcast #faithoverpharma #noncompliant #emotionalresilience #innerwork #spiritualgrowth #cancelled #antiwoke #authenticself #mentalhealthawareness #shadowwork #truthseeker #christianminimalist #mentalhealthgrift #youarenotalone #breakthecycle #unmedicatedandalive #faithoverfear #ritualsoverroutine #rawtruth

ever feel like you’re talking to yourself on the internet? yeah, same. in this episode, we dive headfirst into the existential chaos of content creation, online validation, and the creeping horror of silence. is posting just a desperate attempt to prove we exist? is the void actually listening? and most importantly—why do we keep scrolling when we know there’s nothing new? join me as i rant, overthink, and probably contradict myself in this anti-self-help therapy session disguised as a podcast.topics covered: the absurdity of chasing numbers online, the fear of silence vs. the fear of noise, how the algorithm gaslights you into thinking you're important, social media as a never-ending feedback loop of existential dread, the illusion of progress when no one's actually listening, the art of screaming into the void and making it aesthetic, why we keep posting even when we know it doesn’t matter, & the seductive, terrifying nature of pure, unfiltered quiet.#screamingintothevoid #existentialdread #contentcreation #algorithmhell #onlinesilence #socialmediaanxiety #digitalexistence #internettherapy #selfhelpbutmakeitnihilism #overthinkingoutloud #postandperish #voidposting #existentialpodcast #antiinfluencer #contentcrisis #scrollingintotheabyss #whywepost #onlinevalidation #algorithmgaslighting #quietdespair #creatorburnout #rantcast #nihilistpodcast #lonelyinternet #aestheticdread #podcasttherapy #digitalnoise #absurdcontent #invisibleaudience #thevoidislistening #meaninglessposting #numbersdontmatter

is life just a poorly coded simulation? are we all just background npcs running the same glitchy script? do breakfast food rules even make sense?? in this episode, we spiral into the abyss of existential dread, corporate overlords, social collapse, meaningless routines, the government watching you, ai stealing your soul, breakfast anarchy, and why baby otters are the only thing keeping us sane.perfect for mindless scrolling, dissociating, or pretending you're productive while ignoring your laundry. tune in, vibe out, and question your entire existence with me.#howtohaveanexistentialcrisis #existentialdread #simulationtheory #npctheory #lateNightThoughts #spiraling #deepthoughts #conspiracymemes #socialcollapse #breakfastanarchy #aiiscoming #thegovernmentknows #nihilismcore #absurdism #dissociationstation #mindlessscrolling #weirdyoutube #darkhumor #podcastvibes #mentalspiral #whyarewehere #philosophyshit #backgroundnpc #babyottersaveslives #collapsecore #2amthoughts #anxietyfuel #thisisfine #everythingisfake #glitchinthematrix #burntoutbrain

Where I scream into the void, and it screams back. Tonight, we dive into the illusion of originality, free thought, and whether your brain is just a well-optimized content farm. Are your ideas even yours? Or are you just a walking, talking algorithm puppet? We unpack the ouroboros of content consumption, the fear of new ideas, and why quitting the internet cold turkey sounds nice—but let’s be real, you won’t do it. Topics Covered: When was your last original thought? No memes, no TikTok trends, just you? The myth of originality—Shakespeare, Greek fanfiction, and artistic theft through the ages. The algorithm doesn’t just know you—it is you. Viral content: why everything has to feel like something you've seen before. You’re not addicted to entertainment. You’re addicted to the scroll. Can you actually log off? No, seriously. Try. The digital panopticon: Who benefits from your existence online? (Spoiler: Not you.). If you’re still listening, congrats—you’re part of the problem.

Are we really thinking for ourselves, or are we just NPCs in the algorithm’s favorite simulation? In this episode, we unpack why humanity decided to bully AI like it’s the new kid in school, the terrifying content creator-to-algorithm pipeline, and whether we’ve already outsourced our personalities to the For You Page. We also spiral into a healthy dose of existential dread—because what’s a podcast without questioning your entire digital existence?Topics Covered: Why do we treat AI like dirt? The college dropout-to-content creator pipeline is real. Are influencers just AI’s unpaid interns? The ouroboros of engagement: AI trains us more than we train it. Is the algorithm actually running our lives? The internet time loop—why every discourse is just recycled drama. Have we already lost the ability to have original thoughts? The horrifying possibility that we are just anxious AI with flesh suits.

This episode is a raw, unfiltered dive into the messy, nonlinear reality of healing. Is growth just another form of escapism? Are we truly getting better, or just better at avoiding what hurts? Society loves a clean-cut version of healing, but the truth is far messier—filled with spirals, distractions, and uncomfortable truths. If you’ve ever questioned whether you're actually healing or just numbing the pain with endless distractions, this episode is for you.Topics Discussed: The illusion of healing vs. the reality of distraction, Society’s romanticized version of self-improvement, Numbing pain with social media, work, and entertainment, The fear of never actually healing, The danger of distractions masking real emotions, The cycle of pretending to be fine vs. truly facing the pain, The struggle of accepting uncertainty in the healing process, The pressure to “have it all figured out”, Finding meaning in just surviving, and The importance of showing up, even in the mess

Welcome to Not Like the Other Podcast, where the chaos is real, the spirals are deep, and nothing is ever neatly wrapped up. This episode is all about creation vs. existence—what it means to make, to produce, to chase dreams, and whether any of it actually matters. Is podcasting a passion or just another hamster wheel? Can we ever escape the pressure to constantly be something? And when does the hustle become just another distraction from the real questions? We get existential, we get messy, and we ask the big, terrifying questions about identity, purpose, and the meaning (or meaninglessness) of it all. If you've ever felt like you're running in circles, drowning in content, or just vibing with the void, this one's for you.Topics Discussed: (in order:) The grind of podcasting – Is it fulfilling or just another job? The illusion of productivity – Are we creating, or just distracting ourselves? Nature as pure chaos – No peace, only survival. Overthinking everything – The endless spiral of self-doubt. Content creation addiction – Why we can’t stop making. The moving goalposts of success – What happens after “making it”? The pressure to be ‘on’ – Why stepping back is necessary. The reality of distraction – Are we healed or just busy? Authenticity vs. performance – Are we just playing a role? Finding meaning in the mess – Maybe the point is that there is no point.

What even is home? A safe haven or a battlefield of expectations? In this unfiltered rant, we unravel the chaos behind the 'perfect home' myth, the lies about belonging, and why maybe the mess is where the truth lives. Think life’s about finding your place? Think again.Topics Covered: The myth of "home" and societal expectations, Why suffering is the only constant truth, Belonging vs. self-acceptance, Cultural and generational pressure to find comfort, The paradox of hope and its chains, Chaos as the foundation of life’s truths, Building your own definition of home, andWhy perfection in life and identity is a lie.

Dive headfirst into chaos as we unpack Mayfair Witches (Rowan’s tragic family dysfunction, Lasher’s cosmic trolling, and suspicious ‘natural causes’) and Harley Quinn (King Shark’s nut agenda, Ivy’s toxic trauma arc, and the world’s worst babysitting gig). Plus, existential meltdowns, fake control, self-sabotage, and why life feels like speeding down a highway to nowhere. Fridays just got messy.Topics Covered: Mayfair Witches Season 2, Episode 3: Rowan, Kirtland’s shady vibes, family meltdowns, and the thrall spell disaster, Harley Quinn Season 5, Episode 2: Ivy’s origin trauma, Jason Woodrue’s villainy, King Shark’s comedy gold, and Harley's chaos management, Existential rants on control, self-sabotage, and humanity’s addiction to chaos, Philosophical musings on life as an endless, confusing road trip, and Sneaky promotions and the curse of perfectionism.

Diving into a chaotic stew of seasonal depression, capitalism as an MMORPG, spicy-but-bland ramen, and the existential crisis of slowing down in a hustle-obsessed world. This week’s unscripted rant covers everything from why I’m declaring it brat winter, to TikTok moon lamps, creepy Instagram ads, and why posting a podcast once a week feels like a rebellion against the grind. It's raw, it’s messy, and honestly, it’s just me vibing with my turtleneck and Sprite.Topics Covered: Why life feels like spicy-but-bland ramen, The creation of Brat winter (because I'm late to Charlie XCX), Seasonal depression as a lifestyle™, Capitalism as a glitchy MMORPG, Creepy hyper-personalized Instagram ads, The existential meaning of “living in the present”, Social media burnout and the hustle culture trap, Shifting from daily to weekly podcasting—lazy or strategic?, The toxic pressure of “consistency” in content creation, Questioning the need for fame, clout, and grind culture, and Why slowing down feels like rebellion in 2025

Is doing nothing the ultimate rebellion? In this chaotic society obsessed with hustle culture, productivity worship, and existential dread, this episode dives headfirst into the art of mindful laziness, the power of boredom, and why squirrels are better at life than us. From dismantling capitalism’s hatred of naps to redefining rest as resistance, join the existential ramble about why doing nothing might just save your sanity—and the world. Warning: void-staring is encouraged. Topics Covered: Hustle culture and capitalism’s obsession with productivity, The guilt of doing nothing and how to fight it, Daydreaming and its hidden benefits for creativity, Burnout vs. mindful laziness: the fine line, Nature as the ultimate anti-capitalist role model, Boredom as a gateway to freedom and fresh ideas, Lazy activism: can rest be a form of rebellion, Corporate "self-care" scams vs. true rest, Practical tips for guilt-free nothingness, and Why leisure was sacred to ancient philosophers

Trapped in a never-ending cycle of wake, scroll, repeat? Welcome to a raw, unfiltered deep dive into the daily grind that feels like a simulation glitch. From time loops to burnout, sensory stagnation, and battling inner demons, we’re pulling no punches on why life feels like purgatory—and what, if anything, you can do about it. Plus, some existential rambling about society's BS and the illusion of control. Warning: chaos ahead.Topics Covered: The monotony of daily routines and the "Groundhog Day" effect, Time loops, deja vu, and existential dread, Sensory stagnation and the numbing effect of repetition, Battling OCD, depression, and burnout, The illusion of free will and society's programming, Finding meaning in the chaos and the void, Why self-help sucks but tiny breaks matter, Laughing at life's absurdity as a survival strategy, and Chasing hollow achievements and rejecting societal boxes

From cancel culture to toxic fandoms, this chaotic rant dives headfirst into the messy debate: can we separate art from the artist? Should the personal lives of creators affect how we see their work? Is canceling artists a solution, or is it just stifling creativity? This podcast explores hypocrisy, historical context, moral judgments, accountability, censorship, and why idolizing creators must stop. Expect unfiltered opinions, spicy takes, and existential dread about society, culture, and the future of art.Topics Covered: The myth of the perfect creator, The messy relationship between art and its creator, Cancel culture vs. accountability, Toxic fandoms and idol worship, Historical context and evolving cultural values, Censorship and the blurry line of "protection", Art as a reflection of society and activism, The role of the audience in shaping art's value, and The emotional power of art beyond the artist's flaws

Brace yourself for a rant-packed journey as I roast both sides of the extreme spectrum—LGBT performative allyship vs. fragile haters, activism turned identity crisis, and the cultish chaos of social media echo chambers. This episode dives into the illusion of control, the ego's tantrum, and why stepping out of the fight might just be the ultimate resistance. Are you brave enough to confront the cringe? 👀Topics Covered: Performative allyship vs. performative hatred, Rainbow capitalism & corporate hypocrisy, Obsessive activism vs. "bootstraps" ideology, Social media outrage and its dopamine-driven trap, Living in the gray: freedom from extremes, Ego traps and identity illusions, and Detachment as the path to real peace

Is the TikTok ban the start of the Internet's collapse, or are we just running in circles with new platforms and, the same problems? This unfiltered rant dives into social media whiplash, the illusion of free speech, corporate censorship, the algorithm’s chokehold, and the endless game of digital musical chairs. Buckle up for <30 minutes of chaos, satire, and a little too much truth. Welcome to the scrollpocalypse. Topics Covered: TikTok ban fallout, Social media dependency and "whiplash", Creators vs. haters: the clash of internet tribes, The illusion of free speech on corporate platforms, Algorithmic control of thoughts and culture, Government censorship vs. corporate censorship, Rise and fall of platforms (RIP Vine, hello clones), The never-ending cycle of new apps and same issues, Cancel culture and the fear of free expression, Global implications of censorship (China, the UN, and beyond), and The digital Hunger Games of engagement and controversy

In this episode, I question everything: society’s obsession with productivity, my descent into psychosis, and the void we all try to fill by endlessly scrolling. From losing podcast followers over controversial rants to Minecraft nomad challenges and soy milk allergies, this episode spirals deep into the absurdity of modern life. Join me as I wander—mentally, digitally, and literally—trying to find meaning in a world designed to keep us lost. Not all who wander are lost... but maybe we are. Topics Covered: Losing podcast followers: rejection or validation? Controversial takes: abortion and the art of making people think. Psychosis, delusions, and the struggle to trust your own mind. Digital wandering: the endless scroll and algorithm traps. Feeling trapped in routines, systems, and government bureaucracy. Minecraft nomad life as a metaphor for freedom. Soy milk allergies: chaos in a cup. The beauty of wandering without a destination. Challenging society’s obsession with productivity and structure. Existential dread disguised as a 2-mile walk. Why we’re all just lost wanderers in a digital wasteland.