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(On Hiatus)*Trigger warning: some episodes we discuss drugs/self-harm/sexual trauma, ect.* AJ shares his experiences with BPD, anxiety, and depression along with his husband Cris. Together they discuss their relationship's special challenges, mental health issues, and their lives as introverts. Our goal is to share personal struggles and different mental health journeys. We are not mental health professionals and have no mental health qualifications but our own experiences. We're just two introverts in love dealing with life.♥️ For ad-free episodes, become a Patron! https://borderlineidealist.com/links
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My self-esteem is in the gutter. I didn't realize how bad it was. I'm haunted by expectations and perfectionism.My positive self-talk is there, but sometimes the negative voices win. So, I'm beginning a journey to reprogram myself so I'm not always playing the villain. I want to motivate myself not to belittling myself, but build myself up! -AJ
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May is mental health awareness month, and also BPD awareness month. Both are important to expose people to the truth about mental health issues and fight stigma.
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Update on AJ's structure and schedule and how we can motivate ourselves out of procrastination.
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It's Friday, so I want to get as many things done as possible. Usually cleaning a room takes extra time (more than an hour), also because I'm trying not to be distracted by social media. Etsy, poetry, and #artistproblems included!
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Another day, another dinner. I really had a good day today.
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There are important things to do each day (making an appointment, calling a friend, emergencies, ect.) but don't let that slow you down! No one is perfect, but hell, we can try right?
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Recovering from a depressing day, I come to terms with my doubts and fear that seem inescapable. Press on!
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Monday was a hard day. I want to concentrate on my life, but thinking about it got me pessimistic. But I won't stop! *episode contains talk of suicide*
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What happens when you fail? What even is failure? On this episode we discuss the missteps, roadblocks, and our eventual relapse into our old schedule despite the efforts set in motion 2 weeks ago. More importantly, we discuss how to learn and pivot to pursue our goals more efficiently and intelligently.
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What have I learned so far? Weekends are non-negotiable! And also, I love the feeling of focus and motivation in the sun.
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Trying hard to get what I want done to better myself and my surroundings.
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Mid-week report
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Wasn't a perfect day. A lot of factors affected how my day turned out. The importance of the schedule is being able to get the things done that I want to get done in a timely manner. I feel like I didn't do my best today. I can't wait to try again tomorrow! 😳
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First day of my schedule! Monday is here. This is how it went. The ups, the downs, the cats 🐈
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Procrastinating seems to be a bpd trait. DBT teaches that structure is a great way for our minds to stay active and for us to feel productive. Like me, you may have started projects with grandiose ideas and very motivated, but then slowly became disheartened and discontinued. Our feelings are connected to our motivation so it's important that we take care of ourselves and develop good habits to pass the time.
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We're being a little silly and celebrating Valentine's day by playing a game. 🍭♥️
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What is Racial Trauma? In this episode, we discuss what can cause racial trauma and our own experiences dealing racism. While there are various symptoms associated with racial trauma, we focus PTSD, Depression, and Anxiety.
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These are our most used DBT skills since learning them in 2020, most commonly used to benefit our marriage and our other relationships. There are many skills but these are the ones that have benefited us daily.
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Join us as we review the year that will live in infamy—2020! We discuss the special interviews, DBT therapy, Self Care Walks, Patreon, and our top three most listened episodes: "High Functioning BPD" (July 26), "7 Things People with BPD Want You to Know" (May 10), and "Questions on BPD" (May 27). As we say our final goodbyes to 2020, we want to thank each and every one of you for sticking with us through this rough year. We hope you'll join us in 2021—see you on the other side! <3
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Do you know who you are? We all go through changes, but BPD can constantly shift your emotions and self-esteem.
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I could not relate more. I felt like he was speaking my inner thoughts aloud, and I won't deny I shed a few tears. Sending hugs to all who suffer childhood trauma well into adulthood. ❤️
"I'm still alive" and "I'm still fighting" are the two heroic statements that brought me to tears this episode. Well done, AJ! You give me me so much hope! ❤️
so I've been trying to figure out whether I suffer from BPD or not...and this just ensured me... I'm just the same way...I totally understand what these self lost and emotional situations feel like...wish there was a cure.. thank you for helping me get the view of someone with BPD and at least getting to know about myself more...
hi yeah I want to comment. I have only recently discovered this and is 100% for sure what I have. it hits the nail on the head of every symptom Bpd entails. . and I go through mania quite often. I found my sister brutally murdered and lost my mother when I was joined at the hip with, to suicide along with some childhood sexual abuse and some abusive adult relationships. so I suffer from depression as well and I have found in my depressive states or when I'm going into a paranoid state assuming my husband bbn is wanting someone else for example because he though a out glancing her way . these are the only times of hallucinations I will ever experience during mania
I can totally relate to that aspect of enjoying interacting with strangers. I prefer getting a smile or a hello from a stranger than having to have a conversation with a friend. Ive just been diagnosed with bpd actually at 47 It's nice to know there are others like me!
What meds do you find helpful?
Hi pw Me too! This is so exciting. I've just stumbled upon this too and I've never felt so comforted by another person's words before
Omg I've just started listening to this and you are describing me! I'm 47 and seeing a shrink tomorrow for the first time properly ever. I feel about 100 now and so tired of life. It's exhausting. So good to listen to you on this xx
Okay, a few minutes in on the first podcast and I genuinely can say that I have never related so much to someone.
Wow! I'm an INFP and have BPD as well. Can't wait to start listening!