The Firefighter Deconstructed

Gary Hayes comes to us all the way from the United Kingdom! He is the Co-Founder of PTSD999, a charity organization that raises money to provide therapy and services for first responders. They also provide training to help educate and spread the word that PTSD is real and can affect anyone. He is a former police officer and constable in London, United Kingdom and he was a member of the 3rd Battalion Royal Green Jackets. He was a semi-pro football player. After spending most of his life being a “roughy toughy bloke”, the years of trauma began to add up and brought him within inches of taking his own life. Now he shares his story with his fellow officers and first responders and works his butt off to help those who are struggling. Gary is an amazing man who you don’t want to miss. PTSD999Gary Hayes on LinkedInGary Hayes on IG

This episode is with the amazing Nicki Impastato! Nicki and I sit down and talk about her life working as a dispatcher while raising two kids with her Battalion Chief husband. And then we talk about doing all this while struggling with PTSD. Nicki also worked in a system that didn’t know what to do with her when she started struggling. She says, “There was something seriously wrong with me, and they knew about it, and nobody took care of me.” We so often depend on those around us to point out that we are struggling because sometimes we cannot see what is going on around us when we are just trying to survive. Nicki also talks about finding a life and purpose after a long career as a dispatcher. One place she landed was in an equine therapy program called Zenerosity and she became an equine specialist. This woman is truly amazing - I promise you will feel better about everything after listening to her. nickii@me.comZenerosity Equine TherapyChristy's article about Equine Therapy at ZenerosityChristy's Website and Link to book Flash Point: A Firefighter's Journey Through PTSD

Veteran firefighter Egan DeLosCobos sits down with the firefighter deconstructed and talks about how the body holds on to stress and what happens to our bodies if we don’t deal with it. Egan and his 3 year old son somehow survived a crazy car accident and although they both walked away with only a few bumps and bruises, the stress of it all ended up attacking Egan’s body. After going round and round with doctors, he finally learned that the key to becoming healthy again was to deal with his PTSD. Using everything he’s learned, he is now a wellness coach making incredible impacts in people’s lives. @eganfirstwellness (Instagram)www.firstwellnesshealth.com (Website)@EganFirstWellnessHealthCoach (YouTube)

Pirate to stuntman to paramedic/firefighter to podcaster and back to stuntman. He’s traveled and worked around the world. He saw the fire culture's damaging effects on its members and that with becoming a single parent, he decided to choose his son over finishing his career. I find this very brave as so many of us say we would choose our family/kids over anything in the world, being a firefighter fulfills a deep need we have that the fear of leaving the job is too overwhelming. I remember wondering who in the hell leaves this job by choice? It’s almost like I didn’t even know that was possible. James shows what a firefighter who grew up learning good coping skills looks like versus those of us who grew up just trying to survive as a kid and are still currently using coping mechanisms that just don’t serve us anymore as adults. We talk about sleep deprivation, and what the fire service needs to do to make us healthier and have better longevity on the job. jamesgeering.comBehind The Shield PodcastOne More Light By James Geering

Josh and Olivia sit back down with the Firefighter Deconstructed and talk about having to put their marriage and their lives back together for the second time and why they are so much stronger because of it. This episode embodies how marriage really is about two imperfect people who refuse to give up on each other. The insights they share are inspiring and applicable to everyone's lives and relationships. Below are links to each of their previous episodes on this show and tell the back story of this episode. I HIGHLY recommend listening to these episodes also. But you don't need to understand this episode.Josh first episodeOlivia first episodeFront Line Strong Together - First responder 24/7 Crisis line

Rob Weisberg is a volunteer firefighter in the state of NY. He happened to work across the street from the World Trade Center. When the Towers were hit, he made his way to a nearby fire station and offered his help. He ended up managing a fire station packed full of the injured and lost. Rob developed PTSD and after realizing how much his, “…family took it on the chin,” he decided to do something about it. He took on a mission of hiking the Appalachian Trail by himself. Rob shares with us his incredible “behind the scenes” story at 9/11 and his own personal aftermath. He also tells his incredibly and healing journey on the Appalachian trail. This one is a must listen, all the way to the end. And after, check out his incredible pictures of this journey on his facebook page listed below.www.facebook.com/RobWeisbergAppalachianTrailHikergw164@outlook.compawsofwar.org

Kyle, a firefighter with 11 years of service, is no longer on this planet because he was tormented by PTSD and had learned that it’s not ok to ask for help. Our guest, Kerrie Murphy, bravely shares her story of losing her younger brother Kyle. The ramifications of suicide are devastating to those left behind. In this episode you will learn the world is NOT better off with you gone. We must learn it is Okay to ask for help!!!! This story is heartbreaking but so much hope and life come from Kerrie’s story.

This is Part 2: Living Skills. In Part 1 we hear about all the trauma that Teri has beent through while keeping a big smile on her face. In this part 2 episode, Teri shares the rug getting pulled out from under her and then how she put her life back together. She talks with us about how falling into the darkest hole imaginable made it possible for her to transform a life of surviving into a life of living. She shares so many insights and endless inspiration. You will learn so much from this conversation.www.behavioralfitnesstoday.comChristy Warren website

This is truly a special 2 part episode with former EMT and then emergency room nurse then emergency room director Teri DeLaMontanya. Teri grew up in turmoil and trauma and learned to “make the most of it” in order to survive. Never allowing herself to feel pain or anger, Teri went through life just constantly moving forward and keeping that happy smile on her face - that is until the rug was pulled out in front of her. In this part 1 “Survival Skills,” Teri shares her childhood and adulthood story and how she developed the skills to survive.Behavioral Fitness Christy Warren

James Beal is a paramedic for the Nashville Fire Department. Not only is he being incredibly brave by telling us his story, but he’s talking about it on a podcast — when one of his greatest vulnerabilities has been talking. He grew up with a stutter and childhood trauma. James tells his story with raw authenticity and has something everyone can learn from. You don't want to miss this one.

Lawerence Williams is a 21 year veteran with the Nashville Fire Department. He is as tough as they come. Lawerence struggled with alcohol and PTSD symptoms until he finally went to the IAFF PTSD recovery/rehab center. While there he thought the whole thing was "stupid" and planned on coming home. His wife told him either stay there and get better or don't bother coming home." He stuck it out and 30+ days later he left the Standard of Excellence center a man well on his way to recovery. Like so many of us, the shame and stigma kept him from accepting what was happening to him until he was about to lose everything.

Audra and Chelsi are two firefighter's wives and work-from-home mothers, with a combined 20+ years of experience as first responder spouses. They host a no-BS podcast, on a mission to break the stigma of mental health in first responders while amplifying the voices of their significant others. Together, they smash the negative feelings that come along with being a first responder family, replacing them with positive thoughts and compassionate curiosity. Tune into Dear Chiefs Podcast weekly for candid conversations with mental health experts and advocates and a first-hand look into fire family life with Audra + Chelsi.email: hello@dearchiefs.comwebsite: http://www.dearchiefs.cominstagram: www.instagram.com/dearchiefspodcastfacebook page: https://www.facebook.com/dearchiefspodcastfacebook community: https://www.facebook.com/groups/dearchiefspodcast/TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@dearchiefspodcastTwitter: https://twitter.com/DearChiefs

Retired firefighter and military guy Jim Madison is on the show. He is the epitome of resilience. That saying, it’s not how many times you fall down, but how many times you get up. Jim has had to get up off the floor MANY times. He has suffered multiple injuries on the job and has ended up in a wheelchair. That hasn’t stopped him. He races hand cycles and is going to compete in the Los Angeles marathon March 19th. This guy shows that as long as you don't give up you can keep living life and be happy.https://www.instagram.com/jim.madison.handcycle/https://www.gofundme.com/f/disabled-veteran-handcycle-racerranger_jim68@yahoo.comhttps://www.facebook.com/notlate.forsupper

Keith joins the podcast and shares how his life fell apart and after a diagnosis of Complex PTSI, he put it back together. His road to recovery included 6 suicide attempts. He shares incredible insight into what drives some to suicide.Keith Hanks is a retired Firefighter and EMT that dedicated 21 years of his life to the service of others. He serviced his community as a training officer, certified educator, and field training officer. Keith worked both inner-city EMS as well as fire. Like many in the first responder community the job has its cost. From childhood trauma, traumatic calls, the traumatic passing of his first wife and sexual abuse Keith has faced many trials and tragedies that resulted in self-harm, substance abuse, lies and multiple suicide attempts. After decades of damage Keith began to put the pieces of his life back together. Keith was diagnosed with Complex PTSI in 2015. The job, the service, his dedication caused this injury, and consequently his retirement. What PTSI didn’t change was the love and devotion to his community and to his fellow first responders. Keith has since dedicated his life to advocating for mental illness, substance and alcohol abuse recovery, and suicide awareness.

I had the honor of being a guest on the incredible podcast, A Slight Change of Plans hosted by cognitive scientist Maya Shanker. Apple named A Slight Change of Plans the best podcast of 2021 and it has over 10 million downloads and Dr. Shanker took the time to interview a retired firefighter/paramedic amongst all the celebrities and well known people she usually interviews. Her podcasts are nothing short of amazing. She puts an incredible amount of work into each one and nails the stories right on the head. I loved my time talking with her and she got my story exactly right. I hope you don't miss this one. You can find A Slight Change of Plans anywhere you get your podcasts.Slight Change of Plans Podcasthttps://www.instagram.com/drmayashankar/christyewarren.com

This is the second time Tyler sat down to talk about his journey with PTSD. The first episode he talked about his critical incident that sent him down the PTSD rabbit hole. This time he comes back on to talk about the next phase: retiring from his passion, his identity and having to find a new life. His insightful, articulate and an all around awesome guy.

Ret. Paramedic Cheri Garcia sits down with the Firefighter Deconstructed after a short winder break. Cheri talks about realizing she couldn't do the job anymore without it further ruining her life and who she was. She had to reinvent herself and who she is - and she did with with grace and perserverence. Giving back and helping to save us is what she aims to do.

Michael Loew was a Firefighter and Paramedic for almost 30 years. He cruised along pretty well until he was caught in the middle of the Carr Fire. The Carr fire, burned 229,651 acres of the Shasta and Trinity counties, burned down over a thousand homes and killed 3 firefighters and 5 civilians. Michael talks about his experience at the fire and the effects the danger and devastation caused for him. This will be the last episode until January of 2023. Christy is taking some time off to regroup and get the show running on full instead of near empty. I hope you will be back for next season and thank you for your time!

Don PembertonDon sits down with Christy and talks about coaching first responders to create and maintain healthy lives and actions that can help PREVENT Post Traumatic Stress. He and the organization, 1st Responder Coaching, really have something here that all first responders could use--either as individuals or as whole organizations. I really encourage you to take a listen. This service has the capability to help so many people.website: www.1strespondercoaching.orgUse the promo code: deconstructed to save 10% off your first month of coachingfacbook group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/1strespondercoachingInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/1st_responder_coaching/Personal Contact:https://www.instagram.com/firstresponderlifecoach/linkedin: https://www.linkedin.com/in/donald-pemberton/

Retired police officer Stephanie Polizziani spent 15 years as a police officer, most of them for the city of Berkeley and then moved on to Benicia. She began to feel her life become dark. She planned on just keeping her head down on and not dealing with it. That is until her husband, also a police officer, told her she needed to get some help. Stephanie has a unique perspective as a police officer and a police officer’s wife. She shares how it feels different now to be a police officer’s wife as a stay at home mom. Stephanie also incorporates how all the recent anti police rhetoric has affected her during her career. She is very tough and carries a huge heart.