Becoming Miriam Podcast

Welcoming to the Becoming Miriam Podcast Season Three! Forreal this time! lol When this collab was first brought up in a chat with Jesus (my producer and friend) I found myself hesitating and filled with fear that he would regret wanting to work with me, that I would let him down and it would just be better to not even try. And that lead to the reflection that I do that in all areas of my life. I fail in advance by simply not believing in myself and my worth. Let's explore these thoughts! And I hope you all enjoy this new chapter of the podcast! www.becomingmiriam.com IG: @becomingmiriampodcast www.youtube.com/@becomingmiriam Producer IG: @dorayproductions

Honestly after listening to this I hate it I felt so awkward and uncomfortable talking for some reason 😂 but oh well let's share my thoughts and headspace right now.

Happy 2024! To kick off the new year and what I'm calling Season Three of the Becoming Miriam Podcast, I wanted to share how my new year went and were my mind is at during new year season. Spoiler, its not pretty lol. I've also made the decision that during this year I'm going to try to push myself to talk more about how I feel, deal, and manage grief within my life. After all, this is a place to document my journey and path to becoming Miriam, a version of myself I'm happy with. Grief is a very big part of my life and it is something I have been avoiding for a long time. With that said, some episodes may end up being audio only so you can expect a mix of audio-only and video podcasts this season. As long as I'm pushing forward, that's all I can do for now. Thank you for being here. www.becomingmiriam.com IG: @ becomingmiriampodcast Youtube: youtube.com/@becomingmiriam

I know this year has been all over the place for me, especially here on the podcast. It truly feels like I lived so many different lifetimes this year. It is crazy how much happened this year. The first half of this year was a completely different universe compared to the second half for sure. From people coming back into my life, losing more loved ones, having no hope for anything, to deciding to invest in hobbies and interests again, it has all been a wild ride. I wanted to do one last episode to close out this year. I truly hope the new year can get back on the path to becoming Miriam, a version of myself I can be happy with. Season three of the Becoming Miriam Podcast starts in 2024! Mentioned: Unconventionally Miles - Becoming Miriam PT. 1 Con Palabras Bien Life With Martha Instagram: @ becomingmiriampodcast www.becomingmiriam.com

First 'Therapy Thoughts' of what I'm calling season two of the podcast. I actually really like this recap as I think it was an important session. Today was my first therapy session since finding out of my close friend Denisa's passing. It was a hard session of course, but I think it was important and will be impactful as I continue down this journey of growth, healing, and becoming. It's difficult, but I am trying really hard to not get lost in the darkness again. Thank you for listening and sticking with me on this journey. Oh and to clarify, Eliza, was my dog who was more like my daughter. Not human daughter. But dog daughter.

I wanted to share a few important updates in my life. As I've discussed before,  I've been struggling for a while now, while also angrily refusing to take steps to feel better. I wanted to stay stuck in this bad place. But it has gotten too difficult and I just know I can't keep going like this anymore. So I'm finally taking the first steps to getting better, I'm back on my ADHD medication and I'm back in therapy.  But don't let the serious updates fool you, I'm also chatting about the Slime movie and Bad Bunny. How random. LOL  I'm excited for some of the upcoming ideas for the podcast, I'd love to hear your feedback or ideas also! 

I'm not gonna lie to you all, I was kind of just rambling here so idk if any of this made any sense. I think I was just kind of projecting my insecurities and feelings of not being important in peoples live. I completely understand that others have their whole lives and cannot be fully invested in me and my healing journey, just as I don't have it in me to be FULLY invested in theirs. I do my best because I know the feelings of loneliness too well, but even still I know I can't hold their hand every step of the way, which is what I wish I had for me I guess. Because going through these dark times is exhausting and the worst, so of course I don't want to do it. I wish somebody would just come and do it for me, hold my hand and walk me through the healing process. But as we all probably know, this is my healing journey and only I can hold my own hand. Knowing this doesn't make it any easier, I still get these ugly thoughts of feeling like nobody cares. I was just venting about it I guess. But to be clear, I know I have good people in my life who DO care. So I'm sorry if this episode makes me sound ungrateful.

Anime and RDCWorld1 have been my biggest support system through this depression! Here's the story on how they come together for the DREAM Convention and how not getting tickets lead to a big cry. 

I guess I'm back. I wasn't sure I would ever come back after the last few months. But maybe it can be a good distraction for me lol. I'm not sure the direction the podcast will take. In all honestly, it may not be the most positive place to be. But I guess we'll find out together if you choose to stick around again lol.  But one fun update is I'm trying out video again! Video should be available on Spotify and YouTube now!

I wanted to jump back into the podcast and start with a general overview of what I've been up to this summer! BTW, I think my fan is on its last leg! Sorry if you can hear it struggling toward the end LOL I should have turned it off but it was too freaking hot so I needed it! Thanks for listening! Talk soon New cosplay IG: dressupdarlingmiri

my initial, right out of the movie, thoughts and interpretations. I'm sure there will be more thoughts the longer I sit with it but wanted to drop these off first cause let's be honest idk when I'll have time to really sit and record a more thorough episode about it. I think the song Baptized in Fear is a great one to tell this story as well.

Trying to get myself out of such an overwhelming week as I'm full into this new chapter of my life! But I want to make it a point that I really want to continue to prioritize my own self-care and making time for the things that make me happy, and truly the things that have played the biggest role in getting me to this point of well-being that I am now. So with that said, I went to Anime Arizona this weekend! Let me tell you about that too! Thank you for being here. www.becomingmiriam.com

Let's chat a bit about the next chapter of my life, and the imposter syndrome that comes with it. Not only that, but also reminding myself that humans are multifaceted and don't need to be locked into only one identity. Thank you for being here. www.becomingmiriam.com

I just needed to explore some feelings on some personal current events this weekThank you for being herewww.becomingmiriam.com

This week we have a fun yap about reading and bookish things! lololThank you for being here!www.becomingmiriam.com

The takeaway here is to just go for whatever is it you want to go for. Time is going to pass regardless so it is better to do it and do it slow, than to wait for the "right time" that is not guaranteed. Thanks for being here! www.becomingmiriam.com

a bonus yap about F1 75 and my love for formula one. also some random psychoanalyzing about why I probably thrive as an F1 fan and finally how I love when my friends and I have varying levels of interests on things. I wanna either be the obsessed one that can dump all my info on my friends, or I wanna ask all the questions and learn everything you know that I don't. lmao thanks for being here

I had a little bit of a plan coming into this but didn't know it would turn into all this. I think it ended up being an good message tho LOL! Thank you for being here. www.becomingmiriam.com

Let's chat about the new year finally! Thank you for being here www.becomingmiriam.com https://www.youtube.com/@becomingmiriam https://www.instagram.com/_allthingsmiri

Trying to find the balance between expressing everything I have been feeling in regard to the current events and social issues without a full crash out and ranting about every detail. It's been sooo much! Thank you for being here. www.becomingmiriam.com https://www.youtube.com/@becomingmiriam https://www.instagram.com/_allthingsmiri