mirror monologues

april 4, 2025 ◡̈please forgive me for my never-ending thoughts about love grrfrom the movie, the life listis he the one checklist:is he kind?can you tell him everything in your heart?does he help you become the best version of yourself?can you imagine him as the father of your children?⋆˙⟡♡ intro/outro credit: levitation by dima-tyshko ⋆˙⟡♡

february 16, 2025 ◡̈it was just after valentine's day... who could stop a girl from sharing her thoughts about love?jk i forgot most of what i said here. all i know is just i'm a sucker for real, genuine love, that's all. oa-ly belated happy valentine's day, human beings!⋆˙⟡♡ intro/outro credit: levitation by dima-tyshko ⋆˙⟡♡

december 1, 2024 ◡̈welcome to the audio version of my notes app drafts!here are some thoughts (ie. episode ideas) that didn't make it into full episodes, so we talked about them efficiently in this episode instead!the silence is screaming / when silence screamslife is arbitraryindecisiveness and regretsmy unhealthy relationship with foodyour own pace, your own goalsimpostor syndrome men & women body and eating disorders and health and all!transport disparityprincess treatmenttoxic fucking masculinity aka djpgrateful annoyancesgeneral optimism, patiencerest is soooo necessary⋆˙⟡♡ intro/outro credit: levitation by dima-tyshko ⋆˙⟡♡

latecast | october 23, 2024 ◡̈hi, friends. i missed you! how's life been lately?sorry for being mia. these past few months, i have been reverting to different outlets for my thoughts & feelings; hence the lack of episodes. i would try to record then fall asleep, get lost in my train of thought, or just outright have no idea how to convey my thoughts in the first place. the podcasters app also removed the free music/sounds library pa, so instead of this mirror monologues being a low-maintenance thought diary, i needed to actually bring an identity into it. of course i didn't want na mema lang. intentional tayo in this place haha!anywayyy, i am now in the right headspace to publish all the semi-successful episodes i did before. first up: embrace your pace — this is one of my favorite mottos in terms of living in the now. truly, life is not a race. however people try to pose na we have to achieve certain things at a certain age, i hope we get to see and embrace our own journeys. notice the ages of which people in your life got their first job, started working on their passion project, bought the things they just once dreamed of, or even got married. are they the same? of course not. our circumstances, priorities, and goals vastly different from one another. i hope you're proud of where you are today. i know i am (of you, just in case i needed to clarify that pa haha)!⋆˙⟡♡ intro/outro credit: levitation by dima-tyshko ⋆˙⟡♡

latecast • july 10, 2024 ◡̈i forgot i had this recording! let the title speak for itself na lang haha sorry. i think this is v important though!the conclusion is basically… it all boils down to family :”) i hope that we don't let our traumas define us, and for the people who are privileged enough to have such a stability, i hope they recognize how lucky they are, and pass it on.

latecast • june 28, 2024 ◡̈
a few ganaps that reminded me that life is still so vast and there are still many people to meet (and have crush on EME)!i’m a small fish in an endless, still unexplored ocean. i’m a small dust in a massive universe.it’s okay to let go of grief; it doesn’t negate what we once had. it’s okay to have hope again.

latecast • june 19, 2024 ◡̈
as vague as it sounds, this episode talks about the supercut of of the reality of it all — life, death, and everything in between.
what’s out of our hands? what’s in our control? how do we deal with either? both?
life is so complex, and that’s what makes it interesting — even worth-living… i hope!

latecast • may 22, 24 ◡̈[uploaded this last may but unpublished din kasi the day after, hindi na ulit ako okay haha!]note: this is a share ko lang episode guys so para lang ‘to sa gusto chumismis sa buhay ko hahaha. promise, useful episodes na next time ^.^when all is said and done, there’s nothing left to do but move on (and remember)… so ayon, welcome to the first phase of my acceptance stage yie! in this episode, i just shared my progress in my moving on era. after two months, i can finally say na hindi na ‘ko umiiyak everyday and tanggap ko na, for real hehe! i know this is not a linear process at all, but from where i was just weeks ago, i’m already really really really grateful to where i am now. ito pala yung sinasabi nila na bigla ka na lang magigising :”)when all is said and done, magslay ka na lang ems. miss u guys! gala and chika tayoooo! stay safeeee!

if i don’t mean anything to you, bat pa ‘ko andito? ems!hi, friends. firstlyyyy, this episode is very personal, so please don’t listen if kailangan nyo ng life lessons from this girlypop. wala tayo nyan ngayon haha.anyway, losing someone who occupies a huge part of your heart is so hard kasi they tend to bring this whole part of you with them. now, i’m stuck in this endless void — afloat — not knowing where to go or what to do next.because of this ganap, i also realized how much of my self-perception and identity is built around other people. i’m literally just the puzzle pieces of what i am to them. kaya pano na lang pag lahat sila nawala? sino na lang ako?oK ayun lang naman. ps. this ended sa heartbreak drama na naman, sorry na! 🥲thank you so so so much for listening, guys!gaya nga ng sabi ko sa mga umabot sa dulo ng 1-hour episode na ‘to (bakit? pano?), message nyo naman ako oh. binging bingi na ‘ko sa katahimikan hahaha. i’d greatly greatly appreciate your presence in any form :’) 🤍 ayun love u all very much!

from the shallowest goals to the most massive dreams — one way or another, you’ll get there. so live through everything and try to survive for the hope of it all :’)ps. i’m so sorry this episode ended a little blue. i really wanted this to be hopeful (and i did my very best to make it one). but i swear my current heartbreak situation has turned my eyes to a sensitive switch button hmp.anyway, hope you still enjoyed & found a little glimpse of hope :’) love you all so much!

just as i was staring to make peace with the possibility that i may really deserve the little stability i had, life reminds me that i really don’t :’)it was all too much that i just really wanted to vent about my chaotic life lately. this episode is chaotic itself haha feel very very free to skip!a little note that i wasn’t able to share sa episode: these problems have been very heavy kasi i feel like kahit in a dark place talaga ‘ko most of the time, it was always just in my mind. parang lagi lang regrets from the past and worries about the future. but ito lately, everything was happening at the moment and it was all so real. i couldn’t just escape from them the way i do from my mind battles :(anyway, ayun lang. grr sorry for the tears & thank you thank you thank you. hope you’re in a good good place right now 🤍

hello friends! i recently learned that self-harm is not limited to entailing physical pain. in this episode, i talked about the many many ways one may be doing self-harm subconsciously. don’t worry, this episode is not *that* dark para ‘di mahirap pakinggan. take care of yourselves, oki? (this episode is not encouraging sh in any way. it’s solely made to raise awareness)

ha, you guessed it! here are my inevitable thoughts after watching life-changing movies :”) question life with me or simply enjoy in my despair, depends wherever you are in life right now haha.

my year started chaotically woohoo! so this is just an episode of a messy soul opening up to you, my internet bff(s). walang key messages today guys, sorry. also, just a little warning: i CRIED. that’s allz i missed you all! LOVE U FOREVER!

hi, friends! this mirror monologue contains my thoughts (that may or may not make sense) about time. we appreciate it or we hate it — there's no in between. char! yun lang, warning on medyo lutang moments hehe. missed this and you so much! take care :')

hi, friends! wala lang, nasad lang ako bigla tapos nagka-epiphany, "hala, ganto pala talaga 'pag mentally unstable!" ayun, idk where this was going pero it led to deeper sadness + tears ahu. pero it ended naman na oki and may random chika hahaha u can skip naman as u wish :> that's all. sana okay lang kayo & please don't fall into my quicksand! love you all so much <3

[reposted bc i impulsively unpublished this series // 03-15-22] hey, friends! this is part two of a mini personal nostalgia series called ‘down the memory lane’ :) for this second episode, it's the notes app's time to shine! it's been my friend ever since, and so almost all these came from my heart (except from things to do & other school reminders hahaha). i cried in this episode just bc... tysm, little me! judge my grammar with me in this episode! enjoy these random notes, my existential crises through essays, and eme poems mwa

[reposted bc i impulsively unpublished this series // 02-12-22] hey, friends! this is part one of a mini personal nostalgia series called ‘down the memory lane’ first up, i dug into my old clear book. laugh, cringe, and reflect with me as i go through my hs + summ elem projects :D really enjoyed this aaaa!

hello, friends! these are three random kwentos lang ng mga sinusupress kong little things pero paulit ulit ko na nao-overthink kaya labas ko na rin hmp. as in smol things, super babaw lang :< anyway, i've been trying to shrug these off, rationalize things para 'di ako masyado mabother, pero ayun... mind & feelings & all other shit. literal na skl episode 'to. i did my best para may onti ring advice / message sa dulo huhu. yun lang naman HEHEHE. ily all!

hi! ofc, i'm not a love expert... i'm way too far from that aaaa. i just feel (and cry!) so much whenever i watch a movie but could never properly record a podcast ep on one. this one's finally a success yay! i just watched on your wedding day, and this is pretty much a reflection on love & a little reality check on the things that come with it. it's fun, it's sad, and it can be so unfair. i hope love is kind to you! :')