‘I felt like I was smoke and mirrors: putting on an act to try to be what I thought a man should be, rather than having any sense of who I was as me.’

James McDermott talks to podcast producer Sam Ruddock about addiction, fertility, male potency, and moving away from ego.

Hosted by James McDermott: www.jamesmcdermottwriter.weebly.com

Produced by Story Machine Productions: www.storymachineproductions.co.uk

Music by Jordan Mallory-Skinner

For more on Mantor: The Masculinity Conversations see here.

Supported by Arts Council England's Emergency Fund.