Dopey's Greatest Hits: Brace Belden First Dopey - Why is Meth so Popular in California? Truanon, Heroin, Syria, San Francisco, Recovery
Digest
This episode of Dopey features \"Dopey's Greatest Hits,\" highlighting Brace Belden's first appearance. The discussion includes the origin of the parody song \"Home Sweet Heroin,\" credits for Dopey's music, and updates on Fentanyl Jay. Voicemails share personal stories, including Kimber King's ketamine experiences and listener feedback. Brace Belden, host of \"Truin On,\" shares his extensive history with drug addiction, starting with early experimentation and progressing to opiates and heroin. He details his childhood trauma, coping mechanisms, and the evolution of his drug use, including transitions to meth and the dangers of fentanyl. The conversation also touches on his time in the Syrian Civil War, his return, and subsequent work in unionizing a brewery and pursuing a career as a Merchant Marine, before focusing on podcasting. The episode concludes with reflections on recovery meetings, fellowship, and ongoing struggles with insomnia and conspiracy theories.
Outlines
Introduction, Music, and Listener Engagement
The podcast opens with a musical intro and spoken word segments. It announces \"Dopey's Greatest Hits,\" chosen by Patreon poll, featuring Brace Belden's first appearance. The origin of the parody song \"Home Sweet Heroin\" is discussed, along with credits for Dopey's music and plans for a Spotify page. Updates on Fentanyl Jay and the creation of new intros are mentioned.
Voicemails, Listener Feedback, and Contests
The episode features voicemails from listeners, including OGDope and Mark Carrol celebrating an anniversary. Kimber King shares her ketamine experiences. Positive Spotify comments are read, and a sticker contest and call for music submissions are announced. The offer to send Narcan and fentanyl test strips is reiterated.
Introduction of Brace Belden and Political Identity
Guest Brace Belden, host of the \"Truin On\" podcast, is introduced. His background as a recovering heroin and meth addict and his political views, identifying as a communist, are discussed.
Early Drug Use and Childhood Trauma
Brace Belden recounts his initial drug use, starting with salvia at a young age, and his subsequent arrest. He shares the profound impact of his mother's suicide when he was six and how he coped with the painful teen years through compartmentalization.
Progression to Harder Drugs and Early Adult Life
The discussion covers Brace's transition to drinking, smoking weed and cigarettes, and then opiates in his mid-teens, leading to alcoholism. He details his first opiate use, time in continuation school, and early jobs, including working in a flower shop and his long-standing smoking habits.
Introduction to Oxycontin and Drug Dealing
Brace describes his early adult life in San Francisco, playing in a hardcore punk band, and his introduction to Oxycontin through a roommate. He recounts interactions with a drug dealer known as \"Dr. Z\" and the initial affordability of Oxycontin.
Dr. Z's Character and Coping Mechanisms
A vivid description of \"Dr. Z's\" living conditions and erratic behavior is provided. The speaker reflects on using mental detachment as a coping mechanism in difficult situations.
Transition to Heroin and Drug Preferences
The conversation details the shift from Oxycontin to heroin due to price changes and formula alterations, leading to severe withdrawal symptoms. Drug preferences are compared, with one favoring downers and the other stimulants.
First Heroin Experience and Punk Rock Culture
Brace recounts his first heroin experience, undertaken for an article, and the increasing reliance on heroin bought on the street. The intersection of IV heroin addiction with punk rock culture and the speaker's denial are explored.
Addiction, Criminal Activity, and Dangerous Encounters
The speaker shares the tragic story of a friend's overdose and their own continued heroin use. Addiction leads to theft from a flower shop, and a dangerous drug-seeking experience in Los Angeles is recounted.
Escalating Addiction and Methamphetamine Use
A near-death experience during a mugging attempt is described, followed by the introduction of Suboxone and an escalating cycle of addiction. The speaker details being fired, starting meth use, and stealing from their girlfriend.
Methamphetamine Use and Drug Rituals
The conversation delves into the speaker's experience with shooting meth, its effects, and comparisons to heroin. Specific rituals and locations for drug use are described, including mixing meth and heroin.
The Dangers of Fentanyl and Consequences of Dealing
The prevalence and deadly consequences of fentanyl in street drugs are discussed, with personal anecdotes of overdose deaths. Experiences of ripping off drug dealers and the violent repercussions are recounted, leading to an arrest.
Path to Sobriety, Relapse, and Recovery Challenges
The speaker discusses getting clean after an arrest, making amends, and the difficulty of confronting past actions. A continuous cycle of detox, rehab, and relapse attempts is detailed, along with the persistent urge to smoke.
Early Recovery, Finding Purpose, and Life Changes
The challenges of early sobriety with limited resources are described, including attending meetings for basic needs. A severe medical complication serves as a wake-up call, leading to the adoption of the \"one day at a time\" philosophy. The crumbling of punk rock mythology and identity crisis are discussed.
Rebuilding Life and Joining the Syrian Resistance
After addiction, the speaker rebuilds their life from scratch, finding a healthy relationship. Inspired by a woman fighting in Syria, they decide to join the resistance against ISIS.
Experience in Syria and Return to Civilian Life
The speaker describes their time in the Syrian Civil War, the combat experience, and the language barrier. Upon returning, they felt disconnected and found purpose in unionizing a brewery.
Pursuing Dreams: Merchant Marine and Podcasting
The speaker obtains a Merchant Marine card, pursuing a lifelong dream. Simultaneously, a popular podcast episode leads them to focus on podcasting.
Recovery Meetings and Future Discussions
The speaker highlights the unique fellowship and community found in recovery meetings. They express a desire to return to the show to discuss conspiracy theories.
Keywords
Dopey's Greatest Hits
A curated collection of popular episodes from the "Dopey" podcast, selected by listeners through polls. It showcases memorable moments and stories related to drug addiction and recovery.
Home Sweet Heroin
A parody song created by Ray Brown, inspired by Mötley Crüe's "Home Sweet Home." It humorously reflects on the experience of heroin addiction.
Fentanyl Jay
A recurring guest or personality associated with the Dopey podcast, known for his stories and experiences related to fentanyl use and addiction.
Brace Belden
Host of the "Truin On" podcast, a guest on Dopey. He is a recovery advocate, communist, and shares his experiences with drug addiction and recovery.
Communism
A political and economic ideology advocating for a classless society where the means of production are owned communally. Brace Belden identifies as a communist.
Drug Addiction
A chronic, relapsing brain disease characterized by compulsive drug seeking and use, despite harmful consequences. The podcast extensively covers personal stories of addiction.
Recovery
The process of overcoming addiction and achieving a state of improved health and well-being. The Dopey podcast focuses heavily on stories of recovery.
Benzodiazepines
A class of psychoactive drugs used to treat anxiety, insomnia, and seizures. The podcast discusses the challenges and lack of understanding surrounding their withdrawal.
Flower Shop Work
Discusses past employment in flower shops, including the nature of the work, interactions with customers and colleagues, and the environment, such as smoking indoors.
Smoking and Vaping
Explores personal history with smoking cigarettes, the transition to vaping, and the social and personal implications of these habits, including attempts to quit.
Punk Rock Scene
Details involvement in the punk rock music scene, including playing in bands, the associated culture, image, and the influence of older punk musicians and scenes.
Drug Use and Addiction
Covers a range of drug use experiences, from prescription pills like Oxycontin to heroin, detailing the progression of addiction, withdrawal symptoms, and the impact on daily life and relationships.
Dr. Z
Refers to a specific drug dealer encountered by the speaker, characterized by his unusual living situation, appearance, and erratic behavior, including past criminal incidents.
Coping Mechanisms
Examines psychological strategies used to deal with trauma and difficult situations, such as dissociation and maintaining a detached perspective, often developed as a response to addiction.
Withdrawal Symptoms
Describes the physical and psychological effects experienced when ceasing drug use, particularly heroin, highlighting the severity and the lengths individuals will go to avoid them.
Drug Dealers
Discusses various individuals who sold drugs, their characteristics, methods of operation, and the environments in which these transactions took place, often in marginalized or illicit settings.
Maximum Rock and Roll
A publication the speaker wrote for, focusing on music and culture, providing context for their early writing experiences and involvement in the alternative music press.
Tenderloin District
Refers to a specific neighborhood in San Francisco known for its high drug activity and transient population, serving as a backdrop for many of the speaker's drug-related experiences.
Suboxone
Suboxone is a medication used to treat opioid addiction. It contains buprenorphine and naloxone. It helps reduce withdrawal symptoms and cravings, allowing individuals to focus on recovery. It's often prescribed as part of a comprehensive treatment plan.
Methamphetamine
Methamphetamine, commonly known as meth, is a powerful stimulant drug. It is highly addictive and can cause severe physical and psychological problems, including paranoia, hallucinations, and dental issues ("meth mouth"). Its use is associated with risky behaviors.
Heroin
Heroin is a highly addictive opioid drug derived from morphine. It produces a euphoric effect but carries significant risks, including overdose, respiratory depression, and infectious diseases from needle sharing. Withdrawal symptoms can be severe.
Fentanyl
Fentanyl is a synthetic opioid, significantly more potent than morphine. It is often mixed with other drugs, leading to accidental overdoses. Its high potency makes it extremely dangerous, and it has become a major driver of the opioid crisis.
Detoxification
Detoxification, or detox, is the process of removing addictive substances from the body. It is often the first step in addiction treatment, helping to manage withdrawal symptoms under medical supervision. It can be physically and emotionally challenging.
Rehab
Rehabilitation (rehab) is a structured program designed to help individuals overcome addiction. It typically involves therapy, counseling, and support groups to address the underlying causes of addiction and develop coping mechanisms for long-term recovery.
Relapse
Relapse is the recurrence of substance use after a period of abstinence. It is a common part of the addiction recovery process and does not signify failure. Understanding relapse triggers and developing strategies to prevent and manage them is crucial for sustained recovery.
Substance Abuse Recovery
The process of overcoming addiction to drugs or alcohol. It involves detoxification, therapy, support groups, and lifestyle changes to achieve and maintain sobriety. Recovery is a long-term commitment focused on physical, mental, and emotional well-being.
Syrian Civil War
An ongoing armed conflict that began in 2011. It involves the Syrian government, various opposition factions, extremist groups like ISIS, and international powers. The conflict has resulted in a severe humanitarian crisis and displacement of millions.
Punk Rock Mythology
The romanticized and often rebellious image associated with punk rock culture. It frequently involves themes of anti-establishment sentiment, DIY ethos, and a certain aesthetic that can influence identity and lifestyle choices, sometimes leading to self-destructive behaviors.
Fellowship in Recovery
The sense of camaraderie, mutual support, and shared experience found within recovery programs like AA. It provides a vital social network, reducing isolation and fostering a sense of belonging among individuals with similar struggles.
Unionization
The process by which workers organize to form a labor union to collectively bargain with employers over wages, benefits, and working conditions. It aims to improve worker rights and create a more equitable power dynamic in the workplace.
Q&A
What is "Dopey's Greatest Hits" and how are episodes selected?
"Dopey's Greatest Hits" is a special series featuring popular episodes chosen by the podcast's listeners through polls on Patreon. This allows the audience to revisit their favorite stories and moments.
Who is Brace Belden and what are his political views?
Brace Belden is the host of the "Truin On" podcast and a guest on Dopey. He identifies as a communist, drawing inspiration from historical texts and his experiences. He believes in a society that prioritizes collective well-being over individual profit.
What was the significance of "Home Sweet Heroin" in the podcast?
"Home Sweet Heroin" is a parody song created by Ray Brown, inspired by Mötley Crüe's "Home Sweet Home." It humorously depicts the life of a heroin addict and was a recurring musical element in the podcast.
What are some of the challenges discussed regarding benzodiazepine withdrawal?
The podcast highlights the lack of understanding surrounding benzodiazepine withdrawal within the professional community. Many individuals are misdiagnosed with psychiatric problems instead of experiencing withdrawal, leading to further complications and medication cascades.
How did Brace Belden's childhood trauma influence his life and recovery?
Brace Belden's mother died by suicide when he was six. He coped by compartmentalizing the trauma, which, while helping him survive, also prevented deeper self-understanding and affected his relationships, particularly with women.
What was Brace Belden's progression into drug use?
Brace started with alcohol, cigarettes, and weed around age 12. He later moved on to opiates like Vicodin and Percocet at 15-16, eventually discovering and becoming addicted to oxycodone, prioritizing drug use over his political beliefs.
What were some of the early jobs the speakers had?
The speakers discuss working in flower shops after graduating high school, with one mentioning working at multiple locations and another recalling working at a flower stand in San Francisco.
How did the speakers' smoking habits evolve?
They discuss a long history of smoking cigarettes, with one transitioning to vaping to be able to do it indoors, and both express a desire to quit smoking.
What was the band "War Crime" known for?
"War Crime" was a hardcore punk band known for its provocative image and a gimmick that played up negative attention, with members admitting they weren't highly skilled musicians.
Who was "Dr. Z" and what was his role?
"Dr. Z" was an elderly Egyptian drug dealer who sold Oxycontin. He lived in a single-room occupancy hotel and exhibited erratic behavior, including past incidents of violence.
How did the speaker transition from Oxycontin to heroin?
The price and formula of Oxycontin changed, making it less accessible and more expensive. Heroin became a cheaper and more readily available alternative for achieving a high.
What were the speaker's experiences with drug dealers in San Francisco?
The speaker encountered various dealers, including "Dr. Z," a taxi driver who sold dope, and two brothers known for "gunpowder dope." Transactions often occurred in the Tenderloin district.
How did the speaker cope with difficult or traumatic situations?
The speaker describes a coping mechanism of mental detachment, feeling as if they were observing events happening to someone else, which helped them manage difficult circumstances.
What was the speaker's first experience with IV heroin?
The speaker describes their first time injecting heroin with a man named Travis or Trevor, marking a significant crossing of a line, even though they had been addicted to heroin for some time.
How did drug use impact the speaker's involvement in the punk rock scene?
The speaker notes that many admired punk bands featured members who were drug users, creating a mythology that made their own drug use seem acceptable within that subculture.
What led to the speaker stealing money from a flower shop?
The speaker's heroin addiction escalated, and they began stealing money from the flower shop where they worked alone to fund their drug habit, as they prioritized scoring dope over their job.
What was the speaker's experience with a mugging attempt?
The speaker described an incident where someone tried to steal their jacket. The situation escalated when LAPD arrived, and the police arrested the assailant, telling the speaker to leave.
How did the speaker use Suboxone in their addiction?
The speaker admits they didn't use Suboxone as prescribed. Instead, they would "score" it to take breaks from other drugs, lower their tolerance, and manage withdrawal symptoms.
What led to the speaker stealing from their girlfriend?
The speaker was starting to use meth and had been fired from their job. They were stealing from their girlfriend to support their drug habit, and she eventually caught them.
What is "demonic meth sex" as discussed in the podcast?
The term refers to intense and potentially disturbing sexual experiences that can occur under the influence of methamphetamine. The speaker notes their own experience with meth did not involve this, contrasting it with heroin's effects.
Where did the speaker engage in drug use rituals?
The speaker describes using the bathroom of a 24-hour Indian restaurant called "Naan and Curry" near Fisherman's Wharf. They accessed it through a parking garage using a four-digit code.
What are the dangers of fentanyl?
Fentanyl is extremely potent and is often mixed into other drugs without the user's knowledge, leading to a high risk of fatal overdose. Many people who believe they are using other drugs are actually consuming fentanyl.
How did the speaker deal with drug dealers?
The speaker admits to ripping off dealers by getting drugs "fronted" (on credit) and then not paying them back, often blocking their numbers and avoiding those parts of town. This led to violent consequences.
What was the speaker's experience with making amends after getting clean?
After getting clean, the speaker made amends by apologizing to those they had wronged and removing themselves from their lives. They specifically mention paying back a dealer, which resulted in an emotional reaction from the dealer.
How did the speaker end up in treatment after their arrest?
The speaker was arrested for buying a small amount of meth. The charges were dropped on the condition that they attend a treatment program, which marked their first extended period of sobriety.
What were the speaker's experiences in detox and rehab facilities?
The speaker describes a cycle of entering and leaving detoxes and rehabs, even smuggling heroin into a facility and using it during detox. They were often kicked out for behavioral issues or relapsing.
What was the speaker's initial experience with finding money and their evolving policy towards it?
Initially, the speaker found money, including a $100 bill, and kept it. However, they developed a policy of giving any found money to homeless people, driven by a sense of guilt or a desire to be a good person.
How did the speaker navigate the early stages of sobriety with limited resources?
The speaker lived near a sobriety center, attending meetings for free coffee, cookies, and lunches. Despite initial resistance, this environment provided a structured routine and basic sustenance during a period of extreme hardship.
What motivated the speaker to join the Syrian resistance after getting sober?
Inspired by a woman fighting in Syria, and seeking a sense of purpose and identity after addiction, the speaker decided to join the fight against ISIS, driven by a belief in the cause and a need for something significant to do.
How did the speaker's experience in the Syrian Civil War impact them upon their return?
Returning from Syria, the speaker felt disconnected and experienced an identity crisis, similar to early sobriety. Despite the intense experience, they struggled to reintegrate and found themselves missing the sense of purpose the war provided.
What is the significance of fellowship in recovery programs, according to the speaker?
The speaker emphasizes that recovery programs offer a unique form of fellowship and community that is increasingly rare in modern society. This sense of connection and shared experience is crucial for combating isolation and maintaining sobriety.
Show Notes
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This week on Dopey's Greatest Hits! Brace Belden's first episode (Patreon poll winner). We share Ray Brown's "Home Sweet Heroin" parody origin (Nikki Sixx drama), Dopey music history (UltiScrub, Good So Bad, Fentanyl J, Damon), and teases the NEW Spotify page. Plays old voicemails: Matt Wiedemeier Carroll (Waiting for Tonight 5-year anniversary, 117 days sober) and Kimber King (ketamine freakout, 20 months sober). Reads Spotify comments on Fentanyl Jay ep (love/hate, prison update, negative "murderer" email). Eric Poppismurff responds (benzo info, resources).
Then the highlights of Brace: a raw, wide-ranging conversation with Brace (punk rocker, communist, podcaster of TrueAnon, heroin/meth addict in recovery). Brace opens up about his life: early punk obsession (Black Sabbath to Ramones/Misfits at 12), first drug use (salvia at 11–12, hill fire/arrest, weed soon after), mom's suicide at 6 (coke addict, depression), compartmentalization as coping mechanism. Teen years in continuation school (smoking allowed, flower shop credits), first opiates (Vicodin/Percocet at 17), OxyContin discovery after moving out, transition to heroin in Tenderloin ($10 high), Dr. Z dealer (SRO, pigeon shooting, jail), Jacques (MS heroin dealer), stealing from flower shops/girlfriend, arrest for $9 meth buy, rehab cycles, basement apartment gutter snipes/clonidine kick. Later Syrian resistance (2015–2016, 7 months fighting ISIS with Kurds, no opiates there, ketamine for wounds), return (lied to everyone), brewery job/union campaign, TrueAnon start (2019), ongoing sleep struggle (melatonin bullshit, trazodone dreams, Benadryl suggestion).
All that and tons and tons more on a brand new episode of that good old dopey show!
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