Discoverthe anxious poet’s podcastEpisode 38 - 'The colly-wobbled, jelly-bellied quaking of it all.’
Episode 38 - 'The colly-wobbled, jelly-bellied quaking of it all.’

Episode 38 - 'The colly-wobbled, jelly-bellied quaking of it all.’

Update: 2024-06-13
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The poem quoted in the first half of the podcast  is by Rainer Maria Rilke it is in Rainer Maria Rilke, Rilke's Book of Hours: Love Poems to God - the opening lines are 'You are not surprised at the force of the storm'.


Here is list of Adrian's Lessons Learned with the quotes from his poems.


Lessons Learnt from my Breakdown


  • Breathing


Advice to Myself in Anxiety


‘Breathe slowly into this, Don’t run; stay,


You are moored more firmly than you know.


There is a constancy in you not your own.’


  • Talking


Anxiety Diary


‘My Jungian therapist said, right at the start,


that this breakdown was the best thing


that had ever happened to me.


I thought it was she that was insane,


and I wanted to stop right there and then.


I think now, she may have been right.’


  • Walking


Rivelin Valley Vespers


‘By walking this same path,

with a slow and monastic doggedness,

I behold tonight’s road by low sunlight,

all made meaningful and prelude

by the merle blue devotion in my collie’s gaze.’


  • Writing


 Writing as Therapy


‘Now here I am,


sitting in a round of delivery,


speaking lines gleaned from


a dark and no-mooned night,


when only my pen knew its way.’


  • Seeing


 Afterword to a Traipsing


 ‘Laura Page has walked me around the streets


camera slung, capturing Sheffield with f-stops


and the right shutter-speeds for a city caught


in the headlights of forces it is yet to grasp.’


  • Sharing


Writing as Therapy


‘In the morning session


I had spared no detail of my breakdown,


all the colly-wobbled, jelly-bellied


quaking of it all.’


  • Volunteering


We are Bodies


‘We have turned sixty


Volunteering, cooking the cafe


Good soup, vegan and lentil


Aching knees, aching nerves


Bruised by the bruising lives we are


Bludgeoned into, but brightened


By the fellowship of fellow sufferers’


  • Trusting


A Night Sea Journey


‘This is what the mythologists


call a night sea journey.


I am on a gurney bark sailing


through the dark into


an uncertain dawn.’


  • Loving


 Birdsong on Long Line


‘A sleek throat sounds against the early dusk


a last verse to these long lines of walking,


and my heart welcomes this reckless chorus,


hopefulness beyond my walk’s ending.’


 


Thanks to Andy Selman for his wonderful accompaniment to the Birdsong poem - the whole Album Made I Sheffield can be heard on Spotify here


Made In Sheffield - Scott & Selman


You can buy Adrian's books here www.adriangrscott.com 


If you want to Adrian and Andy perform with the band Dusk Over Rivelin on August 15th in Sheffield click here for tickets. 


https://www.wegottickets.com/event/623931


Come along it will be a great evening. 


And finally Adrian would like to thank all who have listened and made the 9000 downloads and counting. Bless you all. 


 


 


 


 


 


 


 


 


 


 


 


 


 


 


 


 


 


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Episode 38 - 'The colly-wobbled, jelly-bellied quaking of it all.’

Episode 38 - 'The colly-wobbled, jelly-bellied quaking of it all.’

Adrian G R Scott