This is a podcast about mourning what was — and what wasn’t. About grieving a parent whose love came with conditions, whose presence felt heavy, and whose absence doesn’t bring peace, only questions.
When a parent dies and the relationship was painful, complicated, or incomplete, the grief that follows is rarely simple. There’s sorrow, yes — but also anger, guilt, confusion, sometimes even relief. This is the kind of grief that doesn’t fit neatly into sympathy cards or eulogies.
Grieft Isn't Clean: Losing a Difficult Parent is a space to sit with that complexity. Through raw reflections and intimate storytelling, we explore the emotional terrain of loss that goes beyond love or hate — the space in between, where so many of us silently live. If you’re grieving a parent you cared for but never fully connected with — or are reckoning with emotions you don’t know how to name — this podcast is for you. Here, nothing is too messy to say out loud.