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I Asked God to Kill Me… Or Save Me - 26 Years Sober and Unfiltered

I Asked God to Kill Me… Or Save Me - 26 Years Sober and Unfiltered

Update: 2025-08-14
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Mary’s story will shake you — and give you hope.From losing her mother at just four years old, to growing up in an orphanage, and facing childhood trauma and abuse from her father, to falling into the grip of alcohol and cocaine… Mary knows darkness. She’s felt the hopelessness of relapse, the shame of rock bottom, and the fight it takes to claw your way back.

Now, with 26 years of sobriety, Mary is living proof that you can build a life you don’t need to escape from. In this raw, unfiltered conversation, she reveals:

  • ​The exact moment she dropped to her knees and begged God to help her
  • ​Childhood trauma and abuse
  • ​The hard truth about why relapse happens — and how to prevent it
  • ​The fine line between enabling and truly supporting a loved one
  • ​Why service work might be the secret weapon to staying sober
  • ​The tools she still uses every single day to keep her peace

Whether you’re in recovery, love someone who is, or just need proof that change is possible — Mary’s story will hit you straight in the heart.

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I Asked God to Kill Me… Or Save Me - 26 Years Sober and Unfiltered

I Asked God to Kill Me… Or Save Me - 26 Years Sober and Unfiltered

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