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LL 119: About Betrayal, Learning to Stand Up For Myself & Turning Pain into Purpose (The Story Behind ‘Honestly’)

LL 119: About Betrayal, Learning to Stand Up For Myself & Turning Pain into Purpose (The Story Behind ‘Honestly’)

Update: 2019-06-0211
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Hi loves! It’s a
special solo chat for the podcast this week. I’m sharing a story I’ve never
talked about publicly before: a painful experience I had in my early YouTube
days where I learned that people I considered to be genuine friends, had never
thought of me in the same way.









This story shares my
insights from that time and what it’s like to look back on it now. I realized
some truths about the downfalls of being a people-pleaser, but ultimately, I
found the light in my experience: all of that hurt turned into everything that
Lavendaire is now, and I couldn’t be more grateful.





Finally, a surprise announcement: I created an online course! “Create Your Dream Life” is the program I wish I had in my early twenties, while I was soul searching and doing anything I could to find my life path. I talk about it a bit in the episode, but you can check out the full details here: lavendaire.com/dreamlife





In this episode we
explore:





  • 5:31 – My early years on YouTube, making music videos with the Asian American community
  • 8:21 – Dealing with burned bridges, toxic friends, and transactional relationships
  • 13:23 – “Honestly”: Turning my pain into a poem while crying on a hill in a park
  • 15:01 – Lessons on being a people-pleaser and standing up for your own self worth
  • 17:02 – Listen to the first song I ever wrote, based on the Honestly poem!
  • 21:09 – The moment I realized the right time to own my dreams and pursue them without fear
  • 22:39 – How “Honestly” turned into a mixtape, then an album, and finally: Lavendaire
  • 24:34 – “Your greatest revenge is your success”: Why I’m grateful to the people that hurt me
  • 26:06 – Compassion & forgiveness: Why wanting to spite others won’t end up fueling your success
  • 28:31 – My hopes for you with the first ever course by Lavendaire: Create Your Dream Life!




Show notes:









Quotes:





  • Thanks to those people who didn’t believe in me, I was able to be stronger as a person.
  • Everything life throws your way is there to make you stronger, to make you grow, to help you learn more about yourself and live life more fully.
  • Living your dream life and living aligned to who you truly are is the best feeling in the world.




Here are some photos from 2013, my journey making the Honestly album:





<figure class="wp-block-image"><figcaption>I spent months at this messy desk setup in my bedroom

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<figure class="wp-block-image"><figcaption>laying out the tracks for ‘Alison’s Song’

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<figure class="wp-block-image"><figcaption>my system: post-it notes for daily to do’s

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<figure class="wp-block-image"><figcaption>first look at the cover design – thanks to my friend Allen 🙂

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<figure class="wp-block-image"><figcaption>my mixtape announcement on FB!

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<figure class="aligncenter"><figcaption>feeling defeated after listening to what I made & thinking it sucked so bad

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<figure class="wp-block-image"><figcaption>practicing signing my album art for the party!

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And here are photos from the Honestly Album Release Party!





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<figure class="wp-block-image"><figcaption>introducing my friend Austin, who helped me write Honesty and emceed the show

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<figure class="wp-block-image"><figcaption>Sam Lin on the violin</figcaption></figure>









<figure class="wp-block-image"><figcaption>EVMB beatboxing</figcaption></figure>









<figure class="wp-block-image"><figcaption>the show was held in a cute courtyard of a restaurant

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<figure class="wp-block-image"><figcaption>me, my keyboard, and looper

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<figure class="wp-block-image"><figcaption>honestly having the best time of my life

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<figure class="wp-block-image"><figcaption>my cousin Donna (left) helped plan & organize the event!

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<figure class="wp-block-image"><figcaption>our honestly trees where we encouraged people to write their honest feelings

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<figure class="aligncenter"><figcaption>what my 7 year old nephew wrote on the tree 😭</figcaption></figure>




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LL 119: About Betrayal, Learning to Stand Up For Myself & Turning Pain into Purpose (The Story Behind ‘Honestly’)

LL 119: About Betrayal, Learning to Stand Up For Myself & Turning Pain into Purpose (The Story Behind ‘Honestly’)

Aileen Xu: Lifestyle Design & Personal Growth YouTuber, Blogger, Entrepreneur, Student for Life