medicating myself, hard conversations, and dreading recovery

i’m out of touch, group chats are getting scary, and tiktok dating advice is perverted

rebirth, decoupling, and gambling on life outcomes

hiding relationships, working beneath my desire, and fearing judgement

security is SOCIAL, good ideas are SPOKEN, and i'm becoming a baddie...

meeting the parents, my dating philosophy, and getting leftover at a party

refusing to call myself ugly anymore and my critique of being “starstruck”

the maze of desire, bespoke pickup lines, and negative inspiration

putting myself on time out, pleasurable self-destruction, and trying to get my swag up

the importance of promiscuity, a surge of grief, and inconvenient healing

ditching restriction, dodging instagram "intimacy," and deciding to SIMP!

old flames, ridiculous standards, and being misunderstood

analyzing who i attract, grappling with pride, and reclaiming being a personality hire

declaring myself anti-essay text, the misconceptions of fame, and competition avoidance

touch starvation, uninhibition, and the insecurity of shyness

feeling special to someone, venting about swifties, and the rise in narcissism allegations

matchmaking attempts, summer hysteria, and gender fluidity

thoughts on 5 years single, nervous questions, and social monogamy

being a loser, crushing a crush, and false confidence

pillow talk disagreements, romantic influence, and getting risky